A-timely-problem - “You Can Have It All. Just Not All At Once.”

I made you my temple, my mural, my sky;

i'm so sorry for the person I become during the esc

Barbie 2023

as a transguy, I watched the Barbiefilm with a great sense of both belonging and disconnect. It's an incredible movie about feminism, the way that men see the world and how women exist in an unfair world. It's a movie about the beauty of life and what it means to be human.

There is a line in the movie: “We mothers stand still so our daughters can look back to see how far they have come.”

Which for most people was a gutpunch. For me it was that too but after a small while, I realized that for me it applies differently. Because my mother also has that mindset. In her mind, she has three daughters. I have to live with the fact that she'll always see me as her daughter, not her son. Never a boy, who still knows and understands the struggles of being raised as a woman.

And that hurt.

Because while I know who I am, my mother thinks of me as an idea in her head that is never going to change, an idea that has disappointed her beyond measure.

you know you're friends with someone when you've had a discussion about whether trans people could be considered alphas/omegas and neither of you questioned the topic

"I don’t like that falling feels like flying 'til the bone crush" - Taylor Swift, "Gold Rush"

"I only ever asked questions."