Natasha? Its Me. Its Mama.

natasha? it’s me. it’s mama.

[credits to @/nobararomanova on twitter]

just casually thinking about how Natasha probably wanted to jump off a fucking cliff and sacrifice herself over that stupid stone because the pain of not having her family alive was worse than d*ing.

no one:

my brain at any time of the day: bye bye miss american pie

My take on Alexei and Melina as parents

ok, this is probably gonna be a rant so i’m sorry but anyway

I’ve seen SO many people calling them the big baddies or saying ‘fuck them’ but man, that’s not it. SURE, they should never have allowed Dreykov to get the girls but THINK about it.

Melina said she had gone through the Red Room at least 4 times BEFORE Natasha was even born, imagine how fucked up her head must be? She never learned how to love, she thought her role was to obey, to serve, to please. She even says to Natasha that she was born inside a cage and that was the only way she knew how to live. However, once she saw that helping Dreykow hurt her daughters (not specifically Natasha since she knew she managed to escape), the only thing (besides, probably her not so fake husband) she ever loved in her life she was bold enough to FINALLY act on it and rebel against it. I’d also like to say that when Alexei told them they HAD to leave she expressed she didn’t wanted to, Melina just wasn’t brave enough back then but damn, did she loved her little girls.

Now, Alexei.

HEAR ME OUT before judging!

We don’t get much of his backstory, what we know is that he was an idealist and that Dreykov sold this ideology for him and then locked him up for no apparent reason, YES he shouldn’t have sold two little innocent girls to and I quote “complete a misson” but I also don’t think Melina EVER told him what the Red Room was like, she’s not the chattiest or the most vulnerable person in the world. He claimed so much he was pissed about being undercover but he was just as sorry as Melina about leaving, when she says “I don’t wanna go” he says “don’t say that” as in: don’t make me wanna stay too. I know he seemed self absorbed but that was his way to take the focus out of getting “soft” and falling for this family, because wanting this family would mean he wouldn’t complete his mission. He could have let them take both Nat & Yelena away without talking to them, but he told them they’d be fine even tho they wouldn’t, after 20 years he still remembered Yelena’s favorite song, he still knew what they were up to. He failed them bad and he knew it and regretted but admitting he was wrong and failed was bullshit since there’s no such a thing as failure to a russian super soldier.

Both Alexei and Melina knew their love for their ‘fake family’ was real, even the ultimate asshole of assholes can’t help but smile when a little kid calls you “mom” or “dad”, fake it until you make it is fucking real. They just didn’t wanted to word it out, because the more real the more it’d hurt, but to them Natasha and Yelena were their daughters, “their girls” and that was their family. Again, i’m NOT excusing them or what they did, i’m just saying that they’re not the ones we should be targeting.

Anyways, sorry if that’s too long or if there’s any misspellings i’m tiredddd

Alexei: Girls, we’ll be back soon but meanwhile Yelena is in charge, okay?

Yelena: Yay!!!

Melina, whispering: Natasha, you’re secretly in charge.

Natasha: Obviously.