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Silco and Jinx: My Opinion

Tw for suicide, alcohol and abuse (emotional + vaguely sexual)

Alright alright, let's talk about the complex father-daughter relationship that Silco and Jinx have. Did Silco use this emotionally and mentally messed up kid for his own personal gain? Yeah, and that's pretty shit. But he also really did care about her.

It sounds simple enough on paper, that Silco is a bad person and a bad parent. But, it's a lot more complex; he cared, he wasn't ready to give her up for this dream he had. He wouldn't turn Jinx in for anything. She was everything to him.

Was he manipulative? Yes. "Everyone else betrays us," he said. But, at the same time, he didn't want to lose his daughter. He didn't want her to leave him like Vander did.

Though Vi was clearly better, he still treats her with so much kindness and shows her so much love. To be fair, as bad of a parent as he may be, I'm jealous.

So, this brings be to my final opinion: Is Silco a good parent or a bad parent?

I think it's all about perspective, which could have a lot to do with how you were raised. Let's use my childhood as an example.

My Childhood Trauma (tw)

I had a pretty unpredictable childhood. Some days were happy, but I often had to hear my parents fight, and this was usually happening right in front of me. My dad was an alcoholic, he cheated on my mom a few times, got violent; it wasn't good. At all.

A lot of the abuse towards me was emotional: he'd say obscene things to my face, like, "I don't need you," "I'm gonna kill myself," etc. But, there were some nights in which he'd keep me in his room, get on top of me, I'd tell him to get off, but he wouldn't.

My little sister had it bad, too. He was being an asshole as usual, he had drank, like, over half a bottle of vodka on his own, and my little sister's trying to intervene, and he slaps her upside the head. He even attempted suicide in front of her, too, so that's fucked.

I remember having to stay in a safe house with my mom and younger siblings. I was on the phone with him and I was talking to him about how I wish he'd stop drinking, but he never did. He never even tried.

In Conclusion:

Again, it's all about perspective, really. Silco wasn't the best parent ever, but he's definitely better than some. A lot better. I think I'd do anything to get that kind of fatherly love in my life.