What If They Found Out? What If They Hate Me? - Tumblr Posts

medlarmeadows
2 months ago

Please for the love of god DO NOT think about Jay Ferin when she first realises that she loves her fellow crew members

And how she cries herself to sleep because she knows that the second they find out that she had planned to betray them to the navy, they'll hate her

And how she remembers how Gillion reacted to Chip's lies, and how he held the blade to Chip's neck

And how she thinks about Chip watching from the side in disgust as Gillion levels blow after blow at her in his honour

And how she slowly realises she can never be honest with the people she loves most

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give me moment from before the bloc where jay is turning the what ifs over in her head “what if they found out? what if they hate me?” give me jay spiralling in her own thoughts about betraying her friends give me jay entering an anxiety-induced fog of second-guessing her friendships because they would never like her if they knew give me jay getting that assurance from gillion and chip in the bloc that washes away her anxiety like a splash of cold water give me jay who still has to shake off those what ifs once in a while but it gets easier everyday as she sees her crew mates and co-captains and the easy love that surrounds her jrwi jay ferin jrwi riptide
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