I Need The Smiling Friends For Real... Something's Gotta Change Brother... They Made Me Try To Clean

I need the smiling friends for real... Something's gotta change brother... They made me try to clean an ISO stat and I didn't want to tell them I think I needed to get refitted for N-95s. It was also my break soon too and somehow my anxiety just ramped up, my rage blinded me, I had went outside for a bit and decided to come back inside. I just couldn't do it, it would have taken over an hour to clean two beds, one wasn't even stripped and they had other shit in the room as well. I'm about to the point of quitting or going to another hospital building instead. They SAY they are really fucking desperate for people and yet they push me to my limits. I struggle to talk to people when I get REALLY upset. I just feel like breaking shit but I try so hard not to. I don't know what to do though because I love this job. It's the best I ever had. But sometimes... Eh. I don't like that... But I think Doctor Monster Allan made me smile... I think I need to sleep or something... And BEFORE all this shit. My coworker I was working with most of the day misgendered my other work friend. I kept using he, but she kept saying she. I didn't know how else to correct her because I didn't want to get heated with this old lady friend I have from working over the past couple of years. Eh. It is what it is I guess. I'm done.

Edited from my threads post (not extremely serious but feel free to read): You know when Zach Hadel says "cry about it"? Well actually, I wish I fucking could my dude. Lithium is one hell of a drug. And I wish for a great cry.

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And for that matter... Can we talk about how many of us liking smiling friends are or were sjws to an extent? Like I know I even get some fatigue with that. Like yeah, not everyone who's female is a woman, not everyone who's male is a man, yeah. Nonbinary people exist. But I don't actually have many comment on whether or not Smiling Friends is a problematic show. Sure, they do a lot of tongue in cheek humor that just rubs me the wrong way sometimes. Especially season 1. I don't think adult swim is going to take it off the air anytime soon. The point of great humor is not for shock value alone, it has got to make sense. Like enchanted forest episode for example. The sexual/romantic tension between Mip and Charlie is real for sure. Don't get me wrong, Mip was a terrible being. But was it because he's gay, or just being a stalker creepazoid? I'd like to think the later. Being a creep. But I know that they said in the dvd commentary that Charlie loves Pim, because he saw Pim in Mip? Okay? But then, why not just have Charlie being with Pim? Unless that's a later plot point in season 3 or even onward. But let's talk about that scene again. Even if Mip and Charlie are flirting seriously, this can also be seen as funny at the same time too. I'm not sure what it is about it? Maybe the settup leading up to it? Hard to say. But maybe because this scene is supposed to be serious... And just IS funny BECAUSE it is serious... Idk maybe that's just part of the charm in these jokes.

Another thing is Frowning Friends. I love their dynamic so much. They proudly declare their love to each other. And this could be seen as platonic too, but I may think otherwise. Then at the end, Grim declares how he wants to "eradicate all Puerto Ricans from the planet"... Woah. Ffs like it did get me a small chuckle but like WTF. Dude, even after processing that, Mr Boss tries to kill Grim and he strongly expressed how he doesn't want to die. This causes confusion among the audience and then Mr Boss tells Grim how he made him jealous. Grim and Gnarly smile and start dancing. And then the kicker. They get shot with arrows by the Renaissance men, Mr Boss unharmed. Now, I don't know if I must reiterate my point again but ... Were they killed because they could possibly be gay? Or we're they killed because they were obviously Nazis and terrible people?? Am I just supposed to pretend like I'm not seeing a pattern here? Gay and awful people deserve death, yes. But just being gay isn't an issue. I feel like this just put smoke into my head but into a good sort of way somehow. Idk i don't think I'll do posts like this all the time but feel free to reblog or comment anything you feel needs to be added. Idk what I'll tag this as yet lol.

Yooooooo. I couldn't do this for my thirtieth birthday 😭

I get Fillmore for my birthday ♥️

I think I had a dream that I was Charlie smoking a doobie. And I was in my car with my friend who was also another Charlie? Like the two Charlies. Talking shit, smoking a lit doobie. Yeah. Cool. Cool. Shit now I gotta figure out how to draw car interiors. I'll probably be cleaning her today, we'll see Goldie... We'll see...

Decided to do a little sketch of the two Charlie's, maybe one's his brother or something idk 😂 I dont have a functioning eraser godamn it

Drawing has helped me so much through this week. Even if I haven't felt like it at home, I stress-drew the last one. I didn't draw the adventure time drawings on the whiteboard unfortunately. The frowning friends are what my friend drew. Still not sure who drew the cherries. I wanna credit the artist but they are doodles?? Eh well maybe I'll never meet them lol.

So I was put in OB (a unit I usually don't like working in because it's so busy) but Friday was the busiest of days for sure. I was behind on everything by the last half of my shift because this unit is also getting a couple of rooms worked on. At least everything will be brand new!! Yippee!! (I'm a year older than the damn unit tho lmao) And so I took a break, brought my paper to show to my boss, but had to stop half way to just fucking breathe and said okay... I'm gonna draw on this textured ass file cabinet LMAO. So yeah. Enjoy more half-assed smiling friends I guess? I'll figure out how to draw full Allan soon lol.

Do I even want to know what this show is? My resume is that I've seen Morel Orel and Bojack Horseman. I don't even know if it's a cartoon lol. I'm not on T either lol.

yeah if I wasn't on t and I watched I Saw The TV Glow I'd probably have a crisis