Studying Psychology Is Fun Because You Know The Precise Ways In Which Your Brain Is Wrong And You Often Still Can't Fix It - Tumblr Posts

Idk if that happens to y'all, but I've known for a while that I had a massive perceived agressivity bias, and I recently noticed that I approached social media almost exclusively through that length. Like, I will follow people, reblog their posts, and leave them nasty and rude comments and asks such as "omg I love your art" or "your funny little AUs are honestly the highlight of my day" and then close the app, fully convinced that these people now hate me and something in the way I say things ruins people's image of me automatically and make them so angry the one thing that gets in the way of them punching me is the fact I'm hiding behind a screen.

Like don't get me wrong this isn't anxiety, there is no avoidance here. My brain is fully convinced that y'all hate me, and I keep interacting, keep doing the exact same shit because I'm used to thinking that way and being uplifting and connecting to a community that enjoys the things I enjoy is more important to me than placating the stress of everyone being secretly mad at me. However, when someone does challenge that idea, for example someone I follow and like their work follows me back or reblogs a post with enthusiastic tags, I tend to straight up blue screen, because I have trouble computing that into my usual thoughts pattern. So like, idk if there are people with this issue but yeah generally speaking if you're nice to me and I don't answer/answer weird please know I am just trying to wire that information into the faulty circuits of my brain, but I am very thankful, and you guys are so cool, and social interaction keeps proving more complicated in ways I didn't anticipate.