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Day 2.

I'm 5 feet 3 inches tall.

I like my height.

Me checking the calories on every food wrapper:

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This is literally my DREAM BODY!!

does anyone else feel like they're shit at having an eating disorder?

its a canon event.

I will be loveable.

Even if it isn't by her. Even if it isn't right now. I will be loveable. She will adore me. She does adore me. She will adore my body. Be worried about me and completely dedicated to me. Only me. Only want me. My body.

why i need to stay consistent in october

•halloween

•can't look good in a costume unless your thin

•you don't want your girlfriend to think your ugly

•you don't want to be embarrassed when someone pulls out these photos

•don't you want to eat you halloween candy and not look like a hog

•don't you want to look the best

the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have i losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight

Quick little list of fucked up things I've done because my ed is feeling invalid At the moment (TW)

i remember when I was 7 being physically and mentally terrified to eat anything that wasn't healthy

When I was 10 I would walk around the kitchen while I was eating to try to cancel out the calories and work out in my room for 3 hours a day

When I was 12 I would write down everything I ate that day with the specific measurements ( like 3 goldfish )

When I would cook food using vinegar because I was scared of oil

When I ate a pop tart once and walked back and forth in my room for 5 hours to the point where I threw up at my dad's wedding shower

When during the summer I used to go to the neighborhood gym while my family went to the pool

When I was wearing hoodies and sweaters in the middle of summer bc I would sh after a binge

When I would look at my self in the mirror for hours looking for every single imperfection

When I had a walmart bag in my closet of chew and spit that got moldy

When I broke down crying when I got home after sex and sent a paragraph to the guy apologizing if it was horrible and he didn't love me anymore

Anyways hope you enjoyed my random dump

i wish i were special

so fucking special

i’m nothing but an in between

am i sane, or am i crazy?

girl or ghost?

do i wanna be skinny or do i want to live freely?

girl or ghost girl or ghost girl or ghost girl or ghost

because you’re dead already, sara

🎀🤍🎀🤍🎀🤍🎀🤍🎀🤍🎀🤍🎀🤍🎀🤍

Fasting for the first time, wish me luck 🤠✨.

I'm going out with my friends tomorrow, we will are grilling. Since they know I used to have an 3d, I will have to be sneaky. I kinda missed this feeling of having a secret, it's almost as if I was a vampire or something.

23/2/2024 & 24/2/2024 log

Cal goal

800 (771 food - 260 exercise) 🩷

Grow With Jo Abs Challenge

Walk the Weight Off (20 min) 🩷

Emo 21 Day Leg Transform

Inner + Outer Thighs & Calves (15 min) 🩷

Slim Your Calves (10 min) 🩷

🩷 Bonus - 20 min Para Para dancing

🩷Bonus - 17 hour fast

Overall, I'm pretty happy with yesterday. I choose challenges with workouts I already know and like, which makes it a lot easier.

I also fasted for last 17 hours, because I'm grilling with my friends today and I know I'm not strong enough for this. Allegedly, I lost 1 kg during this. Since I have been working out for past 7 days and my body needs to regenerate, I will also take a rest day today so yeah.

Already not proud, but I'm looking forward seeing my friends.

Hi (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧

I have a family get together this whole weekend. Last time I saw those people, they made a huge issue of me being "too skinny". At least they will be pleased.

That was before Halloween, I have no idea how I could gain so much time in such a short period of time (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠).

After few weeks back on track, I almost fit back into my favorite pants. That motivates me. They are still too tight around my thighs, but I still decided to wear them. At least I will be motivated to not eat too much at our family's party.

I feel rather good today, even if I messed my bangs.

trynna be like this🫶

i am gonna get like this

i am gonna get like this

i am gonna get like this

i am gonna get like this

i am gonna get like this

i am gonna get like this

i am gonna get like this

Poc thinspo is unbelievably hard to find so here's some for all yall struggling to find it

lost another kg🫶🫶

i went from 53kgs to 51kgs🫶🫶🫶 i have never been more happy🤭🤭

Stats:

Height: 5’4

cw: 47kgs

gw: 45kgs

ugw: 38kgs

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Had the party today, I ate around 700 cals, I feel bloated nd shit I hate it here.

gonna fast for 2 days.

sorry guys, went really low nd disappeared, but im back nd i have lost 2 kgs🫶🤭

im back bitches, they tried to get me into recovery but i am thrivingg🎀

I don’t know who will fully see this but I NEED TIPS!!

I was forced to recover and I’m back to 53kgs(116lbs) I’ve been trying to loose it and go back down but no matter any diet or starving I still stay the same weight :((

Any tips at all are helpful!!