Fear - Tumblr Posts
Eszembe jutott egy emlékem, rajz óráról.
A tanár azt mondta, képzeljünk el egy virágos rétet, és rajzoljuk le. Egyest kaptam, pedig teljesítettem a feladatot. Azt hiszem, a színnel volt problémája...
Az egész lapom a fekete különböző árnyalataiban pompázott.
Tudom, hogy szarul csinálom, de ha egyszer nincs jobb opció
Olyan keserédes ez az elmúlt egy hét
Escaping horror movie terrors...
Every horror movie should have bloopers at the end so that we know that that shit was made up and not for real.
*Me walking through the hall at 12, laughing instead of trembling at how the ghost tripped on her own dress*HAHAHA!! COME AT ME TRIPPY BITCH!!!
I would cut of your head and cave in your skull and feed it to the rats of the darkest underground.
Gorge out your eyes so you can't look at me anymore.
Cut of your tongue so no lies can spread futher.
Rip out your throat with my teeth, plung them deep enough, so you will always remember be.
Pick out your heart with my fingers crooked like a cage cause now I've got you.
But still when I can feel your blood dripping down my hands like honey. I can still feel your eyes hear your lies feel your touch.
In my mind I can maim and kill you as often as I wish. But in reality you are the ghost that always finds me. The ghost that could take her away.
I’m not strong; but I’m not afraid to be weak.
-probablyintenseomens
Teachers
I mean, I was terrified of teachers, terrified ever since a swimming teacher forced me to jump into the deep-end even as I screamed and wailed, snot dribbling down my face, my parents hurriedly wiping my face and apologising in their broken english. She promised to catch me, but instead, she just let me drown, she laughed as the chlorinated water filled my sinuses and throat, as I flailed wildly until she finally grabbed a hold of my thrashing arms and shoved me onto the side of the pool.
“You didn’t catch me”
I had said, within gasping breaths, my brain struggling to string together the sentence. I still remember her smile, yellow and wide,
“You needed to learn”
Ever since then, I wasn't afraid of water, I loved the way it felt, and my dad spent time with me before class, teaching me to float, and conserve energy. No, I wasn't afraid of the water;
I was afraid of the teachers.
Sad
Hey guys. I’m going through the word spell of depression I’ve ever had. I think it’s causing me more issues than normal and that’s causing me to stress even more. I’ve taken a break from writing for now until I feel better. I’ve been trying to work on another project but even then I can’t seem to muster up the strength to finish it :(
a new day
my eyes peel open.
they lift the weight of my sleep
with no small effort.
bleary vision clears.
6 P.M. , violet sun-set.
i'm awe-struck, briefly.
Apathy bleeds through.
oblivion waits for me.
i go back to bed.
Panic comic exercise
Tumblr is a weird place, honestly. You'll be scrolling through your dashboard, and, then you'll pause at a post and think, "So THAT is what I'm 'supposed' to look like..." And, then you keep scrolling. Sometimes I feel like these impossible standards are kind of overwhelming. You think "No one ACTUALLY looks like that..." But, then you notice the countless images of "attractive" people, and it's like, "Well, apparently a lot of people look like this..." I'm sure most people on here struggle. Either you wish you looked more "attractive," and wish for more attention, or, if you're "attractive," and have a lot of attention, you never quite feel like enough, and you fear that they'll see you "for who you really are," and they'll all leave. On top of all this fear and self-loathing, both sides objectify and criticise the other. The more "popular" and "attractive" people, despite their own fear of rejection and judgement, often can obtain unfairly high expectations, and reject and judge others. The less "popular" and "attractive" people, angered and hurt by the rejection, judgement, and hurt, easily can objectify the more "popular" and "attractive" people, and fail to see that they're just as scared and hurt as everyone else. There are rude, angry people on both sides, and, it appears we're all just scared and insecure. NEVER let anyone tell you that you're ugly or worthless. Everyone is beautiful and valuable. Will everyone find you attractive? No. But, NEVER allow anyone to dictate how you should look. We're all beautiful, unique, diverse people, and, don't let other people's infectious fear and judgement weigh you down. No one has the right to tell you how to look. NO ONE. I love you all, you beautiful lovelies! If you're feeling down, hang in there! You WILL find someone with the wisdom and sight to see how beautiful you truly are, and don't you dare settle for anything less!
