Saw Your Donut Post And I Hope You Get A Break From Being Accident Prone Tomorrow

saw your donut post and i hope you get a break from being accident prone tomorrow 😭

I’ve been accident prone my whole life there’s no hope for me lmao

GUYS GO READ THIS GO READ IT RIGHT NOW IF YOU DONT READ IT ILL FIND YOU >:D

My Biggest Mistake

Jos Cleary-Lopez x fem! reader

Warnings: angst, drinking/alcohol, descriptions and mentions of kissing while tipsy, coarse language, self-harm descriptions, sickness

In which a heated make-out session was denied by Jos after the fact.

“You said you loved me last night.”

“Drunk words don’t mean shit.”

“Are you serious?” You scoffed.

“Do I look like I’m joking?”

“That’s not— fuck it, Jos. I’m so tired. Whatever. If you say it didn’t mean anything, then it didn’t. So did every other time you told me that, right?”

You ran away from her, without a destination in mind. You heard Jos call for you then it was just silence. The only sound keeping you company was your crying.

Eventually, you stopped before a diner. One you and Jos frequented, hesitating for a moment, you somehow stepped inside still teary eyed and found a seat at the bar. “Oh, honey…” A longtime staff member noticed you,“What’s the matter?”

“I don’t know. I fucked things up with Jos.” You revealed through sniffles.

“I’m sure—”

“Last night she got a little tipsy. And kissed me for the first time and said she loved me. To my face.” You continued, “I brought it up earlier, and she just said ‘drunk words don’t mean shit.’ She could’ve just told me she wasn’t ready to say it yet and I would’ve been okay with it— but that— shit hurt.”

“You two have been together for—”

“Yeah, I’m not so sure about that, Erin.” You sigh, accepting the cookies and cream milkshake. “Thanks.”

“No problem, honey.” She smiled.

As you sipped on the beverage, your mind drifts.

“The problem lies within the fact that I want more. That’s what scares me the most, because I don’t want to want more. But I can’t help it. I’m not supposed to want more. I’m not supposed to have anyone love me. That’s just crazy.”

“Crazy? What’s crazy is this, y/n. Some guy at school just called you a freak and punched your face for no reason and you just walk away? Why do you put up with this?”

“I don’t know, Jos. My brain is like— it’s broken, okay? After years and years of pushing aside my own feelings. I just don’t have them anymore. I don’t care anymore. They can just do whatever they want with me.”

“That doesn’t mean it’s okay for people to assault you. It’s a fucking crime, baby.”

~

“Hey, how you feelin’?”

“I’m okay. It’s just a cold.” Jos smiled sleepily, her eyes barely open as she turned to be on her side so she could look at you.

You pulled her desk chair up to the side of her bed and sat down. You brush the hair out of her eyes and stroked her cheek, “I’ve missed you.”

A smile tugs at her lips. Very tiny, but you could see it.

~

“Oh, my God. y/n, why didn’t you call me? Or text me?”

“For what? I’m just on my period.”

“So I can come over and take care of you?”

“Sorry. I’m just— not used to that.”

With a soft sigh, she presses a kiss to your lips, “Let me take care of you, okay? What do you want me to do? Craving anything?”

“Nope. I’m actually about to go and puke my guts out in a minute or so.”

“Okay, then I’ll hold your hair and rub your back.”

~

“Jos, please— stop.”

She scoffs, arm falling to her sides as she looked up you from the floor.

“You’re gonna kill yourself one day and I don’t want to be here to see that. I want you to get better, for yourself. Not for me.”

The burns and some blisters on her forearms started to form. You cringed internally.

“I’ve been trying.” She admitted. “I started seeing a therapist…but still…”

“Keep going. Be consistent. I’ll be right by your side.”

~

“y/n, please talk to me.”

“I don’t know how to say it. Any of it.” You avoided eye contact, “You hate me.”

“I do not. y/n, I don’t hate you. I could never hate you.”

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“Jos.” Erin says.

Jos? Oh, hell.

“Talk it out.” Erin nudged. She was right behind it- you could feel her. There was no running away now. Absolutely no chance.

“I have to talk to you, y/n. I can’t just let all of that go. I can’t let you go.”

Tears pricked at your eyes again and the painful lump in your throat returns. You pushed the milkshake away from you, turning around in the stool to come face to face with her. With Jos, whose eyes were red and puffy. Dried tears stained her cheeks as her hair was disheveled, flyaways all over her face.

“I shouldn’t have said that to you. I shouldn’t have said that because I didn’t mean what I said. My brain tells me to push you away but I just can’t do it— it’s so wrong to do that to you because I know in my heart that I love you. No matter what my fucked up brain tells me to think at times. I love you. Please know that. Please know that I love you so much, y/n.” Jos takes a deep breath halfway through, shakily, “Sometimes I just…I don’t know why but I have a bad day and I start assuming people don’t really care about me so I go, ‘okay, then- you’re on your own, get through this shitty day on your own. No one else can help you.’ When I calm down, I know that’s not true because I have you. But I just need to keep working on that, y/n…getting my mind to unlearn that terrible habit, coping method. Ever since The Power came into play, I lost my friends…I even lost my own family even though we live under the same roof. No one gets what I’m dealing with like you do even though they see me everyday- day in, and day out. I didn’t want you to be the only one carrying the weight of my problems….I have to learn that in life, it’s okay to share. Especially with someone I call my partner. Because I know that I would not hesitate to hear you out, to be there and listen to what you have to say so you can get what you need to get, off your mind. I would never want you to go through your struggles alone.”

As she spoke to you, you took the time to take deep breaths and calm down, wiping your tears away as you prepared yourself to respond, “Jos, I feel the same way about you. I really care about you and love you. I don’t want you to be scared to share with me. You can always be honest with me and we will work through everything together. I have my own issues, and I’m also trying my best to get better. I need you to remember that no matter how bad a day seems. It was wrong for me to snap at you- that’s something I have to change about myself. But remember this conversation when times get tough…when we both can’t seem to get out of our own heads. Remember this.”

“My biggest mistake time and time again was that I hurt your feelings and I am so terribly sorry for that.” Jos cups your cheeks, wiping your tears away, “I’m sorry, do you forgive me?”

Swallowing harshly, you gave her a nod. She pulls you in for a kiss, you hopped off the stool to deepen the connection. Her hand finds its way around your waist and your back, yours does the same right before a mutual breakaway. Jos held you, looking right into your eyes before she uttered, “I love you. I mean it— every single time.”

You nodded, “I know. I love you, too, Jos.”

“Erin, can we get a waffle with a scoop of chocolate ice cream and some whipped cream, please?” Jos sniffed, sitting down in the stool beside yours.

“Certainly, dear. Coming right up.”

Jos dug through her pockets to locate her wallet and took out the amount of money needed for the bill while you continued to sip on your milkshake, trying not to cry again. Jos hands you a packet of tissues silently, knowing that you needed this peacefulness. She rubs your back intermittently while she waited on the waffle and kept an eye on you. Well, not exactly. She just liked looking at you while you did absolutely nothing sometimes. Next thing you knew, was that you felt her hand on the side of your head— her fingers combing through your slightly tangled hair and tucked some behind your ear.

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The waffle was what you and Jos had on your first date right here in this very place. Eight months ago. Both of you have come a long way, and it definitely hasn’t been easy. It’s been tough as shit some days and made you feel like pulling teeth— yours and hers alike. Today was one of those days, but it ended up well.

The waffle was your go-to order every time you two stopped by this establishment. And Erin, she’s become a great friend over time.

“You girls want some tea or coffee?” Erin asks.

“I’ll have a coffee. She’ll have tea.” Jos answers with a swift nod of her head.

“Alrighty.”

A minute later, Erin returns with a cup of coffee and tea. “How much—”

“On the house.”

“No—”

“y/n, don’t fight me on this. You’re not gonna win, my dear.”

Jos cracked a smile, then chuckled. “Okay, Erin. Fine.” You giggled, “Thank you.”

When you and Jos left the diner, it was nightfall. The sun had almost completely set already, the gusts of chilly wind blew through your hair, which felt very nice. Jos leaned her head on your shoulder for a second to take in the moment before leading you to her car about a block away.

“My place or yours?”

“Yours, it’s closer from here than mine.”

“Okay.” With that, she started driving. Pop music on the radio played softly through the speakers meanwhile.

The two of you didn’t speak for the whole ride, but it was a comfortable silence. Once home, Jos leads you up to her room after greeting her family. You two got changed then joined her family for dinner— it was pleasant. They always loved having you around. Afterwards, you quietly retreated to Jos’ room because of the growing ache in your head. When you entered her room, she was already laying a stack of clothes each for you and herself. “Come on, let’s go take a nice shower. I know your head must be killing you right now. I know mine is.”

Stripping off your clothes, you tossed it in the hamper and Jos does the same then walked into the shower together with you.

“Is the water okay? Is it too warm for you?” She asks you softly.

“Yeah. It’s okay.” You said, tilting your head side to side in order to stretch out the muscles as the warm water hits your skin. Jos hums in response, shampooing your hair for you once it was wet enough and also helped you to wash your body.

“Thank you.”

“Don’t have to thank me, baby.” You could almost hear her smiling as she spoke to you. Her hand massages your scalp for a little bit longer as your head remained under the warm water. You felt a little bad you couldn’t exactly help her do the same, because she was quite a bit taller than you, but she says it was okay. “Just give me some cuddles and we’re even.” She laughs softly, pressing a tender kiss to your forehead.

After drying yourselves off, you two promptly got changed and climbed into bed to watch movies on Jos’ laptop. Jos laid her head in your lap, focusing on the movie but also feeding you a Swedish Fish every now and then.

“I do not feel like going to school tomorrow.” Jos revealed.

“It’s Friday, though.” You mentioned, eyes flicking down to look at her. Your fingers were still combed through her hair, massaging her head.

“Damn, right. Those dumplings are really good.” Jos grins, “Yeah, let’s just go.”

“Then maybe we can go to the park for a walk after school. Get something to eat after.” You suggested.

“Sounds good.” Jos agrees.

“You tired?”

“A little. But I think we can just finish this movie and go to sleep.” Jos bit back a yawn.

“Alright.” You bent down to kiss her on the side of her forehead, “Let’s do that.”

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Careful (Aj x reader)

Reader uses a binder, gender isn’t mentioned (also semi-based on personal experience lol)

This art fair was going to be the death of you. You knew you need to take your binder off. You’d been wearing it for 12 hours (four more than the recommended). You felt that familiar ache in you back and shoulder but decided to push through, you still had two more hours before you’d be home and you didn’t bring your sports bra to change into so you were screwed. “y/n? You ok baby? You look, I don’t know tense?” Aj asks “ ‘m fine” you say trying not to think about it “Y/n don’t lie to me, we agreed no lying” Aj said in a tone that you knew you couldn’t lie to. You mumbled something “what?” Aj said visibly confused “I’ve been wearing my binder for like over 12 hours…” you said looking down at your feet embarrassed “Y/N, you can’t do that that’s really dangerous and you’ve been carrying heavy stuff- what were you thinking?” Aj said getting upset with you “oh my gosh, calm down” you said with a sigh “CALM DOWN?! YOU WANT ME TO CALM DOWN?! YOURE BEING STUPID AND HURTING YOUR-“ she cut herself off and took a deep breath “I know we still technically have two hours left but there is no way in hell I’m letting keep working in your condition, we need to go home” she says gently grabbing your arm causing you to snatch your arm away “MY condition?! I’m fine, you do NOT need to yell at me and boss me around like I’m some stupid little kid Aj” you almost never call her by her name but you were embarrassed and angry that she yelled at you in front of people. Aj realized she messed up, maybe she went too far “Y/n…” she said in an apologetic tone “No Aj leave me alone, I need to go help pack up booths” you stormed off really upset and didn’t want to talk to her right now. You start helping pack up a few booths when the pain in your ribs increased, 13 and a half hours of binding? what were you thinking, your body was definitely not happy. The pain was just getting worse and you just wanted your girlfriend but you remembered how you reacted about earlier so you didn’t know if she would even want to see you right now. Your train of thought was interrupted by

*buzz* *buzz* a text from Aj

My love🛹💕: hey baby I’m sorry about earlier but I’ll be at the car waiting for you whenever you’re ready I love you

(Y/N): hi bubs I’m also really sorry about earlier but I’ll be out in a minute I just gotta put one more tent away I love you too see you in a bit

My love🛹 💕: alright baby see you soon

You finished helping and held your side in pain as you walked to your girlfriend’s car. When you got to the car Aj noticed you grabbing your side “ok I’m sorry for earlier but we really need to get that off of you” Aj said with a frown “can we just go home? I promise I’ll take it off as soon as we get there” you said buckling up with a small groan of pain “yeah ok baby my house or yours?” Aj asks starting the car “yours, if my mom sees me like this she’ll kill me and take my binder away for “being too reckless” I don’t want to hear that right now” you said gently rubbing your ribs. The two of you made it to Aj’s and went to her room, her parents weren’t home “can we please get this off of you now” Aj says gently reaching under your shirt and you nod. She takes off your shirt then helps you out of your binder “lay down baby I’m gonna grab us some clothes then we’re gonna shower” she says kissing you on the forehead then going to her closet to grab a hoodie for you and some boxers from your bucket of stuff you leave over then grabs her self some clothes “ok baby come on let’s get in the shower” she says giving you a quick kiss then helping you stand up. You two get in the shower, it feels really nice on your achy skin and it’s warm. You lean your head on Aj while she gently rubs soap all over your back and sides, her delicate touch making you melt into her making you felling a little sleepy. “You ok baby? Getting sleepy?” She asks, you just respond with a nod and help rub soap on her back then kissing her. You two finish your shower and she helps you get dressed “come on baby, arms up” she says trying to help you with your hoodie “it hurts bubs” you say trying to lift your arms “I know baby, I know but you gotta put something on or you’re gonna be cold” she pulls the hoodie over your head and gently helps your arms into the holes “ok lay down baby, I’m gonna get us some water and snacks, go ahead and just relax” Aj says then she gives you a kiss before heading to her door “I love you bubs, thank you for taking care of me” you say with a half smile “I love you too baby” she says heading down stairs, you snuggle into Aj’s bed trying not to move too much because moving hurts. As you start slowly dozing off Aj walks into the room “aw my poor sleepy baby, can you drink a little bit of water before you go to sleep?” You nod and sit up as she hands you a cold water bottle. Aj gently scratches your scalp, messing with your hair as you drift off to sleep.

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You slept for like an hour or two. Waking up with you tangled up in Aj’s arms, her head on the top of yours. “Good morning sleepyhead” Aj said kissing the top of your head “hi bubs, can you pass me water?” you said groggy, trying to sit up as she passes you a water bottle “here you go baby” she says as she lays back down next to you. You drink some water then carefully set it on her nightstand, reaching over causes some pain and Aj notices it immediately. “Baby come here” you slowly make your way over to her and she starts rubbing small gentle circles into your sore sides “how does that feel” she says pressing a kiss to your forehead while you lay with your back against her front “good” you say closing your eyes relaxing into her touch. “I love you baby” she says “I love you too bubs, I love you so much” you say looking up at her “you gotta take care of yourself baby, I don’t like seeing you hurt” she says lifting your hoodie a little more to reach a little higher on your ribs, you lean into her touch but lift your head to try and give her a kiss, she smiles at you then leans down to connect your lips. It’s a soft gentle kiss, you both smile in the kiss then pull away, she looks at you and says “you’re so adorable…I’m really sorry for yelling at you earlier I know how you feel about yelling, I just really care about you and you had me really worried” she said with a frown “I’m sorry too bubs, I overreacted and was really dumb and didn’t listen to my body, I didn’t mean to worry you and I’ll try to do better next time” you say messing with your hoodie string because you don’t want to make eye contact “I appreciate you apologizing…wanna watch a movie now?” She says with a smile “ooo yes please” you say rolling over to lay on her with your chest against hers. She puts on a random Disney movie you both like and you both slowly doze off playing with each other’s hair.