Souya X You - Tumblr Posts

Healing || Tokyo revengers

"fix it, please" "fix what ?" "me"

• — comfort, angst

tw : various injuries, abuse.

He's trembling. His hands are sweating and he's hesitant to touch you. He feel like he might break you, even more, if he touch you in the wrong way. It happened before, and it will probably happen again, but he swear he will never get used to seeing you trembling, barefoots, drenched due to the pouring rain. Not daring to look at him in the eyes, you choose to look somewhere else, trying to keep your composure. His teeth clench when his eyes dart around your body. He grew accoutumed to that view, so much that he can't seem to remember the colour of your skin before it was strewn with wounds and bruises.

He sighs in defeat, laying the alcohol-soaked cotton ball on the nearest surface he find.

"Can we talk...?" He's hesitant, scared to break the silent, afraid he'd scare you away.

You shook your head, not trusting the sound of your voice, knowing your words will only end up in sobs.

There's so much he want to say to you, so much he want to do. He want to hug you, cry with you, fight everyone who dared to hurt you.

But he just stays there, watching your empty eyes avoid his concerned one.

He's as scared as you are, if not more, you think. And the thought would amuse you if your mind wasn't plagued with shame and guilt from bothering him with your little problems again.

But it's fine. You're fine. As long as you're breathing, you're fine.

So why does it hurt so much ?

You don't flinch when he approaches you, and your body subconsciously lean into him when he wraps his arms around your trembling figure. You cry. You always do when he touch you like that, like you're the most fragile thing ever.

But it's fine, he thinks. You can break down in front of him as much as you want.

Because he will gather all the pieces and will rebuild you over and over again with his bare hands if he have to.

Takemichi, Chifuyu, Inui, MITSUYA, Hakkai, Angry ( Souya), Kakucho, Taiju ( hear me out ), Baji, Rindou, Draken, Shinichiro, your favs

English isn't my first language so I apologize for the mistakes I made ! It's the first time I actually write something on Tumblr and since wanted to cry you will too ⁠♡

my heart is aching this was just amazing 💖🌸

I do.

🗒 ❛ souya kawata.

. . . fem!reader, fluff, established relationship, marriage, tears, family love, pregnancy, loveeee, black coded.

. . . mocha’s note; heard yebba’s heartbreak and my heart is mushy rn. i recommend listening to that while reading. adds flavor.

souya never thought he’d see the day where he’d devote his entire life to you. be able to call you fully his—his wife. neither could you. standing in front of a mirror admiring the dress created from your expectations. a very close friend of yours took honor in creating the whimsical pearl white sparkly gown of your childhood dreams. the dress was handmade, a creation crafted from organza fabric, appliqués embellishments, and french lace. long-sleeved, a non-corset garment with a beaded headpiece and full veil that trailed behind you as if it was the tail. a voluminous skirt that sparkled with every turn you made, shimmering like the stars at night. it was breathtaking.

you closed your eyes, lost in your thoughts, flashbacks of your lives together playing like an old vhs tape. you held your stomach and took deep breaths, trying your best to keep the panic away. you were nervous for sure. but, never second guessing this. marriage was scary. incredibly. giving yourself to one person for the rest of your life was such a huge commitment. but, with souya, you knew he was the one. you put your heart and soul into everything that the two of you are now. you were ready. if you were brave enough to say yes when he proposed, you were brave to say ‘I do.

it’s surreal as you closely watch with a bright smile as your nieces walked down the aisle, gently tossing out flower petals from their small baskets as your dog, chowder, followed suit, wagging his tail and barking happily at any person in his sight. you could hear the chattering from people lowering their voices, the sound of music playing, the sound of silence. you didn't know what you felt at this point, whether it be anxiousness or achievement.

draken stood beside you, grabbing your arm and interlocking it with his so you would feel no more worries. you were shaking, and he kept you calm. kept you at ease when he knew you felt like you would fall. the ceremony room was probably your favorite. white on white, transparent chairs set up from left to right. white feathers sprinkled on the floor beneath the chairs to make it blend in and look like snow.

there were white trees that went down the aisle, hanging from them were crystals and beautiful white flowers. candles formed around the trees in glass vases. in the middle of where you and souya would stand hung a magnificent chandelier that shone like diamonds. tall, sleek curtains hanging from each wall of the room. it was the winter wonderland you’ve dreamt of.

"you ready?" draken asked and you could still feel your body shaking with fear. you were detrimentally nervous. it felt like your heart and soul took a road trip out of your body. you clench your bouquet in your left hand as your friend held your right arm. the moment had come, and you had fallen. fallen into a deep space that desisted your breathing. you walk in front of the door and instantly feel everyone's eyes on you, smiling at the bride who looked astoundingly beautiful.

“i’m ready.”

you take a step forward and begin strolling down the aisle. you suddenly felt the nervousness slip away once you opened your eyes and stared ahead at your soon to be husband. words couldn't explain how the look on his face made you feel. souya had his palm across his mouth while he stared back at you, eyes full of tears. he stared at his fiancée and knew that his life was complete, that this moment would forever mean the world to him. that he was given this opportunity to marry this gorgeous woman who was not only becoming his wife but the mother of their children.

he thought you outshined each person in this room. the only person he could focus on was you, the rest of the room was blurry except for you. the world was blurry except for you, his star. you stared at him as if the wind had been knocked out of your lungs. you almost collapsed but kept yourself standing proud. you gazed at your fiancé and saw the light. each time you saw him, you were blinded by the sun. your sun who held the heat to your everlasting love.

the moment you stepped in front of him, draken and mikey took your hand and planted a gentle kiss on your forehead. once souya took your hand in his and you stood in front of him, he laughed softly. lifting the veil over the stunning face who changed his life since the moment he laid eyes on greeted him.

"you look stunning,” he whispered, making you blush before you turned your attention to the officiant.

"dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to witness and share the beautiful joining of y/n l/n and souya kawata in marriage. today you are surrounded by your friends and family, all of whom have gathered here to witness your marriage and share in the joy of this special occasion. in honor of their marriage, both the bride and groom have prepared vows that they would like to recite now."

souya felt the need to go first, so he did. he held your hands in his, staring deeply into the love of his life's eyes.

"baby, I want to start by saying I love you. you should also get used to me saying it consecutively because I mean it. we share a connection I can never explain. it’s something i’ve never felt in my entire life. i’ve never met a more extraordinary woman like you. i’ve loved you half my life, y/n. when you told me you loved me, it felt like the world was a new place for me. the way we connect, how hard we love one another, the way we laugh like nothing else matters, talk about anything and understand—I admire that. i’ll always be able to give you love no matter what because love from me to you is all I want. you are my world, my soul, and the love of my life. I would never in a million years take that for-granted."

by now, you were full-on crying. his speech made you want to fall limp. your heartbeat aching with an immense amount of admiration. souya’s eyes shed a teardrop, quickly wiping it away and smiling brightly. now it was your turn.

"seeing you for the first time made me feel alive. I admired you from the start. I craved for your comfort, your touch, your kisses, your scent. everything about you to me was perfect—is still perfect,” you giggled, sniffling as souya grinned down at you. "you were always there for me through thick and thin. you never gave up on me and you pushed me to believe that I could become something—someone in life. you’re my motivation, and you motivated me to believe in my dreams and believe that nothing is impossible. souya, I promise to keep myself open to you, to let you see through my innermost fears and feelings, secrets and dreams. together, I want us to continue growing and succeeding like we do. I want us to never forget how important we are to each other and be sure to teach our kids the same. I want us to be a family. I promise to love you in good times and in bad, with all I have to give and all I feel inside in the only way I know how, completely and forever. because you are my world, my soul, and the love of my life, and I would never in a million years take that for granted."

the two of you could only hear each other's voices, the rest of the world sealed out. you could feel the energy of love radiating on to one another. you were in your own little bubble until mitsuya stepped beside you to hand souya the ring for you, and you the ring for him, not before patting him on his back and kissing you on your cheek.

"I give you this ring as a reminder that I will love, honor, and cherish you at all times, and in all places. even in all ways, forever. that by putting this ring on your finger means that you will be devoted to me and our love, no matter the consequences,” you speak softly as you slip the ring on heath’s finger.

"I give you this ring as a reminder that I will love, honor, and cherish you at all times, and in all places. and in all ways, forever. that by putting this ring on your finger, I will be devoted to you and our love. I will be there for you and our children, and I will be the best husband to you and the greatest father to them, more than I possibly can be."

"y/n, do you take this man to be your husband; to live together with him in the covenant of marriage? will you love him, comfort him, honor, and keep him in sickness and in health for as long as you both shall live?" the officiant asks, smiling at the bride and groom.

"yes! I do." you giggle as you wipe your tears away, feeling like your makeup already screwed up.

"souya, do you take this woman to be your wife; to live together with her in the covenant of marriage? will you love her, comfort her, honor, and keep her in sickness and in health for as long as you both shall live?"

souya nods vigorously. "I do, yes."

"as you join yourselves in marriage, may you grow and nurture a love that makes both of you better people, learn from your mistakes, and open yourselves to a greater range of communication and understanding. show your children that love is more than affection, it's about respect and unity and as long as you have love, you have everything. y/n and souya, having witnessed your vows of love to one another, it is my honor to present you both as husband and wife," he looks to souya. "you may kiss your bride."

souya doesn't hesitate as he quickly locks an arm around your waist and presses his lips to yours for as long as he wanted. you kiss back and hold onto him tightly as you passionately move your lips together. shutting your eyes and relishing into this one memory you would never forget. everyone cheered, whistled, and clapped as you and souya slowly opened your eyes and stared into each others. you looked up to see lights flashing onto you and white petals falling from the ceiling. everything was exactly how you had imagined it.

souya got down on his knee, kissing your growing belly over your dress before standing back up and proudly kissing over your face, making you shy away and giggle softly. "so cliché."

"cliché is our middle name, mrs. kawata,” he makes known the name, pleased as he watches everyone still clapping. you don’t pay attention to everyone else, still focusing your eyes on the man standing before you. your husband and the father of your children.

"I love you, souya. I swear I do. you mean everything to me." your lip trembles, voice shaky as he stares into your eyes, rubbing his nose against yours, sweetly kissing it afterward.

"I know, baby."

the venue was constructed to match the ceremony. each table had white tablecloths with glitter on the ends, centerpieces decorated with calla lilies, and crystals in glass vases. around the centerpieces were candles, silverware, and white ceramic plates. the napkins that were placed on the three plates that were stacked in different sizes had both of their initials imprinted on them in cursive. they also placed the menus on the plate with a silver tie wrapped around them. a matching chandelier hanging above the dance floor as white lights beamed around the room. everyone was enjoying themselves and you were thankful that they were.

you and souya went to every table and thanked everyone for attending the wedding. souya introduced you to half of his extended family members, and they were all so generous and loving. he had a few cousins that were assholes but most of them were cool. you couldn't believe that this day happened, and that you stood in this dress with this ring on your finger, happily married to the man you’ve loved for over five years. the feeling was refreshing. everything felt perfect and relaxing for you both. your lives were so twisted and complicated in the beginning and to think you’d be standing here today in this position together, meant the world.

you two came from two different backgrounds but somehow could relate to certain situations. you needed each other since the beginning, and even if you didn't realize it at first, you’ve acknowledged you were lost before you found each other. souya wasn't in a clear state of mind when he first met you, and neither were you. but the more you talked, the more you connected, the more it allowed you to heal each other.

more laughs came along as everyone gathered around to watch the two of you cut into your cake. you screeched when souya dabs a bit of cake on the side of your lips, chuckling before lowering his head to kiss it away, licking his lips after which caused you to roll your eyes. lifting your plate to his face, you took your fork and demanded him to open his mouth while you fed him, lights flashing over you by the photographers his family hired.

you got the chance to dance with mitsuya after draken had his turn, mitsuya constantly reminding you he was proud of you and that he knew souya would protect you no matter what. he kissed your forehead when you finished, hugging him tightly and telling him you loved him. having your dance with souya was probably your favorite. the way he kept you close to his chest, delicate with your stomach straightaway blocking you. intertwining your fingers together, his other hand on your waist as you stared into each other's eyes. swaying to the music, you were glad you taught him well in dancing because he was perfect. he used to trample and step on your feet and even though it was adorable; he figured he'd learn for occasions like these. your chin on his chest as you closed your eyes and listened to him whisper sweet nothings to you. and this time, you cried. so happy that he’s yours.

"just a long time ago, I met souya in high school. although we've had some time apart, it made me realize how much he means to me as not only a best friend, but a brother," mikey smiles. "I never thought we would come this far. it all went by so fast, I should have never blinked. It feels like yesterday we were kids in school who played football, pranked a few teachers, and even watched hardcore porn." he snickers and you choke on your drink, souya laughing nervously as his family looked at him while he played with his hair.

"he’s just joking," souya assures everyone, and his grandmother was ready to pull out a bible and slap him with it.

"but now we have the opportunity to see one another grow. y/n, I've known you for half of my life and I can't thank you enough for what you've done for me. being there for me when I was in my darkest days, it still means a lot that you put so much effort into making me feel loved without forgetting about loving yourself. and it truly makes me proud to witness that. y/n and souya, I love both of you with all my heart, and I pray that the two of you have the most incredible family you could ever ask for. I want you to know that I'm always here for you both, just like you were there for me. so congratulations once again, to y/n and souya!" mikey shouts in the microphone, everyone clapping for his speech, the couple giving him hugs when he made his way down. other family members gave speeches after him.

"um, hi," souya taps the microphone, holding his glass in his right hand as he slid his left in his slack pocket.

"hi, baby!" you giggled and shouted at him.

"I'm a bit nervous. this is the first time i’ve had to make a groom's speech," he jokes, making everyone laugh. "my wife and I would like to thank you all for coming here, helping us celebrate a good night. I hope everyone's enjoying themselves?"

rounds of applause erupted in the room, making him smile thankfully. "words cannot describe how happy I am today and will be forever with the one I love. y/n, the fact that me and you are now husband and wife comes to show how far we've made it. in a few months, we will be parents to the two most beautiful kids on the planet, and that still stuns me to this day. I now have the privilege to call you my wife and the mother of our children,” he shook his head in disbelief. "that’s all I've ever wanted."

"when I met you, I knew that you were different. you made me laugh in different ways, and I cannot describe the feeling of happiness I get when around you to this day. you’re ultimately the most extravagant woman I've grown to know—beauty and all. and yet you still call me perfect," your eyes locked on him, the entire room silent as they listened to him. "an angel is what you are, truly a fucking miracle. truth be told, there wouldn't be a souya kawata here today if it wasn't for you. you’ve quite literally saved my life and rid the darkness consuming it. you’re a gift I remained optimistic to open to reveal the beautiful surprise. I fucking love you," he had to pause, holding a hand over your heart as you pouted at him, souya keeping his posture. "that being said, and I hope it was good enough for videos because if it wasn't she will cuss me out behind closed doors."

they laughed.

"so, uh—i’d like to propose a toast, to my beautiful bride. I'm nothing without you. I like myself, but I love myself when I know I have you in my life. you make me whole. right now we're starting a new book, this is a new chapter in our lives together with our babies and our home. I will forever cherish this moment, wanna know why? because the way you're looking at me now is the same way you looked at me the first time I told you I love you." he finished, raising his glass before everyone stands up and claps loudly, whistling and cheering you on.

you broke down entirely, bending your head and crying into your hands, not believing that this was real. that you were loved like this by this man, and not just any man, a man who was willing to give his life up for you. a man willing to set goals with you and achieve them with all the power you had. a man who looked through your broken shell and observed the beauty within, no matter how past traumas, body insecurities, or self-hatred tried to block him from loving you.

souya loved you no matter what. being with you made him feel alive, feel powerful. you were his cure. things were set the way you wanted it to go. it was as if your dreams of having a life like this came true. even though they were both in a broken state in the beginning, it was the near end that put you back together again. when souya came back to you, throwing his arms around you and letting you cry in his chest, he told you he had you. that you would be okay, that you’d both be okay.

no matter what you’ve dealt with equally in the past, it would never catch up with you ever again, not when you loved each other enough to keep away the pain. not when you had it all. you and souya had a family, not just siblings, parents, or grandparents—children. two lives were growing inside of you and it finally prepared you for your future. you finally let go of your past and the fear that tried to get to you.

you were brave enough to get through these things, but you weren’t alone in this. you had a husband. a husband who trusted you, treated you with respect, and looked at you as if you were the most elegant woman he had ever known and will know for the rest of his life. you and souya were absolutely, and finally, content with your beings, and nothing could break that. not anyone, not a damn thing.

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