It's So Odd. I'm Looking At The Unlovable Tag And Reblogging Posts, But I Feel Entirely Numb. I Used

It's so odd. I'm looking at the unlovable tag and reblogging posts, but I feel entirely numb. I used to cry or feel sad over being undeniably unlovable and unlikable by most, but now... I guess that part of me just died. I just accepted this as a fact of life.

I suppose either I'm healing or I'm dying. I don't know if there's anything in between and, frankly, I'm somewhat wary of finding out what it could be.

Deep down I wanna be worse because I deserve it... I don't wanna be happy, safe, or loved. They are such alienated feelings to me... I deserve to live a life full of misery, because I am evil.

To people who are kind for selfish reasons, I love you.

To people who are kind because it makes you look good, I love you.

To people who are kind because you get supply out of it, I love you.

If every kind thing you do is against your nature and the way you are wired, I love you. I see you. Your effort is noted and I’m proud of you.

I, for one, welcome our new feline overlord.

lmao.

*tucks you in*

*gives you a glass of water*

lmfao.

*turns down the lights to your preferred level of dimmness*

*turns on your fan to keep the room cool and give you some gentle white noise*

goodnight.