Tw Destructive Behavior - Tumblr Posts

Thoughts

It hurts

It blazes through my mind like a rushing wildfire,

Catching on every thought in my brain until it's all I can think about,

She pissed you off

She won't stop laughing

She keeps laughing

She won't stop

Why won't it stop

Please make it stop

...

And then I flinch.

They're only thoughts, yet they hit like bullets

And though I never really hit her, I feel the grief as though I did.

Why do I think these things?

Why do I want to hit her, and others so badly?

I never do, and I never will

But the thoughts still rush in my head, a storm that I pray leaves soon but never does.

That anger won't leave

Whether friends, family, or others I don't know

I try not to hurt people

I don't want to hurt people

My head does

I don't

But one day I might

And that day I will grieve

Because I caved in

To those thoughts that never cease.

TW implied SH

HELP I HAVE A DOCTOR APPOITMENT TMRO AND SHE HAS TO DO A BODY CHECK AND I DONT WANT HER TO SEE MY SCARS HELP