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To eat or not eat

That is the question

To relapse or not relapse

That is the question

To have an ed or not have an ed

That is the fucking question

Now that I’m semi-recovered it’s like I have days where I choose to feel fat or choose to feel skinny

I don’t know which version of myself to trust.

Main blog: @luxies-babydolls

I'll make this longer when I can but please, if you don't already have an ed or are trying to recover from one then please leave my blog. This is not the sort of thing I'd want anyone else to deal with, my life is no longer mine it sometimes feels and I've made peace with the fact that this is my struggle to survive. For anyone who’s just starting out, please try talking to someone or doing this the healthy way; this is coming from someone whose life has been somewhat ruined by the not-so-fun aspects of having severe body image issues and strong negative feelings towards food. Your want to lose weight and be healthier is okay, and can be done in a way that doesn’t sacrifice your very sense of self.

My blog is a space for me to talk about all the aspects of my ed; im not trying to tell anyone to do what I do, simply sharing my experiences with a restrictive ed and trying to find people who understand the complicated, crazy, addictive, controlling mess that this can be. Stay safe everyone 🩷

Lila xx

Basic info about me~

Age: 17

Fav colour: pink

Fav diet drink: ultra strawberry dreams (sugar-free monster)

Hobbies/interests: reading, exercise, fashion, writing, dancing, makeup, thrifting, calling my bf, hanging out with friends

Fav singers: Lana Del Rey, Britney Spears, ElysianSoul, Hole

youre just a man 😒

im gonna fucking kill myself my best friend is moving back to jp

Guys im new to 3d tumblr and I need some advice ASAP.

I’ve lost loads of weight recently and my mum is starting to notice and I think she’s going to take me to get weighed at the doctors at some point. PLEASE GIVE ME ADVICE ON HOW TO WEIGH MORE AT THE DOCTORS SHE CANT KNOW HOW MUCH WEIGHT IVE LOST!! I don’t have any weights or anything I can put in my pockets so I might just stuff my pockets with stones and shit and hope that makes a difference???

TW: sweetspo 🎀💕💋

You’ve been trying so hard for this and I know just how difficult it’s been but I promise it’ll be worth it okay? Just imagine a few months from now the look on peoples faces when you show up to school/ college/ work thinner with a glow up. Every bite you take delays that day more and more. Don’t give up with this no matter how badly you’re tempted to. I promise once those pounds are gone things will get so much easier 💕💕💕

Genuinely one of the main reasons I want to loose weight is so when I get a bf I won’t need to worry about my thighs being bigger than his, or like how I want to be light and dainty enough for him to pick me up effortlessly. Just imagine his embarrassing it would be to be too fat for that :(((

Anytime you’re tempted to binge just remember:

You will never regret skipping a meal, but you always regret giving in and eating. Restraint is about mindset. It takes practice to be successful.

Tips to prevent binging:

- weigh yourself

- do a body check in the mirror

- go for a walk/ run

- scroll on tumblr

- look at thinspo

- chat to a friend/ family member

- watch mukbangs (this is my fav tip 🫶🫶)

- watch triggering movies (ill post a list soon)

- pinch different areas of your skin to see where else weight can be lost

- online shopping to plan outfits to buy for your gw

- try on your fav clothes to appreciate the weight you’ve already lost

- watch supersize vs super skinny

- plan low cal meals

- make Pinterest boards to plan outfits to wear at your gw

- look at pics of yourself at your lw

- try a new workout on YouTube

- take your measurements (waist, hips etc)

- bake/ cook your fav low cal recipe (or try a new one)

That’s all I can think of for the moment. Let me know if you want more or feel free to comment any to help others 🤍🤍

Am I the only one who keeps having nightmares about gaining weight?? I wake up crying because of it I hate it so much 😭😭

I want to peel off my skin and grab the chunks of my fat off of my bones before stitching myself back together so im nothing but skin and bones and ill finally be beautiful

3/10/2024

TW; 3D

I know that in a week i'll loose all contact with my tumblr until christmas, which is really freaking me out!!! I just wanna be back at my lw before christmas (if not sooner.), which is when i'll get my phone back. I hate having strict guardians!!!!!!

I'm going to fast today to make up for yesterday, because after the kiev i had a WHOLE HALF JAR of NUTELLA! idk what came over me to eat that but I started my period so that might be it.

stay safe and skinny!

scariest thing about 4na is the dreams where you 3at.

chega de ser gorda, eu cansei!! quero ser fininha e motivo de inveja de outras garotas e chamar atenção dos meninos quando eu passar com minha cinturinha

IRL meanspo when my brother said to me “maybe if you weren’t so fat you could breathe better” after I sighed because he (a 26 year old man living at home) was throwing a tantrum.

I’m contemplating downing all my pills and taking a nap face down in my bathtub!

I hate meeting new people when I’ve gained weight. I feel like it makes a bad impression

Oh to be a “starves when they’re sad” person instead of a “binges when they’re sad” person because I’m sad all the time.

saw an impossibly thin girl who was also tall, had longer hair, and prettier curls than I did

about to starting gnawing at my desk out of jealousy

Y'all don't binge masturbate instead