Welcome To My Blog!

Welcome to my Blog!

I don't know how you got here, but I'm sorry 😭

What is this blog

If you couldn't tell, this is my main blog. It doesn't exist for anything in particular safe for me just being me. But, I will always update this post with side blogs I create.

Who am I

I am Aya and I am not okay; however, the most you need to know is that I'm a writer, a music producer, and all around tgirl mess on the internet. I use she/they pronouns and I'm a tragic loser.

Side blogs

As mentioned, I have some sideblogs. Feel free to check them out

@ayaisnotokay - vent / jirai blog

@notayamichan - jp blog (日本語)

Finding Aya

Finding Aya

Finding Aya? Perfect, you stumbled upon the best way to find her!

Surrender is worse than defeat dear artist; I claim victory with a single question. But alas, unanswered, loss besets us both: I end as I began.

If truth is undesputable, what does it mean "to know?" How is "knowing" different from "believing with all your certainty."

Ma'm/Sir/Esteem individual, i just draw comics

Relationships are built on valid boundaries, healthy compromises, and TRUST

If someone is insecure enough to police who their partner can and cannot speak to, they seriously gotta learn to love themselves because they are NOT ready to love anyone else yet.

She keeps saying phrases with the sentences “when we live together” and I can’t help but wonder when would be the best time to drop “IF we make it”

Because there’s no way in fuck I’d consider that with any people she’s fucked in the past still in her life, when she suggested she’d like me to get rid of the people she felt uncomfortable me having on social media—and I dropped them in a heartbeat.

Fun fact, from 25 onwards, your reaction speed and hand eye coordination begin to decline. That's why most eSports teams were generally on the young side. A 30 year old is at an innate disadvantage compared to a 19 year old.

Aside from that— you're very much a different person now.

Remake

Is this a more common experience or am i just skill issue lmao

It’s so strange seeing a trans person talk about insecurity. You literally couldn’t accept your physical body, so much that you had to change it. 💀

TLDR: You don't actually understand the difference between gender dysphoria and simply being trans

Actual Response

Really? I don't see the uncertainty. In fact I had so much certainty, I couldn't accept inaction. That's the beautiful thing about introspection and self awareness.

Did you even know that some trans people aren't particularly bothered by their body? Being transgender means your sex does not match you gender. Having gender dysphoria means it significantly bothers you.

But please, talk to me about insecurity when you're brave enough to question me without the anonymity toggle.

And please, let me help you out. Bring my BPD into question. The disorder is known for instability and insecurity.

Oh wait, that just means I'm experienced enough to speak on the matter. It's almost like, I've learnt to identify insecure behaviours and correct them.

Not that I expect a clown like yourself to understand. Feel free to keep dick riding your friend. They were pathetic enough to block me when I pointed out their lack of any real argument— I don't expect much better from you.

To assert writers are, at the very least, people with a subjectively adequate WIP devolves our status as writers into something quite arbitrary.

Writers are those that use text to communicate ideas, entertain, or generate discussion via a range of styles and genres. A writer can also be any person that authors a singular story, an entire book, an article or even a blog.

If you find yourself expressing thoughts and ideas through written words you're a writer. Don't heed the takes of petty people— one compelled to so easily, and unconstructively, question the worth of other's merely seeks to project their own shortcomings and fears.

a little discussion....

So recently (the past couple weeks) I have been receiving a couple asks from a few people.

I'm not going to name names because I don't want to be that person. I'm not sure what I did to aggrivate this person and frankly I do not care.

All this person has said to me are crule things, stuff concerning my life and we'll being and stuff concerning how I can't be a real writer without a solid WIP.

Of course these words have affected me, which is why I've decided to put my whole "writing blog" on hold for a while.

Im not sure when I'll come back, but I know it won't be for a while, I need to take sometime for myself and reboost my mental health a little.

to my mutuals and followers you guys are amazing and I love you all dearly and I hope to come back. Take care now ❤️