Gone

Gone

You’re his best friend, and he is yours, though both of you don’t want to admit that there is definitely more than platonic feelings there. On a mission with Poe, you meet his ex lover Zorii who he still seems to like…

Pairings: poe dameron x f!reader

Warnings and whatnots : Angst and unhappy ending. Miscommunication (?)

Part 2: Found

You had been friends with Poe for years. Ever since you’ve joined the Resistance, he had been there for you and helping you, even though you both didn’t work in the same unit.

You were a medic while he was well, a pilot.

Normally, they never let you and Poe on the same mission. You were the chaos duo, something dumb was bound to happen if the both of you were together. Yet, this time was different. Leia herself had come up to you, Poe, Rey and Finn and ask you to go on this mission. Usually, you weren’t invited but apparently the planet was dangerous and you needed to be there to make sure no one died.

“How’s it feel to be part of team huh?” Poe asks, smiling as he flies the ship. You roll your eyes. “Good, but your flying is horrid.”

He only laughs. The laugh that sends shivers down your spine when you hear. The laugh that made your cheeks flush red and your brain dizzy. It made you drunk and nauseous. Or maybe it was his flying, you weren’t sure.

It wasn’t long until you landed on the planet. You were adorned in loose cloths and garments with shawls that covered your face to hide your identity. You held your medical supplies in a small basket weaved out of wood.

“You look stunning.” Poe says, as he gives you his hand to help you down. He winks at you, giving you his signature smirk.

“You too, Dameron.”

“Oh get a room!” Finn says, as Rey laughs beside him. We take no notice of them.

We were supposed to head to town and gather intel. The town was dangerous and robberies happened a lot. Mugging, killings, fights, they were the usual in this area. On the way there you had seen pools and trails of blood all over the pavement. No wonder you were asked to come. Even Poe seemed uneasy though he didn’t want to show it.

Poe grabs your hand, holding it tight and closely as you walk. Your heart flutters at his touch.

The bar that we were supposed to gather intel at was in the heart of town and we quickly found it. We entered, taking a seat near our target. We were making good progress and by the end of the night, we managed to complete the mission. I smiled as I walk back to the ship with Poe, Rey and Finn walking in front us. Poe was still grabbing my hand tightly.

“I’m not scared! I’m just making sure that you don’t get lost or hurt!” He had said.

“What a gentleman. You care about me so much hm Dameron?”

“Of course I do, love.”

The walk was going good when suddenly Poe stopped.

“Zorii?” He says, looking at a woman adorn in purple armour with a purple mask. I stood still, looking at her curiously, wondering how Poe knew her. Rey and Finn also came to an abrupt stop.

“Poe?” The woman named Zorii says.

Poe lets go of my hand, leaving me feeling empty. He goes up to her and hugs her, though she pushes him away. Yet, her body language doesn’t make it seem like she hates it. I stare at their interaction.

“Zorii! I missed you, how have you been?” Poe says

“Since you left? Shit.”

“Oh come on now darling. I didn’t know you missed me that much.”

“I really don’t. You left us Poe, we needed manpower and you left us.”

“You know for a fact that it wouldn’t matter if I stayed or left.” Poe explains. “You can just admit you still like me Zorii.”

Still like him? This girl had a crush on Poe, and he knew? A part of your heart broke as you hear his words. He said it with so much joy, a wide grin spread across his face.

“If you want to go out sometime we can. We can always start back where we left off.” Poe says, winking at her.

You could hear the sound of your heart shattering like glass hit with a hammer. You purse your lips and you watched them. You watched how he talked, how he stood, how he looked. He gave her a look. The look. He gave her the look that you thought he only gave to you. The smirk that he always gave to you. The eyes that glimmered only for you. Yet, here they were, all given to someone else. You chastise yourself internally. Had you meant nothing? Had you been so stupid enough to think that he would actually love you?

He was Poe Dameron. Esteemed pilot. He was highly decorated.

You… You we’re just some lowly medic that he had taken pity on.

The interaction between Poe and Zorii finally wrapped up but you couldn’t look at him the same. The joy that radiated off of you when you walked and saw him was no longer there, grief and regret filling its place. You felt your stomach churn and your heart beat. You move up to walk with Rey who gives you a sympathetic look. Finn decides to walk with Poe.

~ The days after the mission was torturous. Everywhere you went you saw him. He still didn’t understand why you were being so distant and yet you couldn’t muster up the words. It didn’t matter. He was never yours, and you were never his.

You couldn’t stand to look at him. To see him. To talk to him. Every time you did, every time you were forced to, it felt like a stab to your already broken heart. It hurt, you wanted to vomit.

It had been a week after the mission and you still couldn’t deal with it. You couldn’t deal with the guilt, the fear, the grief. You had to leave. You couldn’t stay here. It was interfering with your work and you didn’t want others to suffer due to your inability to control your emotions.

“Leia, I want to be transferred back to my home planet. I will still work and help with finding antidotes and other stuff but I can’t stay here.”

You had been ashamed to tell her. To explain to her the situation yet she understood and let you leave. She didn’t need you there to mess up. That was your conclusion.

So you left. You packed up your things and left in the dead of night when everyone was sleeping. When Poe was sleeping. You couldn’t even say goodbye. ~ Poe woke up, and immediately tried to find you. It had been an odd week. You had been distant from him and he couldn’t take it anymore. He needed to know what happened.

Had something happened? Was something bothering you? He wanted to know so he could fix it. He wanted to be there for you and ensure you were okay. You were his girl, even if you weren’t official. He loved you, even though he couldn’t muster up the words to say it.

He searched everywhere yet he couldn’t find you. He searched the medbay, the cafeteria, the library. Everywhere, he even went to your room where he was surprised to see it cleaned out. Did you move rooms? He thinks to himself.

It was evening time when he heard the news. Rey and Finn had told him. He had freaked. He shouted, and made a scene. It was a good thing there were all in Poe’s room at the time. Poe was a wreck. He didn’t understand. Why would you leave? Why didn’t you tell him? Did he do something wrong? Did you hate him? Why wouldn’t you talk to him?

Finn and Rey tried their best to calm him down but they quickly left after realising he needed to be alone. Poe grabbed his comms and tried to call you. He messaged you, called you yet never answered. He waited and waited but no reply came from you.

Eventually he left to lay on his bed, thinking of you. He stares at his ceilings. He had loved you, and you had left him. He thought… He thought that he would tell you yet he never could. He was a flirt and could always pick people up, but not you. You were different. You made him nervous. Poe’s eyes welled up with tears as he thinks about you, he covers his face.

Why did you leave?

I NEED EVERYONE TO STOP HATING ON THE BONNIE THUMBS UP SCENE AND THE FORT BUILDING SCENE

he’s just a lil guy pls stop bullying him ‼️‼️

Are you okay with minors following you ?

mhm i’m completely fine with that!! I won’t be posting anything like smut so no need to be worried 💞💞

omg i really actually just thought it was evan at first- wtf that’s NOT evan???

✍ If character looks a little to much like young Evan Peters ✍ do not fucking trust him ✍ that face is a trap always ✍

Would anyone be interested in a fanfic series about Matthias Helvar's sister surviving and ending up to be a Grisha and Matthias finds out so she has to run away and ends up being one of the crows???

Don't come back

Summary: Steve finds Peggy cheating and decides to come back, but is it too late? Writer's note: Thank you to @zoosidj for giving me this idea. Warnings and whatnots: Nothing really, probably OOC characters, kinda bad writing. Allusions to Stucky

Steve walks towards the door of his former love, doubt filling his mind. Should he really be doing this? He shakes his head, deciding to go forth with his decision. He had enough of fighting and saving others, he now just wanted be with the love of his love.

He goes to the top of the stairs of the porch, grabbing the keys that were under the flower pot. He smiles to himself, holding his compass that held the picture of her. The cold metal grazing his skin. It was the only picture of her he had in the future, but now he had the chance to take more.

He opens the door slowly, careful not to make that much of a noise. He walks around the downstairs area, his grin wide on his face and yet she wasn't there anywhere. Steve bites the inside of his cheek before deciding the go upstairs. He walks towards her bedroom, knocking on the door.

"Peggy?" He says, excitement and happiness lacing his voice.

"Steve?" Peggy's voice says through the door. "Steve!" Her voice echoes, shocked and panicky. "Don't open the door!"

Steve furrows his eyebrows. "Is everything alright?" He asks. Peggy reassures him through the door, Steve holds the knob of the door. He didn't believe her. Why didn't he believe her.

"Are you sure?" "Yeah! Just don't open the door!" Peggy asks.

The sound of something being hit was more than enough for Steve to decide to open the door. He didn't know why he was so convinced that he had to do. Yet there was a part of him that gnawing at him to open the door. "I'm coming in!" He shouts.

"NO DON'T!"

It was too late, Steve had already opened the door. Steve glances at Peggy who looked like a deer caught in headlights. She didn't seem injured. That's when Steve saw it. A man stopped midway from climbing out of the window. Steve's eyes widen as he notices his appearance. His ruffled blond hair, his guilty blue eyes, his messy white shirt whose collar was littered with lipstick stains. The same shade that Peggy always wore.

"Steve- Steve please let me explain-" Peggy starts, holding onto his arm but Steve pulls away. Steve looks at Peggy. Her eyes. The eyes that he had once loved. Her eyes showed guilt and remorse but Steve couldn't forgive her.

He just couldn't.

~

"Where the hell is he?" Sam asks, looking at Bruce. Bruce's eyes scanned the machine.

"I- I don't know... He's supposed to be back by now!" Bruce says, his voice, slightly panicked.

"What? Are you saying he's stuck?!" Bucky asks, panic lacing his voice. "No... No that's... That's impossible, he took the other vial meaning..."

"He's staying there willingly," Sam continues.

Bucky stares at the other two dumbfounded. That idiot. He lied. He said he wouldn't leave him. “No- No, he said he’ll come back…”

“Buck…”

Sam’s voice rung in Bucky’s head. He was supposed to be back by then. Yet, he wasn’t here. He could be here and yet he chose not to.

“That idiot.” Was all Bucky could say as he left the machine.

~

Steve was stuck, until that night. It had been what? Two weeks in the past? Bruce had warned that time goes faster in the future, the more you stayed in the past. Steve held the vial in his hand, the suitcase in his other. He had tried every single night, to get out of the past and for the first time in what seemed to be forever, he managed to get out.

The blurry world finally cleared. He looks to the control panel, seeing a young girl standing there, her face shocked. Steve stares at her dumbfounded, no way that could be... "Morgan?" "Uncle Steve?" Morgan replies, her eyes widen in shock as the man steps off the platform. "How... How long was I gone?" He asks, staring at Morgan. She had grown up. How long was he gone for?

"Two... Two years... give or take," Morgan answers, looking wearily at the man in front of him. His eyes widened as he heard her answer. She wasn't joking. He was gone for two years and it only felt like 2 weeks to him... "Do you... Do you know where your mom is?" Steve asks. ~ Bucky jolts awake from his nightmare. His hands clammy and his body damp with sweat. He breathes wearily. "What time is it?" He asks to himself. He slowly gets off the floor, walking to the alarm clock that sat next to his bed.

8:00 a.m.

He sighs, running his fingers through his hair, his cold metal arm on his hips, causing him to shiver.

The sound of the doorbell of his apartment ringing snaps him out of his thoughts. He furrows his eyebrow, grabbing a shirt and pants and putting them on as he walks towards the front door of his apartment. Who the hell was visiting him this early in the morning? Must be Sam. It's always Sam.

The doorbell rang again as he put on his shirt. "Coming! Coming!" He shouts towards the door, he looks through the peephole.

He recoils. His hands shaking as he held onto the doorknob. No way. Was he hallucinating? There was no way, that he, that Steve was back. Was it some Hydra member coming back? Was he in a dream? A nightmare? And yet, something inside was screaming at him to open the door. It was dumb of him but still, he opened the door. "Steve?" Bucky asks wearily, opening the door a crack.

Steve smiles at him, albeit awkwardly. "Hi Buck... I'm back," He says, chuckling. "Guess I did bring all the stupid with me?"

Bucky opens the deadlock, opening the door fully before dragging the blond into his apartment.

"Steve, what- how? How did you get back? How- How did you even find me?" Bucky asks, ushering the blond man to sit down as he relocks the door. "I- uh, well I got back because Morgan managed to reopen the machine so I got to go through and uh... I asked Pepper for your apartment..." Steve says looking around the room. "I'm glad you seem to be doing well."

"Yeah, how- How have you been? How did you even get stuck in the past?" Bucky asks, leaning against the wall. Steve's eyes widen at Bucky's words. He thought that he had been stuck. The memory of the moments before he went into the machine replays in his mind. He had lied to him. He had lied to his best friend.

"I've uh, I've been good... I uh, I don't know how I got stuck there..." Steve answers, averting his eyes. He plays with his thumbs as he looks down to the floor. Bucky observes his best friend's movements, he sucks in a breath as he realises that Steve was lying.

Steve was lying to him.

"You didn't get stuck did you?" Bucky says, straightening his body. Steve stares wide-eyed at Bucky. His eyes showed everything.

"You went to her. You went to see her. You left us, you left the life you created here, you left ME here," Bucky says, his hand clenched.

"Look I- I just wanted to go visit her but-"

"Don't lie to me. You left us to see her again. It's not even the fact that you went to see her again, its the fact you lied to me," Bucky says, his eyes fixed on Steve.

"You said you'd come back. You never did."

"No- No! I'm here right now!"

"TWO YEARS TOO LATE STEVE- I- Honestly... Just, I know you love her Steve but you need to get over her..."

"You don't think I'm trying!" Steve shouts.

Bucky stands shocked at Steve's sudden outburst. "She cheated on me."

Bucky curses, watching as Steve covers his face.

"I-I'm sorry I uh didn't know..."

"It's fine you're right. I left everything. I left my family. I left people who needed me. People who needed a shoulder to cry on, just for a woman who I used to love. I really did bring all the stupid with me."

Bucky stares at Steve, biting the inside of his cheek as he watches the man wallow in his self pity. How was this man his best friend? Bucky inhales.

"C'mon, let's get some coffee, I'll call Sam," Bucky says, grabbing his car keys.

"What-"

"Look even though you lied to me, you're still my best friend. So get off your butt and let's go-"

Steve stares dumbfounded at Bucky. Bucky raises an eyebrow.

"This doesn't mean I forgive you by the way, you still have to earn that."

"Of course I do-"