
☝️and this will stay here until I do☝️✨Queer✨Neurodivergent ✨needs to get back into the drill✨might post art and ramblings✨
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I feel like I‘m hearing a servamp reference here, but that just might be me

If they‘d be that would be too funny tho

Someone called it “Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Gay” and I never recovered

First concept panel for the idea above. I wanted to try the new storyboard brushes I got for procreate and I really like them. Might be my way into Comic making👀
You own Alastors Soul, but there’s a plot twist
I had an angsty fanfiction idea for an AU where Alastors soul is owned by Reader/ OC, so buckle up buttercups and bear with me on my crack thoughts.
This Idea is set before around the extermination that happened shortly before Alastor vanished for seven years.
• You and Alastor have a close friendship. One evening before extermination day you two have an argument over Mimzy who has always envied your relationship and he leaves enraged
• You have a bad feeling and decide to look after him only to find him deadly wounded by an angelic spear.
• In your fear of losing him, you save his life in exchange for his soul. The contract gives you healing powers and you are able to save him, but when he realises, you own his soul, the doubts Mimzy has sowed resurface and he starts to hate you
• Alastors memories around the event and his knowledge of the context are incomplete and he wants to break free from the contract at all cost. What he doesn’t know yet is that his soul will be obliterated as the contract will be reversed, once he does.
• Alastor isn‘t as chained by you as he believes he is. You let him go, where he wanted to go, never cashed in any favours and didn’t even limit his powers. This way he can vanish from the spotlight for seven years without suffering consequences from your side
• After a talk with Carmilla, you find out, that demons who survive such a severe attack from an angelic weapon, suffer from a major loss of power. If they survive long enough, they can reestablish some of their power, but they will never live up to their full potential again.
This idea is free to use for anyone, if you write something based on this, please share it, if you feel comfortable enough to do so, I wanna read!
I can’t say I understand it fully, but it does strike a chord within me. I read over it three times by now and I think I have a basic level of comprehending what is going on, but then again I am not sure. I still love how it is written and the emotions of grief, resignation and uncertainty it conveys for me.

i wonder just how many men have been killed by their own stubbornness.
That’s fair too. I am demisexual, that much I know and while I have been in love and in relationships before, I feel wildly uncomfortable with typical romantic date scenarios and grand gestures to show your love. I didn’t inform myself about the aro label enough yet to know for sure if it would fit for me.

Since I love the animatic the animatic for gossip by @/lainyblue over on YouTube I decided take some screenshots and use them to practice drawing Alastor.
Something about him being drunk, letting completely loose, pissing off the Vees in the process and doing a peak dance performance just tickles my brain in all the right places.
You find the link to the video here, I highly recommend you go and watch it, it is that good!
You own Alastors Soul, but there’s a plot twist
I had an angsty fanfiction idea for an AU where Alastors soul is owned by Reader/ OC, so buckle up buttercups and bear with me on my crack thoughts.
This Idea is set before around the extermination that happened shortly before Alastor vanished for seven years.
• You and Alastor have a close friendship. One evening before extermination day you two have an argument over Mimzy who has always envied your relationship and he leaves enraged
• You have a bad feeling and decide to look after him only to find him deadly wounded by an angelic spear.
• In your fear of losing him, you save his life in exchange for his soul. The contract gives you healing powers and you are able to save him, but when he realises, you own his soul, the doubts Mimzy has sowed resurface and he starts to hate you
• Alastors memories around the event and his knowledge of the context are incomplete and he wants to break free from the contract at all cost. What he doesn’t know yet is that his soul will be obliterated as the contract will be reversed, once he does.
• Alastor isn‘t as chained by you as he believes he is. You let him go, where he wanted to go, never cashed in any favours and didn’t even limit his powers. This way he can vanish from the spotlight for seven years without suffering consequences from your side
• After a talk with Carmilla, you find out, that demons who survive such a severe attack from an angelic weapon, suffer from a major loss of power. If they survive long enough, they can reestablish some of their power, but they will never live up to their full potential again.
This idea is free to use for anyone, if you write something based on this, please share it, if you feel comfortable enough to do so, I wanna read!
Yeah well, while I am a lesbian, I never had a Crush on a female Character once in my life, it is a weird dynamic I admit.

Since I love the animatic the animatic for gossip by @/lainyblue over on YouTube I decided take some screenshots and use them to practice drawing Alastor.
Something about him being drunk, letting completely loose, pissing off the Vees in the process and doing a peak dance performance just tickles my brain in all the right places.
You find the link to the video here, I highly recommend you go and watch it, it is that good!
Yeah well, while I am a lesbian, I never had a Crush on a female Character once in my life, it is a weird dynamic I admit.

Since I love the animatic the animatic for gossip by @/lainyblue over on YouTube I decided take some screenshots and use them to practice drawing Alastor.
Something about him being drunk, letting completely loose, pissing off the Vees in the process and doing a peak dance performance just tickles my brain in all the right places.
You find the link to the video here, I highly recommend you go and watch it, it is that good!
This is a major mood. Aside from Alastor we have Marvel Loki, Rumplestilskin from Once upon a time, Gentoku Himuro from Kamen Rider Build…. the list goes on. But the most important features are Intelligent, sarcastic, morally grey and crazy go some degree…. Glad that‘s not the things I‘m attracted to in real life… But then again I‘m lesbian xD
also @grownupchangeling I NEED that fic

Since I love the animatic the animatic for gossip by @/lainyblue over on YouTube I decided take some screenshots and use them to practice drawing Alastor.
Something about him being drunk, letting completely loose, pissing off the Vees in the process and doing a peak dance performance just tickles my brain in all the right places.
You find the link to the video here, I highly recommend you go and watch it, it is that good!
This is a major mood. Aside from Alastor we have Marvel Loki, Rumplestilskin from Once upon a time, Gentoku Himuro from Kamen Rider Build…. the list goes on. But the most important features are Intelligent, sarcastic, morally grey and crazy go some degree…. Glad that‘s not the things I‘m attracted to in real life… But then again I‘m lesbian xD
also @grownupchangeling I NEED that fic

Since I love the animatic the animatic for gossip by @/lainyblue over on YouTube I decided take some screenshots and use them to practice drawing Alastor.
Something about him being drunk, letting completely loose, pissing off the Vees in the process and doing a peak dance performance just tickles my brain in all the right places.
You find the link to the video here, I highly recommend you go and watch it, it is that good!

Since I love the animatic the animatic for gossip by @/lainyblue over on YouTube I decided take some screenshots and use them to practice drawing Alastor.
Something about him being drunk, letting completely loose, pissing off the Vees in the process and doing a peak dance performance just tickles my brain in all the right places.
You find the link to the video here, I highly recommend you go and watch it, it is that good!

Since I love the animatic the animatic for gossip by @/lainyblue over on YouTube I decided take some screenshots and use them to practice drawing Alastor.
Something about him being drunk, letting completely loose, pissing off the Vees in the process and doing a peak dance performance just tickles my brain in all the right places.
You find the link to the video here, I highly recommend you go and watch it, it is that good!
Alright, let‘s get down to business.
Why again is beauty solely reserved to females in human society?
For context the other day, I was wearing my paisley bandana hairband. I like hairbands, but I usually can‘t wear them, because the pressure behind my ears hurts. the bandana was the perfect solution. That was, which my co worker said to me, that I looked beautiful, just like a girl. I am aware she didn’t mean to offend me in any way, shape or form and I hold no grudge against her in particular, just against the fact that there are still adjectives clearly assigned to one gender. Be it beautiful, strong, cool, compassionate. We can find these attributes in every human being, and beauty most of all is not defined by gender.
I am well aware that people around this world perceive beauty differently. Beauty standards change drastically over time. My vision of beauty is somewhat detached from gender and outer appearance. Humans come in many different shapes and to value the beauty of all those shapes is something I really enjoy as an artist. But another part there are other parts I deem integral to the beauty of a person, namely authenticity, kindness and imperfection.
Now I know how that sounds, but here me out. I’ve never seen the beauty in people putting on a mask, be it to hide their personality or the flaws in their skin. I am well aware that especially neurodivergent individuals often need to mask to survive, I have been there myself. But the moment they unmask, they are so thrilling, so vibrant, so beautiful in tapping into their full potential. As for imperfections, I think the most beautiful things are those found in nature itself. And those always have little flaws, making them unique, meaning that beauty can be found anywhere in Nature, be that in landscapes, animals, flowers. art music or humans, the possibilities are endless.
I think we should embrace beauty as a part of our lives without tying it to femininity, because it reduces our ability to recognise beauty drastically by stripping is of looking in all the other places where beauty might hide in this world.
Thank you for coming to my ted-talk. There is something healing about typing this out and feeling how the thoughts calm down un my head. Please don’t point any hate at my coworker, She is a sweet person and meant well, it is just the concept as a whole, that disgusts me.
Alright, let‘s get down to business.
Why again is beauty solely reserved to females in human society?
For context the other day, I was wearing my paisley bandana hairband. I like hairbands, but I usually can‘t wear them, because the pressure behind my ears hurts. the bandana was the perfect solution. That was, which my co worker said to me, that I looked beautiful, just like a girl. I am aware she didn’t mean to offend me in any way, shape or form and I hold no grudge against her in particular, just against the fact that there are still adjectives clearly assigned to one gender. Be it beautiful, strong, cool, compassionate. We can find these attributes in every human being, and beauty most of all is not defined by gender.
I am well aware that people around this world perceive beauty differently. Beauty standards change drastically over time. My vision of beauty is somewhat detached from gender and outer appearance. Humans come in many different shapes and to value the beauty of all those shapes is something I really enjoy as an artist. But another part there are other parts I deem integral to the beauty of a person, namely authenticity, kindness and imperfection.
Now I know how that sounds, but here me out. I’ve never seen the beauty in people putting on a mask, be it to hide their personality or the flaws in their skin. I am well aware that especially neurodivergent individuals often need to mask to survive, I have been there myself. But the moment they unmask, they are so thrilling, so vibrant, so beautiful in tapping into their full potential. As for imperfections, I think the most beautiful things are those found in nature itself. And those always have little flaws, making them unique, meaning that beauty can be found anywhere in Nature, be that in landscapes, animals, flowers. art music or humans, the possibilities are endless.
I think we should embrace beauty as a part of our lives without tying it to femininity, because it reduces our ability to recognise beauty drastically by stripping is of looking in all the other places where beauty might hide in this world.
Thank you for coming to my ted-talk. There is something healing about typing this out and feeling how the thoughts calm down un my head. Please don’t point any hate at my coworker, She is a sweet person and meant well, it is just the concept as a whole, that disgusts me.
As someone who‘s voice has often been deemed annoying until it was refined enough after years of training…. this hits close to home.
“Thank you to everyone who has ever learned to sing in a world that does not want to hear your voice.”
— Jason Mott, Hell of a Book
Typical doodling mood for me. I smh always end up with finished pieces down the line somehow

Since the usual saturday/sunday bird got posted early (whoops) here's another thing for today!

For @idlewildly
This was meant to be a really quick doodle but then i redid the wings three times and got carried away. Whoopsies. There goes an hour and a half.
“Sometimes writing a single line is enough to save your own heart.”
— Clarice Lispector, A Breath of Life

So September is ending and Halloween is just around the corner and yesterday I had a sudden rush of nostalgia and started to rewatch mermaid melody and what fits better for the spooky season, than a hot vampire inspired villain (or so I thought 👉👈). I always loved Ladybats design and song, but for some reason I never drew him, shocking I know :O
But mates, I have successfully managed to change that and I proudly present the result to you!
Also their themesong is below :3

Starting off with some Winx Club fanart. I always loved Musa. She showed up for herself and worked hard to make her dreams come true and her coming to terms and her father coming to term with her mothers death was one most the most beautiful moments in the show in my opinion.
i love saying “i’m being normal about it” bc i’m actually a filthy fucking liar and i’ve never been normal about anything a single day in my life
i love saying “i’m being normal about it” bc i’m actually a filthy fucking liar and i’ve never been normal about anything a single day in my life
ultimate character development template
basics
name: meaning of name: nicknames/titles: age: gender: location: birthday: strengths + example where it's shown: weaknesses + example where it's shown: how it affects others:
emotional depth
attachment style + how it manifests in the story: physical fear: emotional/abstract fear: happy memory: sad memory: object of significance: philosophical outlook/belief: what characters are ignorant about themselves: how confident are they: goal: long-term dreams: what they're embarrassed/ashamed to tell others about: regrets: source of pride: source of misery: what they admire above all else: do they believe in fate:
personality
mbti: enneagram: big five: character archetype: star sign: who they pretend to be on the outside: who they actually are/how they feel towards the mask: mental health conditions: how it manifests for them: iq: eq: humour: reputation:
habits
bad habits: mannerisms when stressed: mannerisms when content: mannerisms when scared: mannerisms normally: verbal mannerisms/distinctive speaking style: how do they move across a room: what do they say and what remains unsaid: how they express love: hobbies:
appearance
defining features: eye shape + colour: hair texture + colour: skin texture + tone: vibe: height: build: clothing: any bodily disfigurement (scars, etc.): overall attractiveness: their opinion on their appearance: appeals to:
relationships
who they trust most: what they wish they could do for them: what's holding them back: who they hate most: what they wish they could do to them: what's holding them back: relationship with the protagonist: relationship with the antagonist: siblings: relationship with them: parents/step-parents: relationship with them: previous broken relationships: why did it break: what others expect of them: who believes in them: their mentor character/who they look up to: political/religious/other affiliations: what makes them different from every other character: non-human relationships + why: romantic "type" + why: relationship dynamics:
backstory/background
primary emotion towards their past: primary feelings while in their past: where did they grow up: defining incidents: earliest childhood memory: saddest memory: happiest memory: major accomplishments: their opinion on it: notable people in their backstory: effect on them today: trauma: what have they already lost: financial circumstance:
progression
why are they important (eg. why're they the only one able to do something?): what do they learn about themselves throughout the story: what do they learn about the world: how do they feel towards their newfound knowledge: character arc (positive, negative, neutral): how relationships change because of their actions: what mistakes do they make: what scene is their character highlighted: do they get what they want: why or why not: what happens to them after the story ends:
"Wait,which one was your ex?" "Firstly, we didn't breakup and to answer your question it's the three meter tall women thats currently winning the fight against an orc."