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Drowning Lessons by MCR is such a Durgetash song to me. Like yaaas. Kill 1000 people to prove your love.
Even more worms in my brain
Okay so I'm writing my pre-game durgetash fic and I think I'm going to title it To The End. That song really encompasses the vibes they have going on in my head. Mania, my Dark Urge, and Gortash were married either for political reputation or for mutual obsession. I remember in the "Forgive me Father" letter Mania says that Gortash will be the last one she kills at the end of the world. And I do believe in the temple of Bhaal there is a letter that says the bhaalists treat marriage like a suicide pact. That's crazy.
Also in my head-canon shortly after this peak in their relationship and shortly before Orin's assassination attempt Mania goes crazy, AKA her own mind already trying to break from the urges. She makes the Oath of Vengeance/Redemption. It's literally "say goodbye to the life you made" and "walk away from the choice you made". She doesn't fight back Orin to her whole strength but her last thoughts are still heart broken.
Yeah yeah, all the events of the game happen. But eventually, Mania does end up "allying" with Gortash. She's in a close relationship with Astarion at this point but that doesn't stop her body and mind from having intoxicating reactions to "my favorite assassin" and "my nearest and dearest" and other nobles at Wyrm's Rock confirming the nature of their relationship.
If the earlier paragraph didn't make it clear Mania obviously resisted Bhaal and her urges. Her convictions to end the absolute are higher than ever. But she holds onto Gortash still the very end. She walks down the morphic pool in silence while Gortash speaks praises of their combined power and the companions waiting on her signal. At the very first brain quake, knowing this is the end. She smites him. It's over in 3 turns (haha I was playing on explorer mode).
"If you marry me Would you bury me? Would you carry me to the end?"
Besides the brain itself, he was her last kill as it was always intended to be.
So there's To The End, which was what the whole post was about. I didn't want to go line for line in explaining, this was more interesting, it but I could've. I made a non-serious post that Drowning Lessons reminded me of them too. But I think there's a lot of My Chemical Romance songs that I relate to this relationship. Probably because I've been listening to them since I was a kid. Its gonna take me forever to write this fic because I keep thinking of stuff lol.