Floored

floored

I'm on the floor physically, emotionally, mentally on the floor

if I could I'd fall through plummet to a dimension of astral projection to not feel—

pain physical, emotional, mental pain

losing time losing weeks a light in the darkness?

falling faster and faster waiting for the bottom—

never crashing always enduring while giving up

hopeless exhausted still here not living

breathing grieving

on the floor.

not to be a nerd but it’s so crazy how he (Bernini) really did that from cold hard stone……. truly a spectacle, truly breathtaking, an honor to behold

Joey please

Being a young adult is so strange. You enter a coffee shop. The 20 year old girl waiting behind you cried all night because she just came to a new city for university and she feels so alone. That 27 year old guy over there works a job he is overqualified for, he lives with his parents and wants to move out but doesn't know what to do about it. That one 24 year old dude already has a car, a house, and a job waiting for him once he graduates thanks to his dad's connections. The 26 year old barista couldn't complete his higher education because he has to work and take care of his family. The 28 year old girl sitting next to you has no friends to go out with so she is texting her mother. That couple (both 25 years old) are married and the girl is pregnant. The 29 year old writing something on her laptop has realized that she chose the wrong major so she is trying to start all over. We are not alone in this, but we are actually so alone. Do you feel me

reminder to:

straighten your back

go pee goddAMN IT STOP HOLDING IT

go take your meds if you need to

drink some water

go get a snack if you havent eaten in a while

maybe wander around the house/stretch a little if you’ve been sat at the computer a while (artists especially: sTRETCH THOSE WRISTS)

reply to that text/message from earlier you’d forgotten about

maybe send a nice lil message to someone having a bad day?

If I can't try, I can endure.

I've been saying that to myself a lot recently. So if you have no energy to try and do stuff currently or you feel like your body and mind are betraying you in some way? You will get through that, you will endure that until you have enough energy to get to the trying part again. And then the trying might even become doing for a little bit.

If I can't believe it for myself rn I hope you whoever reads this can. And I believe it for you too.