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coming back here momentarily to say fuck taeil and fuck men. i hope the victim gets the justice they deserve. and a reminder to stop scheming and stop theorizing and stop worrying about anything other than the victim who was sexually assaulted and will have to live with that for the rest of their life. it’s insensitive to ask for the victim’s story or the victim’s ‘side’ because that person owes nothing to the public and most certainly owes nothing to people/fans who treat this as a ‘kpop scandal.’ always believe victims of sexual assault, too many of them go unnoticed

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☆ — i don't have a schedule for my posts since i write for fun!!! i'm a graduating college student, so i want to avoid burnouts especially with writing being one of my coping mechanisms.

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☆ — requests are always open! (no smut and no rush reqs pls) (i love song reqs hehe esp taylor swift songs)

yuta

☆ — promise ring

jaehyun

☆ — champagne problems

☆ — october 13

☆ — birthday morning

☆ — this is the end (part 1) begin again (part 2)

mark

☆ — fearless

☆ — labyrinth

☆ — touch

jeno

☆ — countdown

☆ — pretty sure

haechan

☆ — at your party

☆ — attention

jaemin

☆ — a week at the cafe

☆ — be healthy

begin again

word count: 1.5k+ pairing: jae? x reader notes: part two for this is the end. hope you like this <3 not proofread.

after jaehyun went live to confirm the news, you hurriedly unblocked him. calling his number with the hope of trying to undo both of your actions, but he didn’t answer. you felt devastated. it felt like the world was against you, against the both of you. so, you blocked him again. trying to accept the fact that it is really over. the love story you created is over.

six months after.

“where are you going?” nara, your friend and now roommate, asks. “meeting up with someone. might not be home tonight though, so don’t wait up,” you tell her. nara raises her eyebrows, skeptical on who her friend was meeting, but she brushed it off, deciding it’s better to let you enjoy life especially with what went down. “okay, just stay safe and call me if you need anything!” she says. “thank you! i’ll be going now. bye!”

you were in delightful bakery, ordering the delicious bread they have, until you hear your phone notification.

jae: hey, where are you? want me to pick you up? you: it’s fine. wanted to walk around before heading to yours anyway. im in a bakery, do you want anything? jae: just your presence is enough <3

you giggle to yourself, placing your phone back in your bag and getting the bags of bread you ordered. it was a lovely day, the sky was bluer than ever and the sun was shining the right amount of beams.

you never really expected to begin again after what went down months ago, but you’re glad you’re in a happy place now. you never expected for it to get better, but it did.

flashback: six months before.

you were a crying mess. you didn’t understand how jaehyun could easily let you go. after everything you’ve gone through, you expected him to put up a fight for you. you guess, not everyone and everything is what they seem.

it’s been a few weeks since the tragic day. you were walking to your favorite bakery, delightful bakery, until you heard someone call your name. “y/n!” you look back, seeing mark and jaemin. “oh, hey guys.” “i didn’t expect to see you here. what are you up to?” mark asks. you smile at him, “about to buy some bread. have you tried their bread? it’s really good.” both of the boys shake their heads, and you playfully gasp. “if you are both free, i’ll let you try some,” you tell them. “aw, i actually have to go right now. i have a solo schedule. maybe next time?” mark says, and you frown a bit before smiling again, telling him it’s fine. “i can come. i’m free today,” jaemin says. you smile at him, excited to make him try your favorite bread. as shallow as it sounds, it’s nice to hang out with someone after what you’ve been through. while you’re glad your friends have been trying to comfort you, you can’t deny how busy they really are, and disturbing them is the last thing you wanted to do. it may be weird hanging with someone close to jaehyun, but they don’t deserve to be shunned for what happened between jaehyun and you.

“so, how is it?” you ask him. “it’s really good! you were right,” he tells you, taking another bite. “that’s good to hear. they make the best bread, that’s why i try to go here early because it gets sold out immediately,” you explain. he nods, munching on his bread. “so, how are you?” he asks. you knew what he was pertaining to. “i’ve been fine, really. could be better, but hey this is life,” you shrug. “it will get better,” he tells you.

present time.

you knock on his door, looking around the hallways, you spot a painting that strikingly looks like the honeysuckle bower.

“hey there,” he greets you, bringing you closer to him with a soft kiss on your forehead. “i bought some bread,” you tell him, raising the bags you were carrying. “my favorite!” he beams. you place the bread on the table, preparing the utensils and plate for the both of you. “did nara ask where you were going?” he asks, taking a bite off his bread. “yeah, told her i was meeting someone.” “just someone?” he raises his eyebrows at you. you giggle at his antics, going near him to give him a kiss until he jokingly pulled away. “love!” you raise your voice, “wanted to kiss you,” you pout. he gasps, “kiss? aren’t you moving too fast, miss?” he playfully banters. you laugh, slapping his arm gently, attempting to kiss him again. “miss? i don’t think this is something you should be doing to just someone,” he says. you roll your eyes, “love, come on!” he laughs at you, quickly giving you a kiss on your lips. when he pulls away, you tug his shirt. “one more kiss,” you smile.

“well, i guess i could do that for my fiancé, right?” he says, before cupping your face, and giving you a kiss for a lifetime.

flashback: six months before.

“i hope it does get better,” you say softly, looking down on your empty plate. “y/n,” you hear a familiar voice. your brain is missing with you, you think. you look up, expecting jaemin to say something. “y/n…” you hear again, following the sound, you look back and see jaehyun standing. “i’ll be going now. thank you for the food, y/n.” jaemin says, giving jaehyun a pat on the back as he leaves. “hi,” jaehyun says. you were too stunned to speak. how was he here? when he figures you were not going to say anything in any second, he decided to quickly sit down in front of you. “i miss you,” he tells you. you felt tears starting to well up on your eyes. he smiles, quickly wiping them away. “mark told me he saw you here, and that you were with jaemin, so i messaged him to keep you here,” he explained. “wanted to talk to you,” he continued. “i am so sorry for how everything went. you do know that i love you, right? i just thought that, at that time, it was what you wanted, but i understand now,” he says. when you don’t respond, he grows worried, evident on his features that were slowly going down. when you notice this, you quickly grab his hand that was fidgeting on the table, and you saw how his face lit up from that simple action. “i’m sorry it took so long. i know it’s not an excuse, but work held me back. i have a short break, and dream had activities here, so i decided to come along in hopes of getting to talk to you.” “jaehyun…” you speak. “do you want to head to the car for some privacy?” he says, knowing exactly that you were growing uncomfortable with the amount of people around you. you nod, letting him take the lead.

“i missed you so much,” you say, quickly giving him a hug. “i am so sorry, jae. you know i don’t hate you, right? i love you so much. ” you tell him, cringing at the memory of you telling him you hated him. “i know. i love you too. we were just stupid, we’re all good now, right?” he asks, and you nod.  “those weeks without you were the death of me, y/n.” he says, giving you a kiss.

flashback: a month before the present time.

jaemin was right. it does get better, and this was better than ever.  

“y/n, will you marry me?” jaehyun asks, you quickly tug his arms to make him stand. giving him the biggest hug and kisses you could ever give. “yes! yes! yes!” you repeat.  

when the both of you calmed down. you caressed your ring finger, smiling to yourself. “love, when should we tell our friends that we are back together?” he asks. “hmm, i don’t know,” you tell him. when you got back together, you both decided to keep your relationship a secret with only a few knowing. mark, jaemin, and taeyong knew since it’s thanks to them you both were together again. some important people in the company knew to avoid any rumors and news to come out. “i really like how private our relationship is for now, it feels like it’s just the both of us in this world,” you say. “it’s a breath of fresh air without people following us around,” he agrees. “whenever and whatever you want, i’ll be here love.”

present time.

in a stunning turn of events, beloved couple jeong jaehyun and y/n have taken the world by surprise with their recent engagement. the couple has come to social media, posting a photo of both their hands intertwined with a ring. 

fans are eagerly awaiting for further details about their wedding, however the couple has remained silent. a source close to the couple revealed that they are planning to keep this cherished moment private just like how they did the previous months.

the surprise engagement marks a triumphant moment for the couple demonstrating the power of their love. we wish them happiness and everlasting love as they embark on the new chapter of their love story.

i was just wondering if we'll ever have a pt.2 of the last jaehyun break up angst??

i am planning on writing another part! but idk when i’ll post it i was actually going to make it into something longer but i shut down midway T_T

this is the end

pairing: jeong jaehyun x reader

word count: 2.3k

sm entertainment has confirmed that jeong jaehyun and y/n have broken up. the news has left many fans expressing their sadness and concern for the couple who had been together for six years. since the announcement of their relationship, the couple had captured the support of fans.

while sm entertainment has confirmed the breakup, the reasons behind it remain unknown. fans are left wondering what could have caused the sudden split, with many taking to social media to speculate and share their theories.

both jaehyun and y/n have yet to comment on the situation.

As jaehyun landed at the airport, he was met with a barrage of questions from fans and reporters about his recent breakup with y/n”

“jaehyun!” “jaehyun, is it true? you and y/n have broken up?” “jaehyun! what was the reason for your breakup?”

jaehyun tried to cover his face with his cap and walked quickly to his van, to his surprise, taeyong was already there waiting for him. “hey, are you okay” taeyong asks. jaehyun shook his head,  tears starting to form in the corner of his eyes. “hyung…” he starts, but all he could do was cry.

when they arrived at the dorm, taeyong contemplated on sending you a message to see how you were doing, but before he could, jaehyun sat down next to him. “hyung, i love her so much, but i think this is really the end of it.” jaehyun tells him, staring at the wall in front of him. “i doubt she wants to see me again. there’s no going back,” he continues. “jaehyun, what happened to the both of you? last time i talked to her, she was so happy to see you visiting her in america,” taeyong asked, confused on the sudden change of your relationship.

 jaehyun looks at taeyong with tears in his eyes. “it’s my fault.”

flashback.

knock knock.

“who is it?” you scream, walking towards the door. to your surprise, you saw your boyfriend, jaehyun, on the other side of the door. you squeal in delight, jumping in his arms. “my love! what are you doing here?” you say, giving him kisses all over his face. “calm down, love.” he chuckles, walking inside and placing you on the couch. “we are on a break right now, and they allowed me to visit you. surprise?” he says, and all you could do is smile and give him kisses. “i love you so much,” you say. “i love you more.”

it's been days since jaehyun visited you, and your parents have invited you both to a family gathering. “do i look okay?” he asks you. kissing him on his cheek, you answer, “always.”

during the family gathering, jaehyun was mostly with your dad and uncles. you were staring at him until your cousin asks you, “so, when are you planning to get married?” you blush at her comment because although you and jaehyun have discussed it, you did not want to pressure him in doing anything regarding it. “we are not rushing into anything,” you answer.

if you were to decide, you would want to settle down and start a family with him already, but your relationship with jaehyun is not that easy. he was at the peak of his career, and you did not want to do anything that would risk it. you were proud of him. you loved seeing him do the things he love, and you know that he loves you. a marriage doesn’t need to prove that.

“hm, but you have been together for six years now… aren’t you a little bothered that he hasn’t atleast proposed?” you stared at her for some time, not sure where she is going with this. “no, i’m not. what… what are you even trying to say?” “it’s just, come on y/n, he’s jaehyun… he’s surrounded with lots of…” you didn’t want to hear it. you couldn’t believe what you were hearing from her right now. you didn’t want to sit here, listening to her belittle your relationship with jaehyun like that. “i’m leaving,” you say. you walk towards jaehyun, and he could already tell that something was wrong, so he says his goodbye to your dad and uncles. “y/n, what’s wrong?” he asks, bringing you closer to him. “let’s go home,” you tell him.

once at home, you do your usual night routine, while jaehyun wonders what happened to get you all this sad and frustrated. “do you want to tell me what happened?” he asks, once you were both in bed. you look at him with sad eyes and a frown. you didn’t want to bring it up to him because you know it would bother him as well, and that’s the last thing you want to do. “it’s nothing, just tired.” “y/n, you should know by now not to lie to me. i understand if you don’t want to talk about it right now, but just know that i’m here,” he says. you nod, snuggling closer to him. he caresses your hair, still hoping you would talk to him, so you decide to… if only you knew the outcome of this conversation, you would have just slept it out.

you look at him, telling him what happened with your cousin. “i trust you jaehyun, and although i want to settle down. i know it’s not a priority right now because of your career, and i’m not holding that against you. i know you love me, and i love you too,” you tell him, drawing hearts on his chest.

jaehyun stays silent, thoughts were clouding his head. he didn’t know you wanted to settle down already. it’s true you have discussed about it already, but he didn’t know that it’s something you want right now. holding you back is the last thing he wanted to do.

“jaehyun?” you call. “hm? i didn’t know you wanted to settle down already,” he says. you chuckle, “it’s not that serious. what matters is you’re here with me,” you say, closing your eyes, getting ready to sleep. jaehyun, on the other hand, struggled to sleep that night.

the next morning, you woke up to jaehyun’s luggage all packed up. you were confused because as far as you know, he still has a week left. you found him in the kitchen, preparing some pancakes. you gave him a peck on the cheeks, and hugged him. “love, did the company call you about something urgent?” you ask him, and he stays silent. you frown, letting him go. “love? jaehyun? is something wrong?” you ask, not liking the atmosphere. you were scared, beyond scared. “i…” he says, looking at you, and quickly looking away. “let’s break up,” he says. you stare at him in silence. tears starting to form in your eyes. what happened? did he fall out of love? no… that can’t be. “why?” you ask, tears now flowing. “why are you breaking up with me all of a sudden?” he lets out a sigh, wanting nothing more than to hold you in his arms. “you want to settle down, y/n. i can’t give that to you right now. i don’t want to hold you back.” you look at him in disbelief. you were furious. you didn’t want that stupid marriage if it wasn’t him. what’s the point of settling down if it’s not him? you wanted him. you wanted to settle down with him. you reassured him that it was fine. all night you told him that it was okay and those words hold true.

“jaehyun, i told you that it was okay. we don’t need to-“ you stop yourself. your thoughts now clouded with negativity, with sadness, with anger. he’s breaking up with you that easily. he just decided one night that you were not worth fighting for. he decided to ruin your six year relationship just because… of this? you look at him, “okay.” you tell him. this is it. the end. “okay. i don’t need to fight for something you are set on. i told you everything, and you still decided to break up with me. am i not worth fighting for, jaehyun?” you ask him. he looks at you bewildered, “y/n, of course you are worth fighting for. but we have different-“ you cut him off, “no jaehyun, we do not have different goals. i would have talked to you about all this, but you just decided to break up with me? you know what? it’s fine, just leave. i don’t want to see or hear from you again. goodbye,” you say, walking towards your room. you place his luggage outside the room, and locked it, crying your eyes out. not caring if he could hear you or not.

he knocks on the door. “y/n, please open up,” he says repeatedly. “leave! don’t talk to me ever again. i hate you!” you scream. of course you didn’t mean it. you love him more than anything in the world. when the night comes, you were hoping to see him just outside the door, or the kitchen, or living room, anywhere near you. however, you were left with complete silence. no traces of him, no traces of jaehyun in your house.

and that’s when you knew that this is it. this is the end.

for the next few days, jaehyun was spotted strolling around america alone. fans and reporters speculated a possible breakup due to no sight of you.

end of flashback.

taeyong listened intently to jaehyun. “hyung, i messed up so bad. she hates me.” taeyong knew you didn’t hate jaehyun. you wouldn’t have meant that. “she doesn’t hate you, jaehyun. believe me. she was just hurt,” he says. “what do i do?” jaehyun asks. taeyong thinks of a plan… he really tried to think of one, but he was left with nothing. he could only imagine what you were going through right now. “we’ll figure it out, okay? go rest first. come on,” taeyong tells jaehyun.

taeyong desperately wanted to help you and jaehyun get back together. everyone knew how much you loved each other, but he just didn’t know how. when jaehyun falls asleep, taeyong decides to message you. there is a slim chance you’ll reply to him considering what happened, but atleast he tried.

taeyong: hey y/n. how are you?

it has been weeks, and you still couldn’t believe what happened. you miss him so much. all you want is for him to come back, but a part of you doesn’t want that to happen knowing he gave up on you easily.

your phone notification chimes, glancing at it, you see taeyong’s name.

you: hi yong. could be feeling better haha is there something wrong?

why was taeyong messaging you so late? did something happen to jaehyun? you wre growing nervous, tapping on your phone in hopes for taeyong to respond quicker.

taeyong: no, nothing’s wrong. jaehyun just arrived in the dorm, and i was just wondering how you were doing.

you: he broke up with me hahaha so that’s that. you probably heard it from the news or him already

taeyong: he loves you you know

you: if he did he wouldn’t have broken up with me but it’s all good i’ll move on eventually i think

tears were now running down your cheeks again. how will you move on from him?

you: i just don’t understand why he would break up with me i told him i’m fine with not settling down i love seeing him doing the things he love we were not rushing i just wanted him yong

you: im sorry ignore me haha

taeyong: y/n…

you hear your phone ringing, but you didn’t want to hear from anyone right now, so you decided to shut your phone off.

“jaehyun, we were told that you have to go live and comment on the breakup. tell everyone to stop talking about it,” the manager tells him. “if i do this, i might just lose y/n forever,” jaehyun says. “i know you don’t want to do it, and i don’t want you to do it as well, but it’s an order,” the manager simply says. jaehyun simply nods.

jaehyun prepares to go on live. he goes through his messages, clicking on your last message to him.

you: love youuuuu! you look so pretty on stage mwa sing to me everyday once you visit me

he types a message for you.

jaehyun: y/n, i miss you. please. one word, and i’ll come back. i love you so much.

he could have ran to the airport, and took the earliest flight to you, but his thoughts were a mess. he thinks you hate him. he was scared, so he decided to just send the message.

This user has blocked you.

ah… jaehyun thinks. before he could call taeyong to try to message you, the manager has already called him to go on live.

when the live ended, that’s when he knew that this is it. this is the end.

jeong jaehyun has gone on live on social media, addressing on the recent breakup with y/n. In a somber tone, he confirmed the news, thanking fans for their support and acknowledging the difficulty of the situation.

“everyone, i know you have heard the news. thank you for all your support, but unfortunately, they are true… we are really over. i won’t be commenting anymore further on this matter. please don’t bother y/n about any of this. she has dealt with a lot already.”

During the live broadcast, fans noticed the forming tears on jaehyun’s eyes, highlighting the emotional toll of the breakup. despite his efforts to keep the details private, fans continue to speculate on the reasons behind the split.

It is undoubtedly a difficult time for both jaehyun and y/n as they navigate the end of their long-term relationship. while the reason behind the breakup remains unknown, it is evident that jaehyun and y/n shared a deep love for each other.

labyrinth (mark lee)

lowercase intended

you and mark were … friends? dating? in a situationship? that’s what you would probably call it. you both know you like each other, mark has once asked you to be his girlfriend, but you said you weren’t ready. you were too hurt from your last breakup— too afraid to enter a new one, yet here you are in his arms.

it was probably past 8pm, you were both watching tangled— your favorite film— while taylor swift’s ‘midnights’ was playing softly in the background.  you stare at mark who was focused on the movie despite watching it with you over a hundred times by now.

all of a sudden labyrinth started playing on the vinyl while the i see the light scene plays on screen.

breathe in, breathe through, breathe deep, breathe out.

you see flynn looking at rapunzel lovingly on screen, so you quickly glance at mark who was doing the same to you. you nestle closer to him, giving him a soft smile. “hey,” you say. he kisses your forehead as a response.

uh-oh, I’m fallin’ in love. oh no, i’m fallin’ in love again. oh, i’m fallin’ in love.

for some reason you had a feeling. the urge to… “don’t you ever regret waiting for an answer for this long? it has been a year,” you ask him. “never. it’s just a label. what i feel for you doesn’t need one, yeah? i’ll wait for you for eternity if i have to,” he says, nonchalantly, like he has been waiting to say it. you knew by then. you knew what you had to do.

i thought the plane was goin’ down, how’d you turn it right around?

“mark, can you ask me again?” you tell him, and he knew. he knew what you were asking him to do, so he smiles. “will you be my girlfriend?” he asks, once again. this time, you knew what your answer would be. no more waiting. “yes,” you whisper.

notes: i will mastermind my way for this to happen to me one day :DDD btw i love midnights so much.

touch (mark lee)

lowercase intended

“stop touching me,” mark tells haechan, removing the said man’s arm from his shoulders. “y/n, how do you deal with your boyfriend being like this?” haechan asks. you giggle at the scene in front you. mark isn’t really fond of physical touches even with you, his girlfriend. you have been dating for 5 months now, and you were used to it. he wouldn’t even let you hold his hands for more than a minute. it made you sad at first, but he explained that he just doesn’t like being touched often, and you understood him. it doesn’t mean he loves you less.

a month after

you and mark were both sitting on his couch, watching a movie you weren’t paying attention to anymore. you were busy looking at mark, and how cuddly he looks. you know how it will end if you try to cuddle— him subtly pushing you off him after a few minutes— but you would take those few minutes in his arms any day, so you slowly position yourself, and cuddle him. he wraps his hands around you, and gives you kisses on your forehead. you smile at him, and seize the moment. after a minute, you slowly get off him knowing he would do it himself. “where are you going?” he asks. “hmm? just here beside you,” you smile at him. “come here, let’s cuddle,” he pouts. “getting used to my touches now?” you joke, “the only touch i want on me forever.”

promise ring (nakamoto yuta)

lowercase intended

you were shaking from crying so much. it has been five days, and you couldn’t find the promise ring your boyfriend gave you. you couldn’t even reply to his messages properly because of guilt. your mind was making up countless scenarios at this point. what would he say if he found out you lost the ring? he would probably get mad at you for being so careless. what if he breaks up with you? over a ring? it’s possible. it’s your promise ring. “where is the ring?” you mutter to yourself. “y/n? are you here?” you hear your boyfriend’s voice. you try to calm yourself down, wiping your eyes. “hey, are you okay? what happened?” he asks, you should tell him the truth, “nothing. just stress over school, how are you?” “i’m fine, but do you want to talk about it, or do you want to rest? we could cuddle while watching something you want,” he smiles at you. “it’s fine, yuta. i would love to just sleep in.”

when you woke up, you weren’t greeted by yuta’s face in front of you which was odd. you checked your phone, and you were shocked at the time. 1pm. you overslept. you went to the bathroom to wash your face, and while going through the drawers, you saw the promise ring you were looking for in one. you were so relieved to finally find it. you decided to call yuta to ask where he was, but before you could call him, he enters your bedroom. “good afternoon, love. i heard the bathroom door, and figured you were awake. here’s your lunch,” he says, placing a bed table and the plate on top of your bed. “thank you, yuta. you didn’t have to bring it here,” you tell him, giving him a peck on the lips. “just wanted to take care of you. go eat, i’ll get a glass of water,” he says, holding your hand while caressing your ring finger.

yuta smiles to himself. he had a suspicion you lost the ring days ago. he had a habit of caressing your ring finger, loving the way the ring feels, reminding him that you are indeed his girlfriend. however, it has been days since he felt the ring on that finger. he figured that you might have just forgotten to wear it, but after a few more days, you were starting to become more distant, and you constantly hid your hands from him, he concluded that you might have lost it. he knew you would beat yourself up for losing the ring even if he told you that he wouldn’t get mad, so he decided to buy the same ring again, and placed it in one of the drawers knowing you would look for it again. he wondered if you knew that even if you lose the rings again and again, he wouldn’t get mad at you. he could easily buy a new one, it was replaceable, you weren’t, so that’s what he did, but this time, he bought two rings. the other one now in your finger, and the other in a velvet box hidden in his pockets. hopefully, that ring could replace the ring on your finger.

birthday morning (jeong jaehyun)

lowercase intended

“sweetheart, why are you awake?” you ask, taking your daughter in your arms. it was five in the morning, and your daughter, jia, came knocking on your door. “i want to give daddy his birthday kisses,” she says. your daughter wiped her eyes, and tugged you towards your bed where your husband is currently sleeping in. “daddy is still asleep, sweetie,” “but mommy, i want to wake him up so i’ll be the first one to greet him,” she pouts. as much as you want to allow her to wake jaehyun, he just arrived an hour ago from practice, and you wouldn’t want him to miss out on a good sleep, especially on his birthday. “how about you stay beside us, and sleep for a while so you can wake daddy later, sounds good?” she looks at her father, then back to you and nods.

jaehyun wakes up and looks over at you, but to his surprise, he comes face to face with a sleeping little angel. why was his daughter beside him? and where were you? he checks the time. 7 am. you were probably making breakfast. he gave his daughter a kiss on her forehead, and stood up to get ready for the day.

jia wakes up thirty minutes after jaehyun, and pouts when she notices that his dad is nowhere to be found. she searches the room, and saw jaehyun fixing his hair in the bathroom. “daddy!” she excitedly screams, running towards her dad. jaehyun looks at her and smiles, taking her in his arms.“happy birthday daddy!” she says, hugging and kissing him. “thank you, sweetheart” “i was supposed to wake you up and greet you, but mommy said to not wake up yet because you were tired so i slept but i didn’t wake up on time,” she explains, pouting. “it’s okay, sweetie. you still gave me the best gift today with your hugs and kisses,” he says. “i have one more gift daddy,” jia goes closer to his ear, and whispers, “you’re the best dad in the world. i love you so much.”

jaehyun felt his heart bursting with joy.

Please please please make a part 2 for Countdown, like that masterpiece needs a continuation. I really love your writings and you're so talented💗.

im answering this so late im so sorry i have been so busy with uni!! i have been planning to make a part 2 for countdown, but every time i write something, i don't find it good enough ): but i'll try to make one asap and thank you so much for your kind words !!! <3

october 13 (jeong jaehyun)

pairing: jeong jaehyun x reader

word count: 1k+ words.

content: angst, fluff

notes: inspired by intro – sabrina carpenter. i hope this isn’t too confusing.

october 13, 2014.

“goodnight! i miss you, see you tomorrow.” “i’ll be there soon. go to sleep now,” he says. you quickly place your phone on your nightstand, and drifted to sleep, excited to finally see him again after a long time.

you suddenly woke up after a loud crash. you checked the time, 10:15 pm, and went out of your room to check what happened.

october 13, 2018.

10:15 pm.

“hi babe, i’m home!” “how was your day?” you ask as you wrap your arms around him. “it was tiring, but we finished a lot of things. i might get a week off if we finish by tomorrow.” “that’s nice. i’m so proud of you jae” he places his thumb on your cheek, and pulls you closer to him. “i love you,” and before you could respond, jaehyun kisses you passionately.

october 13, 2019.

you haven’t responded to any of my messages?

are you okay?

please reply to me.

are you almost home?

baby, it’s almost 10 pm

you were starting to worry. jaehyun was supposed to be home by this time. where was he? you were about to cry until you heard a familiar ringtone. you quickly picked it up, and the first thing you heard was a car horn sound. “hi babe, i’m coming home now. wait for me?” “you scared me, jae. why weren’t you answering your phone?” “i only had the chance to charge my phone in the car, i’m sorry. everything’s alright.” “okay, come home safely. i have something to tell you.” you say with relief. “i’m almost home. i love you,” he says as he ends the call.

“i’m pregnant,” you tell him when he greets you at the door. he looks at you, wide-eyed, a smile creeping in his face. “you’re not joking?” you shake your head, and he lifts you up and hugs you. you sleep that night with jaehyun chanting ‘i love you’ to you repeatedly.

october 13, 2014.

its times like this, i wish i had a time machine

you heard sounds coming from the living room, and you slowly took a peek inside— you shouldn’t have. you saw him with another woman. they were trying to suppress the sounds they were making. you hear him faintly say “i love you,” so you quickly ran to your room.

the last thing you heard that night was your sobs and his ‘i love you’ to another woman.

october 13, 2020.

10:15 pm

“yeah, i love you too,” you faintly hear jaehyun say as you go down the stairs. you were about to cry— you were going to cry. “jae, what the fuck! who was that?” you scream, trying to stop your tears from falling. “y/n, what? quiet down, jaewon might wake up.” he says as he lets his phone fall to his feet, startled by your voice. “who was that?” you say quietly, realizing that your child might hear you, now letting your tears fall to your cheeks. “my mom. it was my mom, y/n,” he says, and you just stare at him— not knowing what to do, what to believe. him or your thoughts. he’s saying i love you to another woman. “check my phone then,” he says, handing his phone. you should just trust him. trust him. for fuck’s sake, just trust him. you grab his phone, and just like he said, it was his mom. you check every app he has, and there are no signs of another woman. stupid girl. “i’m doing my best, y/n. i don’t know what to do to gain your full trust after all these years.” he says, so gently, that it makes you cry even more. “i know jae, i’m sorry. i’m just scared,” you tell him. “you need to trust me babe,” he says as he pulls you closer to him, hugging you tightly. “i’m scared you’ll find someone else, and replace us,” you whisper in his chest. “babe, i’m not him. i’m not leaving you and jaewon.”

october 13, 2015.

“i’m sorry.” your father says. “one year too late. don’t say sorry now,” you tell him. “i love y-“ “if you did, you wouldn’t leave us. you wouldn’t cheat on mom,” you say, feeling the tears on your eyes. “mom might have forgiven you, but i don’t, and i don’t think i ever will.”

october 13, 2021.

“y/n, your father has been waiting for you,” your mom says, giving you small smile. you will never understand how fast your mom forgave him. “it will be alright, come on,” jaehyun reassures you, as he carries jaewon in his arms. you enter the room, and see your father laying on the bed— weak and fragile.

you feel your eyes watering as you sat down beside him. jaehyun looks at you, and you gave him a sign to leave you two alone for a while. “you sure?” he asks, rubbing your back. you nod, and looked at your son. “go buy some candy with your father, yeah?” jaewon smiles, and jaehyun quickly gives you a peck on your cheek.

you looked at your father, and when you see him give you a faint smile, you quickly looked away. “hi y/n. how are you?” he asks. “what a beautiful family you have,” he comments, and you try your best not to scoff at him. be kind, you remind yourself. “how are you feeling?” “i’m good. i’m glad you came, i have been waiting for you.” it was silent for a while. you couldn’t find the courage to talk to him. “i miss you so much. i love you, you know that right?”

this was your father. the man who you grew up with treating you like a princess. the man you had so much good memories with. the person who you first told everything to. you didn’t even go to your mom first— it has always been him, your dad. the person who would do anything for you. the man you first loved. who would have thought he would also be the first to break your heart.

“god, i love you so much, but—”

but you’re such a dipshit.

thanks to you i can't love right

i get nice guys and villainize them

i blame you for every worst that i assume

he tries to hold your hand, and you let him as tears fall from your face. despite everything happening, you still can’t find the courage to look at him.

please fucking fix this cause you were all i looked up to, now i can't even look at you.

be healthy (na jaemin)

lowercase intended

you stared at the book right in front of you, trying to understand every word written, but nothing was staying in your mind. you quickly look at the clock. 5pm. you have been in the library for almost 4 hours. you let out a sigh, decided to take a break. you checked your phone, and saw a message from your boyfriend, jaemin. “where are you?” “are you in the library? i’ll go there.” he sent the message 10 minutes ago, so you didn’t bother replying— knowing he will arrive soon—so you decide to just continue studying.

after a few minutes, jaemin arrived and gave you a quick peck on the cheek, and sat down beside you, taking your hand into his and giving it a peck as well. you gave him a quick smile, and continued studying. jaemin knew not to distract or bother you when you’re studying, so he kept you company as he scrolled through his phone. when you finished studying, you looked at jaemin and gave him a quick peck on the cheek. “hey babe,” jaemin says. “thank you for keeping me company,” you say as you fixed your things. he gave you a smile, stood up and grabbed your bag, “let me carry this for you.”

“what do you want to eat?” he asked, and it dawned to you that you haven’t eaten the whole day. you let out a small gasp, and jaemin looks at you confused. “let’s go to the nearest one, i haven’t eaten the whole day.” “say that again?” jaemin stops walking and looks at you in disappointment, and you knew you should have just left out the latter part. “babe!” he whines and grabs your hand to quickly go to his car. he immediately starts the car, “babe! i understand you have your exam, but you could have asked me to get you food.” “i completely forgot about it, i’m sorry jaem,” “i’m going to study with you this whole week to make sure you eat okay?” “don’t you have training?” “i do, but i need to make sure that you eat.” you let out a huff. knowing jaemin, you knew you couldn’t change his mind, but you still tried. “we can eat lunch together instead! you don’t have to stay with me the whole time” jaemin stays silent for a while. “come on, jaem, i don’t want coach to scold you,” you convince him. “fine,” he says, and grabs your hand and gives it a kiss. “i love you, y/n. i want you to always be healthy.”

fearless (mark lee)

lowercase intended.

“did you enjoy tonight?” mark asks as you walk towards his car. you give him a smile, and cling yourself to his arms, “i loved it! i missed you so much, you know?” he gives you a kiss on your forehead and pulls you closer to him. “i know, baby, i’m on a break this week. i’m all yours.” he opens the passenger door and waits for you to go in. you and mark have been together for about two years now, but every single thing he does still gives you butterflies. “want to go home or go on a drive for a while?” he asks as he starts the engine. “let’s drive for a while.” after a few minutes of silence, you started to play music. you look out the window and gaze at the stars above, wondering what you did in your past life to have such a beautiful man with you. out of the billion people in this world, you found yourself crossing path with mark, coincidence or fate? you will never know, but you are grateful it happened. you get out of your thoughts as you hear the car door close, and you see mark walking towards your side, opening the door, and reaching out for your hand. a fate or coincidence? you will never know, but just as he does that, you faintly hear the music on the stereo;

and i don't know how it gets better than this you take my hand and drag me head first, fearless. and i don't know why but with you i'd dance in a storm in my best dress, fearless.

“let’s dance?” he asks as you take his hand. “mark, you know i don’t-” you look at your surroundings and find yourself mesmerized at the view you were seeing. stars shining in front of you as it reflects on the puddles on the pavement. street lamps shining bright, and flowers everywhere. you look over to mark, and see him already looking at you with a huge smile. “let’s dance?” you say, taking his hand to yours.

note: i was supposed to make an angsty one for either forever and always or the other side of the door, but i figured i'll just do one for the title of the album. this is a scenario for me to get ready for taylor swift's release of the fearless re-recording!! AAAAAA i'm so excited for later

pretty sure (lee jeno)

lowercase intended. not proofread.

note: okay when i said i had a lot of drabbles, i mean two... lmao. i have other writings here but these are series, but i want to post it once i finish writing the whole thing or even half of it, so updates wont be slow. i have three pending writings tho might write it later. im open for requests now, but dont expect for fast updates, but i’ll try my best to do it (except smut).

“jeno is over there, go say hi,” jennie nudges my arm. “are you kidding me? no way!” i roll my eyes as we walk the hallway. you see, lee jeno has been your crush for about two years now, but you never shoot your shot. how could you? he’s the school’s ‘it boy’ as what they would call him. he also had a reputation of ignoring every girl that would confess to him. why would you even risk not ever speaking to him again even though you never had a conversation— well maybe except for that one time he accidentally spilled his soda on you.

“oh my god, i’m so sorry,” jeno says, immediately taking his jacket off and handing it to you. “it’s fine. no need for that,” you tell him, trying not to stutter, trying your best not to look at him. “it’s fine, take it,” you look at him and here he is giving you the puppy eyes. oh god, why is he so beautiful? “it’s fine. i’ll just go home, it’s 5 minutes away from here anyway.” before you could walk away, you hear him talk, “i’m really sorry, y/n!” he knows your name. the lee jeno knows your name. you chuckle, and looked at his soda bottle, “you should probably not drink soda this early morning though, it’s bad for you,” your eyes widen at what you just said. you quickly look at him and he has this confused look on his face, so you immediately left— you messed up.

“come on! just wave at him,” jennie teases. “he probably thinks i’m some weird girl, no way!” “jesus, have some courage y/n!” yeri tells you. you look at jeno one last time— maybe you stared a little, and he catches you doing so. you panicked and just gave him a wave. you notice his group of friends laughing at him when they see you, so you hurried out the hallway. fuck. his group knows you like him. you’re pretty sure they do.

“so, ms. soda girl waved at you,” haechan teases. jeno rolls his eyes, “shut up, donghyuck.” “why don’t you just go talk to her?” jaemin asks. “i spilled soda over her at six in the morning, she hates me, i’m pretty sure she does,” jeno tells them. “you should have walked her home and offered to grab some lunch. you missed a great opportunity,” haechan tells him. “for a pretty smart student like you, you are so slow when it comes to love. how long have you liked her again?” renjun asks. 4 years. it’s been four years since he liked you, and he messed it up. he’s pretty sure you will never reciprocate his feelings now. heck, you probably might not even want to talk to him— look at how you hurried out the hallway. he’s pretty sure you hate him.

attention (lee donghyuck/lee haechan)

lowercase intended. not proofread.

“and then, she told me that i was overreacting! was i really overreacting? she did not do a single thing in our paper, not even a single word! how shameless of her to-“ “jeno! to your right!” haechan cuts you off. you let out a huff and roll your eyes. you just wanted someone to listen to you after such a terrible day. haechan was the one who offered to call, but here he is not listening to any word you are saying. “haechan, are you listening to me?” after a minute of you just staring at your boyfriend, who obviously is not paying attention to you, you ended the call. stupid donghyuck, if he doesn’t want to talk to me, he could have just said so. after a few seconds of the call ending, you see haechan’s name on your screen. you waited a few more seconds until he decides to drop the call, but he didn’t and you grew tired of hearing your ringtone, so you answered. “what?” you say. “i got off the game, i’m sorry baby.” “i’m going to sleep, you can go play for how long you want. i don’t care.” before you could end the call, he pouts. “come on baby, i’m sorry. i’ll listen to you now, i’m all yours.” you roll your eyes. you really wanted to talk to haechan, but you’re so annoyed with him right now. “so, tell me, what did you do hyejin about the paper?” “i removed her name! and after doing so, she starts complaining. she has no right whatsoever to even complain! i can't believe her. oh! during lunch, some group of…” you continued to ramble as haechan looks at you with loving eyes, and all he could think of is how lucky he is to have you in his life. “i love you, y/n.” he whispers.

note: i have been so busy with uni, i can’t find time to write, but i have so much ideas in mind. i’ll try my best to write them, but i have some drabbles written already, i’ll post them when i can.

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champagne problems (jung jaehyun)

pairing: jung jaehyun x y/n

word count: 1.3k words

content: angst

notes: i really don’t have a schedule time to post because inspiration hits at random times lol and im busy with college ): 

this is inspired by champagne problems by taylor swift

you booked the night train for a reason, so you could sit there in this hurt. bustling crowds or silent sleepers, you’re not sure which is worse.

jaehyun was on his way to the train station. he knew this was bound to happen, but for some reason he ignored what everyone said, and believed in you, in your relationship. turns out they were right, he was wrong. at this point, he didn’t even know whether he wants to be alone or surrounded with people. would he rather have a crowd of happy people around him or would he want to be alone, but trapped in his own emotions with nobody to distract him. this is the moment he realizes that no matter how heartbroken he is, the world would still go on; no one will stop for his pain.

your mom’s ring in your pocket, my picture in your wallet. i dropped your hand while dancing, left you out there standing.

“dance with me?” jaehyun asks as he reaches out for your hand which you accept. currently, you’re at some party jaehyun’s family hosted. you have been together with jaehyun for over 5 years now which is quite a surprise. honestly, you didn’t even think about lasting this long with him because of the demands of his career, but he never made you feel like the second best, it has always been an equal amount of time spent with you and his career. you couldn’t think of anyone as perfect as he is. “princess, you’re stepping on my foot,” he laughs. “well mr. jung, i have two left feet,” you playfully slap his arm. the atmosphere surrounding the both of you was playful, yet peaceful as you both danced the night away. “jaehyun!” his mom calls, she signals him to go to her as she smiles at you. “i’ll be right back, don’t dance with anyone else.”

you went back to your table as you look at jaehyun and his mom, and there you noticed. you noticed the box his mom gave him as he quickly put it in his pocket. you know that box, he never failed to mention it whenever the both of you talked about the future. you didn’t know how to feel. were you excited? scared? maybe you’re just overreacting, and it’s just a random box. you were lost in your thoughts; you didn’t even notice jaehyun. “hey, care to tell me what’s on your mind?” “hm? it’s nothing,” you shrug him off. “will you dance with me again instead?” “aren’t you tired?” “never for you.” you let out a sigh as he gives you the sweetest smile. you stood up and grabbed his hand. “did you notice that we dressed up the way we did as our first date together?” “you told me to wear this dress…” you say, now noticing what he meant.

people wouldn’t really call it a first date, but for you and jaehyun it was. you were at a formal party with your family; a white with hints of gold dress flowing to the floor. unfortunately for you, the only person you knew wasn’t around. “looking for yukhei?” a random man asks; you look at him and was immediately mesmerized by the dimples as he smiles. “he isn’t coming,” you answer. “would you like to be my date then?” he asks, surprising you. you didn’t even know his name. “why do you think i’m alone?” “because you aren’t exactly dancing with anyone on the dance floor right now.” you just look at him, examining him. “i’m jaehyun, by the way.” “are you asking me on a date?” you ask, “if you want to call it that, then sure,” he says grabbing your hand to his. to your surprise, he was a fun person to be with, and the rest of the story is history.

“yeah, i still have our first picture on my wallet, here look,” he says, as he reaches out to his pocket, and suddenly you panic. you looked at him wide eyes, and ran to the restroom as quick as you can, and all you could hear was jaehyun calling out your name as the guests looked at both of you.

you had a speech, you’re speechless. love slipped beyond your reaches.

“y/n, are you okay?” he knocks on the door. you look at yourself in the mirror, and before the tears could even fall, you decided to touch up your makeup. you take a deep sigh as you unlock the door. “yup, i’m sorry. i had to quickly go, you know.” he gives you a smile and says, “it’s alright. let’s go back? i have something to show you.” before you could even respond, he grabs your hand and speed walks. you see all the guest seated down, all eyes on both of you. you look at jaehyun and see him going down to his knees. “jaehyun…” you whisper, closing your eyes for a while. he gives your hand a reassuring squeeze and gives you a smile. “y/n, i have always mentioned how much i love your eyes, but do you know it’s because i see the reflection of our future when i look at them. i couldn’t imagine growing old with someone else, nor do i even want to. i could say a hundred thousand things i love about you and although, i always teased you about your two left feet, do you want to dance together at our wedding reception?” you let out a huge sigh, as tears left your eyes. “y/n, will you marry me?” you close your eyes for a moment. “jaehyun…” you say. you look at everyone in the room, smiles on their face, and you couldn’t even bear to see the frowns on their face with what you’re about to do. your parents were there, his parents; they have been waiting for this day. “i’m sorry,” you say, quickly running out of the venue. jaehyun felt his heart crashing into pieces. he stayed, kneeling to no one, with the ring on his hand, and tears falling down his face.

your heart was glass, i dropped it. i couldn’t give a reason. sometimes you just don’t know the answer ‘til someone’s on their knees and asks you.

it’s been a week since the incident. you didn’t talk to anyone, not even your parents in a week. you were too ashamed. you have received a dozen texts from them from: “i thought you wanted to get married” “ jaehyun planned that for months.” “why did you talk about the future if you were unsure with him?” “people are calling you crazy, y/n.” but the text that struck you was a message jaehyun sent a minute ago. “i’m outside your apartment.”

you slowly go to the front door, hesitant to even open it, but you did. you see jaehyun in a padded jacket, eyes swollen in red. “hey, come in,” you greeted him, he took a step in your apartment and closes the door. “why?” he immediately asks. you look at him and see tears starting to form. “i’m sorry jae…” was all you could say. “no y/n, i don’t want your apologies. i want you to explain!” he raises his voice out of frustration. “i don’t know,” you whisper. he brushes his hair out of frustration. “if you weren’t ready, you could have told me! i gave you hints, talked about the future with you for the past months, but you went with everything. you even told me you couldn’t wait to get married. did you lie to me? am i not the one you wanted to get married with? what did i wrong?” you stayed silent, hands trembling, tears falling down. “did you even love me in those five years, y/n?” he whispers, and you immediately look at him. “jae, of course i love—” “then why? why did you leave?” “sometimes you just don’t know the answer until someone’s on their knees and asks you,” you answer. he looks at you, your eyes, and pulls you in a hug.

“if i were to go on my knees right now, what would your answer be?”

at your party (lee donghyuck/haechan)

at your party (lee donghyuck/haechan)

pairing: lee donghyuck (haechan) x reader

word count: 2k words

content: angst, fluff if you squint??? like really squint maybe

notes: lowercase intended. this isn’t proofread. i know miss taylor has released a new album but i am still stuck at folklore, i might make one for champagne problems tho idk idk also augustine is not present in this i changed the trilogy characters lol

this is based on betty by taylor swift.

i won’t make assumptions about why you switched your homeroom but i think it’s because of me.

“donghyuck, are you listening?” jaemin asks. “what were you saying?” “y/n is back from the states.” donghyuck’s eyes widened as he heard the news. it can’t be. you would call him, or even text him if you were coming home, right? “nice joke jaem,” he says, in denial. “look,” jaemin shows him the list of students in their year level and their homeroom. “she’s supposed to be in our homeroom though, i wonder why she switched,” jeno says, and it just so happens, donghyuck sees y/n with inez. “i think i know why. right, donghyuck?” mark suddenly says, and just like that all eyes were on him. “i fucked up,” is all he could say to them at this point. 

flashback.

“haechan, i’m leaving for the whole summer,” you suddenly tell him. “come again?” donghyuck asks. “my parents want me to spend the summer in america,” you explain. “do you want to go?” he asks, hoping that you change your mind. “i tried telling them, but they wouldn’t budge,” you say. silence filled the air. for sure, you two could handle a long-distance relationship for three months, right? “haechan, you know it’s just three months, we can d-,” “i think we need a break,” he cuts you off. you were caught off guard, you did not expect him to say that, or even consider it. “but-,” you try to fight, but you know whatever you say will be useless. you let out a sigh as he starts fixing his things. “don’t worry, y/n. i’ll wait for you. i just don’t want you to feel burdened with our relationship as you stay there,” he says, and that’s when you start crying. he pulls you into a hug as he strokes your hair. “haechan, promise me you won’t find someone else?” you tell him, and you feel him give you a nod. he looks at you, and gives you a kiss. “i promise baby.”

you heard the rumors from inez, you can’t believe a word she says most times, but this time it was true. the worst thing i ever did was what i did to you.

you were finally back home. you wanted to surprise haechan so bad, so you kept your arrival a secret for the mean time. you were out in the mall when you saw inez. you weren’t exactly friends, you saw how she looks at haechan ever since, and that makes you feel things you shouldn’t. “y/n? you’re back!” she says, giving you a hug. you give her a smile, “yeah, i am. how are you?” you ask, “i’m doing good! i’m meeting hyuck in a while, we’ve been hanging out a lot lately ever since you went away” she says obviously to provoke you, and your eyes widen. what is she talking about? “really? i see, i should get going now. it was nice seeing you,” you tell her. thoughts were running on your mind, is she and haechan a thing now? why was haechan hanging out with her if he knew you hated her? will you actually believe a word that comes from her mouth? so you did what you had to do. you decided to dial mark’s number. “hey mark!” you greet him. “hey y/n, how are you? what’s up?” you hear loud music at the background. “oh, are you at a party? i can just ask you some other time,” he gives a chuckle, “it’s fine. hold on, i’ll go out so i can hear you better.” you nod even though he could not see you. you were actually really scared because what if haechan has moved on? “hey, you still there?” he asks, “yup! just wanted to ask you something,” you tell him, and he hums as a response. you tell him about your encounter with inez, “so i was wondering if they’re a thing or something? i mean, he did say we will go on a break, but i didn’t know that included meeting other people,” you tell him as your voice crack. “oh my god y/n, that’s the first time i’m hearing this as well. donghyuck has never mentioned anything about her, but now that i think about it. they have been spending time with each other for a while. i just don’t know if they’re official. i’m sorry, y/n.” he tells you, and you just want to cry at this point. “i see, thank you mark, enjoy the party.” you end the call before he could even respond. when haechan suggested a break, you were pretty sure that didn’t include meeting other people, but maybe you were wrong. he could have just broken up with you completely if this was his plan. you felt so stupid.

but if i just showed up at your party, would you tell me to go fuck myself or lead me to the garden? 

“y/n’s holding a party this saturday! we spoke a while ago, and she said she hoped she saw us there,” jeno excitedly says. “does that include hyuck?” chenle says, and everyone laughs as donghyuck gives them a glare. “you should go though, try to talk to her,” mark tells him. “you love her, don’t you?” jaemin asks, and donghyuck nods. “so much, i’m so stupid for playing around this summer.” “yeah, you are. why did you even do it?” renjun asks him. “it was in the moment, inez offered a ride home, and then you know. the day turned into night. i fucking regret it so much, but i swear it was only a one time thing. we just hanged out after,” he explains. “you’re fucked,” jaemin says, disgusted by what he heard. “i know, i’m sorry. at this point, all i could think about is what if she never wants to see me again? what is she says fuck you, hyuck!” “i wouldn’t be surprised” renjun says. “but atleast you tried, right?” mark assures him.

the only thing i want do is make it up to you, so i showed up at your party.

it’s now saturday, and donghyuck is on the way to your house. he’s 30 minutes late, but that’s because he was looking at his stupid mirror planning how to talk to you. he was definitely lost in his train of thoughts until he hears his phone ring. “where are you?” mark says as he picks up his phone. “i’m parking. is she there?” a stupid question, but donghyuck was so nervous he didn’t even think it through. “of course she is, it’s her party. goodluck hyuck, but you better come quick, i think lucas is planning to ask her for a dance.” mark says then ends the call. donghyuck lets out a sigh, and starts walking to your doorstep. he was holding a bouquet of flowers, standing outside your door even though a party is ongoing. he looked kind of stupid, and he knew that, but he would do anything to get you back even if it means embarrassing himself. he finally dialed your number, hoping you pick up even with the loud music. “hello?” you answer, and he freezes. he didn’t actually think you would pick up. “donghyuck,” you say sternly. donghyuck? you never called him by that name. it has always been haechan, you were the only person to call him that name. 

“y/n, i’m at your doorstep,” he says.

you start getting nervous, but you could not let him get to you. you knew he wanted to talk to you, but you were not even sure if you wanted to talk, or even see him up close. “then come in,” you tell him. “y/n…” he pleas, and you heart starts racing. “meet me in the garden, you know how to get there,” you say as you end the call. you’re probably making a bad decision right now, but you still go to the garden, and patiently wait for donghyuck to arrive. you sat the the bench scrolling through your phone when you hear him call you, “y/n!” you look up and see him. lee donghyuck, the love of your life, and maybe your ex now. he’s your ex-boyfriend now, isn’t he? but you didn’t even officially break up. is this what he came for? to officially break up with you? thoughts started clouding your mind, you didn’t get to hear anything donghyuck was saying. “i’m sorry, i was distracted. come again?” you tell him. he lets out a sigh, handing you the bouquet. you look at him before accepting it, and when you did, he sits beside you and ask, “how are you?” you look at him, and he starts getting flustered, “i mean, how was america? your family?” you can’t believe this guy. “they’re fine, thank you, but can you please stop acting like everything is okay. tell me what you want to say,” you say. he looks at you, surprised at your sudden outburst. before you know it, tears were starting to fall from your eyes. “are you officially breaking up with me this time? you should have just told me from the start. i feel so fucking stupid, donghyuck,” you tell him. you didn’t even know if he could understand you with the amount of sobs you were making. “i’m so sorry y/n, listen…” “donghyuck, please just do it. just get it over with. tell me you’re with inez now, and that you don’t love me anymore,” you were weeping loudly at this point, and haechan was surprised at what you just said, so he pulls you in his chest as you cry. “fuck, i’m so sorry. baby, please believe me when i tell you that i love you so much. i’m so stupid for doing that to you, please forgive me,” he tells you. he was caressing your hair, and there was silence for at least a minute. “y/n?” he says, pulling your head to face him. “can we drive away somewhere?” you ask. you didn’t care if this was your party, you had to get away from everyone.

donghyuck started driving around. both of you, clueless, on where you’re going. he stops at a nearby parking, and starts talking, “y/n, i’m really sorry.” you close your eyes, and look outside the window. “baby” he calls for you. “you lost the privilege in calling me that when you started doing whatever you were doing with inez,” you tell him. “y/n, i’m so sorry. please, she means nothing to me. i was so lonely that time, but i dreamt of you all summer long, i’m so sorry,” he tells you. “you could have called me, hyuck! i was lonely too, but i loved you so much that even when we were on a break, i couldn’t even think about going out with someone else,” you scream at him. “i thought you felt the same way, but i was obviously wrong. why else would you suggest a break, right?” you let out a chuckle. “y/n, i’m so sorry. i will do anything for your forgiveness, please. i love you so much.” he says, taking your hands into his. donghyuck rarely cried, and if he did, he would lock himself in the bathroom because he was embarrassed to show it to anyone, even you, but here he is crying in front of you. “i’ll do whatever you want me to do. i already blocked inez’ number, i will do anything, i promise,” he rambles. you were conflicted. you love donghyuck so much, but is that enough to keep the relationship? you really didn’t know what to do. you love him, for fucks sake, you can’t even imagine a future without him.

“haechan…” you say, letting go of his hand.

donghyuck was terrified at this point. you called him by the name ‘haechan’ which is a good thing because you only called him that during your relationship. that was the first time you called him with that name all throughout the night, but at the same time, you were letting go of his hand. does this mean that you’re letting go of him? maybe this was the bittersweet end, but at the same time he’s still holding on to the way you said his name, filled with love and care.

a week at the cafe (na jaemin)

a week at the café (na jaemin)

pairing: na jaemin x reader

word count: 2.1k words.

content: fluff

notes: lowercase intended.

day one.

“good afternoon! what’s your order?” “one large americano and a watermelon shake please” you say. “can you add a cheesecake too?” mark adds. “i’ll pay for it this time y/n, but you have to help me pass college.” you chuckle at his words, “sure markie.” you sat down at an empty table waiting to be called. “can you believe we have one week left of summer and then we are officially college students,” mark groans. “i can’t wait to study medicine!” you say sarcastically. “i should have chosen music too,” you frown. he flicks your forehead, “you’re crazy! you’ll be one of the best doctor, i’m sure of it.” before you could reply, mark’s phone rings. “it’s my girlfriend.” you smile at him and say, “tell sab i miss her and i can’t wait to study anatomy with her.” you both laugh and he goes out of the café to answer the call.

seconds later, the barista calls out mark’s name. you look up to the barista and see his gorgeous smile. oh god. “one large americano and watermelon shake for mark?” he asks, smiling at you. you look at his eyes and is easily captivated by the way it sparkles. he lets out a chuckle which makes you go back to your senses. “uh yeah mark, here’s the receipt” you stutter as you show him the receipt. he stamps it and you immediately bring the drinks and go outside to find mark. as he ends the call, you start telling him about your encounter with the cute barista. “oh god, i didn’t even check his pin for his name,” you tell him. “y/n, you can just go back and ask you know?” he tells you. “yeah, but i’m shy.”

day two.

“so, who’s this cute barista you’re crushing on?” jennie asks. “the guy with the most beautiful smile behind the counter.” you tell her as you look at him. “drinks for y/n!” he calls out, and you suddenly panic. “oh god, jennie what do i do?” “get our drinks,” she says obviously. “make sure to ask for his name,” she winks at you. you playfully smack her arm and walk towards the counter. “y/n?” there he goes with his killer smile again. you smile at him and gave him the receipt. “weren’t you mark yesterday?” he asks, and you look at him confusingly. he lets out a chuckle and you suddenly remember that it was mark’s name being called yesterday. “ah, it’s y/n. i’m y/n.” you laugh, and he asks, “so is mark your boyf-“ before he could finish what he was saying, he was called by the manager. “oh sorry, i have to go. see you again tomorrow y/n.” he says and gives you the most beautiful smile you have ever seen.

day three.

“mark, can we wait for jennie before we enter the café?” you ask him. “y/n, i am starving, can we just go?” “no because he thinks you’re my boyfriend. you can’t ruin this chance i have.” “i have a girlfriend!” he laughs at you. “but he doesn’t know that markie!” you whine again. where even is jennie? you thought to yourself. “you look so funny when you crush on someone,” he says as he pats your head, and it just so happens the cute barista suddenly shows up outside the café. what is he even doing outside the café? you both look at each other and he gives you a small wave, and you give him a smile. “hey!” jennie suddenly appears. “you’re late,” you tell her. you look back to where the barista was standing to see him nowhere to be found this time. “can we eat now? y/n didn’t want to enter because the barista thinks we are together,” they both laugh, and you roll your eyes at them. “you know if you just ask his name, he might give you his number too.” jennie tells you. “you are quite obvious with this little crush going on.” mark adds. “we aren’t eating here, let’s go somewhere else,” you tell them as jennie laughs and mark whines.

day four.

you were planning to do advance readings for your class, so you decide to go to the café alone. there are three things you love about that café; the food, the ambience and the cute barista. you order the usual and find a table that is secluded. after a few minutes, you see a shadow going near you and it towers over your book. you look up at the person and saw the cute barista with your order. “i saw you studying so i decided to just give your order, i hope that’s fine with you.” he says as he places your drink and cake on the table. “thank you! that’s so kind of you,” you smile at him. “is that anatomy you’re studying?” he asks, and you give him a nod. “college starts next week and i want to come to class prepared, you know?” you chuckle. “i have anatomy notes, i can share them with you.” “i would love that.” “i’ll bring them tomorrow if you plan on dropping by that is,” he says with a hopeful glint in his eyes. “sure! i plan on studying here for the rest of the days anyway” “okay, see you tomorrow y/n” he says as he leaves. you forgot to ask for his name once again.

day five.

as soon as you enter the café, you see the cute barista standing behind the counter. he gives you a smile and you smile back. you do your usual café routine, and just like yesterday, he gives your order personally. “here are the notes as promised,” he hands out notebooks to you. “thank you! are you perhaps going to take med too?” you ask, and he flashes you with a smile again. his smile is so contagious, you catch yourself smiling whenever he does. “yup! my college starts next week as well.” “oh, won’t you need your notes?” “i’ll just get it back when you’re done using it, no worries,” he tells you. “thank you so much uh- what’s-“ before you could even ask for his name, a girl suddenly pats his shoulder. “reina!!” he says as he hugs her. “you’re finally back!” he tells her, and you could feel your heart dropping. “y/n, i have to go. see you tomorrow?” he asks, and you just give him a smile.

day six.

you enter the café again, alone. you look at the counter, but don’t see the beautiful barista. before you order from the counter, you go to your usual table first to place your things. as you go near, you see the cute barista sitting on your table with your usual drink. “hi, good afternoon!” you greet him. “hey! you finally came, i was waiting for you,” he smiles at you. you felt your cheeks going red, but you remind yourself that he might have a girlfriend already– reina might be his girlfriend. “what are you doing here?” you ask him, and he frowns. “oh, don’t take that in a wrong way, i would love to hang out with you, but don’t you have a shift or something?” you add. he laughs at your flustered self. “i was working here just to cover for my cousin, but she’s back, so i’m free i guess.” cousin? could it be- “see, that’s my cousin over there,” he points to the girl at the counter just like he could read your mind. “oh, reina is your cousin.” you said with a hint of relief. he raises one of his eyebrows, and asks, “did you think we were-“ before he could even continue, you start getting flustered again and he laughs. “you’re cute, you know.” he pats your head, but immediately stops when your phone rings. you look at your phone and saw mark’s name appear. “one sec,” you tell him. you stood up to go outside the house, but before you could even start walking, mark’s girlfriend talks, “hey y/n! i’m sorry i accidentally pressed your name, i was supposed to call mark’s mom. sorry for bothering you!” “ah, it’s fine sab. goodbye!” you say. you come back to your seat and look at the cute boy sitting in front of you. “so, you and mark?” he asks. “we aren’t together. oh god no, never. he has a girlfriend.” you say, all flustered. “you’re cute, have I mentioned that?” you did, you mentally answer. “i was just teasing. i saw mark with his girlfriend come by here during my shifts.” you let out a sigh of relief, but as you check the time, you remember that you have plans with jennie in 5 minutes. “i am so sorry but i have to go!” you tell him as you hurriedly pick up your things. “no worries, goodbye y/n! stay safe!”

day seven.

it’s the last day of summer, so you go back to the café to give the beautiful barista his notes back. it has been seven days, yet you still don’t know his name. you promised yourself that you will ask him this time but to your dismay, he was nowhere to be found in the café. you went up to reina and ask her, “hey! i was wondering if you know where your cousin is?” “he has plans with his family today! come back tomorrow, i’m sure he will drop by,” she tells you and you give her a thank you and left. does the world really hate you? doesn’t it want you to have a love life? is this their way on telling you to just give it up and start anew during college?

first day of college.

“first day of college!” jennie screams. “i’m so nervous and excited!” sab says. “can you believe we are now starting our journey to being doctors,” you tell them. “this feels surreal.” sab says. “what are your first classes?” “i have anatomy, and it starts in 30 minutes. i think i should go find the room. see you at lunch?” you tell them and they nod. you walk to your class and surprisingly you found it almost immediately. you sat at the chair at the middle of the room, and start opening your notes. as you were fixing your things, someone calls your name. “y/n! is that you?” it was the cute barista boy. “oh my god! we go to the same college and we have the same class?” you both laugh. “oh, here are your notebooks! i dropped by the café yesterday, but you weren’t there.” “ah, i’m sorry about that,” he says and you give him a smile. “oh, it’s no problem,” you tell him. you both stare at each other, and you find yourself getting lost in his eyes again until he starts to frown. “y/n, honestly, i am quite disappointed in you,” he tells you and you look at him confusingl. what is he talking about? “i put a note with my number on this notebook i gave you,” he pulls out the sticky note on his notebook, and showed it to you. you were shocked because you did not even notice the sticky note when you went through the notebooks. “i didn-“ he cut you off, “i figured you weren’t interested in me when you didn’t call for days,” he frowns. “i’m sorry, oh god, i didn’t see it.” you stutter. he pouts at you, and you panic. “i think you should make it up to me by going on a date with me,” he says, now giving you a smile. “what?” you say. “i mean, what? did I hear you correctly?” he nods and you can feel your cheeks blushing. is this really happening? you look at his eyes again and smile, “it’s a date then.” before he could reply, the professor arrives. “good morning everyone!” the professor greets, and the class greets back in unison. the boy beside you suddenly gives you a sticky note, you look at him then the sticky note. same café after our class today? you look back at him and nod. he gives you the most beautiful smile again, better than his past smiles if that was even possible. “my name is jaemin by the way.” he whispers, and you freeze. “you’re cute, you know?” he adds as he pats your head and lets out a chuckle before he focuses on the professor again with a smile on his face as you look all flustered.

Pls tell me there will part 2 of countdown, because wow It’s so sad and i’m so curious 😩😩

omg thank you so much for liking it  ^^ i dont have any plans on making a part 2 tho :< i think that’s it for their love story but i’ll try to make one when inspiration hits <3

countdown (lee jeno)

countdown (lee jeno)

pairing: lee jeno x reader

word count: 1k words

content: angst

notes: lowercase intended. this isn’t proofread. i hope you like this <3 

this is inspired by the song “never the 1” by rosie.

https://open.spotify.com/track/3gk96wClxx6rbSOpxXUc5O?si=wev0PfRoSsGQIJTiADDFMA

i could write 10 songs about 9 ways you fucked me over.

“y/n, are you okay?” jaemin asks. you give him a nod while staring at your table filled with papers full of lyrics. “you’ve been writing a lot,” you give him a confused look. you’ve always loved writing songs, so this shouldn’t be a surprise to him. “no no, don’t get me wrong,” he gives a small chuckle. “but these lyrics, are you sure you’re okay?” he asks once again as he picks up a piece of paper and scans through the words written. you look up to him and let out a sigh. “writing is my only escape, jaemin,” you tell him as tears start to form in your eyes. he gives you a small smile, and gives you a hug as you cry on his shoulder. “i’ll talk to jeno for you, will that be alright?” he asks and you start to panic. you shake your head and look back at him, “no, you don’t have to. i’ll be fine, he clearly made his decision.”

only took you 8 days to forget 7 months together.

“hey, isn’t that jeno?” yeri asks. you look at where she was looking, and saw jeno with a girl. he can’t possibly be with a girl after everything you’ve been through, right? “oh” was all you could say to her. “do you know who she is?” you ask her. she shrugs and asks, “how long have you been together?” “yeri, you know we aren’t-” she cuts you off, “y/n, darling, you keep telling us you aren’t together, but you are practically together. everyone knows that by now, so how long have you been doing your thing with him?” “7 months, but we really aren’t together. he,” you pause and look at where jeno is. he’s smiling so wide, you could hear the sound of his laughter by the way his eyes smile, “he never really asked, you know that.”

your relationship with jeno is complicated, but everyone just assumed that you were both together. as much as you want to feel secured by the way he talks, by the way he holds you hand, the way he kisses every part of your face, the way he reminds you he loves you, you can’t. you can’t feel secured because there is no label. do you have the right to get jealous and mad at him when you’re not officially together?

we were wrapped til 6 in the morning, 5 days a week.

“hey baby,” jeno comes in your apartment and gives a peck on your lips. you give him a smile and look back at the television. “how was your day?” he asks as he cuddles you. we aren’t together, you tell yourself. “it’s been good,” you say passively. he reaches out for your hand, and you instinctively stood up. “i’m going to get water,” you tell him as he gives you a confused look. “are you mad at me?” he asks as he follows you to the kitchen. you let out a sigh, and face him. “jeno, why are you here?” “baby-“ “don’t you want to stay with the girl you were with awhile ago?” you tell him bitterly. you really didn’t mean to say that, your emotions were just at its peak. jeno lets out a chuckle and pulls you into a hug and kisses your forehead. “baby, you know i love you, right? you’re my favorite person.” you should have known when he said that you’re his favorite person that there were other people. you should have known, but instead you wake up at 6 in the morning with his beautiful face in front of you. this has been your routine for the past 7 months. him, sleeping peacefully on your bed, beside you during the weekdays every week.

you said 4ever and left before i counted to 3

“i will love you forever. i am staying by your side forever, don’t forget that y/n,” jeno says as he caressed your face. his words and sweet voice repeatedly play on your mind as you see him, lee jeno, kissing a girl in your favorite café. you try your best to hold back your tears, and if it weren’t for jaemin and mark, you would have been crying your eyes out in the middle of the sidewalk. “hey y/n! how are yo-“ jaemin stops as he sees your state. “hey, are you okay?” “what happened?” they ask, but all you could do is cry. they look around and saw jeno, and they automatically knew what’s wrong. “let’s go to our place, okay?” mark says as he and jaemin guide you to their car.

loved you a little 2 much, but i was never the 1

mark and jaemin tried their best to comfort you, but you assure them that everything was fine. you weren’t though. how could you be so stupid. you should have known. the door suddenly opens and you saw jeno and hear him happily say, “mark! naeun came back from the states, and we’re back together. we met up-“ he stops when he sees your fragile state. “y/n” he whispers. you give him a sad smile. “jeno, you asshole! how can you do this to-“ mark starts, but you stood up and give them a smile. “mark, don’t worry. thank you to the both of you, but i’m fine, really.” you let out a small laugh and look back at jeno. “uhm, call me when you’re about to get your things at my place” “y/n…” “oh, i could just drop them here tomorrow.” you give him a smile and left. before they could even stop you, you were now running out of their apartment on the way home.

when you arrive back at home that’s when you start crying your eyes out. you should have known that jeno was never yours. 7 months with no label, how did you even handle that? you should have known when he said that you were his favorite that there were other people. you should have known that you were just someone he used for when he’s lonely. you should have known you were never the one, but fuck you were so in love with him and this is what your love for him got you.