I Feel Like Such A Bad Human Being. I've Been A Pescatarian For Like A Year But I Also Eat Chicken Because

I feel like such a bad human being. I've been a pescatarian for like a year but I also eat chicken because my family was super annoyed with it and didn't want me getting mercury poisoning. But I feel guilty eating meat and I've told myself I wouldn't eat anything with gelatin (cause it's made from pig skin and bones), so it makes be feel so so guilty, on top of the guilt I already feel for eating. But, I guess my binge urges and cravings always outweigh the fact that I don't want to eat them. So, for real this time, I won't be eating gummies, candy corn, starbursts, marshmallows, nerds, and jello (besides the no sugar ones because it's 5 calories and one of my favorite low cal snacks). Which might be hard because I binge on all of them.

I just want to protect my family from ana. A couple months back, my step brother took out a Lunchables and he said "300 calories!?? That's so much." Or something like that and he's only 9. Then today, my sister was debating whether to get the foot long cookie or pretzel, and she said something like "but the cookie is 1,440 calories! And the pretzel is only 330." And she's 11. Like Jesus Christ. Please don't turn out like me. Go play Fortnite or something.

My t!ts ruin every photo of me. I NEED to get rid of them.

I am so close to breaking my fast just cause I'm on my period.

I just read a comment on YouTube that said, "I drank vegetable oil one time thinking it was apple juice 💀💀" If that happened to me I would literally k1ll myself, not laugh about it??? That's a straight up nightmare.

I wanna sad starve, not sad eat.