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oddly enough, nayeon wasn’t as afraid as she guessed that she would be right before she and taehyung decided to make things official. knowing that his time to enlist was approaching stung, but at the same time she knew that meant the moments she did get to spend with him were more precious and important than ever–she was determined to make these last few months before they had to temporarily part ways as memorable as they could be. did it bother her sometimes that these memories couldn’t be made by going on normal dates or revealing their relationship without the looming cloud of negative responses? of course, but one quickly learns that life as a superstar isn’t as easy as most people think. sacrifices are made, even if they’re painful or bothersome. nayeon could accept that, as being able to experience the happiness she felt with taehyung was worth it all.

the happiness nayeon felt whenever she was with her boyfriend was far different from the usual emotion she had felt before he came into her life. this time, her happiness felt like a constant state of being on cloud 9. he was the perfect piece that completed the puzzle, and the singer made sure everyone close to her knew it. starting with her members, down to the rest of her family, nayeon wasted no time informing everyone about who it was that constantly had her feeling such a strong range of positive emotions. they may have just been starting out at the next step of their relationship, but a part of nayeon was already excited for what was to come as it progressed. she was certain it would only continue to get better from there.

nayeon giggled at taehyung matching her pout before raising her eyebrows as his words piqued her interest, even if he hadn’t been serious about actually doing it. “like the tinytan version of you? or like an actual mini version of you?” she tapped her chin playfully, “because i don’t mind either one.” nayeon joked. even if she did somehow get a mini version of tae, she’d still find a way to miss him.

the thought of her boyfriend dressing so nicely because he wanted to look good for her made nayeon smile as she gently brushed her hands across the shoulder lines of his blazer. “you always look good to me, jagi.” she told him, moving her hands back to her side. this time, her use of the term of endearment made her smile grow wider–it sounded even better when she was using it on him. nayeon responded to taehyung’s returned affection by gently squeezing his hand, listening to him as he told her about his idea for the two of them. his suggestion was met with an almost immediate nod, “i absolutely love that. let’s do it.” she agreed. attending the gala and being able to show off their happiness without worry was already enough, but knowing that tae was two steps ahead with his own idea left nayeon in awe. if the idol thought her boyfriend couldn’t amaze her anymore than he already did, he had just proved her wrong.

Taehyung decided to forget about the enlistment the best he could. Anytime he would ‘allow’ himself to ponder over it, he would get emotional. The last thing he wanted was to ruin any memories that the couple could make. There was no point in bringing up the inevitable when they were in such a happy place. Of course he often thought about making it known to the world that they were dating. It would make his complicated life just a little easier to navigate if everyone found about them. There would be no need to hide when they were out in public or need to hire extra security to guarantee their privacy. Unfortunately, Taehyung knew the consequences of what happened when idols began to date. Either some fans were understanding or the other half went into attack mode. And no part of him wanted Nayeon to get verbally or physically attacked all because of him. This was enough for him. He would happily bend over backwards just to see her if needed. 

The vocalist was known to wear his heart on his sleeve. If he was going to be in a relationship, then he would proudly tell his family and friends about it too. Most of his members knew about Nayeon once his crush started. It was difficult for them not to figure it out when his dorky smile was obvious to anyone around him. And since then, his feelings had doubled in the short time of their relationship. It was impossible not to when she perfectly fit in his life. Suddenly, bad days at work weren’t so heavy once he saw her. While there was an inner panic about the enlistment, there was also a layer of comfort when talking to her. Almost guaranteeing him that she wasn’t going anywhere even when he left. 

A smile quickly interrupted the Tata face that was itching to come out at the topic of her carrying around a TinyTan version of him. “No, no. Much better than the TinyTan. It’ll be especially made for you.” There was nothing in the works but if he had to pitch an idea to his team about getting something ready for Nayeon, then he would do it in a heartbeat. 

The nicknames they had for each other always tugged at his heart. It left him feeling warmer than he already felt. His hand responded to her squeeze by returning the favor. Taehyung would argue that their relationship was further than it was. They had enough adventures over the last few months that it felt like they were in their first year versus first couple of months. Part of what Taehyung adored about Nayeon was how happy she was about tagging along to any one of his ideas. “Okay, good. Fireworks are one of my favorite things to watch.” Taehyung admitted when he held her hand while he started their direction towards the gala. “We can also get dressed in our pjs before everyone goes up there.” He didn’t mind staying in their former wear if she wanted to but he had a backup just in case. “We can be comfortable and toasty.” He smiled when he looked over at her. 

maybenayeon​:

@winterbeav

balloons? check.

gifts? check.

breakfast? check.

cake? check.

everything seemed to be going according to plan. taehyung remained fast asleep—when nayeon was placing purple balloons that spelled out his name above the bed, when she placed his gifts on the nightstand closest to him, when she made breakfast, and even when she got the delivery for his specially made cake. it seemed that he still had no idea what she was doing, which made things much, much better.

the idea to surprise tae for his birthday was put in motion some time ago, and the closer it got to his big day, the more she wanted to give her boyfriend hints so he could “guess” it on his own. luckily, she practiced some restraint and remained quiet about her plans; opting to keep him off of her trail by informing him that she planned on taking him out on the slopes to celebrate after treating him to dinner at one of the restaurants that the resort had.

nayeon made sure she was careful as she placed the tray of breakfast and coffee—with a mini teddy bear and vase of camellias to represent taehyung, and the fact that he was born in the winter—down on the empty side of the bed. the last thing she wanted was to ruin the first surprise for his birthday. once it was perfectly placed, nayeon moved to the other side of the bed and crouched down so that she was face to face with her boyfriend. she gave him a gentle shake before pushing some of his hair back from his forehead.

“jagi,” she whispered, smiling, “wake up, i have a surprise for you.”

One of Taehyung’s best and worst qualities was that he could be a heavy sleeper. Years of having his members trying to stir him awake, his body remained glued to the mattress. Today was no different. While his ears heard shuffling around, his eyes didn’t bother to open. He was confident that it was a dream of his or perhaps he was imaging such movement. Besides, the bed was too comfy and warm to leave it now. Whatever the noise was could wait a while longer. 

His body began to slip back into a heavy sleep when he heard Nayeon’s voice pulling him. To anyone else, he would have groaned and buried the blanket over his face to signal them that he wanted to sleep more. Not with her. For her, he slowly peeked, smiling at her soothing tone. While he couldn’t hear what she specifically said, he still squinted until his eyes adjusted to the light that came through the room. His hand automatically brushed her cheek, smiling at the sight of waking up to her before he slowly stirred and began to sat up. His hand took the one she placed on his forehead. He placed a small peck on her palm before he released the grip. Bringing his hands up, rubbed his eyes, yawning and was about to open his mouth to ask Nayeon if she could smell food when his eyes finally looked around. 

No words came from Taehyung while he took in the sight. The balloons, the bear, the tray that held the food he smelled, every inch surrounding him held something special. That’s when it finally hit him what day it was. He wasn’t too big on his birthday. Truthfully, he often forgot since it was so close to the end of the year and how busy people seemed to be about the holidays. 

Tears began to form in his eyes the longer he looked around. The overwhelming happiness was starting to kick in. He briefly looked away, not wanting Nayeon to witness him cry. Not when she put so much thought into making the morning perfect. “Thank you” he let out a quiet sob, quickly brushing a tear away. 

maybenayeon​:

even in his sleepiness, taehyung managed to make nayeon smile. from his own smile to his gentle ways of showing affection, she was always happy while around him. so happy that she had almost forgotten why she had even woke him up in the first place—at least until he sat up and got a chance to look around the room. as she watched him, her bunny smile grew wider. 

“happy birthday!” she said happily, placing her hands together excitedly. this was the moment she was the most excited for. while the decision to do something for her boyfriend’s birthday was a no-brainer, what really made the process of getting everything purchased and set up done worth it was knowing that it was for him and he’d be seeing it. nayeon wanted to do something special for taehyung’s birthday for three important reasons: he deserved it, she wanted to make the first birthday they spent together special, and she wasn’t sure if this would be the last birthday that the two of them would have in each other’s presence before he left for the military, so she wanted it to be as memorable for him as possible. 

she was going to reply and tell him that he didn’t have to thank her, but the sound of taehyung’s voice made nayeon place a hand on his arm and lean in, a small pout forming on her lips once she saw his hand go up near his eye. “are you crying? don’t cry, i didn’t mean to make you cry,” she told him as her own eyes began to fill with tears. nayeon couldn’t help crying whenever she saw someone else crying—even more when it was someone that she cared for. there were plenty of instances where the sight of her members crying caused the idol to shed tears as well. 

and it was happening now as her index fingers swiped away the tears that had fallen onto her cheeks. “look at us,” nayeon couldn’t help but laugh slightly at the fact she cried so easily, but that didn’t stop the tears from continuing to fall as she gently cupped taehyung’s face in her hands and used her thumbs to gently wipe his eyes. “if i knew this would happen, i would’ve brought some tissues too.” her smile returned and she placed a gentle kiss on tae’s forehead before moving to the other side of the bed and grabbing the tray, placing it in front of him carefully. “i wanted to make you breakfast myself, but there aren’t any grocery stores around.” 

It was a memorable morning. From the tone of her voice stirring him awake to the decorations she took an effort to put. Everything felt like a dream. There was no doubt in his mind that he mattered to his friends and family but not once had they gone above and beyond to do something this special. The idol received plenty of birthday wishes from fans to his those important to him but this tugged at his heartstrings. 

His eyes watered the longer he looked over the details that Nayeon included and he could feel a lump in his throat that wanted to desperately come out of him. No, he didn’t want to cry. It would be a terrible way to put a damper in this beautiful morning. Unfortunately for Taehyung, his emotions were difficult to hide. What hurt him was that he was a talker. And he couldn’t bring himself to say more than a simple thank you in the fear that he would turn into a sobbing mess. 

Truthfully, he was emotional from the surprise but also felt a sadness wash over him knowing that he wouldn’t experience the same the following year. The future wasn’t something that he liked to think about but he couldn’t help but let his mind wander to how different things would be in the following year. Would Nayeon still stick by his side? Would he be waking in a room filled of strangers? Would he have a chance to see his members on such an important day? So many questions that he didn’t know if wanted to know the answers. Another reason he cried was from the happiness that was mixing with his worry. There was a joy that he felt like never before. To know that he mattered this much to his girlfriend that she went out of her way to surprise him this way. He brushed the tears that fell using the back of his hand and he turned to realize that he had made Nayeon cry as well. 

“I’m sorry” a light smile went on his face. The worry he had for the future suddenly began to fade once he felt Nayeon’s touch. It was so gentle, so warm. His wandering eyes landed on hers, feeling another small smile fall on his lips by how beautiful she looked even when she cried. He sniffed when she retrieved the tray and brushed his fingers to wipe the tears that fell once again. Taehyung tried to focus on the food, hoping that it would cause the distraction that he needed at the moment. “This is perfect. I’ll eat anything” That part was true. As long as it wasn’t spicy, Taehyung would inhale anything that was given to him. He cleared his throat, bringing the tray closer to him and turned to face her. “This means a lot... really.” he touched his chest then brought his hand to his face to hopefully brush the last bit of his tears away. “Come on, let’s eat together.” 

maybenayeon​:

nayeon knew from the moment she began to get to know taehyung outside of the two of them being peers that he was special. he was funny, kind, dependable, and lovable–it wasn’t hard to understand why he was adored by his members and fans around the world. just knowing she was able to wake up every day calling such a wonderful guy her boyfriend made nayeon feel like the luckiest woman in the world. it was only fitting she did her best to make him feel the same way. of course it was partially bittersweet because of what she knew was coming, but that didn’t mean she wouldn’t make the most of the moment and do something nice. a discussion on the future could be had eventually, but for now, nayeon wanted to celebrate her boyfriend. 

“it’s okay,” nayeon reassured him, using one of her hands to gently smooth out his hair. she took a moment to admire him, the realization that he just might’ve been a true angel among men making her want to personally thank the universe for bringing them together. she’d have to make sure to do that later on. nayeon returned taehyung’s smile and moved closer to him, wrapping one of her arms around one of his. “i’m happy it does, i wanted to try and give you hints but i managed to keep it secret. it was worth it. you’re worth it.” she stated, resting her head on his shoulder. she used the sleeve of her pajamas to wipe her eyes one last time, just to get the last few tears that had managed to fall before gently squeezing her boyfriend’s arm.

nayeon had been so engrossed with surprising taehyung that she forgot all about having set up the video camera and pressing record to get the memories on film until her eyes landed on the small device sitting on the tripod that was placed on the dresser across from them. “ahh,” nayeon called out, pointing at the camera, “i forgot i put that there.” she pouted playfully before giving a small wave. “hi future nayeonnie, hi future taehyungie! the birthday surprise was a success!” her thumb went up enthusiastically, a wide smile following after to show how happy she was that everything went according to plan with no hiccups. she was also smiling because she was glad that she ultimately chose to record the process, and in the end, the results. nayeon had made it a habit to record the memories she made with taehyung, they would be perfect for the both of them to look back on when they’re apart.

“now, we’re going to eat breakfast.” nayeon returned her attention to the tray before grabbing one of the plates and placing it closer to taehyung. “the receptionist swore by the toast sandwich, so we should try that first,” she suggested, carefully grabbing the closest half and holding it up to her boyfriend’s lips. “you get to take the first bite since you’re the birthday boy.”

Taehyung felt extremely lucky at this moment. Not only because he was welcoming the year with good health but everything seemed to be perfect. Nayeon was a dream come true to him. The only regret he had was that they didn’t start dating sooner so they’d have enough memories to look back on whenever he left. Still, he was a firm believer that everything happened for a reason. They took their time with every date before jumping into the relationship. 

A sign that he was comfortable with her was how easily he cried. If he shied away or tried to hold back his emotions then it would be a red flag that they weren’t meant to be. But seeing how easy his tears fell and how quickly she comforted him was enough to warm his insides. He sniffed, trying to push through his smile a bit longer now that he got the tears out of his system. “You did an amazing job. I wouldn't have been able to hold back.” It wasn’t the entire truth. Taehyung had been known to keep a secret or two when the occasion called for it. He would have given plenty of hints though. The last two tears fell down his cheek at her words. He wanted to return the favor and say something sweet back but he was afraid that he would cry again and he just wanted to focus on getting through breakfast before his next crying session. Instead, he leaned his head against hers, placing his hand over the one she had on him and gave her a reassuring squeeze. 

His eyes lit up at the sight of the camera. It seemed like his wish of storing some memories was complete. They could now look back at the day when they needed a small pick me up. Taehyung waved at the camera, wondering when the next time he’d be seeing the footage. “The perfect girlfriend” Taehyung brought her hand up momentarily before kissing the back of it before he drew his attention back to the food, forgetting about the camera and focusing instead on the food. 

“Really? It must be good then” he rocked slowly side to side, doing a small dance as he sat down when the toast got brought up to his lips. Another reason why this morning was perfect. He was getting pampered in every way. He opened his mouth, taking a bite from the toast and his eyes widened at the taste. “Wah” The guy acted as if it was the first time he tried such food. He turned to his girlfriend with eyes widening more as he ate. “It’s really tasty. Here” Taehyung took the bread from her hold to move it closer to her lips. 

maybenayeon​:

there weren’t enough words to describe how perfect everything had been up until this point. nayeon could relate it to a dream; the kind where she’s flying up high, with a perfect view of the clouds and everything beneath them. the type of dream that only left her smiling widely once she woke up, hoping that when she fell asleep again later on she’d end up back in the sky–just like the previous night. sometimes she did wonder why the two of them hadn’t gotten the chance to know each other sooner, by all means it seemed as if they would’ve gotten along even when they younger. plus, she had been friends with namjoon for awhile so it only made sense that she eventually befriended the entire group, but that part came later rather than sooner.

with a job like theirs, it was a requirement to remain composed and act as if everything were together in front of the world. there was hardly any room for crying, and although nayeon didn’t always follow that rule, she managed to do so a vast majority of the time. that’s why she felt there was something serene in the fact that she and taehyung could be vulnerable in one another’s presence. the way they could cry together without feeling awkward or as if they had to keep their emotions ‘together’ was another aspect of their relationship that she adored. “you think so?” nayeon grinned proudly, perhaps she made the right call after all. “i would’ve still acted surprised, i did that during a secret friend party with my members. i knew jeongyeon got me because staff confirmed it by accident, but even when she gave me her gift i let her think i didn’t know.” nayeon pictured the precious moment she shared with her sister clearly before playfully shrugging. “i would have become the greatest actress seoul has ever seen!”

recording special moments was always important to nayeon, there wasn’t a moment where she had her camera and didn’t have at least 50 photos and videos of her members. her relationship with taehyung would be no different, especially since she had already started the process. “ah,” she laughed, feeling her face heat up at her boyfriend’s compliment, “only for you.” 

the dance taehyung did made nayeon grin, and she watched intently as he took a bite of the toast, anticipating his reaction. once she got it, she nodded in satisfaction, “the receptionist didn’t steer me wrong, yay!” nayeon cheered happily for a moment before taking a bite of the toast. she chewed for a few seconds, allowing the flavors to sink in before her own eyes widened. “oh! this is great,” she told taehyung as she gave him a thumbs up. 

Not once did Taehyung imagine this life for himself. He wasn’t opposed to relationships and he would often see his hyungs get involved with someone over the years that Tae wished for someone that special. Patient as ever, Tae tried to wait until the right person came along. Once Nayeon and him begun talking, he knew that something wonderful would happen. He didn’t know to what phase into their relationship they would arrive since he didn’t want to apply too much pressure and wanted to enjoy every moment with her. And here he was, waking up on his birthday filled with surprises to a someone who made him happy. 

It was part of the reason why he got emotional a few moments ago. She cared enough to go out of her way to plan every last detail. He truly had the best girlfriend that a guy could ever wish for. Tae watched her tell the story with a smile on his lips, wanting to make sure that he heard every detail. “Whaa, you could get awards with your acting skills. Jagi... we could become great actors if we wanted to. I can ask my hyungs to sign us up to the next drama that they film. I have a lot of connections.” It was the perks of having actor buddies. They often asked or offered him parts if he wanted to dip his toe in acting but he thought he had enough going for him that he never considered another role. Not for now. If Nayeon wanted to get into acting then he would easily sign himself up to act along side her. “Our fans would die if they saw us together on screen.” He chuckled at just the idea of how bad... or great it could go. 

Taehyung was used to cameras. Not because of their crew but his hyung would often bring out his camera to record moments. Since they debuted, Tae thought of the camera as the 8th member by how often Hobi hyung brought out the phone or camera to record. It made him happy to know that him and Nayeon would have trails of their memories through a camera. “Thank you, Jagiya.” He pecked his lips on her rosie cheek before he turned his attention to the food. 

Food along always made him the happiest. He wasn’t a picky eater but when he would eat something yummy, he liked to announce it. He smiled watching her eat the bread, happy that she was experiencing what he did. “Good, right? I’ll have to give her a tip for a good recommendation!” He dug into the rest of the food, offering Nayeon a few bites before he took one. 

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if nayeon could go back to her old self a few months ago and say one thing, she’d tell her that her life was about to change for the better. taehyung added to it in ways that she hadn’t even thought were possible given where she was at in that stage of life, but he had and she was beyond grateful for him. would she go back and redo their journey to where they are now if she could? absolutely, the way they began and ended up was a testament to their care and patience with one another. would she change anything about it? not really, except for maybe revealing her feelings sooner–although she did find that revealing them in the city of love when she did was perfect, too. 

it was moments like this that made nayeon really think about how lucky she was. taehyung was a source of light and happiness for millions of people around the world, and now he was hers; on a deeper, more personal level. it didn’t get any better than that, at least not to her. even when they were just friends she felt lucky just getting to know him. now, she was over the moon. a hand went over nayeon’s heart as she playfully scrunched up her nose, trying her best to hide the smile that was beginning to form from taehyung’s compliment. “you’d be the first person i thank if i ever got any!” she assured him, gently bumping her shoulder against his. “we’d take south korea by storm first, and then we can star in international shows and movies next!” 

nayeon chuckled and pretended to ponder over the idea. she would never ask taehyung to do that for her even though she appreciated the fact he actually would if given the chance, “only if we could be like noah and allie in the notebook–without the somewhat sad ending.” she replied, deciding to go along for the sake of imagining the two of them together in a drama. maybe she should get back into acting; it would be fun, and having taehyung there would make things better. “we would throw them all into a frenzy,” she agreed, another laugh leaving her lips as she thought about it. the chemistry between the two of them would be believable had they acted together. probably too believable. knowing their fans, it could either raise suspicion and open the door for chaos, or they’d all love it.

“you are welcomeeee,” nayeon dragged out the last syllable as she offered her boyfriend a wide grin. the camera is definitely catching her blushing, and she knows she’ll probably whine about it later; but for now she doesn’t even try to hide it, instead nodding at taehyung’s question. “i wrote her name down on a piece of paper in the living room, that way we can thank her whenever we run into her.” maybe i could send her a basket full of snacks, too. nayeon thought to herself. after all, the kind receptionist did help make the surprise possible. “i almost forgot to ask–what do you want to do today?” nayeon asked as she chewed some of the food taehyung had fed her moments prior. “i know i said we’d head to the slopes to celebrate, but that was just to throw you off.” 

There weren’t many moments in Taehyung’s life that he wished to freeze. He tried to live a day at a time and not ponder too much about the past or the future. Enjoy your time now, his grandfather would often tell him. Still, he was human and moments were sometimes too precious to not wonder about freezing time. Some of those moments were on stage with his brothers such as winning awards, performing for ARMY. Others were times when he laughed or had any special bonding moments with his friends and family. All moments when Taehyung was truly happy. 

Once Nayeon came into his life, too often would Taehyung want to freeze time. Their first date to the playful food fight they had all the way until their first kiss in Paris and other simple moments they shared. Waking up next to her was still one of his favorite things. For him, the rest of the world would simply disappear during those short minutes of his morning. While he hadn’t said it out loud quite yet or admitted it to himself... he was falling head over heels for her. 

All that the camera would capture would be how Taehyung hung to every word that Nayeon said. He had propped his elbow to his leg and brought his hand to his chin. “Just watch, no one will want to work with us because we’ll be snatching awards left and right. Going international?” He tilted his head at the thought and found himself blushing at the idea. “I’ll have to practice my English first. I still get a little shy.” Taehyung lied with a smile on his face. Everyone that knew him saw how easily he approached singers during the Grammys. Still, the thought of being on screen with his girlfriend was good enough for him. It didn’t matter if it would be in a show in Korea or international. At this moment, he didn’t care if others found out about them. That moment would quickly leave once reality hit. Nayeon was right, everyone would go in a frenzy if they were to just appear next to each other. 

“Noah and Allie before they break up. The second half of that movie is depressing.” He scrunched his nose, shaking his head at the thought. “The ending of that movie doesn’t exist to me. I always stop it right when they get back together. I make my own ending.” He admitted. “Leave it to me, I’ll find us a spot as Noah and Allie, just you wait.” If their fans didn’t go into their own investigation and not try to dig up the truth then he would consider getting it done. 

He nodded, trying to make note to remember to look at the paper later on. If he didn’t find her then he could always leave a good word with the manager or leave a great review along with a tip. Taehyung took a few more bites of the food and looked around the room as if he was going to get an idea from it. “Hmm, what do I want to do?” He ran through the list of possibilities that the location had until he briefly looked back at Nayeon. “Hmm, we can do indoor golfing. Hmmm” That would cover a couple of hours that now he started to think some more. “Hmmm, we can still do the slopes. Just the baby ones... I don’t want to fall on my face today, we can do that tomorrow... annnnnd, I want to watch a movie. Doesn’t matter which one and we can do it in here. I mostly want to spend my day with you.” He gave her a smile before he took a sip of his drink. 

maybenayeon​:

nayeon had a big heart–especially because her members and once filled her with so much love that she sometimes joked that the organ would eventually explode from the overwhelmingly beautiful emotion she felt for all of them. now that taehyung also occupied a space in her heart as well, nayeon was starting to think that maybe it wasn’t a joke after all. of course, the explosion wouldn’t be as… ghastly as one may think, but figuratively… she could definitely liken the constant growth of her feelings for her boyfriend as her heart continuing to fill up as if it were an oversized balloon; and she welcomed it with open arms.

“by the time award season comes around, our peers will start to call it taehyung and nayeon season,” nayeon replied, grinning. “we’ll probably end up having awards named after us, too!” it was somewhat wishful thinking, but nayeon couldn’t help but think about how great she and taehyung would be if the two of them worked together. the career path would be fun to take, that’s for sure. “yes, we could be as internationally loved as… as…” nayeon paused for a moment as she attempted to think of a beloved celebrity pair. “frank sinatra and ava gardner!”

a wide smile appeared on her face as she used her free hand to gently squish her boyfriend’s flushed cheeks. a light giggle escaped her lips, and nayeon used her other free hand to gently brush away a piece of lint that landed on her pajamas. “we can learn english while we learn french!” she commented, throwing in their inside joke for fun. sometimes nayeon wished, just a bit–that no one would care they were together. that way, they could just enjoy their relationship and show off their happiness without a worry in the world. outside of the obvious reasons, that would’ve probably been a roadblock in the two of them becoming each other’s co-star.

with the way the conversation was going so casually, it almost seemed as if the camera didn’t even exist anymore–instead, it was just the two of them engaging in meaningful conversation. “extremely depressing,” nayeon agreed, nodding her head, “making your own ending? that sounds like a great idea… i need to start doing that when i watch movies and don’t like the ending!” grabbing another small forkful of eggs, nayeon ate them before gently tapping her boyfriend’s arm, “oh! what’s your ending of the notebook like?” now it was her turn to blush—as soon as she felt her face heat up, nayeon placed her hands against her cheeks. “we’ll be the greatest noah and allie the world’s ever seen.” maybe, just maybe they could get things past their fans; but knowing onces… nayeon knew it would be a matter of time before they got suspicious.

now came the second best part of the day–or at least part of it. nayeon had been looking forward to treating her boyfriend to whatever it was that he wanted to do for his birthday, that was why she nodded along with his choices, making a mental list of each one in order so that they could have something like an itinerary. taehyung’s last comment made nayeon poke her lips out, her eyes lighting up slightly at the way his words tugged at her heart strings. “ah, well i’ll make sure you have lots of fun today.” she leaned in and placed a gentle kiss on his cheek before gasping, “we can watch a disney movie! beauty and the beast! or even toy story.”

Taehyung was a man who loved with every part of him. His members were victims of how deeply he could love. Words of affirmation, acts of service, physical touch, gifts, and quality time were all important to him and he tried his best to offer those to anyone he cared about. Whatever he could do to make them feel just as special as they were to him. With Nayeon, he wanted to provide all of that and more. 

Painting scenarios with her felt like a tradition that they picked up since Paris. It flowed easy that Taehyung even believed the fairytale that they created between each other. Imagining such awards and the list of possibilities that could come from working together. There was no doubt in his mind that the world would love Nayeon. The question was if they would be just as accepting of their relationship? “They’ll gift us so many awards that they’ll have to cap us after a certain amount. You know... to keep it fair to the rest of the actors” his smile widened at the celebrity couple that she picked. Frank Sinatra had always been one of his favorites. “We’ll be remembered for decades to come!” He followed the tone. 

“Done! When do the classes start?” he scrunched his nose when she squished his cheeks. The idol had gone years with picking up an English class and time and time again... he would drop it. Friends of his often teased him saying that he usually picked up hobbies or classes only to drop them weeks later. Just like his songs, he discarded the idea when he grew bored of it. “I have to admit that I’m a bad student. Namjoonie hyung always struggles with teaching me and I never find another teacher that I like.” Although they were only creating scenarios, he wanted to be honest as well just in case if Nayeon wanted to sign up together. 

He was positive that they would look back at the footage one day and laugh over how the two had completely forgotten about the camera. “Mm!” He nodded while his eyes went bright when she asked about his ending to the movie. “My ending is that she never had alzheimer’s. They have a bunch of kids and they’re celebrating their anniversary in the end with all of their kids. Much better than her forgetting him. The writer just wants to make people cry. Not in my movie.” He took another bite of the food, smiling at the blush that crossed his girlfriend’s face. It amazed him how adorable she was without trying. “Much better than Noah and Allie” he smiled at the thought. 

There was always a hint of sadness that he felt whenever they talked about their relationship. Taehyung often wondered how much easier things would be if he admitted to Army who he was dating. Idols had done it in the past. They would only need to push through the first few months before things smoothed over. Anytime he hoped for that to happen... he remembered all of the ships that fans created and how toxic some became. The innocent filming he had with Olivia months ago brought so much hate towards the girl that Taehyung wouldn’t bear the idea of Nayeon being on the end of it. 

He tried to push the sadness away and focus on today’s activities. He wasn’t big on celebrating his day but he did want to make today memorable even if it was something as simple as staying indoors with his girlfriend. Tae gave a quick poke to her bottom lip shortly before she pecked his cheek. “ooh a marathon of toy story?" Any Disney movie would do but he loved that series. “We can order everything that they have on their menu too! Is it crazy to eat ice cream when it’s freezing outside?” 

@maybenayeon​

The Maldives had been a perfect trip until they were in the middle of the week. Once employees began to leak information of potential and existing couples was when Taehyung began to worry of who of his friends he would see next in the articles. What he hated most was the precaution he needed to take with Nayeon whenever they were out when the point of flying away from home was to not worry about the idol life. Now he would ask employees that he knew for years to check restaurants before entering if anyone had cameras or bribe others to not say anything once he and Nayeon left. It was an exhausting pattern but necessary to protect their relationship. No part of him felt ashamed of who he dated but he knew how toxic fans could get and he couldn’t bear the idea of someone he loved so much to get hurt. 

Dinner indoors seemed like the best and safest option seeing that no one besides the delivery person would see him. Taehyung didn’t mind the small inconvenience when he still tried his best to make a romantic night with what little they had. He would set candles, add some jazz music in the background, brought wine out, and always bought flowers for such occasion to add to their night.

They would only have to keep this up for another few weeks. Up until fans of theirs lost interest and moved on to something else. It had to eventually die out... didn’t it? Wrong. Taehyung had been digging through Naver when Nayeon stepped away from the table for something. Articles upon articles he kept stumbling across of now fans looking into Taehyung’s possible relationship. Fans dissecting every picture or video that Taehyung had uploaded on his Instagram over the last few months to the lives he was in. People putting ‘clues’ of things that he said, trying to paint it off that he was seeing someone. Sure, they had a point. A few words he said were indirectly about Nayeon but never did he think some would put it together. 

His confused look now mixed in with him being annoyed as he kept reading through comments. He hardly noticed that Nayeon returned back until she sat down. “This is really getting out of hand. They keep digging into everything” They had been extremely careful that Taehyung was sure that they wouldn’t find anything but he was still annoyed. “Wah, I ... I don’t know if I can keep reading anymore” He chuckled out of frustration and leaned back into his chair. “I’m sure Dispatch is going to be lurking in every block now” He said, his eyes finally leaving the phone to his girlfriend. 

maybenayeon​:

[ ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ ] it was equally terrifying as it was funny how a great time could quickly turn into one of chaos and disarray; at least, that’s how nayeon felt after the events of the maldives trip. what was supposed to be a relaxing, private time for all of the idols who traveled to the beautiful island instantly became a nightmare of sorts once staff began revealing at relationships and hinting at others. in the beginning, nayeon tried her best not to think too deeply about it–choosing to support her friends who had to experience the invasion of their privacy by being there for them and voicing her disapproval of whoever decided to breach the contracts that had placed restrictions on what they could discuss in regards to the idols’ personal lives. 

perhaps it was her naivety that made her believe it, or maybe it was just wishful thinking, but nayeon wasn’t too worried about people finding out about her and taehyung’s relationship–until they were suddenly the ones placed under the scope of fans’ curiosity about whether or not they were seeing anybody. it started out small, with fans flooding the comments of older instagram posts asking if the rumors were true. that was fine, she chose to ignore it as opposed to following the advice of some of her closest staff members and turning the ability to comment off. it wasn’t until they started commenting on specific posts of her where the photo had been taken by someone else behind the camera. they had soon become flooded with more comments wondering who took it instead of the usual well wishes and compliments that her beloved onces left. 

okay, so they guessed she might be dating, and they guessed that taehyung might be dating too… but they couldn’t really confirm it. all they could do was speculate, and nayeon wanted to keep it that way. although, she could admit that she was still a bit worried about someone finding out about them and revealing it to the world the same way they had her friends. it was still a thought on her mind–albeit a small one at the moment–even as she stepped away from the table to grab another napkin. when she returned, nayeon spotted taehyung scrolling through his phone, but she didn’t say anything until he spoke up after she sat back down. 

“it doesn’t seem like it’ll stop anytime soon,” she replied, her lips curling into a frown as she thought about the endless news articles about their fans trying to figure out an aspect of their personal lives that they had decided to keep private in order to protect each other from the inevitable chaos that would ensue if anything got out. “but that’s okay. as long as we continue to play it safe, we’ll be good.” nayeon tried remaining optimistic, reaching over and grabbing her boyfriend’s hand before offering him a reassuring smile. spending time with one another in the comforts of their own apartments wasn’t a foreign concept, they’d done it before. and although nayeon wished they didn’t have to take those precautions, she was willing to play it safe rather than sorry as long as she was with the man she loved.

“i wouldn’t be surprised if they did,” nayeon knew dispatch was willing to go far in order to get the information they wanted, and she knew especially that empathy went out the window when it came to an idol’s sense of normalcy. “i don’t get why people care so much, aren’t we allowed to be happy?” she asked, crossing her arms.

Taehyung struggled with the idol life. It didn’t happen often but whenever it did... it hit him like a ton of bricks. Questioning if he would be better off living life as a farmer instead of being under the scope the majority of the year. He had dating scandals in the past that he would ignore until they went away. There was no need to ‘defend’ himself when the truth would come out that he wasn’t dating anybody. That was until now... where was in a committed relationship and didn’t want to jeopardize losing her to fans digging too deep. He knew that two of his hyungs had their relationships exposed and they didn’t shy away from admitting to the rumors. Taehyung... on the other hand, didn’t want his relationship out there for people to judge or use it as an excuse to come after his girlfriend.

Fans bombarded Twitter, Weverse, Youtube... all to try and get the idol’s attention to their series of questions. People wondering if there was something deeper to photos or videos that he posted over the last few months. How was it possible that they had enough time to dissect a simple picture? Their persistence was bugging him to the point where he wanted to throw his phone out of the window. Then came the anger of who told. Whether it was a staff that had been with them for years or a new one. The company tried to comfort Taehyung and the other members that they would figure out who sold information and to not worry about it. That still didn’t fix anything, Taehyung thought. 

Nayeon’s touch brought him instant comfort. Usually he dealt with being under the scope alone but now he had her. He wasn’t sure if he felt relieved or felt guilty about dragging her into this mess. Had they played safer, they wouldn’t be in this predicament. His fingers laced with hers, giving it a small squeeze when she expressed her optimism. The words made his frown slowly tug into a small smile but it didn’t last long when he remembered how determined people were. “Yeah...” His mind trailed to think back on pictures he had uploaded to Instagram, wondering if any of them were too obvious or if deleting them would be enough evidence that he was dating. 

He propped his elbow on the table and brought his hand up until it was tucked on his chin when he tried to think of the right words to say. “I have no clue. Namjoon hyung told me to ignore it and it would go away. You know how he got caught with the hickey?” Just the statement alone made him crack a smile at how careless they were, let alone how obvious Namjoon was during his live. “He said that they stopped bugging him about it once his and Jisoo noona confirmed things” Taehyung didn’t know if it was because there was already speculation of him dating in the past or if they were much older. 

Taehyung stood up briefly to pull his chair next to Nayeon then sat back down. His hand found hers and he laced their fingers again. “Maybe it won’t be so bad if the world found out...” His wishful thinking won the better of him. Then he remembered how bad things got when people only thought he had a thing with Olivia Rodrigo. “Or it could be a disaster...” he said, his hand giving her a gentle squeeze. His head leaned into her arm for warmth and comfort. 

maybenayeon​:

pressure. it was something that all idols felt eventually, whether it was pressure from their company, from themselves, or from fans. in this case, nayeon was feeling pressure from fans. she knew how they could be, but she didn’t know they would go as far as trying to investigate everything they deemed as ‘suspicious’ because they sensed that she had someone. while she loved them, sometimes she wished that they would get the memo about respecting both her and taehyung’s privacy. having everything overanalyzed to see if they could find out anything made her feel like they were in some sort of trouble–and that’s not how things were supposed to be for them. 

even with the overwhelming amount of chaos that seemed to be surrounding them, nayeon knew she was happiest with taehyung, and she wasn’t going to let this keep her from being optimistic that things will turn out okay for them in the end. things would eventually smooth over, and fans would lose interest in figuring out whether or not they were dating–at least nayeon hoped they would. however, if they didn’t, she was sure that they’d figure something out. it would be alright in the end; it had to be. 

nayeon offered her boyfriend another small smile, the feeling of his hand squeezing hers giving her a sense of comfort that worked to ease the bit of nerves that had risen given their situation. there was relief in knowing that they had each other to lean on while things seemed to get crazy around them–nayeon was certain she’d be able to count on taehyung, and she was going to make sure he could count on her as well. while a part of her felt bad for not being just a bit more careful, she also felt that shouldn’t have to worry about someone–especially a member of their staff–revealing something that was meant for few people to know. the culprit wasn’t from her staff, all the evidence pointed towards someone from bts’s camp given the commonality of whose relationships were revealed or hinted at, but that didn’t stop her from wondering if twice’s staff would eventually do the same. it felt wrong to think that way about people she had known since she joined the group, but after all that happened, she was worried about it whether she wanted to be or not. 

nayeon’s eyes widened at taehyung’s question, and she let out a half surprised, half amused laugh as she tried to process what she had just heard. she knew something had happened, but namjoon? caught with a hickey? in real time? oh, she would definitely tease him about it later. “wah! i wish i got to witness it.” nayeon could only imagine how army reacted to that. it sounded like it would have caused lots of chaos, and perhaps that’s what made it a bit humorous–knowing that her friend had been just a tad incautious of being caught. and on live, no less. “really?” that was a relief, and nayeon was happy to know that her friends were able to confirm their relationship and achieve peace. it made a part of her wonder if she and taehyung would be able to achieve the same result had they decided to announce that they were dating. 

sharing similar thoughts with taehyung wasn’t a new thing for nayeon–there had been plenty of moments where her boyfriend said something she had been thinking of–but this time, hearing his thought made her look up at him with a bit of surprise in her eyes. maybe things wouldn’t be so bad if news of them being together got out, but seeing how fans had been reacting to news about the relationships of bts’s younger members, it didn’t seem likely. nayeon gave taehyung another small smile and used her free hand to gently rub his arm before speaking up. “if the world found out, and it turned into a disaster, i’d feel a bit okay knowing we had each other.” she stated, resting her head on top of his. 

There was a point in Taehyung’s life where he emotionally and mentally shut down. In the start of his idol life, Taehyung could be described as carefree and one that didn’t care what others thought of him. As he grew older, he began to shift which resulted in some hiccups in his friendships. It seemed like any step he made was overanalyzed which was the main reason why he never tried to get involved with anyone. To him, it was easier to stay distant and not date until he was much older. Once Nayeon came along, his mindset quickly changed and he was focused on being happy in the relationship. No worries of getting caught crossed his mind until the first relationship reveal that happened in the Maldives. 

Sooner or later, he knew that the truth would come out. No relationship in the idol world remained a secret for long. Taehyung expected that they still had time before the media found out. All he hoped was that when Army found out that they wouldn’t attack Nayeon the same way the attacked the ones that they thought he was dating. 

The vocalist was always reassured by their team that everyone they hired was cross referenced and dependable. That’s what he wanted to believe when he got to know as many team members as he could. He knew most... if not all the ones he personally met. If any of them were willing to sell information for quick money then who was to say that they would stop there? Not only did he feel betrayed but he wanted to prove to his girlfriend that she had nothing to worry about when she was around their staff. He didn’t want to think about who he could rely on or who to keep an eye on. Did that mean that he couldn’t have a date with his girlfriend besides staying home or until they could find a reliable staff that had been with her team or his for years. 

It felt nice to laugh. Taehyung let an airy laugh when talking about one of his hyungs getting caught with a hickey. “I’ll show you the clip later. Namjoonie-hyung looked like he was a deer in headlights” He hadn’t watched the live when it came out but Namjoon bombarded the group chat in a panic mode about what he should do. Taehyung admitted that it wasn’t funny in the beginning but now that some time had passed... it made him chuckle. It did make Taehyung happy to see how two of his friends could come forward and things work out with them in the end. It gave him hope that maybe... just maybe, things for them would be the same. Sure, Army and Once would freak out as they tried to digest the news. 

Imagining the worst could work. Then when things unraveled... maybe they would know how to handle things. What made him feel relieved was to know that Nayeon wasn’t running out the door. She was here to stay through the ugly times. Taehyung pulled her hand up to his lips then kissed her palm before lacing their fingers together. “Jagi, I would love everyone to know about us. We can be free.” The thought alone had a smile slowly appearing on his face as he imagined getting in the stage of being able to walk out hand in hand. They could appear to events together, Taehyung could post about her without worrying what others would think about. 

“I love Army... but I know how some would be aggressive and cruel. And I’m okay with being the one hurt. I can take it if it’s just me... but I can’t... I wouldn’t feel good knowing that someone would do anything or say anything to you. I love you too much.” Taehyung’s smile drooped some when he glanced over at her. He had been so invested in picturing the worst that he hadn’t realized that he admitted that he loved her. It was a few seconds when he registered what he said. He took a loose strand that she had and pushed it behind her ear. “I don’t know if I’ve said it yet but I’m madly in love with you.”

maybenayeon​:

laughter was good for the heart. it was something nayeon had heard others say a lot over the years, and while she usually understood the words and their meaning, she especially understood them now as she found herself laughing along with taehyung over their friend and brother’s mishap on live. the heaviness that had started to weigh on her heart from all of the chaos surrounding them began to slowly dissipate the more she laughed, leaving nayeon feeling lighter, and much calmer on the inside than she previously had been. “now i really can’t wait to see it.” she replied. nayeon already knew that after she watched it she’d call namjoon and jisoo and crack a few jokes before formally congratulating the pair on their announcement. 

like most of her members, nayeon was equally outgoing as she was reserved; there were some things in her life that she’d speak on with no hesitation, and there were others that she preferred to keep to herself. it was the exact same for her relationship–although she was beyond proud to say she was dating taehyung, there was a level of peace that she wanted to keep for his sake, and hers. however, now that relationships were being revealed and hinted at, she was starting to wonder if ripping the band-aid off and telling her fans that she was happily in a relationship was such a bad idea after all.  

as with anything, there was an upside to the option, and a downside as well; on one side, if nayeon and taehyung revealed their relationship, not only would they be free to go out in public, but they would also gain the upperhand on whoever had been revealing information about the relationships of their friends. the other side was a bit more tricky, and a lot riskier; any initial shock from some army and once could turn into anger pretty quickly. that would open the floodgates for the two of them to get attacked from all sides, and the last thing nayeon wanted was for her boyfriend to be the target of hate comments. 

however, as she sat with taehyung, the familiar feeling of safety and comfort washed over her. she smiled at his act of affection and listened intently as he spoke, nodding along with every word to emphasize that she heard him and what he was saying. she was gearing up to cut him off; to say that she wouldn’t let anybody hurt him and that she’d rather it be her taking the brunt of the hatred that came their way, but five words strung together into a sentence made her stop before anything could come out. her eyes met her boyfriend’s, and nayeon remained still as she felt taehyung push the strand of hair behind her ear–although she was almost certain he could probably hear the way her heart was hammering in her chest as she processed what he said. 

he loved her. it was enough to make her cry, especially since nayeon knew that she felt the same way; it would have only been a matter of time before she’d let the magic words slip, but now that’d he’d beaten her to the finish line, she was feeling relieved that she hadn’t. not because she didn’t love him–she loved taehyung a lot–but because nayeon didn’t realize how much nicer the words sounded coming from him. they sounded even more special than she could have imagined, perhaps that was why she had begun crying without realizing it. “i–jagi…” nayeon started, placing a hand on her cheek.  “i love you too,” she used her hand to quickly swipe away her tears before smiling widely and gently pecking his lips. “i love you so much, no matter what happens or what anyone says, i’ll be okay. as long as i’ve got you, i know i can handle anything.” 

Laughter was needed in this moment. Not only did he find it humorous that one of his hyungs got caught with the hickey but there had been a handful of jokes that army made about it as well. He knew he shouldn’t laugh at some of them but they were too funny that it was nearly impossible to keep it in. “Namjoonie-hyung said it was from crossfit... and now army is dragging the joke” The corner of his eyes had developed some water but not from the sadness but how comical it all sounded now that he was explaining it to his girlfriend. Already, Taehyung had taken it upon himself to forward some of the Twitter memes and Tiktoks that he found hilarious to the group chat to share his findings. He would admit that it did help push through the headache that this caused. 

Some of the reason why Taehyung had a hard time falling asleep was by how much he overthought certain situations. Multiple scenarios played in his head of how the world would react to his relationship status with Nayeon. Whether they would immediately accept them or harass them to the point where it would mentally exhaust them. Taehyung had seen how some couples didn’t push through after Dispatch announced idols or actors dating that he was terrified that the same would apply to them. Nights when he didn’t spend with Nayeon would be the nights that he would overthink until the sun rose. 

Deep down, Taehyung knew how much Army loved them. He was fully aware that they wanted nothing but the best for all seven guys. However, he also knew that there was a group of people who painted themselves to be fans but throw only toxicity towards any friend that the guys made. It was why Taehyung tried not to hang out with any female friends... or when he did, it was mostly in secret. Female staff had to be protected more than the others by blurring out their faces on camera or having them be fully clothed in order to shield them from the hate from the outside world. And if that’s what happened to people he wasn’t romantically involved with... he couldn’t begin to imagine what they would say or do to Nayeon. 

Part of the reason why Taehyung loved Nayeon was because she was strong. There was no doubting that. He knew that she could defend herself if anyone did say a hateful thing towards her but he felt sick to his stomach when he thought about it for too long. She was too precious for this world to receive an ounce of hate. While he wasn’t much of a fighter, he would protect her with all that he could because he was madly in love with her.

Taehyung knew that he had fallen in love with her when she surprised him on his birthday. Waking up to the beautiful setup she did was what sealed the deal for him. Now he wasn’t too sure why he hadn’t said anything earlier. Taehyung’s heart quickly thumped at the sound of her saying it back to him. His face slowly switched from a frown into his soft features the longer he looked at her. Even now as he watched her, he could feel his heart racing faster than before. His eyes matched hers as they gathered some water but he was wanting to cry from happiness instead of the usual sadness he felt when crying. “Yah, Jagiya,..” He wanted to disagree and say that she shouldn’t have to be put through the wringer because of him but he didn’t want to ruin the moment. Cupping his hand on her other cheek, he leaned in to kiss her lips softly then pecked her forehead. “I love you,” he repeated a little softer than before. “You’ll always have me. Whatever comes our way, I’ll be there to fight off anyone for you.” He pulled her towards him until she sat on his lap and he wrapped his arms around her waist. 

maybenayeon​:

“you can rest too, you know.” nayeon stated, looking over at taehyung as she got comfortable in bed. “i don’t want you to worry about me too much.” after nearly drowning while enjoying a jet ski ride with eunha, nayeon was instructed by a doctor to rest for a few days–just until they were sure there were no lingering effects of the terrifying ordeal. taehyung had decided to take on the responsibility of caring for her, and while nayeon loved her boyfriend and appreciated what he was doing for her–she wanted him to relax.

the couple had been together long enough that nayeon knew he was harboring guilt over what happened; naively, she thought that once he saw that she was alright it would subside and things would go back to normal, but it was starting to seem like that wasn’t the case. especially once she realized that he would move to help her even with the things she was capable of doing herself. at first, nayeon hadn’t planned on saying anything–she didn’t want her boyfriend to think she was trying to fuss at him–but now she knew that if she didn’t at least offer an alternative solution, taehyung would tire himself out worrying about her.

“i can even help. that way, you won’t have to do so much and you’ll be able to enjoy the rest of the trip.” she suggested, offering taehyung a gentle smile. “i’m okay.”

@winterbeav​

“I do have to worry” A gentle frown curved on Taehyung’s face when hearing that he could rest. The action seemed impossible to do after Nayeon’s incident. Guilt and worried had formed into a monster in his stomach when hearing about nearly losing Nayeon to an accident with Eunha. He felt guilty not being there, worried that something would snatch her from his reach if he looked away longer than a few minutes. If he had to pamper her and seem like an extreme and obsessive boyfriend for the remaining part of the trip... and maybe even after, then he would do it in a heartbeat to make sure that her needs were being met. 

Taehyung was just about to sit next to Nayeon when he adjusted the pillow for her and tugged the blanket just enough to reach over her chest. He swept her loose hair behind her ear and leaned in just enough to press a kiss against her forehead then sat next to her on the bed. “Jagiya, This is where I want to be for the remaining part of the trip.” He said without skipping a beat and reached to grab her hand. 

“I have to be by your side in case if anything else tries to grab you” Taehyung sad smile appeared on his lips when he met her eyes and let in a soft sigh before he cleared his throat from getting emotional. “Do you want me to order anything? Or grab you anything else?”

As extroverted as Taehyung was, he still preferred to be indoors with his girlfriend. If this had been a normal day, then he would have suggested to take a walk or picked a fun activity from the brochures they were given. But since the doctor had recommended Nayeon about staying resting, Taehyung was perfectly fine where he was. Any of his friends understood his want to sit alongside his girlfriend without him having to explain himself. “I’m not being holed up anywhere. I love spending time with you.” And that part was the truth. Taehyung tightened his grip on her hand to reassure her this was the place he wanted to stay at and there was nothing she would say or do to make him change his mind. He slipped his arm under her head to provide her support and leaned into the bed in the attempt to get comfortable without having to move her too much. 

“How are you doing?” He asked after a short moment of silence. Taehyung was fortunate enough never to experience how terrifying it was to be under water for too long. There had always been people surrounding him when he was in the water that he could depend on when exploring the open seas. There had been some stories he heard of others how scary the situation was and he felt like he couldn’t do anything to make it go away for Nayeon. All he wanted was to keep her safe but he felt like he failed miserably by not being there. “You scared me, Jagi” He turned his head to kiss the top of her head and brought her closer so that he was fully holding her now. 

As extroverted as Taehyung was, he still preferred to be indoors with his girlfriend. If this had been a normal day, then he would have suggested to take a walk or picked a fun activity from the brochures they were given. But since the doctor had recommended Nayeon about staying resting, Taehyung was perfectly fine where he was. Any of his friends understood his want to sit alongside his girlfriend without him having to explain himself. “I’m not being holed up anywhere. I love spending time with you.” And that part was the truth. Taehyung tightened his grip on her hand to reassure her this was the place he wanted to stay at and there was nothing she would say or do to make him change his mind. He slipped his arm under her head to provide her support and leaned into the bed in the attempt to get comfortable without having to move her too much. 

“How are you doing?” He asked after a short moment of silence. Taehyung was fortunate enough never to experience how terrifying it was to be under water for too long. There had always been people surrounding him when he was in the water that he could depend on when exploring the open seas. There had been some stories he heard of others how scary the situation was and he felt like he couldn’t do anything to make it go away for Nayeon. All he wanted was to keep her safe but he felt like he failed miserably by not being there. “You scared me, Jagi” He turned his head to kiss the top of her head and brought her closer so that he was fully holding her now. 

maybenayeon​:

 “i love you.” the words left the idol’s lips with no hesitation as she looked up at taehyung and gave him an appreciative smile. while she still had wished the incident never happened and that the two of them weren’t confined to their suite for the time being, nayeon was grateful to have her boyfriend there with her. if it had been just her, nayeon probably would have gone crazy from her own boredom or something. plus, she knew that if he wasn’t there to watch over her, she more than likely would have spent all day trying to sleep the time away in hopes that when she finally woke up things had gotten better. 

“i’m alright, my chest hurts a little but other than that i’m physically fine. otherwise, i’m just a little shaken up is all.” shaken up was the best way she could describe her emotional state; there was relief that eunha was okay, that she was okay, but the fact the two of them had to face that situation in the first place was scary enough. add in the fact that she wasn’t sure what happened between the time she fell off the jet ski and when she woke up after being resuscitated on someone’s boat, it was a recipe for distress. despite her own feelings, she worried most for her boyfriend. “i’m sorry,” she replied, burying her face into his neck. “the waves were so big and i just.. it got crazy really fast.” she tried to explain. 

"And I love you”. The words came effortlessly that it was the equivalent to breathing. What started as a crush had now developed into a deep love that the vocalist had never felt for anyone else. Nayeon now had become his everything over the course of their relationship and he would do anything to keep her safe. It was why he did his best to hide from the media that they were dating. It was the fear of how the world would react and he was too afraid to find out what people were capable of. Seeing how his members dealt with their exposure of their relationship was enough to keep Taehyung extra cautious and do his best to protect his girlfriend any way he could. And still, he failed by not being there for her that day. 

His chest tightened at her words. He couldn’t begin to imagine how terrifying everything must have been for her. Had she not been pulled up in time was striking a nerve that Taehyung didn’t think he had. He tightened his hold on her, pulling her close that his lips reached the top of her head and his hand began to rub her shoulder. “Shh, you don’t have to apologize. I’m not blaming you or Eunha. I’m relieved that you’re okay and that you’re here.” He inhaled deeply as he closed his eyes to get rid of any tears that managed to come out. “Now I don’t want to let you go” A soft chuckle came out as he said it knowing he might sound slightly posessive but he was afraid that he would lose her the moment he let go. 

maybenayeon​:

it was amazing how hearing taehyung say he loved her made nayeon’s heart skip a beat every single time; anybody would assume that after the first few times of saying it, that the words, while still meaningful, would lose the initial spark. that wasn’t the case for nayeon–anytime her boyfriend said those three words to her–whether she said first or he did, it always made her feel the same way it did the very first time she heard it: as if she was floating on the clouds. the comfort she felt from those words were almost enough to make her forget about the small tinge of pain she’d felt in her chest. nayeon loved taehyung, and she knew nothing would change that.

that was why she was more worried about him than she was herself. that’s why she was truly apologizing, because even if it happened unintentionally, she never wanted to scare him the way she had. nodding slowly, nayeon gently placed her hand on top of tae’s, squeezing it slightly as a way to show him that everything was okay. “a part of me blames myself,” she admitted, but she was quick to skip over the thought. “but i know i can’t control the ocean.” taehyung’s chuckle caused nayeon to let out one of her own, and she gave him a look of understanding before running her fingers through his hair. “i can’t say i’m unhappy with that.” while she had been trying to lighten up the mood, nayeon was also being honest. she wasn’t mad that tae wanted to remain by her side at all times–especially when she knew that if things were the other way around she’d feel the same. “it’ll be like having my own koala.”

Perfectly happy in the relationship and Taehyung still had the fear of what the public would react if things got released. Would it only be a matter of time before their love would be leaked or would he accidentally slip one day? It rattled his brain to think if it would be best to rip off the bandaid and be the first ones to leak that information themselves. There was one thing that he was confident about in his life and that was his love for Nayeon. He knew early on in their relationship that this wouldn’t be a fling. Their love had deepened enough that Taehyung could imagine a full life with her. From moving in together to the possibility of marriage or something as small like adopting a pet together. All thoughts that he kept quiet in his head all because he didn’t want to scare her away. Slow steps, he tried to remind himself. The first thing on their list should be to announce their relationship but he had no idea how to do that while keeping his girlfriend safe from the hate. 

“If you blame yourself then add me on that list too because I could have been there” His small pout appeared even in his voice when he said the words. While he wasn’t there, he did feel partially responsible. Only Nayeon had the ability to bring an effortless smile on his face at the comparison of being a koala. “I can be a great koala” He slightly turned so that they were hugging and he took the time to bury his face into her neck briefly. He took some time to melt into the moment. “Jagi” he started quietly. “I want you forever” he kissed her shoulder blade before he pulled away enough so that he could look at her. “And I would like the world to know that too... I know I said I wanted to keep things from everyone but I’m always afraid that they’re going to catch on one day... and I want us to be in control of that. I want to be able to go out with you whenever and not worry about if cameras are around. Do you think we can slowly tell fans about us?” 

maybenayeon​:

nayeon’s life changed the moment she and taehyung began dating; any happiness she felt within was multiplied by 100 whenever she was by his side. as their relationship progressed, the love nayeon had for her boyfriend continued to deepen with each passing day. it got to a point where she’d find herself envisioning a future with him–one that included the idea of them being happily married. in a perfect world, she would have been able to share such a beautiful time in her life with no worry of any negative reactions. sadly, the world wasn’t fair– fear of how others would react to their relationship kept nayeon from saying anything–especially when she knew how cruel people could be; she wasn’t going to place taehyung in the line of fire. she couldn’t. 

“how about we both try not to blame ourselves?” nayeon bargained, gently squeezing her boyfriend’s cheeks. a content sigh left her lips as she held onto taehyung, the feeling of being in his arms and him in hers bringing back that familiar comfort. the accident, as terrifying as it was, caused a shift in nayeon that she couldn’t quite explain. but the answer seemed to magically appear as she listened to taehyung’s words, her eyes softening once she realized what he said. the small smile that graced her features slowly turned into a wider one as nayeon turned to fully face her boyfriend. “forever with you sounds like the perfect life to me.” she replied, her hands coming up to carefully hold his face. she took a moment to stare into his eyes before speaking up. “nothing would make me happier than to be able to tell fans how happy you make me, let’s do it.”

The accident terrified him. Things would have been different had things gone south. All of the brightness in his world would have disappeared forever had the water swallowed her whole. It wasn’t a thought that he wanted to think about longer than a few seconds because anytime he did, he felt his chest tightening. Now that she was in his arms, he couldn’t let go. He didn’t want to pull away from her because anytime he did, he would worry that she would slip between his fingers. This incident had Taehyung rethinking the choice he made months ago about hiding their relationship. Too afraid of the hatred that would be sent towards someone so perfect or worried that the world would try to rip them apart. The deeper he fell in love, the more he envision a life with Nayeon. He wanted to come home knowing that she would be on the other side of the door or he waiting on her arrival. 

He easily agreed though he was still silently blaming himself but he usually melted to her words. Though it wasn’t nearly a proposal, he felt like there was a promise set in place. His heart belonged to her and he had hers. Baby steps, Taehyung repeated. It took every bit not to openly say how badly he wanted to marry and have a family with her. It was her gentle touch on his face that pulled him back to reality instead of losing himself to the future he pictured with her. He smiled, now lost in her eyes as he nodded. “We’ll do that then. One day we’ll be able to walk down the street and I can hold you in my arms” He tightened his arm around her waist and leaned his cheek into her hand. “You’re my everything, Jagi. Our lives together is just starting. I can feel it.” 

Taehyung felt more at ease after the conversation he and Nayeon had about slowly revealing their relationship with the world. Now the vocalist wasn’t constantly worrying about looking over his shoulder whenever he wanted to have an afternoon out with his girlfriend. He even flew into Los Angeles to hide in the crowds in order to experience Nayeon on the stage during Twice’s concert. A face mask, beanie, jeans, and a dark hoodie was the outfit he chose to be in disguise. While his security guards highly suggested to enjoy the show from a private viewing such as backstage or....anywhere else, Taehyung happily took his spot on middle section of the SoFi stadium. Was it dangerous? Maybe. Did he regret it? Not at all. He did his best to blend in when his team constantly had to remind him to not be as obvious. It didn’t last long when he was dancing around and cheering the loudest for Nayeon when he could. 

Now that he survived such a night, he was walking hand in hand with Nayeon on the streets of Los Angeles the following day. Somehow, Taehyung convinced their team to keep a bigger distance from them and allow them some privacy. A light breeze gave Taehyung the excuse to slip his arm around Nayeon and pulled her closer. He could hear his team disapproving in his head. But he brushed the thought away not a second later. “Do you want some ice cream? It’ll be my treat” He wasn’t craving anything sweet at the moment but he wanted a reason to sit down with his girlfriend somewhere and let her know what had been on his mind since the trip to Spain. 

@maybenayeon​

maybenayeon​:​

things were different once they returned from spain; the worry that lingered over nayeon like a dark cloud had been replaced with an air of confidence as she and taehyung began to hint at their relationship to the world. even though they were starting out small, nayeon felt happy being able to do things like posting pictures of them together–even if nobody saw their faces. not having to worry about someone from dispatch spotting them and revealing their relationship to everyone before they could allowed her to enjoy every moment she spent with her boyfriend without that nagging feeling deep down. one of those moments included taehyung attending twice’s concert at sofi stadium; the excitement nayeon felt about having him there was obvious from the way her eyes continuously scanned the audience to see if she could spot him at all. 

after a fun night with her sister, fans, and boyfriend under one roof, nayeon was finally able to spend some time alone with tae–an activity that had been temporarily paused due to the last few preparations for twice’s shows. as the two of them enjoyed the beauty of la, nayeon couldn’t help but smile at the fact it felt as if they were a normal couple out and about. even though their team was there too, them not being a mere few feet behind them like always helped. nayeon wrapped her arms around taehyung’s waist once he pulled her closer and internally laughed at the fact her manager was probably panicking at such a public display of affection before looking up at her boyfriend. “i can never say no to ice cream.” she replied, nodding. 

Now that the couple began to drop Easter eggs on social media, Taehyung was slightly kicking his past self for not beginning this journey sooner. How much easier had these last months been had he listened to Nayeon’s words when the information of couples began to leak? He could have been enjoying days out with his girlfriend without worrying whether or not Dispatch were capturing pictures of the two. This was good, though. He was a little late but at least he was able to fly in to see Nayeon on stage and be a supportive boyfriend from the audience which was something he wanted to do since the start of their relationship. While he would have preferred to go all out by wearing a “I Heart my Girlfriend” shirt... him dancing, singing, and cheering for her was good enough for him. He hadn’t bothered to check social media if anyone spotted him but his guards were confident that no one noticed him. 

The streets of Los Angeles were too busy that chances were nobody noticed a pair of idols clinging to each other as they walked. Maybe it was his hair dye that helped his disguise or he had convinced himself that they were blending in perfectly. Whatever it was had given Taehyung enough confidence to lean down to kiss Nayeon on top of her head once her arms made it around his waist. He surely would be getting an earful from his team once they returned to the hotel. “Then ice cream it is” He smiled when they made it to the store and he opened the door for her and allowed her to go first to not have to squeeze in through the door. The location seemed slightly empty with a few families and other couples sitting in the booths. Once inside, he wrapped his arms around her from behind without much thought and glanced up at the menu. “I don’t know if I want a cone or have it in a cup... hmmm. What are you getting?” Tae’s eyes searched the list for the flavors. 

maybenayeon​:

better late than never. the saying had become one of nayeon’s favorites in recent times, and it was even more applicable as her and taehyung’s relationship continued to progress. while she had moments where she wondered why they hadn’t tried this method of revealing their relationship a long time ago, nayeon couldn’t be mad at the route they initially decided to take. it was done out of love and care for the other’s safety, and if there was ever a time where it was the only option available to them, she knew she wouldn’t mind doing it again if it meant keeping her boyfriend out of harm’s way. the only thing that truly mattered now was that they were happy, and soon enough the world would know it too. 

most people would say that los angeles was where any star could be easily spotted, but luckily for nayeon and taehyung, it seemed like nobody noticed the two of them in a crowd of who knows how many on the busy street. either that or those who did realize who they were didn’t care enough to make a big deal of it–the way it should be. nayeon couldn’t help but grin as she continued to hang onto taehyung, giving him a kiss on the cheek in return before resuming her position of clinging to her boyfriend. once they made it to the ice cream shop, nayeon thanked taehyung as she walked inside and looked around. it wasn’t as busy as she would expect it to be in the afternoon, not that she was complaining. there seemed to be the perfect amount of customers that it gave off a calmer atmosphere. nayeon placed her hands on top of tae’s after feeling them wrap around her, and she hummed as she looked over the menu. “i did say that when i returned, i’d try their matcha ice cream to see if it’s as good as the one back home… so i’ll get that one in a cup. not as messy.” she looked up at taehyung and gently squished his face in her hands. “what about you?”

The universe was working overtime to allow the idols to be amongst the crowd. Taehyung argued that it was for their disguise even though it was his hair color and he was underdressed that was different. Any fan that looked close enough could tell the two from a mile away but that scenario wasn’t playing in his head like it normally would. The sooner the world knew then the quicker he would be able to freely roam any street with Nayeon by his side. Still, his staff and company were very much against the idea seeing that he was one of the last of his members to be in a public relationship. He was sure that their companies would give anything to go back to the days when they didn’t talk about anyone from the opposite sex. Heaven forbid he even glance in their direction before Dispatch and fans were trying to put pieces of a puzzle that didn’t exist. And now that he was giving legit clues... most weren’t putting two and two together. 

Part of his brain was telling him to be careful and not be so loud with the actions he was doing. Such as now when he had his arms wrapped around Nayeon and standing in a ice cream shop where fans could be hiding anywhere inside. Instead, his focus was on looking at choices of ice cream flavors and wondering if he wanted to play it safe or get a bolder choice. “Hmm, matcha ice cream” His eyes lightened at the flavor. Chances were that they would exchange a few spoonfuls once they got their order that Taehyung tried to pull his attention from Nayeon’s pick to another. “...I might try...” He stopped mid-sentence to smile at the feel of her squishing his face and he quickly tilted his head to lightly nibble on her hand. His intrusive thoughts always won over everything else. He then took her hand to give it a few pecks to cure whatever nibble he took even though there was no power behind the bite. “I’ll get the oreo and taro... hm, in a waffle cone or cup” He was still indecisive about which choice but still moved forward when the small line moved in. “Who’s going to order? Rock, paper, scissors on who does” He put out his hand balled into a fist to show he was ready for the game. 

maybenayeon​:

nayeon came a long way; going from having a three year ban when it came to dating when she first started out, to avoiding being seen with a male idol out of fear of a potential scandal, to now willingly and openly enjoying a day out with her boyfriend was a great feeling. despite the suggestions from staff and others within their companies to continue keeping their relationship hidden from fans, nayeon was on the same page as taehyung to do what they wanted and not what everyone else wanted. besides, seeing some of her closest friends able to openly express their love for one another made her realize that she and tae deserved to be able to do so, too. now was their chance, and even if fans weren’t catching onto them just yet, nayeon knew that it was only a matter of time before they did. 

a playful gasp followed by a series of giggles escaped nayeon’s lips as she felt taehyung playfully nip at her fingers, and she smiled slightly once he cured her imaginary injury before turning back to the menu. “oreo and taro sounds good. you should get it in a cone, but they might give you more if it’s in a bowl.” nayeon replied after a moment of silence, following her boyfriend’s movement toward the front as customers ahead of them moved forward. once she heard tae’s suggestion to play rock, paper, scissors, nayeon turned around to face him and placed her newly balled fist out in front of them so he could see that she was also ready to play. “alright, ready? rock, paper, scissors!” she stated, her voice raising slightly towards the end as she held up two fingers to symbolize the imaginary weapon that she decided on. 

It was an odd time in Taehyung’s life. Different emotions of happiness played into his life because of the relationship he was in along with the times that he had with his friends but he also felt slightly upset knowing that the end of the year would put a slight pause into his life. There was still so much that he wanted to do, and now he felt like he was running against the clock so he could still enjoy moments like these. A simple day out with his girlfriend that he wanted to stretch out a bit longer. He had never felt so sure about something in his life but now came the difficult part of telling Nayeon all about his plans. How he wanted to move in together and how he saw her in his future regardless of the busy schedules they both had. She was it for him and nobody could convince him otherwise. And while he didn’t know her exact response, he knew that she loved him just the same which built the courage in him. 

“I’ll get it in a cup then. Less messy and more ice cream” The cone wouldn’t be a bad idea either but he didn’t want to accidentally spill some on his shirt in the middle of their conversation. He took a few steps forward, eyes still glued on the menu like if it was going to change on him. “Okay, let’s go” Any kid’s game brought a smile on his face. His eyes now drawn to their hands on how serious he was about to take this. All the love he had for Nayeon was on a small pause now that a game was in question. “Rock, paper, scissors!” He said along before he flattened his hand to show the paper. “Aiiiiish” He mumbled under his breath at the loss. He waddled up to the counter now that it was their turn. It took him a few seconds to remember certain words in English before he began ordering. “1 matcha cup. 1 taro oreo cup.” He paused to think over what he said or wait for the cashier’s instructions  “That’s it” He hummed then glanced over at Nayeon. “Am I forgetting anything?”