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The Last of Us

Pairing: Sehun x OC

Genre: Angst

Word Count: 2358

!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OH SEHUN !!!

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This was it. Your last night as a high school student spent with your classmates, teachers, friends, and... him. It has been 2 hours since the party had started and you were all getting ready to dig in your main courses.

 Some of your friends had brought dates, and some of them, including you, brought yourselves and wished to spend the night as a group of friends.

 There was something funny though, you couldn’t take your eyes off of him. No matter how hard you tried to ignore your feelings, you just couldn’t because he was the boy you regret not acknowledging your feelings for sooner. He was the guy who helped you consistently through your hardest times. He was the gentleman who only thought of your selfish needs when people started to make rumors of your ‘romantic’ relationship. When people had known about your close friendship, they started to tease you guys.

 As a result, being a pair of introverted individuals, it was as if a boat was leaving for shore; the both of you drifted apart and at one point, you couldn’t see or reach out for the other. And it all happened so quickly after all. One day, you received a long message from him where he expressed how he needs some space cause apparently your relationship was ‘at risk’. But you could only blame yourself, thinking that everything was caused by you and your actions towards him, even though you didn’t know where you exactly did wrong.

 Whenever your friends weren’t looking, you always managed to get a look at him, whether it be for 10 solid seconds or a mere half a second. Each look at him, you felt your heart jump like never before; his laugh always has your heart flipping, his soft smile always got you smiling yourself, and his sarcastic, yet kind actions always has you falling deeper and deeper into this hole called hopelessness.

 At one point, when you had glanced at him, he turned his head around towards your direction and catches your eyes, which you found yourself stuck in the moment before you lightly smiled at him as you shifted your vision to another direction within a millisecond.

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 Dinner was now over, and you felt the need to relieve your bladder. You left your group of friends and exited the ballroom. You entered the bathroom and after you were done, you took a look at yourself in the mirror. You didn’t know but your eye makeup had smudged a little and you noticed that your lashes were wet and cold. You hadn’t realized that you let out a tear at some point during the night and you had promised before you entered the party that you wouldn’t cry at the sight of seeing anybody as it would mean seeing them for the last time for years, especially him.

 You fixed your makeup and left the bathroom, walking down the hallway to enter the ballroom, making sure you put your bubbly smile back on.

 Before you knew it, you felt something hold onto your left wrist and felt your body getting pulled to the corner, in which you let your body spin and shift to the left rather quickly.

 You felt your heart drop, thinking that you had tripped on your 15 cm heel before you felt someone steadying you back up with their hand around your hips. You looked up in shock, ready to scream in terror before your eyes shifted up and saw that the culprit was none other than the culprit who murdered your soft little heart 5 months ago. In a second, you found yourself standing back up straight, diverting your eyes down to the ground.

 “...Hun, what are you doing? You almost got me hurt” you asked him, trying to keep calm after what had just happened

 Instead of replying you, he took your hand again and pulled you as he started walking. You realized he was taking you towards the dark lighted doors that led you to the balcony of the floor.

 He opened the door and led you to the balcony to see the Seoul’s skyline as he let go of your arm seeing that you were in awe of the sight.

 “Oh my gosh... it’s so pretty Sehun” you claimed

 You didn’t realize it but as you turned to look at him, you caught him in the midst of looking at you

 “Is there something wrong?” You lifted your fingers to lightly touch your under eyes, thinking that you had smudged your makeup again.

 “No. There isn’t. Chill... ㅋㅋㅋ” he advised you.

 “Why did you take me here?” You asked.

 He walked forward towards the railing and laid his body on his arms that were settled on top.

 “I’ve always said, and others too, that our city is full of the bad stuff, but I believed that from a distance, we can see just how beautiful and colorfully dark the city we live in is.”

 “It is so pretty though. I mean I would never have known this city can be so enchanting if you didn’t take me out here and... right... why me? And why like this? Why pull me? Why not just ask me, Hun?” You interrogated him.

 “I actually wanted to talk to you about something” he confessed, moving his hand to the back of his neck as if scratching something off.

 “...what is it, Hun-nie?” You teasingly replied.

The thing with you is that whenever you are with him, you just become happy and suddenly you believe that life isn’t that bad and that there is a tad bit of hope than hopelessness.

 “Five months ago, when I said what I said to you, I wasn’t able to do a lot of things; get in my right mind, think for myself and for my happiness.” He pauses, now facing his body towards you, with his eyes looking at you intently.

 “People say things about me; they compare me, they look at me for what I’ve done and become; they make assumptions about me. I was confused and wandering in a world full of words in an empty space, but at one point, I was able to see you and your jumpy personality and I couldn’t think for myself that I wanted to be like you. I didn’t want to care about judgments and I don’t want to be someone I’m not just because people don’t accept me.

 You taught me to look at myself differently unintentionally, you were that one person where I can have a different conversation with, you were one of the people who were able to remind me of my successes and that you were proud of me for my achievements. You taught me that I am loved, and that to love isn’t such a bad thing in the world...” he stepped closer towards you.

 You knew exactly where this is going and you were scared, scared of everything and you were kind of vengeful because 5 months. 5 months of constant thoughts of him and 5 months where you reminisced the carefree friendship you guys had that turned to mere distant acquaintances. As he stepped closer towards you, your mind told you to move back and each time you do, you felt your heart drop little by little, regretting its choices. Your mind, however, had taken over this time which caused the pain in your heart to make your eyes water in sadness.

 “Look Ae-Ri, I learned something that I don’t usually learn a lot and it’s about love, my feelings and my happiness. I served my parents and friends well and I’m planning to do more of that in the future, but if I do, I want someone like you to be there with me that can make me feel comforted and safe...Ae-Ri, I love-“

 “SEHUN STOP!” You let fat tears fall down your face, as you cut his cue.

 Silence. That was all. Pure silence, except the echo that came from the busy city down under.

 “...stop...” you kept your face down and hid the tears from him.

 “I know I did you wrong. I know I’m being selfish for this... but-“

 “Sehun, as much as I wish we were together, as much as I wish I could run to you right now and hug you and feel safe in your arms, you don’t understand the things I’ve been through.” You began to say.

 “After that letter you sent me, it took me every single thing in my mind and heart to tell myself that it’s ok, but you know what it didn’t matter in the end, cause I still found myself hating on me, for ruining our friendship. YOU became so different, YOU avoided me, YOU ignored me. WHY?! Are you embarrassed to be seen with me? Is it because I’m not the smartest of those girls? And it really pisses me off and pains the shit out of me because now when I’m ready to let go of whatever this feeling is, these butterflies and senseless moments I have, you tell me this. SO WHY NOW? Is it because you feel bored that you don’t have anything else to do or worry about?” You half screamed

 “I grew so tired of myself that I found... I found it easier to smile and pretend everything is okay, rather than admitting my little fragile heart’s swollen from losing... something that wasn’t mine to begin with.” You finished, with your voice cracking in a painful tone as you attempted to stride your way through the doors into the building.

 In a mere second you were pulled and pushed against the wall rather gently yet you kept your face down, your eyes fixated on the outlined-tiles that could be slightly seen through the moonlight. You’re a literal mess but you could feel hands creeping up your face and placed its size right on your cheek. Sehun’s fingers lightly lifted your face up, caressing your wet cheeks with his thumb and bringing his other hand down to hold onto your hand.

 You hated to admit it but his hands made you feel at peace and as though each and every craving that you’ve had for the past and next months were being satisfied right then and there. You didn’t want to but with the silence that circumference your bodies, your urge to resist giving in slightly fails as you could feel your head leaning towards his caress. You looked up at his brow orbs as he locked eyes with yours, enabling you to see just how beautiful his eyes were and just how much you’ve missed them.

 You didn’t know when but you could feel yourself locking position as he slowly encloses his face on yours, leaving only an inch between you two.

 Another second passed and Sehun placed his lips on yours softly as you closed your eyes and let out tears that have been blinding your vision.

 You knew in every part of you that this was all wrong. You’re only gonna regret this kiss for whatever reason. But you went along with it, even hoping that you and him would stay in that position forever. He slowly moved his lips, fiddling around yours gently with your lips still hesitating to give in. But you were in need of this person you’ve missed for months now, the person you wish to protect and protect you, the person you want to give all your love and care for. In the end, you find yourself giving access to him as he gently treated your fragile red lips.

 He lets go of the kiss and left half an inch between your lips as you steady your breath.

 “Is there really not a chance for me to make it up to you? I know I’ve messed up but...” he paused as he lays his hand on the sides of your face, caressing your cheek.

 “...I really mean it when I said I love you.”

 You moved your hand up to where his hand was placed and held onto it as you directed his hand down.

 “To tell you that I completely do is not what I mean but... I’m willing to give you another chance. I’m willing to start from the beginning, no strings attached...”

 There was disappointment in his eyes and you completely saw the sadness in them.

 Silence that filled the emptiness of the air was filled with his thoughts and yours as you felt your heart wrecking second by second.

 After what had been minutes, he finally let go of you completely in which you felt the cold air of the night hit your covered skin.

 “Ok... starting fresh...” he said with determination in his eyes.

 You smiled lightly. The sort of feeling you felt was the type to be filled with so much relief but also remorse towards yourself for not just proclaiming your love for him.

 You lifted your right hand, gesturing for a handshake.

“Hi, I’m Ae-Ri. I’m an alumni from Dwight School Seoul, and class of 2022 in Yonsei University” you said as you stood you hand in-front of you, gesturing for him to shake your hand.

 He smiled lightly as you said those words with the hint of quirkiness that he knew you for.

 “I’m Sehun, also an alumni from Dwight School Seoul, and class of 2022 in Korea University.” He said as you shook his hand.

 After conversing with your “new-made” friend, you guys walked back towards the grand ballroom hand-in-hand in which you hadn’t realized, given that you guys had just agreed in starting over. But one thing you knew was that how lucky you are for having this relationship with Sehun that was initially down the drain.

 You looked to your left to see him looking at you as you took short steps, only being able to see his sparkly eye and every other feature you’ve always loved about him. And so the night goes on and soon sunrise awakes, leaving you two with everything needed to be with each other.

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