Seeking Help - Tumblr Posts

One of the things still keeping me from talking to a professional at least once (aside from having the time) is the not-so-little-anymore voice in my head which keeps telling me that my problems aren’t as bad as I make them out to be, a lot of people have it way worse, and that I could maybe still handle this on my own so therapy would just be wasting other peoples time.

I had severe panic attacks, but what if they were just because of the situation at the time and won’t come back? I was filled with sadness and emptiness, but what if those were just moments everyone has? I stood on top of tall trees and wondered if the height was enough to kill me or just severely injure me and whether anyone would even miss me at all, but what if that’s just an ordinary thought you have when you’re up somewhere so high?

One of the main things keeping me from seeking help is the fear that I’ll be told that my problems aren’t problems, but just an ordinary occurrence, and that I shouldn’t make such a big deal out of it. And that fear comes from people telling me all my life, to suck it up and not make such a drama because of little things.

The worst part about mental illness is that doubt that you have it. Like yeah I have a professional diagnosis and I get panic attacks and anxiety attacks for no reason and yeah I sometimes can’t even function enough to get out of bed in the morning but what if I’m just faking for attention??