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Maybe I'm weird
I have to ask this. Why is it a desirable thing to go out to a bar or a dance hall or somewhere with the express intent of making out with someone? I'm just curious. I went out last night to a coworker's anniversary party. It was at a dance hall that they frequent at least once a week. I get there and have a blast for a few hours. After midnight I am sitting at one of the party reserved tables just resting after several line dances, also belting out with everyone else to the song "Don't Stop Believing". A man in a suit approaches me with a stunned look on his face, asking how big of a big ol boy my boyfriend is. I reply that I don't have one. He looks shocked. He asks me to continue singing and that my voice alone should have me a boyfriend. I was just having fun so I did. He then asks if he can kiss me.
(Break off here. I don't get out much. I was never asked out to parties and such in high school and I still don't now as an adult. It's just not something I do on a regular basis. I've never even had a boyfriend, only been kissed once, still a virgin, etc. Might as well get all that out there as well, it will make more sense to my state of mind later.)
I'd had a couple and was having fun. I said sure why not. So he leans in and goes for it. Now I'm not practiced in the act of kissing (as drawn from the aside above). So I'm just kinda sitting there and he is totally going at it, open-mouth, tongue action, all that jazz. I pull away and start to laugh. I play it off like "I don't even know you." and so he just engages me in conversation for a little bit until one of my coworkers comes over and graciously bails me out of the situation. I played it off but truly I was disgusted. I was having fun and tried it, and I'm not particularly a fan. I believe most of the answer is I'm not used to it. Perhaps it's an acquired liking. Maybe I tried it with the wrong guy. I don't know. But I really don't understand what it is people find attractive in that, making out with a complete stranger. It is so odd to me. I was flattered by his compliments. That is true. But I've grown up the ugly fat girl so I'm at that point where I've finally put attractiveness on the back-burner (as pertaining to judgement of a person. I don't mean "I'm not pretty so I don't even try".) Is it really an accurate reader into how attractive a person is simply by whether or not you make out with a stranger at a bar?