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you know it’s getting bad again when it’s harder not to relapse, every little things annoys the shit out of you, you want to crawl out of your skin, the distractions don’t help anymore and not even your favorite special little treat makes your day better
I just want to give up I’m tired from the bottom of my fucking soul like I don’t want to do this shit anymore like let me rest please I’ve had enough
Coming of Age stories
Am I the only one who gets really sick watching coming of age stories? Don't get me wrong, they are beautiful, fun, nostalgic, and important stories for kids to watch, and adults to reminisce on. However, for the kids that didn't get to HAVE a coming of age life, it's really painful for me to watch them. For whatever reason, whether it be undiagnosed mental health, physical ailments keeping you from participating, abuse in the home or at school, whatever it was that kept a person as a child developing a friend group and going on those adventures your supposed to go on as a kid..it sucks. I watched a lot of other kids at school go get up to trouble, have fun, go out on adventures and they still have each other to this day, but for me, personally, after suffering different forms of abuse throughout childhood up until adulthood when I could finally escape home, connecting with other kids was really hard for me. A lot of people thought I was cold, or an asshole, but dude I was just trying to get through my days with undiagnosed, unmedicated PTSD, anxiety, depression, ADHD, and maybe autism (The signs have been showing into my adulthood but I haven't gotten that tested yet). For kids who don't have those things, who aren't scared to go home, who aren't dreading the weekend, who work don't work as much as they are allowed to avoid going home, I know I seemed quiet, stand offish. I tried to be kind, but I was definitely Different, and most kids and teenagers aren't capable of dealing with a person struggling so badly unless they are struggling themselves. So, watching coming of age stories, or even just kids going on adventures together, is really painful and sad for me. I wish I had that, I wish I had some group of rag tag vagabonds I could fall back on, who would still be here for me to occasionally chat up today. It's this sickening feeling of all the things I never got to do, the childhood I missed out on, the missing potential, and I will never get that time back. Does anyone else feel this way?
I always say “morning” instead of “good morning” because if it was a good morning I would have bled out last night
Entering a depressive episode is never fun. You think about the last time this happened, but you’re too tired to remember. You’re too tired to think of any coping mechanism that you or your therapist have ever came up with. And you start to go through the motions of life on autopilot. You don’t realize you’re in this state for weeks, until someone who you care about convinces you to take a break, and you can’t even give them that. So you keep on going until what, color starts to come in again? It’s easier? You think it’s never going to get easier again, and it’s all hopeless.
So you say, “I’ll do it for him” the reason you didn’t realize You were in an episode, because he made you want to do things. And you’ll take a god damn break because missing one day of your life being an anxious pile of goo is what you deserve. You deserve a break.
People don’t realize how bad depression actually affects a person until your living with it. It doesn’t only affect the person with depression but the people around them as-well.
As a person with depression it’s so much more than what people make it out to be sometimes. I’m bed rotting for 99% of my day. We’re not always sad, a lot of us still smile and laugh. It’s aching feeling of emptiness and hopelessness. It’s feeling like nothing can fulfill you anymore, cause for the few minutes you are happy you go back to feeling alone and empty. It’s waking up in the morning and finding no purpose in your life, yes we have goals, a lot of us do but we have the hopeless feeling of we will never fulfill those goals. These feelings will take over almost every aspect in your life.
Hanging out with friend’s won’t feel the same, it will stop being fulfilling, and things you once loved doing will only fall into the background of your empty pained mind. You’ll lose every motivation you had in life, showering will become of difficult task, brushing your teeth, eating, sleeping, drinking, and so much more will start to feel meaningless.
It’s not only draining for the person dealing with depression but also people around them. A lot of people don’t know how to help or react so a lot of the time all they can do is stand by and watch as the person they love fall into a state of emptiness.
Depression has so many bigger affects than most people realize.
Hi yes adding to what you’ve said! I genuinely love questions like this. It’s such a deep question and though I am not an actual major in psychology (not yet atleast) I am someone who as well had my fair share of struggles with it and I’ve done a lot of research. Depression can be an umbrella term, yes, though I’ve never seen it that way. Everyone is a little depressed or has anxiety which is very true, only difference is when it becomes a diagnosis it’s more of a disorder. Which technically just means it’s making you struggle a lot more than you are suppose to and it’s keeping you from working on daily tasks. Also what you have described is chronic depression. Chronic depression is a type of depression (there are many types) it’s something you are born with and you have to live with for your whole life. It’s mostly created from genetics, so if you have parents who suffer from mental illness you are likely to also get that same issue. Depression isn’t necessarily curable and more you learn to cope with it (going back to how I said I think everyone has a little depression). It’s a long process of healing from the way it overtook your thoughts and body and learn to live with it rather than let it control you.
People don’t realize how bad depression actually affects a person until your living with it. It doesn’t only affect the person with depression but the people around them as-well.
As a person with depression it’s so much more than what people make it out to be sometimes. I’m bed rotting for 99% of my day. We’re not always sad, a lot of us still smile and laugh. It’s aching feeling of emptiness and hopelessness. It’s feeling like nothing can fulfill you anymore, cause for the few minutes you are happy you go back to feeling alone and empty. It’s waking up in the morning and finding no purpose in your life, yes we have goals, a lot of us do but we have the hopeless feeling of we will never fulfill those goals. These feelings will take over almost every aspect in your life.
Hanging out with friend’s won’t feel the same, it will stop being fulfilling, and things you once loved doing will only fall into the background of your empty pained mind. You’ll lose every motivation you had in life, showering will become of difficult task, brushing your teeth, eating, sleeping, drinking, and so much more will start to feel meaningless.
It’s not only draining for the person dealing with depression but also people around them. A lot of people don’t know how to help or react so a lot of the time all they can do is stand by and watch as the person they love fall into a state of emptiness.
Depression has so many bigger affects than most people realize.
I make this post for the men who have trauma and constantly get discredited for it or ignored, silenced, and told to be quiet just because they are a man. Anyone who thinks vulnerability is weak is ridiculous. Show support for all victims no matter their gender.
Mens rape, abuse, and sexual assault matters just as equally as it does for women. My platform is for both men and women, and for anyone in between. It’s for people who need a voice because they are scared to speak up, because they are told their story doesn’t matter, because they are forced to stay quiet, because they are told it’s their fault.
I’m here to tell you it’s not your fault, that your story’s valid and there are dozens of people who understand, who gone through similar, who are here to support you through it.
I cried watching this, absolutely broke my heart. I am so happy he had the courage to talk about this bringing light to othesr who may have similar experience. Never feel like your story isn’t valid just because other people have it worse. The fact that it’s affected you and happened to you is enough.
Please if you are going through sextortion currently please reach out to someone whether thats your parents, teachers at school, any adult or your friends. anyone at all, it’s important to talk to someone so they can help you through this.
Tomer Lawton,
Maybe you feel pressured by your fans to do the stuff you did because every time you didn’t, you lost views. Doesn’t change the fact that you did it, doesn’t excuse your behaviour and actions. you wanna be an influencer but what are you influencing? Getting lost in greed for more viewers that you went as far as recording revenge porn and even child pornographie. explaining why you did it wont change that you still did it. That you still hurt those girls, maybe even ruined some of their lives.
Instead of giving in to the pressure you should’ve banned the people in your chat, told them to stop saying that stuff, that it was wrong. To influence your audience and teach them that it isn’t right. Your views went down when you didn’t do that stuff because you attracted that audience that wanted you to do that. YOU attracted that audience, you have no one else to blame but yourself.
Please read these. You will never know when this information will be needed in your life. And it always better to be safe than sorry.
I love you 🫂
Please read these. You will never know when this information will be needed in your life. And it always better to be safe than sorry.
I love you 🫂
Please read these. You will never know when this information will be needed in your life. And it always better to be safe than sorry.
I love you 🫂
Please read these. You will never know when this information will be needed in your life. And it always better to be safe than sorry.
I love you 🫂
every outfit can be a depression outfit if you try hard enough
y’all have a depression outfit? i just busted mine out cuz i haven’t worn it in like two years. mine is pajamas i wore during covid that still fit me cuz im short
Entry One
ℳ𝓎 𝓅𝒶𝓇ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓈 𝒽𝒶𝓋ℯ 𝒶𝒸𝒽𝒾ℯ𝓋ℯ𝒹 𝒻𝓊𝓁𝓁 𝒸ℴ𝓃𝓉𝓇ℴ𝓁 ℴ𝓋ℯ𝓇 𝓂𝓎 𝓁𝒾𝒻ℯ， 𝓃ℴ𝓌 ℐ 𝒸𝒶𝓃’𝓉 𝒹ℴ 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝒻ℴ𝓁𝓁ℴ𝓌𝒾𝓃𝑔：
~ 𝓊𝓈ℯ 𝓂𝓎 𝒫𝒞 （𝒯𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓌𝒽𝒾𝒸𝒽 ℐ’𝓋ℯ 𝓅𝒶𝒾𝒹 𝒻ℴ𝓇）
~ 𝓊𝓈ℯ 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝓉ℯ𝓁ℯ𝓋𝒾𝓈𝒾ℴ𝓃 𝓊𝓃𝓁ℯ𝓈𝓈 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝓈𝓅ℯ𝒸𝒾𝒻𝒾ℯ𝒹 𝓉𝒾𝓂ℯ𝓈
ℐ𝓉 𝒹ℴℯ𝓈𝓃’𝓉 𝓈ℴ𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝓈ℴ 𝒷𝒶𝒹 𝓊𝓃𝓉𝒾𝓁 𝓎ℴ𝓊 𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓁𝒾𝓏ℯ 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 ℐ 𝒶𝓂， 𝒾𝓃 𝒻𝒶𝒸𝓉， 𝓉𝓌ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓎 ℴ𝓃ℯ 𝓎ℯ𝒶𝓇𝓈 ℴ𝓁𝒹． ℐ’𝓂 𝓃ℴ𝓉 𝓅ℯ𝓇𝓂𝒾𝓉𝓉ℯ𝒹 𝓉ℴ 𝒽𝒶𝓋ℯ 𝒶 𝒿ℴ𝒷， ℐ 𝒸𝒶𝓃 𝓃ℴ𝓉 𝑔ℴ ℴ𝓊𝓉𝓈𝒾𝒹ℯ 𝓊𝓃𝓁ℯ𝓈𝓈 𝒾𝓉 𝒾𝓈 𝒻ℴ𝓇 𝓈𝒸𝒽ℴℴ𝓁 ℴ𝓃𝓁𝓎， ℐ 𝒸𝒶𝓃 𝓃ℴ𝓉 ℯ𝓍𝒾𝓈𝓉 𝒾𝓃 𝒶 𝓌𝒶𝓎 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓌𝒽𝒾𝒸𝒽 𝓌ℴ𝓊𝓁𝒹 𝒹𝒾𝓈𝓅𝓁ℯ𝒶𝓈ℯ 𝓉𝒽ℯ𝓂．
ℐ 𝓇ℯ𝑔𝓇ℯ𝓉 𝓉ℴ 𝓈𝒶𝓎 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈， 𝒷𝓊𝓉 ℐ’𝓋ℯ 𝓈𝓀𝒾𝓅𝓅ℯ𝒹 𝒹𝒾𝓃𝓃ℯ𝓇 𝒾𝓃 𝒽ℴ𝓅ℯ𝓈 ℴ𝒻 𝒶 𝒻𝓊𝓁𝓁 𝓇ℯ𝓁𝒶𝓅𝓈ℯ． ℐ 𝒸𝓇𝒶𝓋ℯ 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝒸ℴ𝓃𝓉𝓇ℴ𝓁 ℴ𝓋ℯℯ 𝓂𝓎 𝓁𝒾𝒻ℯ 𝓇𝒽𝒶𝓉 ℐ 𝒹ℯ𝓈ℯ𝓇𝓋ℯ 𝒶𝓈 𝒶𝓃 𝒶𝒹𝓊𝓁𝓉．
ℐ’𝓋ℯ 𝒷ℯℯ𝓃 𝓈ℴ 𝒹ℯ𝓅𝓇𝒾𝓋ℯ𝒹 ℴ𝒻 𝒷𝒶𝓈𝒾𝒸 𝒸ℴ𝓃𝓉𝒶𝒸𝓉 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 ℴ𝓉𝒽ℯ𝓇 𝒽𝓊𝓂𝒶𝓃𝓈 𝒻ℴ𝓇 𝒶𝓁𝓁 ℴ𝒻 𝓂𝓎 𝓁𝒾𝒻ℯ．
𝒯𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝒾𝓈 𝓉𝓇𝓊ℯ 𝒷𝓎 𝓂𝓎 𝓅𝒶𝓇ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓈， 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓅𝒶𝓇𝓉𝒾𝒸𝓊𝓁𝒶𝓇𝓁𝓎 𝒷𝓎 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝒻𝒶𝒸𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝒻ℴ𝓇 𝓂𝓊𝓁𝓉𝒾𝓅𝓁ℯ 𝓎ℯ𝒶𝓇𝓈 ℴ𝒻 𝓂𝓎 𝒸𝒽𝒾𝓁𝒹𝒽ℴℴ𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒻𝒶𝓂𝒾𝓁𝓎 𝓌ℯ𝓇ℯ 𝒾𝓃𝒹ℯ𝓃𝓉𝓊𝓇ℯ𝒹 𝓈ℯ𝓇𝓋𝒶𝓃𝓉𝓈－ 𝓉𝒽ℯ ℴ𝓃𝓁𝓎 𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓈ℴ𝓃 𝒾𝓃 𝓌𝒽𝒾𝒸𝒽 ℐ 𝓈𝒶𝓎 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝒾𝓈 𝒹𝓊ℯ 𝓉ℴ 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝒻𝒶𝒸𝓉 𝓌ℯ’𝓇ℯ 𝓃ℴ𝓃－𝒷𝓁𝒶𝒸𝓀 𝓅ℴ𝒸．
𝒲ℯ 𝓂𝒶𝓎 𝒷ℯ ℒ𝒶𝓉𝒜𝓂， 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝓌ℴ𝓇𝒹 𝓈𝓁𝒶𝓋ℯ 𝒾𝓈 𝒶 𝓋ℯ𝓇𝓎 𝓇𝒶𝒸𝒾𝒶𝓁𝓁𝓎 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓅ℴ𝓁𝒾𝓉𝒾𝒸𝒶𝓁𝓁𝓎 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓇𝑔ℯ𝒹 𝓌ℴ𝓇𝒹．
𝒯𝒽ℯ𝓎’𝓋ℯ 𝑔ℴ𝓃ℯ ℴ𝓊𝓉 ℴ𝒻 𝓉𝒽ℯ𝒾𝓇 𝓌𝒶𝓎 𝓉ℴ 𝒾𝓃𝓉ℯ𝓃𝓉𝒾ℴ𝓃𝒶𝓁𝓁𝓎 𝓉𝓇𝒾𝑔𝑔ℯ𝓇 𝓂ℯ， 𝓉𝒽ℯ𝒾𝓇 𝒶𝒷𝓊𝓈𝒾𝓋ℯ 𝓅𝒶𝓉𝓉ℯ𝓇𝓃𝓈 𝒶𝓇ℯ 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓊𝓅 ℴ𝓃𝒸ℯ 𝒶𝑔𝒶𝒾𝓃－ 𝓉𝒽ℯ𝒾𝓇 𝓅𝓇ℴ𝓂𝒾𝓈ℯ𝓈 ℴ𝒻 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓃𝑔ℯ 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝒶 𝓂ℯ𝓂ℴ𝓇𝓎， 𝒶 𝓁𝒾ℯ．
ℐ 𝒹ℴ𝓃’𝓉 𝓀𝓃ℴ𝓌 𝒽ℴ𝓌 𝓂𝓊𝒸𝒽 𝓁ℴ𝓃𝑔ℯ𝓇 ℐ 𝒸𝒶𝓃 𝓀ℯℯ𝓅 𝑔ℴ𝒾𝓃𝑔， 𝓂𝓎 𝒰𝓃𝒾𝓋ℯ𝓇𝓈𝒾𝓉𝓎 𝒶𝓅𝓅𝓁𝒾𝒸𝒶𝓉𝒾ℴ𝓃 𝒾𝓈 𝒷ℯ𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓅𝓇ℴ𝒸ℯ𝓈𝓈ℯ𝒹 𝓇𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝓃ℴ𝓌 𝒶𝓃𝒹 ℐ’𝓋ℯ 𝒷ℯℯ𝓃 𝓅𝓇𝒶𝒸𝓉𝒾𝒸𝒶𝓁𝓁𝓎 𝒶𝒸𝒸ℯ𝓅𝓉ℯ𝒹 𝒷𝓎 𝓂𝓎 𝒹ℯ𝒹𝒾𝒸𝒶𝓉𝒾ℴ𝓃 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓅𝓇ℯ𝓋𝒾ℴ𝓊𝓈 𝒶𝒻𝒻𝒾𝓁𝒾𝒶𝓉𝒾ℴ𝓃 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 𝒶 𝓇ℯ𝓈ℯ𝒶𝓇𝒸𝒽 𝓅𝓇ℴ𝑔𝓇𝒶𝓂 𝓊𝓃𝒹ℯ𝓇 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝓂ℯ𝓃𝓉ℴ𝓇𝓈𝒽𝒾𝓅 ℴ𝒻 𝒶 𝒻𝒶𝓂ℴ𝓊𝓈 𝓈𝒸𝒾ℯ𝓃𝓉𝒾𝓈𝓉．
ℐ 𝓈ℴ𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝓈ℴ 𝒾𝓂𝓅ℴ𝓇𝓉𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝓌𝒽ℯ𝓃 ℐ 𝓈𝒶𝓎 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉，
𝒾𝒻 ℴ𝓃𝓁𝓎．．．
ℐ 𝒹𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓂𝓉 ℐ 𝒹𝒾ℯ𝒹， 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓌𝒶𝓈 𝓇ℯ𝒷ℴ𝓇𝓃 𝒶𝓈 𝒶 𝒷𝓊𝓉𝓉ℯ𝓇𝒻𝓁𝓎
This is how my razors be looking at me in my bag
Ngl. I miss bruising myself. I used to do it a lot cuz i was so scared of cvttin but now i miss it...tf is wrong with me??