Interacting With The Taleblr Fandom As The New Host:

Interacting with the Taleblr Fandom as the new host:

My art is a lot more Adventure Time inspired, if you couldn’t tell >:3c

Welcome to the first episode of Daily Life of the Blue Strawberry System. Featuring me trying to work up the courage to actually post shit on this website.

Also: I drew this traditionally! :D

I much prefer it to digital actually… Blue does digital, I do traditional I guess XD

Yes I am a lot more perky and lively than canon Johnny Ghost. Thank you.

The expectation part is definitely more based off shit Remus has said in his tirade of random shit people could say if we posted anything.

No harm or ill will meant to anyone! This is supposed to be a funny and lighthearted comic!

Text under the cut:

Expectation…

Ghost: Hi! I’m Johnny Ghost! New host of the Abnormal Freedom Force System! It’s so nice to-

“As in that toxic system?”

Ghost: Eh?

“They did that one thing! That bad thing!”

Ghost: Wha?

“Yeah! They were so horrible!”

“They said that one this time that one person and blamed it on an alter!”

Ghost: Simon didn’t know it was bad at the time! He’s better now!

Ghost: We were experiencing trauma and triggered at the time! We’re healing now!

“You’re just lying so you can hurt others!”

“Isn’t this an rp blog anyway?”

“Change and apologize all you want, we will never forgive you.”

“We hate you!”

“You’re faking”

“We don’t want you here!”

“KYS”

“Systems aren’t real”

“Die”

Ghost: But…

“Trauma isn’t an excuse, fraud”

“Liar”

“I hope you burn in hell!”

“Once a monster, always a monster”

“You knew what you were doing!”

“You’re just as bad as J*rdan Frye!”

“I hope you EXPLODE”

“Go find some other victims, you piece of shit!”

“You’re just roleplaying as Johnny Ghost”

Reality

50% of the time…

Ghost: Hi! I’m Johnny Ghost! I’m the new host of the Abnormal Freedom Force System! It’s so nice to be here and interact with you all! I absolutely love this fandom!

“Hello!”

“Hi!”

And the other 50%…

*shy wave*

They BLOCKED U lol

Ghost: I didn’t even say anything!

- Ghost 🩶👻

Made some system memes extremely specific to our system.

Explanation of the last one under the cut for anyone curious I guess??

- Johnny Ghost

Warnings for the explanation/rant(???): mentions of bullying, allusions to suicide, explanation of trauma (possibly seen as trauma dumping I guess??)

We have a bad habit of not defending ourselves when things happen, mostly because last time we did defend ourselves, we ended up being the “villains” and no one believed a word of what we said.

Anyway, we were bullied in middle school because a toxic ex friend decided to spread misinformation about stuff we did (making roleplays out to be real life, straight up lying and saying we did things we didn’t do, etc).

Fast forward 6 years. We befriend someone, and they remind us a lot of that toxic ex friend. Many alters are made extremely uncomfortable by them and refused to come near the front because of that. Blue themselves eventually became uncomfortable around this person too, though never admitted it because they’re a friend.

I will admit: we did do some bad things while friends with this person. But Y’know what we did? We apologized and fixed our behavior the second it was brought to our attention (we lack socialization skills and still need help figuring out what’s right and wrong in a conversation). One of which was purposefully triggering that person because it had been done to us multiple times. Even though we said we didn’t like it, the people who did it never apologized and called us sensitive.

However, the behavior was called out. We apologized. We tried to make it right. This happened months ago.

Fast forward another month and we break the friendship off because it’s not healthy. We try and be the adults. Ex-Friend makes another close friend of ours block us, even though they didn’t want to. We got extremely triggered by this. And I mean extremely.

Sierra, one of our protectors/persecutors (we love her anyway. She’s still learning. Give her time. She’s an introject of the first toxic friend from middle school), was the only one who was able to process stuff. Keep in mind, she was 13. She handled the entire situation poorly, calling those two out in a discord server we were active in before leaving. One of the mods reached out to us and Sierra explained everything the best she could, as she had also been dormant since 2018 and had been harshly triggered to the front by the situation. Dream managed to pull herself together and explain that she kept a mental list of the issues that were present in the relationship.

Sadly, we didn’t have any of the physical evidence because we were trying to remain mature about the situation and wanted to move more towards forgiveness than pettiness. Ex-friend had no intent of forgiving apparently, as when the mods had talked to them, they spoke about the things we had done as if they had recently happened and weren’t from a month ago or things we had apologized for and tried to do better on.

One of those things was something Simon (Book) had said to them in a moment of panic, not knowing what to do in the situation present at the time (an alter of ex-friend’s threatening to hurt the body of ex-friend). He said something he deeply regrets, and we won’t say what that is because he has indeed moved on from that. Even when he said it, he didn’t mean anything by it. It was a mental script of sorts in response to a traumatic situation for us that also caused us to relive old trauma as toxic ex-friend had been someone who would threaten to hurt themself if it meant getting their way. (Hell, they even blamed us for their attempted self-delete because we didn’t answer the phone while at a family Christmas party).

We now are dealing with the aftermath of having multiple people block us because of this. We received a ban from the discord server for purposefully triggering someone, and it appears that no one is really interested in our side of the story, mostly because Sierra’s immediate response when we received the ban was delete all social media so that all of these triggers and things could go away and not hurt the system anymore. She was a 13 year old thrown into a very stressful situation. We have recently talked to her, and she is growing up rather quickly in the system as well. She has since learned from her mistakes.

Simon and Sierra are truly sorry for what they did and how it had ended up hurting the system. However, we have expressed our care for them and how we forgive them for what happened, as they are attempting to better themselves based off of their mistakes.

And that’s what upsets me the most. We’re healing, yes, but it still hurts to have people we once thought of as friends block us when we never even explained our side of the story because we were acting in a fight or flight manner due to the extremely triggering and traumatic situation we were thrown in.

In both instances, both parties are at fault. Not one or the other. We reacted poorly to these situations due to them being extremely traumatic for us. It’s why we’re perfectionists, because every time we make a mistake this is what happens. We never explain our side of the story because it always ends with us never being believed.

But we’re moving on, and we’re healing. Slowly but surely. It just sucks that we can barley interact with the Taleblr tag now because a lot of people who we followed blocked us.

It just takes some time, I guess. :)

We just kinda needed to get that out there. Won’t drop names because we aren’t trying to call people out or cancel them. Just trying to explain the meaning behind the last two memes I made.

Because trauma and shit sucks, have some positive memes made by yours truly:

- Johnny Ghost

Blue’s gotten me into shipping Katrina and Mary together because of this thing between Marylyn and Katelina in Ash Hunter.

Ash and Kat became besties through their jealousy and self-discovery through that :)

- Johnny Ghost

Dear Taleblr, question:

I’m curious, honestly.

- Ghost🩶👻

Hey everyone! It’s Blue Strawberry!

A lot happened today, and we needed to kinda… restart stuff.

There is something I want to address:

We have done some really shitty things. Stuff I was completely unaware of as the host of our system. But I want to make sure that people know we are remorseful and trying to get the help we need to be better people.

We also deleted our old account and started a fresh one because we just kinda needed a clean slate of sorts.

We are sorry for anything we had done to hurt people, and I want to make sure that we get better.

We won’t be posting for a long time though as we try and improve ourselves.

Gonna still lurk around this tag because obsession is real and it’s a major comfort for us.

Love you all,

Blue