The Trainee Series - Tumblr Posts
Pond Naravit, Phuwin Tangsakyuen, Off Jumpol,Gun Atthaphan
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jane 🤝🏻 ryan omnipresence is key.
The twin fantasies!!!
They are BOTH down so bad!!
I love this parallel to show they are in the same place with their feelings for each other, even if Jane can’t really express himself properly with words yet - possibly cos unlike Judy he’s aware of the power dynamics that exist between them and that it’s not the right time.
Ryan hallucinates Jane haunting him, Bahmee actually finds Judy in her family's restaurant... fascinating.
Jane is trying to handle things professionally and is definitely going to be keeping his distance while Judy has apparently never heard of HR and doesn't care.
Jane, sleepless, restless, overwhelmed, possibly even a bit giddy: How do I say I thought about what you said all weekend? I thought about you last weekend too. And the one before. I think about you too much. I think about how sometimes you're the most helpless thing I've ever seen. I think about how other times you are so tuned into your emotions that you're a little terrifying.
How do I tell him "please take care of yourself"? I want you to eat well. I want you to stop falling over your own feet. You shouldn't keep trying to keep the hours I keep. I made a mistake letting you stay that night, but you were so tired. I want you to rest. You look so soft when you sleep. Did you know that? I thought my heartbeat could wake you, it was so loud. I'm aware every moment that the thing you need protection from is me and my sharpness.
When I said I'm scared for you I meant I'm scared for me too. Sometimes time gets too slow because you're too close and I can't be the one to reach for you.
How to do I explain that I really wanted to say something back when you said that you liked me? But I can't. And I shouldn't. And I'm so, so sorry I made you cry again.
How do I say in 6 weeks I want to take you to dinner and say this all over again while I hold your hand in mine?
Oh, I know. Foam footwear.
Today is Trainee day and I need to keep up an image of not wanting to watch and combust, a BL because that will unfortunately open a can of worms with my mom who is visiting, every sec of the day. Hopefully I'll survive. Wish me luck. 🤧🥺