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i was playing dnd yesterday and it ended with us trying to summon the demon "Gusion" at 9 PM

we got the ouija board, a salt circle, a pentagram, a sigil for Gusion, sage, a mirror, a prayer, and so much fire (candles and sage)

the only thing i was thinking of during it was

the amount of second hand smoke i got yesterday was ungodly and im surprised we some how didnt set off a smoke alarm (they should prob check the batteries)

OH!! and we watched "the amazing bulk" i BEG of you to watch the trailer. it is worth your time i swear.

today was great

in my history class we were only cutting stuff up and gluing and my teacher allowed us to listen to music and talk. during that time a student was talking to the teacher about how he had 4 moms and 1 dad. he said that he was probably rambling and no one was listening, yet the whole class shook their head no and encouraged him to continue his stories. never had such a big lore drop as a story everyone was listening to as they continued to work.

man he was fucked up, but can't blame him. and it all started with the story of how he had 4 moms and 1 dad.

little different then what i usually post about but a bit pissed off and honestly just a rant

Alright, basically for context, I guess: Autism, ASD, ADHD, dyslexia, etc. (but autism is important for this rant) runs both sides in my family; we're all VERY neurodivergent. Though we're usually high-functioning and can mask well, it's still very visible. (like the magnet thing where neurodivergent people make friends with neurodivergent people because they're like drawn to them,, or something??? I like to call it 'your people finder')

The rant: In my life, I've been diagnosed with ADHD, and I am currently on medication, though something we've noticed is that I'm also showing signs of high-functioning autism. which is like, 'Oh cool, I guess I should get tested because, honestly, why haven't I before? I'm most likely going to get a positive result, and I think a diagnosis would help my 504 and shit.' So I went through the testing, which was honestly really… weird? I felt like I was being tested on only one end of the spectrum to see if I had a good reaction time, if I could read social cues, and if I could decipher figures of speech. Which was like alright, okay, I guess that's some signs that should be written down, important knowledge, I guess. So I get my results in,, waiting 3 weeks for this,, did 1000+ questions for this,, did 3 hours of testing for this,, to turn up as negative. I'm not upset I got negative. I'm not one to glorify autism or make up some shit to feel special. I'm upset because I've been looking through the diagnosis system, and the place I live has a mindset of 'you're only autistic if you flap your hands, can't pick up on how the other person is feeling, you're good at noticing patterns, etc.' or just that low-functioning autism is the only way of autism and that's not fucking okay??? I understand how autism has not been around for like a really long time (which is actually very interesting; I would recommend reading about Donald Triplett), and we really only have studies on male-bodied people (which is a whole thing about how autism is represented differently in different sexes), but it's actually hard to get an autism diagnosis. Like if you're male-bodied or female-bodied, and especially if you're an intersexed person. (Like, come on, dude, it's already hard enough for one sex to be severely undiagnosed, but two?? Really??) Though, I guess I give props for them noticing I have ADHD and saying I most likely have anxiety and a small chance of OCD.

Conclusion: I don't give a fuck if I'm not autistic or not; this diagnosis system needs to change. At least where I'm from; I'm not sure how it is in other places.

SORRY ABOUT THE LONG ASS RANT, and thanks for reading!! Please don't feel the need to respond or comfort to this, I'm just sharing my frustration.

Adding: I know self diagnosing (the one that's actually well educated not the tiktok shit where they spread misinformation so they can get attention) is common due to this, I just wish shit like this was more.. easy? Like easy to go though the process of getting an actual diagnosis, or even the chance to get one. Which, I am lucky to have that chance of at least getting tested, I admit.

trying to sneak the danger days album cover onto a guitar at my school

day 1:

white coat so i can paint easier (it was actually grey because we didn't have white paint)

day 2 (today):

got to painting, had to mix colors a bunch to get some what similar colors. kinda just base for now, i painted the green too low and i need it to dry. so ill get in more of the brown/orange in when it's time to paint again. not the best, not the worst. MB FOR MY HAND

the ref I made:

Day 4 Of Sneaking Danger Days Album Onto Guitar:

i need to smooth some of it out a bit more and add more details, still in base color stage

here are other guitars ive painted!! im not the best painter, but it's fun I guess

pictures blacked out for privacy reasons

Day 4 or 5 i cant count:

finished the guitar, might add a few more things if it dries in time!!

(thumb covering name)

oh i am so back

HYPERFIXATIONS ARE GONNA MAKE A COMBACK (umbrella academy and gravity falls) AND I FINALLY FOUND MY DAMN DRAWING PAD

guys highschool in a new state and starting over your life is NOT like the 2000s coming of age movie ideal

always tempted to use myself as my pfp but then i get the whole SHOWING YOUR FACE ON THE INTERNET IS BAD!!!! AND PEOPLE CAN STALK YOU!!! AND AND PEOPLE ARE GOING TO BE CREEPS!!!!

guys i did my monthly 'cut my hair in the bathroom with scissors i'm supposed to use for paper' today

might've made an oopsie daisy. buttt i'm still a hot cunt (me when i lie) so why does it matter

apparently a house like 4 doors down had like a gas leak explosion or smth, bunch a fire trucks outside rn

love is in the air? WRONG! gas leak