Calming

Calming

Uses: Calms the user and others.  Can be drawn onto the body and on paper.  Can be used to calm Spirits. 

Creator:  AP Ottovan  Warnings:  None 

It’s Not A Phase, Ugh!

Sometimes, It Feels Like I’m Drowning

Sometimes, it feels like I'm drowning.

And on this particular sunny day, I actually was.

I was drowning in the noise from the endless cascades of voices, Being pulled out further into the sea by the currents of flesh and bone, Being smothered by scents and colors.

I was drowning in an ocean of teardrops and shame, Bodies being pushed and pulled, Wanted to touch something, but never each other. Wanting to hold on, but always having to let go.

This morning, I was thrown overboard. No life vest, no arm floaties. I was left on my own, Sharks surrounding me As sorrow choked me and filled my lungs.

This afternoon, I found some driftwood I could cling to. But two hours of endless floating, Salt souring in my mouth, Birds biting my fingers and fish nipping at my toes, I let go.

And tonight, When the only thing around me was inky, unending blackness, I surfaced to the see the stars. I saw the Big and Little Dippers, I spotted Orion's Belt I admired the bright North Star, And it all reminded me of home.

The More You Look At It, The More It Hurts

What is this need for gratification I feel? Shouldn’t I feel happy just being able to share my stuff? 

Whaaaat? Just because only porn blogs like my stuff doesn’t mean there’s no point in continuing, right?? Crazy talk.  Crazy talk.