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I feel like such a bad human being. I've been a pescatarian for like a year but I also eat chicken because my family was super annoyed with it and didn't want me getting mercury poisoning. But I feel guilty eating meat and I've told myself I wouldn't eat anything with gelatin (cause it's made from pig skin and bones), so it makes be feel so so guilty, on top of the guilt I already feel for eating. But, I guess my binge urges and cravings always outweigh the fact that I don't want to eat them. So, for real this time, I won't be eating gummies, candy corn, starbursts, marshmallows, nerds, and jello (besides the no sugar ones because it's 5 calories and one of my favorite low cal snacks). Which might be hard because I binge on all of them.
Me when I treat tumblr like a diary:
More of my favorite th1nspø cause I'm struggling
I don't know if I should break my fast after school or keep going. Cause if I do then I'll be distracted and regretting it for 3 hours and if I don't then I'll be distracted and thinking about food for the 3 hours. Like it's a lose lose?? Idk what to do.
I work at a k-3 afterschool program and I probably look like a creep, but I'm just comparing my body to theirs and wishing my legs and arms were that tiny. I can't help it.
Taking my SAT test 38 hours into a fast 😍🤞
I HATE that 4 of my families birthdays (including mine) is in June and July because the first time I ever binged, and what stopped my honeymoon phase was last year when I ate an entire sheet cake in 2 days on the first of those 4 birthday, so then I had to try to fight the urge to eat 3 more cake and more because they got like to cakes, and cupcakes, and cookies. Like I actually wanna cry just thinking about how terrible I'm gonna do, and that it's gonna ruin all my progress, and that I'm gonna gain another 10 pounds or something, and it's gonna start another series of binges.
I haven't flushed my dinner down the toilet in a while, and I still feel guilty from doing it yesterday.
I hate my collarbone. I'm underweight, but they look thick and ugly, the opposite of dainty.
I was literally getting up to make popcorn right when Nermal said this and it got me to sit right back down.
Happy Easter guys!! Remember to try to have fun, it can be a metabolism day
✨2024 is gonna be the year i reach my ugw✨
pleaseeee ana gods i really want to wear a bikini this summer 🤞🤞😫😫🙏🙏
it’s been a long time since i’ve last posted i haven’t been doing good at all i gained 10 pounds in the past month i am so disappointed in myself i had been doing so good i started drinking again which is kinda what messed me up because i would just eat anything i’m gonna get back on track today and i’m hoping i can lose the 10 pounds by the end of this month i need to start holding myself more accountable and really do better i’m gonna try to start blogging everyday and track my calories better i’m gonna get back and track and do even better this time i know i can reach my ugw this year
i don’t want my bf to leave me but ik it would help me lose sm weight
somebody traumatise me so badly to the point that i cant eat anymore
i feel so disgusting i hate looking at myself in the mirror look hideous in everything i wear i hate how i look without makeup i hate everything about myself i’m so sick of being fat if i were skinny i’d be pretty
Aug 22 Log
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breakfast: mini rice cakes with berry yoghurt (60k.cal)
lunch: breakfast cake bar with jam (133k.cal)
dinner: english muffins with raspberry jam (351k.cal)
snacks: strawberry gum (4.3k.cal), savoury shapes (121 k.cal), dr pepper creaming soda (150k.cal), passionfruit yoghurt (185k.cal)
total: 1004.3
goal: 500 :(
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i feel like an absolute pig. I .te so fuckin much and i cant p.rge tonight.
breakfast: 80
lunch: 220
dinner: 370
snacks: 4.5
total: 674.5
still went a tad over, but this is more like it. if my boyfriend hadnt made me e.t, it wouldve been lower.
but i think i burned about 100-150, so im fine
27 aug
breakfast : 390
lunch: 120
dinner: 150
snacks: 80
total: 740
i stayed under limit :)