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What does this mean??? Ryo what does this mean?? DO NOT CANNIBALIZE THE BUNNIE

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I love codependent freakish iwaoi so much… give me the toxic!! give me the insane!! give me the relationship that ruins the life of everybody else around them and ultimately may get them killed!! please!!!

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I love codependent freakish iwaoi so much… give me the toxic!! give me the insane!! give me the relationship that ruins the life of everybody else around them and ultimately may get them killed!! please!!!

bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

This pride month let's also try changing the wrong perception of English speaking bsd audience about Mori.

Mori is not a pedophile in bsd, neither was he irl. He was asexual and misunderstood, the exact sort of misunderstanding Asagiri created.

Mori's book vita sexualis might be scandalizing in name but on reading, you will discover how it's just about an asexual person coming to terms with that very fact.

Stop villainizing Mori in such a perverted way- I am not in any means defending the other things he's done- but he wasn't a rapist or pedophile.

It's a translation error, a cultural divergence.

The Japanese audience understands the way Mori's being portrayed. He is as complex as Dazai or any other bsd character. Stop putting him under pedophile category and dismissing him.

And by this point, not only is Mori aware that Dazai’s been there, he doesn’t tell anyone else! The favoritism is just that strong, because if Dazai can waltz around as he likes, maybe he’ll come back!

That and Chuuya both is angry he didn’t say anything, not even a measly hello, and wants to beat his ass for it. Yet at the same time, happy he didn’t see him making a fool of himself because god, that brings back memories doesn’t it?

You know how Dazai infiltrated the Port Mafia with this masterful disguise that absolutely would never fool anyone but still did:

Makes me wonder how long he could go pretending to be undercover while walking around the Port Mafia until someone figured it out. Since it's been a few years since he defected from the organization and we don't ever truly know the turnover rate for lower-ranking agents, it's possible a lot don't know who Dazai is or at least what he looks like (obviously except for the executives and others who were around during Dazai's time in there).

Because I can imagine him bumping into Hirotsu, and he has to do a double-take to make sure it was Dazai he was actually seeing and that he wasn't imagining it, but also that Dazai just has the audacity to go walking around like that while he was wanted for being a traitor. Hirotsu doesn't process it until Dazai's already long gone, then he bumps into Chuuya, and Chuuya's wondering what the spooked looks is on Hirotsu's face and they have the most normal conversation ever:

Hirotsu: I...Think I just walked by Dazai-kun.

Chuuya: Excuse me? You what?

Then the reports come in about some unknown bandaged dude wandering around who looks totally out-of-place not wearing a black suit like the rest of the Port Mafia, but Dazai's already left the building.

I love the slap

I love it sm and I'm so glad asagiri added it.

A lot of people tend to either justify or shame Dazai for this but they are missing the point of that scene.

Dazai had JUST been confronted by the PM. One new member that only knows Dazai through what she has been told and one old member who has seen what he is capable of. They both agree that he is still the same person. They both open the door for him and say, "there's no changing. You'll always be a PM member. You will always be destructive."

When he comes back he sees two things. He sees Kyusaku: his first failure as a mentor, a direct consequence of his cruelty and malice. Then he sees Atsushi, the young man he is trying to imbue with as much good nature as he can using his ability to choke a defenseless coworker. That whole scene just proves Higuchi and Gin right.

He wanted to. He tried his hardest but the product is the same. He pushes people until they lose control and hurt others. He's been doing it since the PM and he was doing it with Atsushi. When Atsushi is freed he is still without control. He's spiraling and as terrified of his ability as he had been when Dazai first found him.

All at once Dazai realizes how little he has done to change things and how his past, just because he left it, doesn't stop having consequences. That entire scene is Dazai's fault. He put every character there on a path to end up there. It's horrifying for him, it's demoralizing and discouraging. YEARS of personal growth have amounted to NOTHING. He's scared so he falls back on strategies he knows will work. He slaps Atsushi.

It's such a monumental loss for him because he was making an active effort for so long not to be physical with ANYONE. But he regresses. He realizes that Higuchi was right. He is still PM deep down.

It is that scene that marks Dazai's decision to keep Kyusaku alive. He could keep using violence to try and fix all his mistakes but he would never grow from it. He chooses to let Kyusaku live because he wants to be different and he wants that for Kyu as well. After this Dazai takes a much less active role in Atsushi's development. After this when Atsushi loses control over his emotions Dazai is kind, gentle and reassuring.

do you ever have that one thing you're internally BEGGING people to ask you about

Let’s talk about the Atsushi cannibalism theory (it’s 1 am and I’m not sorry)

So there are two parts to this theory; and let’s start with the easiest one as it has actual relevance to the source material.

Atsushi Nakajima ate people when he was unaware of his ability. First I want to point out that this is probably canon and just ignored by all of the characters. When Atsushi first met Kunikida and Dazai, during the restaurant scene both in the anime and in the manga, they say they’re looking for a *man eating tiger*. Which, let’s be honest while a starving tiger would eat people, probably means it wasn’t just hysteria and Atsushi had confirmed deaths. He was considered a dangerous beast by the military, and would be killed on sight, not subdued.

So at the very least, even when he attacks Dazai, and they scold him for being reckless, we know there are probably confirmed deaths to his ability. Most likely as a starving tiger he ate these people or tore parts of them off so badly they died without help in the middle of the night. He’s kept unaware of this for his own mental health (we saw how the Dead Apple event affected him), and for plot convenience. Now that he has control and never uses a full tiger form again, he’s not just going out and eating people. But the ADA knows he’s killed people, they have to right??

Second, a theory with little to no evidence that’s a fan theory that I personally find fascinating is the “what did Atsushi’s parents do to him before the orphanage?” We get the line from Fitzgerald (I can’t find which season it’s from) “After breaking your ribs, he had these choice words; ‘after every thing your parents did to you when you were just an infant, this doesn’t even count as abuse’.”

We never get real confirmation or hints as to what exactly Atsushi’s parents did to him. There are fan theories I’ve seen (I don’t know the origin) where Atsushi’s birth parents may have eaten parts of him out of poverty and desperation, because he could regenerate with his ability. We know his ability has been active since early childhood, hence the being locked up and other forms of abuse at the orphanage.

Though there’s no hints or solid evidence, I’m fond of this theory because of the irony that his parents ate him, only for him to eat other people. Had the tiger or Atsushi not been starved would this have happened? Would the tiger continue to eat people out of instinct, or a form of familiarity and comfort?

It’s a wild theory and it’s absurd, but it’s one that sticks in my mind often

GAY

WHO SNITCHED

Why are all the main characters of BSD trauma children?? I’ve been given too much to work with

Mori’s character makes no sense compared to the others, and here’s why.

Mori Ougai, the boss of the port mafia, canonically a pedophile with a disgusting ability and a mind for manipulation. All of this makes sense in the realm of BSD and to the plot line, he’s not out of place at all! BUT all the characters are based on authors, and their abilities based on a book they’ve written.

Dazai being suicidal makes sense, if you’ve read No Longer Human, it’s very obvious why. Kunikida was a very strict idealist in his own works, his character makes sense.

I’ve made it a challenge to read every book that a character was based on in Bungo stray dogs, and I’ve read Vita Sexualis.

Vita Sexualis, despite what the character may lead you to believe, is a commentary on how sexual society is (of course this being a topic at the time the novel was published, in 1909; and still relevant today) and how asexuality is not discussed.

In the novel a literary teacher is writing a journal of his life’s sexual experiences starting from his childhood at the age of five or so for his son to read when he becomes a teenager.

Throughout the journal entries, marked by age, its detailed what comments and behaviors were pushed on him, as well as the behaviors he was expected to engage in that had sexual connotation well into his adult hood.

As someone on the asexual spectrum I highly recommend reading this book, it puts many feels I have that are hard to explain. It details how sexual society is and how taboo it remained despite people indulging in such acts.

It’s such a vital commentary on society as a whole and how we perceive sexuality. Not once was there a mention of pedophilia, or children being viewed by the author or main character in any sexual way. In fact when it detailed comments made to the protagonist at a young age about his expected sexual behaviors, they were treated as seriously as they should be. That it was off-putting and disgusting to expect such behaviors from a child, especially how it was expected and not something to be reprimanded for because the protagonist is a boy.

Within the BSD anime, manga and light novels the hints of Mori’s ability being sexual are constantly there. Fukuzawa and Oda refer to his ability as ‘disgusting’ and morally wrong. In the anime, Mori out right states “I prefer the women in my life to be under the age of 12.” Before he’s told to be quiet by Kouyou. Even in an end card in one of the manga, he tells Fukuzawa that Elise is not his daughter, but his wife.

The choice to make Mori so morally and sexually disgusting is something I never understood. He’s a well written villain, and I do love the head cannons around what he may have done to Dazai, Yosano and Elise don’t get me wrong, but the choice to go against the novels intentional teachings still confuses me.

Since getting into Bungo Stray Dogs and it becoming my special interest, I’ve learned a lot of things about the characters and books they come from.

This whole blog may suddenly be character analysis and I’m not ashamed of that in any way. I’m happy to take criticism (as long as it’s polite) on my takes and head cannons.

And as I found some of my things beginning to get more than two like I figured I’d take the time to explain a few things and introduce myself as a whole.

Hi!

We’re the Camilla Collective!

A traumagenic DID system (yes we have a formal diagnosis) with autism and a big special interest in this silly little show.

I’m not going to list ever alter we have, but you can tell by the emote sign off. I may leave names and not descriptions; but feel free to ask questions [politely].

Some of our head cannons to the show do relate to the fact that we have many fictives and interjects related to bsd.

We have a lot of things to say and are happy to see them going further than before.

I head cannon Dazai as autistic, and not in infantilizing way. As someone who is autistic, here’s why!

Even though Dazai has been in the mafia a long time (canonically he’s been with Mori since a suicide attempt at age 14, and since I haven’t read The Day I Picked Up Dazai, I’m not sure if we know anything before that), he’s showed a lot of signs of not socializing or not understanding socialization in the same way as other people.

He’s often confused by why and how other people feel the way they do. He can predict it, he calculates these things but he doesn’t feel them himself. Often times that’s a struggle I relate to, I feel emotions and so does he, but I often find myself not understanding why people feel things. Or even have trouble empathizing with them because I simply don’t understand emotions as well as others.

He’s shown to use a lot of masking, and not just masking his suicidal ideations and his intentions while planning, but covering up his emotions and intelligence as well. We can see during the age fifteen and dark era, while he still does mask at certain points and has this cheery attitude we often see current era Dazai using, most of the time he’s dropped that mask.

As much as people compare fifteen Dazai to a cat, it’s almost uncanny the relation between that behavior and autism. Though that may just be me self projecting, who knows.

Even once at the ADA, Dazai displays some level of autism with his mask. He won’t do paperwork, and while Kunikida and many in the office relate it to laziness, Ranpo does the same thing and many people say he has autism. Dazai actively doesn’t understand that getting himself hurt for the sake of a plan is not a good idea, and does it anyways.

Any plans he makes has to be followed, and he’ll give no reasons as to why. He simply manipulates the situation to be in his favor, and then all goes to his plans. As smart as that is, it feels almost catastrophic when things don’t go his way. Routine and being so entrenched in the habits that he’s had since a teenager and no interest in breaking them. Even when they’re detrimental to his wellbeing and health.

Personally I see Dazai as autistic, and I relate to him in more than one way.

I’m not letting this hide. Y’all are wild.

I think one of the saddest things people tend to overlook (at least in what content I’ve seen) about Yosano’s past is what happens after the war.

Yosano says that the war was one of the worst parts, she was actively traumatized by Mori, and exposed to things no child should see. She was attacks, hated, used and manipulated emotionally. Not only is that horrible and horrific and she lost her only friend in the military to suicide, and that’s a huge amount of trauma for an eleven year old to go through.

To me the saddest part of when she says; “Even after the war they kept me in isolation in a mental facility. I don’t imagine I would have left, even if the door was left open.”

It really shows that Yosano didn’t just leap over her trauma, the war started when she was 11 and the show and manga starts when she’s 24, it’s been years of living with Fukuzawa and Ranpo learning to deal with her trauma in a healthy way. A lot of situations, even if not as severe as Yosano’s deal with the victims feeling the same way!

As if they wouldn’t be able to leave, even if the door was wide open and freedom was right there staring them in the face. The emotional and mental manipulation can even make freedom be scary, it’s new and not routine and not, sad as it is, comforting or familiar.

This blog is gonna become all about BSD isn’t it?

I think one of the saddest things people tend to overlook (at least in what content I’ve seen) about Yosano’s past is what happens after the war.

Yosano says that the war was one of the worst parts, she was actively traumatized by Mori, and exposed to things no child should see. She was attacks, hated, used and manipulated emotionally. Not only is that horrible and horrific and she lost her only friend in the military to suicide, and that’s a huge amount of trauma for an eleven year old to go through.

To me the saddest part of when she says; “Even after the war they kept me in isolation in a mental facility. I don’t imagine I would have left, even if the door was left open.”

It really shows that Yosano didn’t just leap over her trauma, the war started when she was 11 and the show and manga starts when she’s 24, it’s been years of living with Fukuzawa and Ranpo learning to deal with her trauma in a healthy way. A lot of situations, even if not as severe as Yosano’s deal with the victims feeling the same way!

As if they wouldn’t be able to leave, even if the door was wide open and freedom was right there staring them in the face. The emotional and mental manipulation can even make freedom be scary, it’s new and not routine and not, sad as it is, comforting or familiar.

Fuck it, I’ve decided this is gonna become my place to info dump to the void, if it picks up any traction know I know nothing

I’m a weird writer man, sometimes I’m like hehe little guy falls in love and other times I crush my characters with trauma

You ever feel like a little guy who’s just a little too unhinged?

Time to post weird shit cause that’s what tumblr’s all about babyyyy

Anything aged before this post, do not look at, please :) I was able to get back into my account however any post before this I made when I was 13, I am now 20, it’s super cringe

MY FRIEND

Me: *begins to laugh*

Friend: should I be scared?

Me: yes, *continues to laugh*

Friend: oh god

Me: what if Asriel was a Justin Bieber fan....

Friend: oh no..... *laughs*

Me: and *laughs* he changes his name to Asriel Beliber?

I am undertale trash.