This Whole Situation Obviously Sucks But It Feels So Good To See My Feelings Translated Into Words - Tumblr Posts

god,I’m back to screaming into the void that is tumblr. things are going so,so shitty. I keep losing days,I keep doing nothing,I can’t get anything done,the hours go by and I’m just sitting there trying not to let the wave of self loathing completely wash over me,all the while I’m feeling more disgusted by myself with every passing minute. I try not to talk bad about myself,I’m good with distractions. but I’m distracting my life away,I’m dealing with my future like gambling deck. and worst of all,I can’t stop,I don’t know how to stop,I’m not sure I want to stop. I need to be saved from myself but I also need to be left alone. I need to be ripped from the roots. I’m helpless. I’m hopeless. please.