Am I Making More Of This Shit? Apparently.

Am I making more of this shit? Apparently.

Been trying to make sense of the emotional turmoil today, cause it hasn't been this dark and chaotic in my head in a long time..

And then I realized it's because today would have been your birthday.. and that just completely broke me.

It must look next level stupid from an outside perspective when my anxiety is just too much to ignore but still not a full on panic attack.. Just me walking around trying to get shit done whilst breathing as if I've just been out running. On occation kneeling down on the floor to try to catch my breath, then getting up again and continuing with whatever I was doing..

Freakgirl is back in town 👽

[can we just not ask all the obvious questions. like, what the fuck is going on here? and why do I always make her gargle shit? lololol] 💀 cause I'm a perv, that's why..

God, I wish I could be everything you deserve..

Apparently I've been physically fighting shit in my sleep for the past couple nights.

[I was told.] Can't remember what I dreamt and that's probably for the best.