If I Can't Be The Prettiest, I Will Be The Skinniest.

If I can't be the prettiest, I will be the skinniest.

There was this photo of me taken and why do I have a hole in my wrist??

I wanna k1ll myself so badly, but I wanna die skinny.

Why do I feel worse and more faint the day after eating 3,000 calories than I do the day after eating nothing?? Make it make sense

I don't know if I should break my fast after school or keep going. Cause if I do then I'll be distracted and regretting it for 3 hours and if I don't then I'll be distracted and thinking about food for the 3 hours. Like it's a lose lose?? Idk what to do.

I'm on vacation and I fucking ate 3,500 calories yesterday. What. The. Fuck. Like, I should be losing weight. I was gonna. I ate 1,500 cals, which was already not that good, but then my cousins wanted to make brownies, which I was fine with since I hate brownies, so I wasn't gonna eat them, but then they decided to just not bake them since the batter tastes better. So I was just there eating the dough for half an hour. I want nothing more than to rip my insides open and weep until I can't feel a muscle in my body.