Recovery Is Real - Tumblr Posts
I am in a personal rut in my battle with mental illness. Mainly, the doctors have YET to find the best combination of meds to keep me calm and control my symptoms. I do not kid myself, I will be on Anti-Psychotics and Anti-Anxiety meds for the rest of my life. That being said, I have hope that at some point in the future, I will have the right combination of meds needed to finally live in peace. I have struggled with suicidal thoughts since I was in 2nd grade. With my breakdown, those thoughts increased, with me thinking that my parents would be better off without worrying about me. Those thoughts are still there but they are on the back-burner now.
Now, I fight my mind for my life's sake, and the fight is worth the backslides that appear. I have hope for the future; the sun WILL come out tomorrow, and I want to live to see it!
I don't want anyone to die because some nihilist bastards say that recovery is an impossible pipe dream that you will never achieve. Anti-Recovery? How in the hell did that get the traction it has? Don't believe the naysayers! Recovery is REAL and ATTAINABLE!
ive been on tumblr a long time and i remember when everyone said “oh don’t romanticize mental illness” and it was agreed that doing that was gross and a good way to kill people indirectly
but somehow we’ve come full circle and there are people who legit defend their right to be anti-recovery there are people who don’t want to get better and spread the idea that you can’t get better as if it’s gospel and it’s fucking frightening to me bc nobody seems to want to say “hey? this is toxic and untrue and is your disease speaking, and it’s not something you should accept.”
and i feel like every recovery post gets about 500 of these people saying “this isn’t something that will work” “cool karen i’m depressed” “maybe it worked for you but it won’t work for other people” and that’s… just… im so sorry if you’re 15. i’m sorry if you’re in high school and watching grown adults tell you it doesn’t get better. that nobody says that with time and help and patience the world stops being so heavy, that accepting your illness as a fact is one thing but accepting it as the only way to be is just wrong, that you can learn to live with it and still find some degree of “happy”…. if i had seen this shit back when i was … oh god starting at 12 when i was already self-harming …. i think i’d have actually honest-to-god killed myself. not a joke, not a funny tumblr punchline, i would have actually just killed myself.
i’m saying this right here and right now to the adults on this site. if you for any reason shoot down positivity that’s causing no harm - you might have indirectly worsened someone else’s condition, and you should try and do better in the future. if you find it necessary to tell people “recovery is a lie”, you need to do better. i know everyone has different circumstances, but i also know that mental illness behaves in such a way that everyone thinks they can’t recover. if you feel like you should be spreading the Word Of Relapse, you are causing toxic language to be normalized and you need to do better.
im team “cool karen ive got depression and that means i’m going to try this because i’ve got to try something” i’m team “romanticize recovery” i’m team “it isn’t working now but it might in the future and it’s worth staying to find out” im team “hey this didn’t work for me but it might help somebody else out”
fuck guys it shouldn’t be an unpopular opinion to say “i don’t want any of you to die”.