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Be Mean To Me
Pairing: Bucky x f!reader
Summary: After a long day at work, you just want to lose all control and have your boyfriend fuck you into oblivion
Warnings: Established relationship, slight angst, fluff, smut, mean!dom!bucky, reader asks for it, they are so in love, rough sex, dom/sub dynamics, oral (male receiving), ball sucking, slapping, spit kink?, degradation, humiliation, name calling (slut, whore, bitch, sugar, good girl), daddy kink, some praise, spanking, pussy slapping (like once), safe word (yellow), vaginal sex, no prep anal, Bucky has a huge dick, choking, aftercare, check-ins, crying during sex, crying after sex, soft!Bucky, no mention of Y/N, no description of reader other than being female
Word Count: 4.3k of mostly smut
A/N: This was very self indulgent. Work has been kicking my ass and I want to be taken care of. Any mistakes are my own. If I missed any warnings please let me know. @bucknastysbabe it's done! I think I should go back to therapy. But hey, smut

You feel your throat tighten as you walk up to the apartment you share with Bucky. It was one of those days that left you beaten down and wanting to curl up under your blankets and cry. You didnât even want to go into work this morning, having to force yourself to get ready. Too many rude customers, incompetent coworkers giving you more work than you get paid to do, everything leaving you overstimulated and wanting your boyfriend.
It left a craving deep down inside of you, a want that you knew only he could quell. You just wanted to shut your brain off, have Bucky take care of you, ruin you, treat you like a whore, break you down, just to put you back together again.
You swallow the lump in your throat and unlock the front door, finding Bucky on the couch watching some random action movie that he claimed to hate. At the sight of him your body naturally relaxes and the urge to crawl onto his lap is too much to bear.
âHey, sugar. Iâve been missing you all day. Youâll never fucking believe the video Sam sent me of Tony trying out his new thrusters! He flew rig- Whatâs wrong?â He perked up at the sound of the door opening, truly missing his girl. Whenever youâre around him his entire day gets better, a lightness filling his chest, but when he sees how run down you are, his heart literally hurts for you. Bucky wants to protect you from everything, from supervillains all the way to spiders in the house.
âLong day, baby. Just wanna be with you.â He opens his arms and you instantly crawl into his lap, eyes burning with tears you refuse to shed. He runs his metal hand up and down your back, pulling you as close to him as possible, while his flesh hand rests on your head, holding you to his neck, letting you breathe him in.
âWhat can I do for you, sugar? Want to talk about it? I can order from your favorite place. Can run you a bath. Whatever you want, sweet girl.â
âPlease, be mean to me, Bucky.â Bucky feels his heart clench in his chest. He wants to keep your heart safe from whatever it is that is plaguing you, but he knows he canât. What he can do is follow your request and make you forget.
âHow mean do you want me, sugar?â Bucky has done this for you a few times. He always asks how you want him to treat you. Itâs in his nature to be sweet to you, fill you with praise, but that's not what you want right now. You want to be degraded and treated like a fucktoy.
âMean.â You keep your eyes trained on him. This is the only part where you need to keep your head on, make sure that he knows you want this.
âRemember your colors, sugar?â You nob, excitement bubbling up inside of you. âRemember, daddy will only be upset with you if you donât use them. If you need to say yellow or red, you will.â His tone is final. This is the only way he would ever agree to treating you like a slut.
âYes, daddy.â And just like that, Buckyâs entire demeanor changes. He goes from your sweet, cuddly boyfriend to a cold and callous body of muscle.
âThen take your clothes off, slut.â He pushes you off his lap, just hard enough to give the illusion of indifference. As you strip, Bucky keeps his eyes trained on the TV, not paying you any mind. Your core throbs at the fact that you are completely exposed while he is still fully dressed.
âOn your knees.â Heâs still not looking at you, but you obey without thought, willing to do whatever he wants. Grabbing the back of your neck, he forces you in between his spread legs, and you whine at the fact that his cock is still soft inside his sweats. Any other day, Bucky would make sure that your knees were never on the hardwood floor without a pillow or something soft underneath, but not today.
On days like these, when you want to feel completely submissive, it takes Bucky a while to get aroused. Itâs in his nature to love up on you, make you drunk with pleasure in the sweetest way possible. He feeds off of your energy. When he is sure that you are having fun, his body lets himself fall into his role.
âWhat? You think at the first signs of some tits Iâm gonna get hard? I knew you were a dumb slut but I didnât realize just how thick you were.â Your pussy was absolutely pulsing with need. With his hand still on the back of your neck, he rubs your face against his crotch, feeling his cock begin to harden at the smell of your arousal.
He pulls you back far enough to slide his pants down, foregoing boxers, and you immediately try to take his half hard length in your mouth. Before you can process it, Buckyâs right hand lands a slap to your cheek - hard enough to make a welt that will take a few hours to disappear. You gasp and your cunt pulses even harder than before at the sting left on your cheek.
His metal hand wraps around your chin, much cooler than itâs supposed to be, and forces you to look him in the eye. In the back of your mind you realize that he turned on the cooling function in his arm to sooth your cheek; the arm was built to keep him cool in the Wakandan sun and heat. âDid daddy say you could suck his cock?â He uses his hand to shake your head from side to side, answering for you. âThen keep your slutty mouth shut.â
He spreads his legs wider and pulls your face closer to his heavy sack, already full of cum. âHands behind your back, and suck on daddyâs balls.â You join your hands together behind your back without question and nuzzle his balls. Wasting no time, you take one into your mouth, sucking feverishly, enjoying the light dusting of hair tickling your face.
âOh, fuck, come on, slut, I know you can do better than that. Take âem both in your dirty mouth.â He pushes you further into him, cutting off your oxygen, and you swear you hear your slick drip onto the floor. Your jaw aches as you try to get them both in your mouth, but you can't; his balls are too big. Bucky ruts against your face, squishing his balls, precum leaking from his tip, dripping onto his stomach after he takes his shirt off.
With your limited amount of movement, you alternate between each ball, licking at the seam. Every time you switch balls, you feel the other drag wetly across your face and you have to clench your legs in an attempt to quell the ache between them while fighting with your need for air. âSuch a dirty bitch, lapping at your daddyâs nuts, shit.â He pulls you back just as your head starts to go fuzzy from the lack of oxygen, and you gasp for air, spit is covering the lower half of your face and is dripping down your neck and chest; Bucky feels his cock throb at the sight.
Reaching out, Bucky smears your spit around your face and leaves another, weaker smack to your cheek before he grabs his cock and uses his weeping tip to tease you, dragging it on your face. âWhat a nasty fucking bitch, drooling all over the place just from sucking some balls.â He slaps your cheeks with it a few times before forcing your head down all the way, making you gag and you immediately pull off, coughing.
He stares into your eyes, cold and calculating, waiting for you to speak. When your coughing subsides you manage to get out a hoarse âgreen,â giving him the all clear. He takes your head and once again makes you take his cock, this time much slower and not as deep, the first time he wanted to fuck with you. âSuch a perfect fucking mouth, shit.â He stops you from bobbing your head, âStop being such a desperate whore and let daddy finish his movie.â You're sure youâre leaking onto the floor at this point.
You are able to see his face and he looks wrecked, mouth hanging open and head back; heâs not watching shit. Nonetheless, you rest your head on his thigh, getting comfortable, spreading your legs out to get closer to the floor so your head won't be bent at an awkward angle, ignoring the pain in your knees and the ache in your jaw.
The only sounds filling the room are Buckyâs ragged breathing and the movie playing in the background. There is saliva everywhere, his cock, all over his balls, down to his ass and on the couch. His cock is constantly leaking precum into your mouth but you donât swallow, letting his taste linger on your tongue.
This isnât what you wanted, you wanted him to demolish you. Sitting with his cock in your mouth is giving you too much time to think, so you do what any sane person would do - be a brat. At the first suckle, Bucky lets out a broken moan, at the second, he knows what youâre up to. Flicking your ear with his metal hand he hisses, âDonât make me punish you, bitch.â At the third, he yanks you off of his dick, a trail of drool and precum keeping the two of you connected, as slaps you once again with his flesh hand, this time not soothing the marred flesh with his metal hand.
He stands and kicks the couch out of the way and pulls you with him by the neck. âYou disobedient little-â he cuts himself short at the small puddle of slick that he finds from your previous position. âIs that what I think it is?â You only whine in response, his grip on your neck never faltering.
With his free hand, he reaches down to your pussy to feel just how wet you are, confirming his suspicions. âWhat a dirty fucking slut, leaking all over my floor.â He pulls you in closer to him just to whisper, âLick it the fuck up, bitch,â before pushing you to the ground.
Your knees hit the wood hard and pain runs up your spine. You ignore the ache and brainlessly lap at your juices on the floor before Bucky smushes your cheek against the puddle and you moan. âMessy bitch, you are? Cunt is pulsing, waiting for my dick. Too bad I have to punish you, isnât it, slut?â He leans down to the floor, eyes lined up with yours. âDaddy is going to give you ten spanks and I want you to count them.â You donât respond immediately, stuck in a sort of limbo, drawn in further at the softness in his eyes.
No matter how hard he tries, Bucky canât hide his devotion to you, thatâs why he doesnât let you look at him when he needs to play this role. His whole face softens at your silence, fearing heâs gone too far. âColor, sugar.â Stroking your cheek, he leans in closer, breathing you in.
âGreen, daddy, so green.â The sigh Bucky lets out is audible and he feels ten times lighter.
âGood girl, you want to keep going the way we were?â Even though you said green, he wants to be certain.
âYes please, daddy, want you to be mean.â You look so small and soft. Bucky struggles to put his facade back up, but he knows you need this.
Bucky positions himself behind you, staring at your ass and glistening pussy, and feels his cock bounce. The first slap isnât soft by any means, you know there will be a handprint left. Your body jolts and Bucky groans at the jiggle of your ass. âOne.â The second is on your other cheek and makes you clench around nothing. âTwo.â He lands the next two much harder on the same cheek and you feel tears form in your eyes, yet continue to count, digging your nails into your palm.
He repeats the two spanks to your left cheek and takes a break to sooth your heated and raised skin with his metal hand after youâve counted. The ground beneath your cheek is hard and unforgiving, leaving you neck bent at an odd angle. Spank seven lands on the back of your right thigh and somehow feels much stronger. âShit! Seven, daddy.â Eight is on your left, and is just as hard. Your entire lower body aches: cunt pulsing and throbbing for his cock, thighs burning, and ass red and raw, sobbing with every impact.
âThese last two are going to be harder, slut, since you forgot to count.â Even with his warning, you arenât prepared. They are hard and fast, hearing them before you feel them, knocking the breath out of you, and you try to scramble up, but Bucky holds you down. âDonât run away from me, you know better.â All of a sudden, the sharpest and most excruciating pain blooms from your cunt, and then you hear the wet smack of his metal hand hitting your core.
You wail, body shooting up, legs fighting to close to soothe the sting left. Before you can, Buckyâs hand on the back of your head keeps you to the ground, while he slams his cock into your cunt, not stopping to let you adjust. âThatâs it, fuck. Such a good pussy. Dirty fucking bitch.â You canât breathe, his cock is knocking all of the air out of your lungs. The only sounds in the room are Buckyâs moans and the wet slapping of skin, his heavy balls banging against your sore clit. With each thrust youâre sure heâs hitting your cervix.
The hand on the back of your head leaves to grab your hip, letting him fuck you even faster, the both of you sliding further and further on the floor. You try to brace yourself with your hands, but the brutality of his fucking is no match. âDaddy, fuck, s-so g-good, please!â You donât know what youâre begging for, but your cunt is pulling him in, barely letting him pull out.
Bucky is practically chasing you on the floor, hips never slowing down, eyes trained on your pussy, loving the creamy white mess on his dick. âFuuuck, look at the ass bouncing on daddyâs cock, shit! Love the way this fat fucking ass looks when its all red and sore.â Heâs in heaven, with the tight clench of your cunt wrapping around his cock, making him feel crazy.
âDaddy! I canât, f-fuck, please, too much!â Youâre fucking delirious with pleasure, feeling something twisting inside of you. You searched for something to hold on to, only finding smooth surface, legs locking, body seizing up.
âYou can and you will take this dick, bitch. I donât care if it makes you fucking bleed.â The pressure in your core builds tighter and tighter, all the while, Buckyâs hips never falter, sack still ramming against your clit.The breath is knocked out of you when you feel the most intense orgasm of your life pass through you.
Keening and wailing, you squirt on Buckyâs cock, the sounds of your fucking somehow getting even more wet until the force of your orgasm pushes his cock out. Your body is left twitching. There is a much larger puddle on the floor now - your cum. Bucky could fucking cum at the sight of your pathetic body laying on the ground, body wrought with pleasure. âFuck, sugar! That was so fucking hot! You squirted all over, shit! I fucking love you so goddamn much.â
The entire lower half of his body is covered with your cum and Bucky swears he can feel his heartbeat in his cock. Nonetheless, he wraps his arms around your waist and hulls you over to where he kicked the couch, placing your upper half on the cushions. âYouâre so fucking wet now I bet I could slide right into that tight ass, what do you think, slut?â Your core pulses at the thought of his fat cock in your ass, the two of you donât usually do anal, given how big he is, but you canât think straight, especially after cumming so hard.
âYes, daddy. I want your big cock in my ass, want you to fill me up.â Bucky groans at the thought of his excessive load running out of your ass. Leaning back, he ruts against your pussy, gathering more of your slick, before spreading your cheeks with his hands, staring at your puckered hole. He lines his cock up and watches as precum leaks from his tip.
His cock is huge, much longer and thicker than average, and he knows it. Grabbing himself near his tip, he pushes, grunting at the resistance, knowing that this would be much easier if he takes the time to prep you, but you want to be treated like a whore. âYou gotta loosen the fuck up, bitch or else Iâll really fucking hurt you. Want this fucking ass so bad, better let daddy in. Cock is too big for this little ass, isnât it, gonna split you in half, leave you leaking for days.â
He pushes harder, tip finally popping in, causing searing pain to shoot through you. Crying out, you try to pull forward to escape the burning pain, wiggling further into the couch. Bucky leans over, careful not to push in any further, he knows you need a moment, any other time you would have been fully prepped and he would have slid right in, and wraps his metal hand around your neck, shushing you, âShhhh, stop being so dramatic.â
After a few minutes, the pain begins to subside and your breathing calms down. Keeping his hand around your throat, he pushes in, inch by inch, and the pain comes back. You whine into the cushion, every new inch burning more than the last until his hips are flush with your ass. âWhat the fuck?! Your ass is so fu-fucking tight, shit! Fucking milking my cock, wanna pound this little hole, wanna fucking ruin you.â
Burying his face in the back of your neck, Bucky was taking deep breaths, completely out of it. He wasnât thinking straight, not when your tight hole was hugging every inch of his cock. You on the other hand, were struggling, it was too much too fast. It fucking hurt, there were tears in your eyes, but your pussy was aching like it wanted more. Your clit throbbed with need, even when your ass was stretched to the brim.
You didnât want to stop, but you needed a break, before Bucky could move his hips you muttered, âYellow, daddy, yellow.â The hand on your neck left and Bucky maneuvered his upper body so that he could look you in the eye without moving his cock. His entire demeanor was different, back was your sweet, caring boyfriend.
âGood girl, daddyâs so proud of you for using your safe word. Shhh, itâs okay, sugar. Do you just need a second to breathe? Take your time, if you need to stop I will.â Bucky caresses your face as he soothes you, bringing you back down. His cock is still buried to the hilt in your ass, driving him insane. He wants to rail you so fucking bad, tip of his cock probably purple by now, but he would never do anything you didnât want to, more than willing to sit with his cock inside of you until youâre ready or decide to stop.
You donât know how much time passes, but eventually, you loosen up and your mind goes fuzzy once again, desperate for him to move. You wiggle your hips, rocking back and forth, instead of pain, blinding pleasure courses through you. âGreen, daddy. Iâm ready, just needed to get used to your fat cock, want you to pound into me.â Bucky lets out the most sinful groan and stills your hips with his hands.
He starts out slow, easing you into his motions, gradually gaining speed and force the louder your moans get. âDaddy, faster, please, harder, feels so good!â You were practically sobbing, loving the way he was splitting you open. His hips and thighs were wet from when you squirted on him, slapping against your ass, everytime he pulled back a vulgar shlick sound could be heard.
He fucked you faster and harder, staring at where you were connected. âThis fucking ass feels incredible. Taking me so well, knew you could do it, fuck. Splitting your tiny ass in half. Oh God!â He could feel his orgasm building up, fighting it off everytime his cum filled sack slapped against your pussy. Letting go of your hips he snarled, âShow daddy how much of a fucking slut you are and bounce that fat ass on his cock.â
You whined, but complied anyway, digging your toes into the floor to get more leverage to keep slamming back on his cock. The sounds of skin slapping and both of your moans completely drowned out the ending of Buckyâs movie, not that either of you cared. Panting and moaning, you kept working yourself on him, feeling another orgasm bubbling up.
Meeting your thrusts, Bucky was rambling, not having one coherent thought in his head, âLook at that, give me that ass, yes! Donât you dare fucking stop, bitch, want you to milk this cock. Love the way it fucking bounces, never seen anything like it, oh fuck!â He was getting whiny, high pitched moans falling from his lips. He couldnât help it, his cock was too fucking sensitive and you felt too good.
âM Gonna cum, daddy! Can I cum?â Bucky practically growls, getting up to his feet to squat, not missing a beat while still trusting in you. Every time his pelvis met your ass he whined and whimpered, loving the way it jiggled. He could feel you clenching around him, drawing his own orgasm closer.
âNot until I do. Fucking hold it, bitch.â It seemed impossible, but Bucky fucked you even faster, his hips moving at a ferocious speed. He wanted to cum so fucking bad and your high pitched moans were about to make him bust. âOh shit, oh shit, oh shit. Iâm gonna fucking nut. You want daddy to fill your ass up, huh? God! Fuck, Iâm splitting you in two. Uhhh. Balls are so heavy, so much cum. Fuuuuuuck. Daddyâs gonna fill you up, have you leaking.â
His hand wraps around your throat and chokes you, hips still smashing against yours, your orgasm barely being held in. You try to talk, get him to let you cum, but no words come out. Bucky felt his orgasm approach, balls pulling up, âShiiit, daddyâs gonna cum, gonna flood your ass, you ready, cum with your daddy. Right. Fucking. Now.â Bucky cums with a long, drawn out moan. The feeling of his endless load pouring into your ass sends you over the edge and you cum so hard your vision goes black for a second. Waves upon waves of pleasure coursing through you. Buckyâs hips jerk involuntarily, prolonging both of your orgasms.
As you both catch your breaths, you feel Bucky begin to soften inside of you, still plugging your hole, stopping his cum from leaking back out. âYou were so good for me, sugar. Iâm so proud of you.â At those words you feel your bottom lip begin to tremble. Burying your face into the cushions, a sob escapes your throat, all of your emotions finally bubbling over.
Running his hands up and down your back, Bucky soothes you. This was always his least favorite part, seeing you cry. He knows that youâre crying isnât because of him, but there is always a twinge of fear that shoots through his body, scared that he went too far with you. Bucky pulls out as gently as he can, hissing when the air touches his spent dick, and moves to rest his back against the couch, pulling you into his lap.
Neither of you care that his cum is leaking all over. Bucky will clean the room later, after he takes care of his sweet girl. You cling to him as you sob into his neck, his hands massage your sore cheeks as he whispers in your ear, âSuch a good girl for me, you made me feel so fucking good. Canât even begin to explain how good you felt. There you go, let it out. Iâm right here.â
Carefully, he picks you up and carries you to the bathroom. When he tries to set you down you just cling on harder to him, not wanting to leave his embrace. âI gotta draw us a bath, sugar. You know you have to pee, Iâll be right here when youâre done.â You hesitantly let him go while he draws the bath, putting in your favorite oils. After you pee and wipe, he helps you up so you can wash your hands before sitting you both in the tub.
Before the water gets cold youâve stopped crying, making Bucky feel much better and he washes the sweat and spit off of your face and body, being extra careful with your sensitive pussy and ass. All the while whispering sweet nothings into your ear and kissing you all over your face.
Bucky feels ten times lighter when he gets a giggle out of you. He knows that there will be days when you need him to treat you like a slut, but you know how much he loves and respects you. He takes you to bed where you take turns feeding each other chocolate that he keeps stashed in the drawer next to the bed. Youâre both asleep within the hour and any remnants of your day are long forgotten when youâre wrapped up in Buckyâs arms.
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@evansbby LORD.
pairing: steve rogers x reader
Warnings: 18+, slight daddy kink, lots of pda, choking, face slapping, thigh riding, hair pulling, degradation.
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He watches you across the room barely paying attention to Bucky and Samâs conversation as you prance around in your pink mini skirt, only allowing you to have worn it since he was with you.
Your tight cropped shirt showing off your toned stomach which was now a nice shade of tan, caused by the amount of sunbathing you and Steve had done on the two week holiday break that iron man himself had graciously gifted you.
Your golden jewellery shining underneath the disco lights Tony insisted on getting when you all moved out of Stark tower and into the compound. Steveâs eyes leave you for a split second, engaging in Samâs rambling.
Pool stick in your hand, you lean over the table ready to shoot your shot, too tipsy to notice your skirt riding up against your thighs exposing the light blue panties he picked out for you for everybody to see, wiggling your hips you lined your eyes up with the ball, every male (and female) gaze in the room suddenly fluttering to your ass.
Bucky notices this instantly, following their eye lines he lets out a low whistle âThink youâd best go and get your girl rogers.â
Steveâs focus is already out of the window, not even picking up on Samâs hushed âgod damn.â
Within a split second steve is on his feet making his way towards you, his thick thighs pounding across the room and at the sight of his biceps straining against his dark blue polo connecting to tensed fists.
Tonyâs guests watchful eyes abruptly return to whatever they were doing before the sight of your pretty behind distracted them, the guys you were playing poker with making excuses as to why they had to leave, feeling the scene, not wanting to be the main attention of the super soldiers anger, confused as ever you begin to stand.
Swiftly you feel his familiar hands pushing you back down against the table, hips meeting your behind, you practically moan at the feel of his cock straining against his pants, pressed in between your asscheeks.
âPretty girlâŠâ oozed out of his lips, a smile grazing against your teeth knowing exactly whoâs behind you âStevie baby!â you say excitedly, making your second attempt to stand straight
âAh ah ahâ he whispers softly yet so harsh at the same time âYou like acting like a slut baby? is my attention just not enough for you anymore, hmm?.â
âWhat are you talking about stevieâ you giggle lightly, not understanding what heâs upset about, suddenly his large hand wraps around your ponytail, pulling your hair back roughly causing you to yelp, in both pain and pleasure.
âYou know exactly what iâm talking about, you stupid little brat, you like shaking your ass for everyone to see?â he growls, his grip on your hair tightening.
You begin to try and defend yourself yet your lips donât even have the chance to part before heâs dragging you away from the public eye and into a supply closet down the hall.
The second the door to the small room closes, steveâs on you in a flash, pushing you up against the wall, his knee sliding in between your legs pressing against your pussy, already soaked for him due to his man handling tactics, his veiny hand running up your chest and to your throat, gripping tightly against your throat as you choke for breath.
âGod your such a stupid fucking whore sometimesâ he shakes his head, you donât dare try to speak knowing your already in enough trouble, âGrind against my thigh baby, i know you want to, you dumb, stupid little girlâ he lets out in a condescending tone.
âDaddy pleaseâ You whimper as you began to grind your hips into his thick muscle, your clit throbbing against his jeans, as you rutted against him he started to feel your slick dampening his thigh.
âYou can do better than that, speed it up dirty girl, before you make this even worse for yourself.â he threatened, your speed picked up instantly not wanting to anger him further, steve already knew you were getting close as your moans got louder, your mouth blabbering incoherent sentences.
Just as you began to feel your insides tighten, the familiar flood of pleasure was snuffed out within an instant as he gripped your hips, removing his thigh from between your legs.
âYou didnât really think i was going to let you cum after the show you just put on out there, did you?â he teased, you cried out desperate for that soothing release you had previously been so close to, whimpering and begging him to let you cum.
His hand lifted from your throat, hitting you across the face, not hard enough to hurt but hard enough to get his point across, your cheek instantly turned a light shade of pink as your eyes welled up with tears.
âCut that shit out right fucking nowâ he warned, âthe next time i hear a noise come out of those pretty lips youâll have wished you didnât wear that damn skirt tonightâ he growled as he stroked the cheek he had previously hit.
âOh and youâd better hope those perverts are praying for you because youâre in for a very, very long night little girl.â
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im super sad because i was team steve all the way but the number of times she had to say no and try to leave does not sit right with me at allđbut then ari was the exact same⊠but ari was comforting her! like actually genuinely cared! UGH YOU HAVE ME SO CONFLICTEDđđ ari definitely did something to steves sister (im not sure if you mentioned how old she is but if shes readers age then maybe hes an ex of hers???) but i dont believe ari that he broke up with sharon, i think hes lying
steve needs anger management!! asap!!đŁand wanda. dont even get me started she is such a shitty friend i instantly do not like her one bitđ
i would still have to say that im team steveđ„șhes my baby and always will beđ„șđđđđđ sorry ari!đđ«¶đ»
ANYWAYS ENOUGH OF MY RAMBLING, this was incredible, you always know just the right way to keep us on our toes and wanting more, i personally want to thank you for the dedication and effort you put into writing these storiesđ«¶đ» it does not go unseen!!!đđđđđđI LOVE YOU BESTIE!!!!đ«¶đ»đ«¶đ»đ«¶đ»đ«¶đ»đ«¶đ»
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đđđąđ«đąđ§đ : mean jock!Ari Levinson x naive!reader, mean jock!Steve Rogers x naive!reader
đđđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ: smutt, noncon, dubcon, daddy!kink, dd/lg vibes, choking, spanking, anal play, fingering, size difference, innocence kink, naive reader, 18+ only, minors dni!
đđźđŠđŠđđ«đČ: You never thought you'd be stuck between two beefy basketball players who have it out for each other - but which one do you choose?
đ/đ: This is part 3 of my fic, Wicked Games. I'm literally so nervous about posting this. This is 21k words long. I hope you enjoy and forgive any mistakes!

âI told you, Wanda. I barely remember anything from last night,â you say, balancing the phone between your ear and shoulder as you manoeuvre the vacuum cleaner around your room. Youâd woken up feeling like shit â hungover and with a terrible headache to boot. But a warm shower and some skincare later, youâd decided to do some chores in order to clear your mind. âI do remember you ditching me though.â
âI didnât ditch you!â Wanda screeches from the other end of the line, and you wrinkle your nose, holding the phone away from your ear before she speaks again. âCurtis told me youâd left, and then he took me back to his place! I left you a message and everything, but maybe it didnât send because the service was so shitty.â
You hadnât received her message until you got home last night, along with about a dozen more from Ari which you also still hadnât looked at, let alone responded to.
âWait, you went home with Curtis?â
Wanda giggles, âYeah. I didnât think someone as popular as him would ever be interested in me but he was! And he was so good, and gentle too, andââ
You stay quiet, letting her gush on and on about her magical night with the basketball player, ooh-ing and aah-ing and gasping at all the right places. The truth was, the moment sheâd mentioned Curtisâ name, the memory of him cornering you on the dancefloor and giving you drink after drink had all come back to you. How heâd offered to take you upstairs before Ari had interrupted⊠Oh, but what did that matter? Itâs not like you didnât already have your hands full with a basketball player of your ownâŠ
âSo, what about you?â Wanda finally asks, âDo you really not remember anything?â
You inhale deeply, âI remember talking to Ari.â
No. You remembered more than that. You remembered the thumping music, the flashing lights, the crowd surging around you. His hands on your hips, his lips on your neck. His words in your ear. How heâd fucked you right there in front of everyone⊠All of that had come back to you in the shower this morning, but youâd been trying not to think about it ever since. All you could really do was persuade yourself that it was too dark and crowded for anyone to have seen that.
âEw. Not that two-timer. Please tell me you didnât fold.â
Scrunching your eyes shut, you bite your lip, âWe hooked up.â You werenât going to delve into the details of where youâd hooked up with him, though.
âOH MY GOD, WHY DO YOU ALWAYS DO THIS?!â Wanda screeches again, and you press your lips together. It was a valid question, but you just werenât in the mood for a lecture.
âYou ditched me and went home with Curtis. Please spare me the lecture, Wanda.â
Sheâs silent for a handful of seconds, âOkay fine. But how did you get home? Did Ari give you a lift?â
You frown, âHe must have. I donât really rememberââ
At that moment, your eyes land on a blue and white varsity jacket draped over your desk chair, and your heart jolts all the way up to the roof of your mouth. Wandaâs voice prattles on, but the phone falls slightly from your hand.
Steve. Youâd met a guy called Steve last night. It was slowly coming back to you now. How Ari had broken your heart in that bathroom, how youâd felt so alone and heartbroken the rest of the night. Blurred bits and pieces slowly join together like a jigsaw puzzle in your mind⊠Steve had found you, and youâd talked to him. And thenâŠ? Ari and Steve had faced off, and youâd chosen to leave with SteveâŠ
You couldnât remember anything after that. But surely Steve had called a cab and dropped you home, right? You had no recollection of what happened in the cab, however. You just have a vague memory of feeling cold and Steve giving you his jacket while you were both in the backseat. But that was the gentlemanly thing to do, as was dropping you home after the terrible night youâd had thanks to Ari.
âHello? You still there??â
You blink, pressing the phone back against your ear, âUh, yeah, Iâm here. I donât know what happened after that, but I got home safely so I guess thatâs a win, right?â
Wanda agrees, before launching into a detailed account of how Curtis had let her sleep over and heâd even gotten her coffee in the morning after allowing her to sleep in. You sit there, half listening and half staring at Steveâs varsity jacket on your chair. Inexplicably, your fingers itch to touch the soft material, to hold it against your nose and see if you can detect a scent to try and remember more of what had happened last night. You have a vague memory of how heavy and secure it felt around your shoulders, but you canât recall anything else no matter how hard you try.
A distinct rattling against your doorknob distracts you momentarily, and before you know whatâs happening, your door flies open, and Ari appears. The spare key youâd given him clenched tightly in his fist, and a scowl on his handsome face.
âWhy the fuck have you been ignoring my messages?â He snarls.
Seeing him now, seeing his devastatingly handsome face, his hair which is slightly wet at the ends, as if he just showered. His grey tank that clung to his body and showed off those incredible, tanned biceps. Oh God, seeing him now just makes you feel all weird, hurt and angry and helpless and yet so attracted to him all in one. And you wonder if all these conflicting emotions show on your own face as you stare him down.
You sniff in what you hope is a dismissive way, âIâm on the phone with Wanda right now.â
It takes him two seconds to cross the room, snatching the phone from your hands before speaking into it gruffly: âFuck off, Carla.â He hangs up while you gape at him in shock and annoyance, before throwing your phone to the other end of your bed. âAnswer me. I wonât repeat myself.â
Heâd been messaging you nonstop all night and even this morning, but you couldnât bring yourself to look at them. Not after how much heâd hurt you last night in the bathroom.
âWhy would I reply to your messages when I have nothing left to say to you?â You say, priding yourself on keeping your voice level and calm.
He scoffs, running a hand through his hair like he usually does when he feels insulted or frustrated, âWatch your tone. Thatâs no way to talk to someone whoâs been worried sick about you since you let that asshole abduct you last night.â
Your jaw drops open, âWorried sick? Are you for real, Ari? You werenât worried sick when you left me in that bathroom even after I begged you to stay with me.â
Ari blinks, crossing his arms over his chest, âYou remember that?â
You side-step your vacuum and square up to him (as well as you could possible square up to someone who is almost double your height). âI remember how heartbroken I felt, how hopeless and drunk I was. And you⊠you didnât even care! Not even a little bitâŠâ Your voice breaks, and you hate it and you wish you were stronger but you feel your shoulders crumple and your eyes well with tears.
âAww, babyâŠâ Ariâs strong arms wrap around you, and he pulls you into his solid chest. And he smells so good, like fresh soap and aftershave, and his embrace is so familiar, so safe, and you hate him for that. âDonât cry, baby. You know I hate it when you cry. Look, I didnât want to leave you, but I had to. Sharon was making a scene and multiple people were looking for me.â
At the mention of her name, you push him away immediately and take a few steps backwards to create some distance between the two of you. No, you wouldnât let him sweet-talk you this time, you wouldnât fall victim to his manipulations. You were going to stand your ground.
âDonât, okay? You donât need to make all these excuses because you basically laid it all out on the table last night, Ari. I remember everything.â
âBaby, listenââ
âNo, you listen! You strung me along for weeks, telling me youâd make me your girlfriend one day. I told you Iâd do anything for you. I let you fuck me wherever, however you wanted! I begged you to stay, but you told me you already had a girlfriend, and now I know that if it came down to it, youâd always pick her over me. So, Iâm done.â
You swallow back your tears and stand with your head held high, heart pounding at everything youâve just said. But you also feel exhilarated, liberated because youâve never voiced your thoughts to him like this before. And he just stands there, eyes narrowed as he stares you down and yet he says nothing, and you wonder if youâve finally rendered someone like him speechless.
With triumph, you turn on your heel, walking past him and into your bathroom. You have nothing to do in there but you busy yourself with rearranging your lotions and creams, determined to ignore him until he leaves.
âI could take you out tonight,â he calls from the bedroom, âLike a real date. We could go to one of those Italian restaurants downtown. And we could stay at a hotel after that, I can easily get us a penthouse suite at the Hilton, I know youâd like that.â
You would like that. In fact, your heart lurches in excitement. A romantic, public date with Ari? Oh, that would be incredible! But your happiness is short-lived when you realise that none of it meant anything if he was still with Sharon. That meant this date would probably take place in the shadows of the night, with him on edge over someone spotting the two of you together. And you refused to be his second-choice, his dirty little secret, any longer.
âIâm not interested, Ari,â you mutter, pretending to read the label of your shampoo bottle. A minute passes before you look up, disappointed when he doesnât answer. Had he left? Oh, you were hoping he wouldâve stayed longer and grovelled a bit more. Or even grovelled at all because he still hadnât apologised. You resist the urge to call his name as you stare hard at your shampoo bottle, so hard that the label blurs. Still nothing. You sigh before leaving the bathroom, heart sinking that he left.
But Ariâs still there, standing in the middle of your room. Deathly still, and in his hands is Steveâs blue and white varsity jacket. Shit. Youâd completely forgotten it was there.
âThis is his.â Ari says softly.
You donât say anything.
His blue eyes meet yours, narrowed and accusatory, his jaw tense with contained anger. He holds the jacket up as if itâs a piece of damning evidence in a murder case, and youâre the convict on trial. You see a glimmer of betrayal on his face, and his lips press into a thin line.
âWhy is this here?â
Your mouth suddenly feels dry. Itâs like his demeanour has completely changed in the past thirty seconds. Youâd never seen him so calmly angry before. Itâs almost eery.
âI asked you a question.â
You chew on your lower lip, âI-I was feeling cold, so heââ
Again, he closes the gap between you with just two long strides. But this time, he pushes you against the wall, his hand going around your throat and giving you the strangest sense of dejavu.
âWas he in here? Did you let him fuck you?â
He shakes you when you donât answer, and his fingers squeeze your throat threateningly.
âNo, okay!â You say, feeling your windpipes close. Of course, you and Steve hadnât slept together â all heâd done was give you a ride home, right??
âDid you let him touch you? Did you!?â He shakes you again, âDid you hook up with him? Tell me the fucking truth.â
âNO! Get the fuck off me!â You cry, pushing at him feebly.
âDo you remember everything? Tell me right fucking now, because if you donât remember then that means that asshole took advantage of you while you were drunk.â
âI REMEMBER EVERYTHING, OKAY?!â You lie, âNothing happened. H-He gave me his jacket because I felt cold, then he dropped me home. Nothing else happened, just let me go!â
Ari does let your throat go, but his menacing eyes never leave yours. Youâve never seen him so⊠affected before. He was always so cool, collected, so nonchalant⊠but right now, he almost looks frenzied. The sneer never leaves his face as his hand slips up to grab your jaw instead.
âAre you sure?â His every word is enunciated slowly, in a frighteningly level manner as he stares you down. âYou better be fucking sure, because I know guys like him. Heâs a fucking slimeball who wouldâve been happy to touch you even if you were unconscious.â
Your heart sinks at that, but you know Ariâs just speaking out of anger. Steve had been so sweet, and heâd never do that. You were sure of itâŠ
âAll he did was give me a lift home!â You try to wiggle out of Ariâs grip but he holds you firmly against the wall, his huge body pinning you flat against it similar to how he had last night when heâd fucked you. Out of nowhere, a wave of anger surges through you, the memory of him using you and disposing of you flashing through your mind once again. And now he had the audacity to get mad at you for going home with someone else? The next words out of your mouth are spiteful:
âBut it wouldnât be a problem if I did hook up with Steve, would it? I mean, itâs not like I have a boyfriend.â
Quick as a wink, Ari flips you around, till your cheek is rammed up against the cold wall, and you can practically hear the angry rumble from his throat. He roughly yanks your shorts down your legs, along with your panties too. You struggle against him, but your protests die as his palm cracks down on your bare ass hard.
âDonât you fucking even think about that.â Ari hisses, smacking your ass four times in quick succession.
âStop!â You squeal, pushing back against him but heâs too big and strong, âStop, you jerk! It hurts!â
âDonât you ever even entertain the idea of hooking up with someone else.â Ari growls in your ear, his unforgiving hand raining slaps down on your poor, ass which already feels raw, âYouâre mine. I own your whole fucking body and nobody else can touch you. Say it.â
You sob in pain, fighting against him, âNo! You donât respect me, you donâtââ
âThat doesnât fucking matter,â he says through clenched teeth. Roughly, he pulls your pyjama shorts down, and your panties are quick to follow. His palm collides with your ass over and over again, alternating between your two bare cheeks with unforgiving slaps whilst ignoring your cries of protest. âI had you first. That means youâre mine, and he canât have you. No one can have you unless I fucking say so.â
Your eyes widen, his words chilling you down to the bone. Never before has Ari ever sounded so serious, so scary. You swallow harshly, before gasping when he pinches your ass meanly. It hurts, you feel like your ass is on fire as he resumes slapping it over and over again. His other hand holds you tightly by the hip to keep you in place â otherwise, with the force of his smacks, youâd have gone flying across the room.
âStop it, Ari! Fucking stop it!â You beg, trying to keep resilient despite the fact that your backside is stinging so bad. The last thing you want to do right now is start crying and fall into a submissive stupor that has you begging for his forgiveness and approval. And you know that very well could happen, because thatâs whatâs always happened in the past when heâs punished you.
âSay it. Say youâre mine.â
âNo! Fuck you!â You werenât gonna give in to him. Not this time.
You squeal when his hand presses against your lower back, bending you over slightly. He spreads your glowing ass cheeks, swiping his finger up your slit. You squeeze your eyes shut when you hear him smirk at your wetness. Your body canât help but respond to his touch⊠but itâs your mind and willpower that you need to keep strong right now.
âYou wonât say it, huh? What, you decided to develop a mind of your own overnight?â He gathers your wetness on his finger, steering clear of your clit completely as his finger moves upwards instead. You clench involuntarily when you feel his digit probe your asshole, âI make all your decisions, you got that, sweetheart? I own you. I decide what you do, who you talk to, all of that shit.â
Oh, how was he so possessive over you when he couldnât even call you his girlfriend? You just couldnât understand himâŠ
He forces his pointer finger into your asshole, making you scream out loud at the intrusion. Heâs fingered your ass before, but never as roughly as now. You bite down on your lower lip â youâve already screamed once but you donât want to give him the satisfaction of doing it again. His other hand leaves your hip to grab your hair, pulling your head back.
âSay youâre mine, or Iâll add another finger.â
âHow can I be yours when youâre the one who doesnât want me to be your girlfriend!?â
Ari scowls, and yet he doesnât respond. Instead, he continues to spank your ass. And his finger continues to pump in and out of you, and you find yourself biting your lip now to suppress your moans.
There was just something so carnal, so raw, about him finger-fucking your ass. He was stoic and angry right now, but in the past Ari would always tell you how obsessed he was with your butt. How cute and round it was, how it drove him crazy when you bent down in your cute little skirts. How you had the type of ass that was always just begging for a smack. And heâd always find reasons to âpunishâ you, insisting on spanking you for the smallest of offences. Heâd told you that he loved how needy you got when he spanked you, and how he knew it got you horny when he fingered your butt.
But right now, it seemed like Ari was more fuelled by anger and jealousy than lust. And a part of you, despite everything, the neediest and most insecure part of you is happy that heâs so jealous. That heâs so affected by the prospect of you getting with Steve. And yet⊠Yet it clearly isnât enough to get him to leave Sharon for youâŠ
âI own you.â He grunts in your ear, âI donât fucking care if you say it or not. But youâre not gonna speak to Steve Rogers again. Do I make myself clear?â
He doesnât wait for you to answer, probably because he knows you wonât right now. Thereâs a shift in energy, you both can feel it. You know he can sense your mind fighting against him harder than ever before. Itâs in the way you keep your mouth clamped shut, despite inwardly wanting to moan in pleasure.
Ari slips his hand down your front, cupping your mound as he continues to finger your butt with his other hand. You suppress another gasp, fighting the urge to press against his palm. You hear him smirk again from behind you, grinding the heel of his hand against your clit. You exhale loudly, thrill shooting straight down to your core.
âDonât think I give a fuck about you giving me the silent treatment,â he says into your ear, âDaddy can still make you cum harder than anyone else ever could, and youâll cry like a fucking baby while you do it.â
His words go straight to your pussy and you clench hard. Your hips move on their own accord, thrusting forward to hump straight into his hand before you still them. But it feels so sinfully good, your clit rubbing against the hard heel of his palm. And it doesnât help that he knows exactly how to move his hand against your bundle of nerves, circling and pressing and rubbing at you.
âFuck,â you breathe.
âThere she is,â Ari murmurs cockily, âThereâs my girl. I guess the little baby didnât lose her voice after allâŠâ
âI mean, fuck you.â
He snorts, rapidly pressing his finger in and out of your puckered hole with such force that he rocks you forward, making your pussy press deliciously against his hand.
âYouâll listen to me,â he says beguilingly, licking the shell of your ear, âyouâll do exactly what I say. I donât care if you want to throw a tantrum right now and act out and pretend you donât want me anymore. I own your pussy, and I decide when weâre done. Not you. Me.â
You drop your head in shame, the pleasure in your tummy making you almost dizzy. Your body sags, surrendering to him physically as he mauls you. The tight walls of your ass swallow his finger up each time he thrusts into you with it, the force jolting you forward, making you dry hump his hand. Your ass burns and yet it feels so sexy, and you know youâre losing yourself; you know youâre losing the battleâŠ
âSay it. Say whoâs making you feel this good,â Ari breathes, rubbing your clit sensually, coaxing you to rut against his hand, to chase your pleasure while he dangles it in front of you like a carrot. âNobody else will ever make you feel like this, you got that? Just me. So, say it.â
âAri,â his name falls past your lips in a choked whisper, and you scrunch your eyes shut as you cum violently. You spasm in his arms, pussy walls clenching and releasing over and over again as you squirt all over his hand.
âThatâs a good baby,â Ari coos, holding you up because your legs feel like jelly, and you canât bring yourself to open your eyes. âItâs okay, you can be mad at daddy all you want. But I know whatâs best for you, and I loââ He pauses, clearing his throat and pressing his lips down on your neck, kissing and licking at your skin, âI own you, you got that?â
You donât answer, and he walks backwards with you in his arms. He lays you down on the bed before making a show of licking your cream off his fingers. You lie there, watching him and trying to catch your breath. Coming down from that orgasmic high, a dark feeling manifesting in the pit of your stomach. Youâd let him get to youâŠagain.
âWeâll go out tonight,â Ari announces, âIâll pick you up around nine, and weâll go wherever you want to go.â
âNo.â
His eyes narrow, âWhat?â
It takes you a second to gather up your strength to sit up. Your orgasm has weakened you â or maybe itâs the emotional weight of what youâre about to say next.
âI said no, Ari. I donât want to go out with you.â
He blinks, but doesnât say anything. You take that as your cue to continue.
âIâm done, okay? Iâm serious this time. I donât wanna be with you if youâre still with her.â You suck in your breath, looking somewhere beyond his shoulder because itâs too intimidating to meet his gaze. âI donât wanna go on a date that starts at nine in the evening when itâs pitch-black outside, just because you canât risk being seen with me. I deserve better than that.â
Ari crosses his arms over his chest, regarding you carefully and yet he still doesnât say anything.
âA-And I deserved better last night. I didnât deserve to be left alone in that bathroom. I was high, and drunk, and I begged you to stay with me,â you bow your head, âI-I deserve someone who isnât embarrassed of being with me in public, Ari.â
âIâm not embarrassed of you, I just canâtââ
âYou canât risk it, I know. You have a girlfriend. And I wish to God it was me, but itâs not. So, Iâm done trying to persuade you.â
He scoffs, âYou donât mean that. Youâre just in a mood, but youâll come crawling back to me the moment you start feeling needy again.â
You shake your head sadly, âThink whatever you want to think, Ari. Iâm done.â
Sighing lowly, you keep your head bowed as you pick at a loose thread on your quilt. You canât bare to look at him, because a part of you knows that looking at him would make you melt and then heâd have you back eating out of the palm of his hand. But you were done this time, you were so exponentially done, andâ
âListen to me,â In a flash, Ari grips your chin harshly between his thumb and forefinger. Forcing you to look into his menacing eyes that flash with indignation and anger. âIf you end this now, then thatâs it. Weâre done. I wonât ever speak to you again.â
Your heart jolts, stunned by his harsh words. But that was what youâd decided youâd wanted, right? For you and him to be done? Or had you wanted him to grovel, apologise, break up with Sharon and shack up with you? Nevertheless, you try to remain strong.
âOkay. Thatâs fine.â
âIâm serious. I know you think this is some kind of game and youâre playing hard to get, but I swear to God, I will leave this room and never even look at you again. Is that what you fucking want?â
His face is inches from yours, and you try to read his eyes. Try to understand him on any level, try to detect if thereâs an inkling of care behind those eyes, even an iota of love or adoration for you. A desperation to stay with you, be with you. But you canât. His face is unreadable, like a mask. And so a lone tear breaks free and meanders down your cheek, and you speak in a broken whisper:
âMaybe itâs for the bestâŠâ
He backs away as if youâve stung him, or flung a vial of poison right in his face. His eyes narrowed, nostrils flaring, chest rising and falling with each breath as he glares daggers at you. And a large part of you just wants to take it all back, to jump into his arms and burst out crying like you always do, and heâd make you feel better for the night and then leave before you woke up tomorrow. No, you had to stay strong.
Easily, like heâs slipping on that damned mask once more, Ariâs features morph from anger to nonchalance, and he straightens up and shakes his head.
âFine. Then weâre done.â
âFine.â
âFine.â
He opens his mouth as if to say something else before thinking better of it. Instead, he turns and leaves without a second glance back at you, his fists balled up at his sides.
Itâs only when heâs gone, and the door slams shut with a crushing finality, that you allow yourself to burst into tears. Loud, wracking, sobbing tears, and one word falls past your lips in a choked whisper:
âBye.â
***
Heartbreak felt strange. For one thing, it was constant. You missed Ari all the time in the days that followed. You thought it would get easier after a few days, but two weeks later and you still felt like your heart had been sawed in half. And every time youâd see him on campus, your heart would jolt.
In the past, heâd always smile at you or give you a wink â even if he was with his girlfriend. Now? You may as well have been invisible for all he cared. He never looked at you, or whenever his eyes did glance in your direction, it was like heâd see right through you or over your head. You didnât exist to him anymore. And it hurt.
But isnât this what you had wanted?
Well, yes. And yet, you canât fathom how itâs actually happened. A large part of you had expected him to come crawling back to you like how he had last time. Youâd expected your phone to blow up with texts and calls from him, expected him to show up at your door at midnight for a booty call, even. But nope. Radio silence. You and Ari were well and truly done and heâd moved on.
And often, when you were getting ready in the morning, your gaze would fall on the blue and white varsity jacket still draped on your chair and wonder if it was time for you to move on to someone else tooâŠ
But Ari still plagued your mind, and you didnât know how you were supposed to contact Steve or even if you wanted to. After all, all heâd done was give you a ride home when you were messy drunk and probably at your most unattractive. He probably wasnât even interested in you like thatâŠ
âOh my Gosh, Curtis is coming this way. Do I look okay? Do I need to powder my nose again?â Wanda hisses at you. The two of you are sat on one of the wooden tables in the campus courtyard. She quickly grabs your compact, not waiting for you to answer as she scrutinises her reflection in the tiny mirror.
Oh, right. Another important advancement in the past two weeks: Wanda and Curtis were now a thing. Which made it even harder to avoid Ari, who was Curtisâ best friend. Even now, as you look beyond Wandaâs shoulder, you can see Curtis walking towards her with Ari right next to him. To your relief, Ari hangs back, getting his phone out instead.
âHey, babe.â Curtis pulls up behind Wanda, wrapping his arms around her while she throws your compact back at you so she can squeeze his bicep. It hits you in the face and you huff to yourself as you put it away, pointedly trying not to look at the two of them while they start to make out. Watching them be a happy couple especially stung seeing as your own ârelationshipâ had ended in such a disaster.
Looking beyond them proves to be a mistake, however. Ariâs now been joined by Sharon, and the two of them are also wrapped up in a kiss. God, what was with everyone? You scowl and look down at your lap.
âWhatâs wrong with your friend, sweetie?â Curtis asks Wanda, his voice dripping with smug amusement. You almost scoff out loud at the use of âyour friend,â as if this man hadnât been flirting with you the night of the party two weeks ago. You still havenât mentioned that to Wanda â not when sheâs so happy with him now.
âOh, nothing. Sheâs always moody nowadays.â Wanda says flippantly, pulling him down to sit on the bench next to her as the two of them continue to kiss obnoxiously. The buzzcut-haired man squarely grabs her breast and gives it a squeeze â right out in the open! But Wanda only giggles, letting him pull her into his lap and feel her up as their make-out session takes a quick, R-rated turn.
âThatâs my cue to leave,â you mutter to yourself, gathering your books and standing up. The happy couple doesnât even glance your way or even acknowledge youâve said anything. You sigh, wondering whether this was what the rest of your college experience would be like. Youâd had your fun at the start of the year and now you were doomed to be the third wheel to these twoâŠ
âOh my gosh, youâre the girl from that party, arenât you?â
A high-pitched voice knocks you out of your hole of self-pity, and you almost run smack into⊠Sharon. Sheâs standing by your wooden table now, hand in hand with Ari, who looks like he wants to be anywhere but here.
âH-Huh?â Your mouth suddenly feels dry. Youâve never spoken to Sharon before â and how could you? How could you even look her in the eye after youâd spent weeks and weeks sleeping with her boyfriend?
âYouâre the girl from the party,â Sharon repeats, elegantly raising her voice over the obscene making out sounds coming from Curtis and Wanda. âI was pretty drunk but I remember you! You were in that gorgeous red dress, right?â
Your heartâs racing, and you wish you could disappear. Instead, you nod and force a smile.
âYeah, that was me. Hi.â
âI thought so! You have to tell me where you got that dress, girl! I honestly couldnât stop talking about it. I mean, just ask my boyfriend!â She nudges Ari, who is trying his best to appear nonchalant, ignoring her as he texts someone on his phone. Sharon rolls her eyes before continuing, âI was totally off my face drunk, but if I remember anything, itâs that dress.â
You nod, forcing a tight smile. âI was pretty drunk too. And the dress is from this website called White Fox Boutique. Look, I have to goââ
âDid you get home okay?â Sharon interrupts, her face morphing into a look of concern. And God, you hate how kind sheâs being. It would have been easier to swallow the fact that youâd slept with her boyfriend had she been a bitch. Not a ray of literal sunshine who was so pretty to boot â with messy blonde hair cascading down her back in perfect waves, and the sparkliest blue eyes. No wonder Ari had chosen her â she was absolutely stunning, and even more so up close.
âYes, I got a lift homeââ
âOh, thatâs right! You were with Steve Rogers, that guy from St. Judeâs!â Sharon says excitedly, clasping her manicured hands together before grabbing Ariâs bicep, âI didnât know he had a girlfriend now. Although itâs a good thing we both had our boyfriends there that night to get us home safely.â
Ari snorts, finally deciding to contribute to the conversation: âHeâs not her boyfriend.â
âUm, okay. And how would you know that, babe?â Sharon smiles sweetly up at him.
The brunet freezes, glancing at you for a nanosecond before he clears his throat. âThat guy couldnât hold down a girl if his life depended on it. Heâs too volatile.â
Sharon rolls her eyes, âYouâll have to excuse my boyfriend. He has this weird rivalry thing with Steve Rogers. Theyâre both basketball players, you see.â
You nod, trying to pretend like this is all new information to you. âUh, right. Well, Steve isnât my boyfriend, actually. I only met him that night and he was kind enough to give me a lift home. Speaking of home, I gotta gââ
âYou and Steve would make a cute couple,â Sharon muses, âyou guys looked good together that night.â
You smile awkwardly, shifting from one foot to the other and not knowing what to say. She clearly had an excellent memory of that night considering she was off her face drunk for the majority of it.
You hear Ari huff while youâre wracking your brain for an excuse to leave. Sneaking a glance at him, you find him frowning, his hands curled up into fists by his side. Oh, he was affected! Did that mean he still cared? A lightbulb goes off in your headâŠ
âM-Maybe I will go out with Steve. Weâve been texting a lot since that night.â Your voice comes out shaky, the lie feeling foreign on your tongue.
Ari glares daggers at you, âThatâs a bad idea.â
Sharon slaps his chest lightly, âDonât be rude! I think thatâs a fabulous idea!â
The brunet bristles and looks down at his girlfriend with an annoyed look on his face, âDonât you have a class you need to be getting to?â
âI do butââ
âGo.â
Your eyes widen at his gruff tone, and youâre even more surprised when Sharon nods at his command. What was it about Ari that made every girl around him bow down to his authority so easily? Youâd been guilty of it too in the pastâŠ
âOkay, grumpy-pants,â she says easily before turning to you, âit was nice meeting you! Iâm Sharon, by the way.â
You tell her your name.
âCool, Iâll find you on Instagram. You can text me the details of your dress there!â She says happily, and all you can do is nod while Ari continues staring at you with a steely expression on his face. Clearly, he was bothered by the idea of you and Steve texting! So what if it wasnât even true?
You stare back at him defiantly, finally feeling like youâve gained the upper hand in the two weeks since you two have been apart.
In response, Ari narrows his eyes, grabbing Sharon as sheâs about to walk away. Your heart drops when he kisses her right in front of you, his gaze fixed on you as his lips move against hers. You feel your face grow hot, then cold, then hot again, heart feeling like someoneâs shredding it into pieces. How could he? Your eyes well with tears, but you fight to keep them at bay because you canât cry here, not in front of everyone.
He continues making out with her, being as obscene as possible as his eyes lock with yours, and you just stand there, frozen and gormless, not even able to look away. Finally, after what feels like ten years, they break apart. Sharon giggles, and Ari slaps her ass before sending her on her way. You wish you could gouge your eyes out.
âYouâre unbelievable.â You mutter lowly once Sharon is out of earshot.
âAnd youâre a liar.â
âWhat?â
Ari steps closer to you, âI can always tell when youâre lying. Youâre not texting Steve.â
You roll your eyes before pushing past him, âItâs none of your business anyways.â
Curtis â youâd forgotten he was even there â breaks a kiss with Wanda to grin up at you. âDonât mind Ari, heâs just been extremely crabby lately. Not getting laid does that to people.â He goes in for another kiss, adding against Wandaâs lips, âSame canât be said about you and me, huh, sweetheart?â
Ugh.
âWanda, Iâm leaving. Are you coming?â You ask, doing your best to ignore the two basketball players.
âWhat? Uh, no, Iâm busy,â your friend answers distractedly before Curtis pulls her back in for another kiss.
âYouâll stay away from Steve if you know whatâs best for you.â Ari says quietly.
Great. Was he seriously threatening you now?
âIâll do whatever I want,â you raise your chin up at him defiantly once more.
Ari scowls, running a hand through his hair. You know him well enough to know that he does that when heâs frustrated. âLook, Iâm being serious. Itâs for your own goodââ
âWhy do you even care? I thought we were done, Ari.â
âWe are done.â
âThen leave me the fuck alone, okay!? Iâll date whoever I want to date.â
âNot him.â
âYes, him.â
âNo.â
âYes!â
âWeâll vacate this bench if you two need the space to fuck.â Curtis offers jokingly, but both of you ignore him as you stare each other down.
Finally, you huff, attempting to sidestep him but heâs way too big and easily blocks your path. A second attempt, and he blocks you again â and this time he has the audacity to smirk amusedly. That boils your blood, and you glare up at him. How dare he try and tell you who you could and couldnât date? When he just made out with Sharon five inches away from your face not even two minutes ago!?
âJust listen to me for once,â Ari grabs your wrist but youâre quick to tug it back. His scowl deepens, but he doesnât grab you again, âSteve is bad news. Heââ
âHe canât be any worse than the guys I already do know.â You cut him off pointedly before turning around and walking away without a second glance.
***
âI canât believe I let you drag me here.â
Youâre all too familiar with the universityâs basketball court â you used to come here all the time to watch Ari play. That didnât mean you wanted to be here now. In fact, it was the last place you wanted to be, and youâd told Wanda that several times but she wouldnât hear any of it.
Wanda rolls her eyes, âCurtis is playing, and as his girlfriend, I need to be there for moral support.â
You wrinkle your nose; sheâd only been going out with Curtis for a few weeks now and yet she was running around acting like Curtis was the president and she was the first lady or something. She didnât really have any time to be your best friend anymore. You and Wanda had bonded at the start of the academic year â doing everything from attending society meetings together to having movie nights and sleep overs.
But now, it was all âCurtis wants me to go to this new club with him,â and âCurtis says that itâs okay to bunk lectures once in a while!â and âOh sorry, I canât hang out tonight â Curtisâ schedule just got cleared up so he needs me to go to his room.â It made you wonder whether youâd been this insufferable too when you were with Ari.
âMoral support? Wanda, this isnât even a proper game. Itâs just a practice,â you remind her, âand anyways, I donât know what Iâm doing here. Itâs not like Iâm dating Curtis.â
âOf course not, youâre not his type at all. I just couldnât show up alone, thatâs just sad,â says Wanda before she spies Curtis in the corner of the court with a few other teammates, all of them stretching and doing warm-ups. She waves at him like mad, blowing kisses in his direction. He shoots her a quick smile before turning around to talk to a nearby cheerleader.
You spot a familiar figure, tanned, tall and muscular with his long brown hair pushed back with one of those metal wire headbands that men wore, barking out a game plan to the rest of his team. Ari. You freeze.
âWanda!â You hiss, tugging hard at her sleeve, âYou said that Curtis told you that Ari was sick and wouldnât be at practice today!â
Wanda blinks, âOh. That was a lie.â
âWhat!?â
She shrugs, âCome on. I needed you here today and I knew there was no way youâd come if you knew Ari was here. Hey, does my lip gloss look okay, by the way? Iâm gonna go say hi to Curtis.â
âDonât leave me all by myself!â
Wanda rolls her eyes, tugging her arm out of your grasp, âYouâll be fine. Iâll be right back anyways. In the meantime, just find us a good spot to sit. Somewhere close to the front where Curtis will be able to see me.â
And sheâs gone before you know it. Great. The last thing you needed right now was Ari thinking youâd come here specifically to see him play. And with his big head â thatâs exactly what heâd think. You contemplate just leaving â you could tell Wanda that youâd had a medical emergency or something. Or maybe you could just sit somewhere in the back or hide in the bleachers, and Ari would never have to know you were here. He was too busy ordering his team around, he hadnât noticed you yet anyways, and maybe you couldâ
âSweetheart, I was hoping Iâd see you here.â
A warm hand grasps your waist, and your first reaction is to jump back and smack whoeverâs touching you in such a forward way. But then you turn, being met by a sturdy chest covered by a blue and white St. Judeâs basketball jersey. Golden hair. Sparkling blue eyes. Angelic face.
âSteve!â You exclaim, before realising that you sound way too happy to see someone who is essentially still a stranger to you. You clear your throat, trying to sound more casual. âWh-What are you doing here?â
âOur court is being renovated, so we got permission to practice here with your team.â He flashes you a bright smile, his hand still on your waist, his thumb stroking you from over your blouse. His eyes rake over you unabashedly, and you find yourself growing hot under his gaze. âThis is a really pretty outfit you got on, sweetheart. Is it for anyone in particular?â
You were wearing a pink blouse and cardigan set, with a matching pink tennis skirt which had unfortunately shrunk in the washing machine. Youâd still worn it though, promising yourself you wouldnât make the mistake of bending over and giving everyone within close vicinity a good eyeful of your panties.
âOh, uh, no, not for anyone in particular,â you babble. You feel nervous around him, but not necessarily in a bad way. âThanks for getting me home safely that night, by the way. I, uh, I meant to thank you the next morning but I didnât have your number or anything.â
Steve nods, shooting you a wink, âThatâs alright, princess. I think itâs me who should be thanking you for that night.â His hand slips down to your hip, giving it a warm, meaningful squeeze.
You frown, âWhy would you be thanking me? I didnât do anything.â Your Uber ride home with Steve was still a blur to you, but you doubt anything eventful had happened during it. âOh, donât tell me I kept you entertained with all my drunken chatter. Iâm sorry, I do that sometimes, and I was so embarrassingly drunk that night.â
He blinks, before a slow smile spreads across his face, âBaby girl, donât you remember?â
âI remember me being a total embarrassment, and you being a total gentleman. You even gave me your jacket and I still have it now!â You say brightly, picturing his varsity jacket still hung up on your desk chair back in your dorm room. âI wanted to return it to you but you never called, or texted, orâŠâ your eyes widen when you realise what youâve said, âI mean, not that I expected you to call me. I understand that all you did was give me a lift home. Iâm not insinuating that you had to call me, or that youâre attracted to meââ
âHey, hey, hey,â Steve easily grabs your chin before his thumb brushes upwards over your lips, effectively shutting you up. His eyes are intense, and so close, his lashes fanning his cheekbones as he looks down at you, âI am attracted to you.â He says squarely, before chuckling, âI thought that much was obvious. I shouldâve gotten your number that night, baby girl, but youâd been drinking a lot.â His eyes glint as he licks his lips, âAnd Iâd never take advantage of you when you were drunk.â
Oh, he was such a gentleman! Of course, heâd never take advantage of you while you were drunk! Unlike dumb, stupid Ari! As if on cue, you look beyond Steveâs shoulder, the tiniest part of you hoping that Ariâs watching this interaction between you and the blonde. But the brunet is busy warming up now, grunting as he does his push-ups in the corner of the gym, his tanned, muscular arms bulging. You almost bite your lip before focusing back on Steve.
âGive me your phone,â Steve says suddenly, and youâre obeying him before youâve even registered what heâs asked. He smirks, taking it from you and typing his number in, saving it before handing it back to you. âYouâll text me tonight, wonât you?â
Was he asking you or was he telling you? Either way, you find yourself nodding.
His eyes bore into yours, âSay it, then. Say youâll text me tonight.â
Oh, he was so intense! But you donât seem to mind one bit. Again, you nod. âY-Yes, Steve. Iâll text you tonight.â
He gives you a relaxed smile, âGood. We can discuss where Iâll take you on our first date.â
A thrill ripples through you. A date?! Youâd never been on a date before! Oh wow, this wasâ
âHey, you guys!â
Sharonâs bright voice echoes across the gym as she makes her way over towards the two of you. Sharon. Of course. Of course, sheâd be here â she was a cheerleader. And she looked beautiful as she always did, with her blonde hair piled up in a messy bun, her cute cheerleading outfit accentuating all her curves perfectly. Youâre hit with a sudden wave of insecurity â would Steve forget about you now that she was here? â but you try to keep it at bay.
The truth was, Sharon had requested you on Instagram a few days ago as sheâd promised she would. And youâd had to follow her back, which was painful enough seeing as half of her pictures were her with Ari. But she was sweet when she texted you asking about where your red dress was from, and a few more mini-conversations and a bit of small talk later, clearly, she thought the two of you were friends.
âIâm so glad youâre here!â Sharon squeals, giving you a quick hug which you reciprocate whilst wondering why exactly sheâs so happy to see you. She nods at Steve with a humorous twinkle in her eye, âAnd youâre Steve Rogers, aka Ariâs best friend in the whole world.â
Steve snorts, âYep. Thatâs me.â
She giggles, looking from him to you and back to him again, âLet me guess. You guys are a couple now.â
You shake your head, âNo, weââ
ââWe are.â Steve cuts you off, winking at Sharon before wrapping his arm properly around your waist and pulling you into him. Your eyes widen, cheeks feeling hot. You werenât at all used to public displays of affection like this, nor were you used to anyone being as forward as Steve was being right now. After all, this was only your second time meeting him- how was he already telling people you were together? And why werenât you objecting to it?
Sharon clasps her hands together excitedly, âYay! I told her you guys would make the cutest couple.â
Steve chuckles, and your eyes widen when his hand meanders downward. His palm settles on your ass, cupping it as he casually speaks to Sharon. Sheâs in front of you, so she canât see it, but your eyes nearly bug out of your head as you feel his big, warm hand cup your ass through your tennis skirt, even giving it a squeeze.
âCareful, Sharon. You might get in trouble if your boyfriend sees you talking to me.â Steve jokes airily, as if he isnât kneading your ass cheek at the same time. Your face is on fire, but you also feel your walls clench, turned on by the extra attention heâs giving you as he nonchalantly talks to someone else. Itâs hot.
âPfft, no way. Ari doesnât care who I talk to, heâs not really the possessive type.â
âInterestingâŠâ Steve murmurs softly, almost to himself.
âLook, there he is now,â Sharon waves across the court, âHey, babe!â
You follow her gaze, watching Ari as he dribbles the basketball casually. Upon hearing her voice, he looks up. Heâs got a disinterested look on his face as he nods in acknowledgement at Sharon, but then his eyes meet yours. And itâs like the whole world freezes over, and your body freezes and your blood freezes.
Ariâs face contorts from disinterest to shock as he drinks in you standing with Steve. You feel your chest tighten, as if your body canât decide between feeling triumphant that youâre making Ari jealous, or upset that youâre making Ari jealous. Either way, you hear Steve smirk, and then he pulls you closer, giving your ass an even harder squeeze that has you yelping.
The shock on Ariâs face quickly morphs into hatred and disdain. Heâs all the way across the court, and yet you can see his knuckles redden as he grips the ball so tightly you fear it may explode. A part of you wants to move away from Steve out of respect for Ari, but you couldnât do that even if you wanted to. Steveâs grip is like iron around you, his palm glued to your ass as if he owns it.
Almost like heâs doing it on purposeâŠ
You donât know what to expect from Ari, but you brace yourself nevertheless as he makes his way over. But the dark look on his face has melted away, and by the time he reaches you, he looks cool as a cucumber, almost as if heâs slipped on a mask of nonchalance at the drop of a dime. You always wondered how he did that so easilyâŠ
âWhy arenât you out there cheering me on?â He asks Sharon, pulling her into his chest and pointedly kissing her. Your blood starts boiling once more and you subconsciously sidestep closer to Steve, lifting your chin up in defiance in Ariâs direction. The brunette side-eyes you and clutches Sharon closer in return.
Sharon beams up at Ari, âI was talking to Y/N. Iâll go in a second, because the squad is starting a new routine today and I want us to get it down in time for the next big game, andââ
But Ariâs no longer listening to her; him and Steve have now locked gazes much like how they did weeks ago at the party.
âIâm not sure why you even decided to show up today, Steve.â Ari breaks the steely silence first, âNo amount of practice could help your godawful team beat mine.â
Steve smirks, undeterred. Pointedly, his arm tightens around you. âI wouldnât be so sure about that. Something tells me youâll be distracted tonight.â
Ari â somehow â looks equally unbothered, never breaking eye contact with Steve. You think you see his lip curl into a snarl for a millisecond, but itâs gone before you can be sure. âEven distracted, Iâd still beat your ass.â
The blond snorts, âYour overconfidence is going to cost you, Ari. Itâs what made you lose her.â
âLose who?â asks Sharon, but she quickly grows distracted by the cheerleaders that are in the corner of the court, âUgh, I gotta go. Theyâre trying to practice the pyramid and we need six of us to make it work. Iâll catch you later, okay? Please donât try to kill Steve while Iâm gone.â She kisses Ariâs cheek before waving at you and Steve and skipping away.
That just leaves you, standing frozen by Steveâs side while the two men lock eyes in their silent battle. And why does it kind of hurt, the fact that Ari hasnât looked at you even once throughout it? In a way, youâre relieved that all they seem to be disagreeing over is basketball and who would beat who (aka lame boy stuff). But then that in turn makes you wonder: Is Ari not even affected by Steveâs arm around you? But then why did you even care if he was or wasnât affected? And how was Steve being so forward, and, and, andâ
âI-I gotta go. Wandaâs calling for me.â You lie, slipping out of Steveâs grip and scurrying away. The energy bouncing off both of them made you feel nervous, on edge, almost unsafe. You look back over your shoulder now to see them still staring at each other. Cold, barren stares that seemed to have grown more intense now that youâd left. It makes you gulp, and you wonder if itâs just a basketball rivalry between them after all â or it itâs something more.
âWhere the hell have you been? Didnât I tell you to find us good seats?â Wanda rolls her eyes, grabbing your hand and yanking you over to the last remaining front row seats. You try to clear your head of any thoughts of Ari or Steve, instead marvelling over how many people had showed up to watch these two teams play together in what was just a practice match.
âI was, uh, I just saw Steve.â
âWho?â
âHeâs the⊠he gave me a lift home the night of the party.â
Wanda wrinkles her nose, about to say something before she grows distracted, âLook! Thereâs Curtis! The gameâs about to start!!â
You never held much of an interest in basketball, even when you used to watch Ari play. But now, you pay attention carefully as the teams hit the court. Ariâs team have maroon jerseys and Steveâs team are in blue. They huddle on opposite sides of the court before the coach blows a whistle and they start playing.
âLook how good Curtis looks in his jersey,â Wanda gushes.
Ari looks pretty good too, you almost say out loud. And Steve too.
Both Ari and Steve were very similar on the court. Both the respective captains of their own team, you observe them ordering their teammates around, calling out strategies and gameplans, hyping the players up. They moved around similarly too, both so big and beefy and yet so fluid and lithe when dribbling the ball across the court. They were both clearly the most talented players out of everyone, yet you couldnât tell who was better between the two of them.
âCâmon Rogers, is that the best you can do!?â Ari taunts after shooting an easy three-pointer about a minute into the game.
Steve rolls his eyes before beckoning one of his teammates closer. Heâs a brunette with âBarnesâ printed on the back of his jersey. The two of them confer for a few seconds while Ari and Curtis laugh and gloat with their own teammates. Then the coach blows the whistle again.
You zone out for a while, the maroon and blue jerseys becoming a blur as they whiz across the court. A bunch more points scored, the roar of the crowd, Wanda shrieking happily every time Curtis scores or jogs close to your seats. You, however, are much more interested in the way Steve had brazenly felt you up just now before this practice match had begun. Or how Ari hadnât even looked at you when heâd come over to confront Steve. Or howâŠ
âYou fucking tripped him.â Steve seethes, the frustration in his voice carrying across the court and making you refocus on the game which has suddenly halted. The blond looks pissed, a borderline lethal look on his face as he kneels down next to his teammate. The brunette, âBarnesâ is on the shiny floor, clutching his knee in pain.
Ari shrugs, âNo I didnât.â
Curtis snickers behind him.
Steve gets to his feet and shakes his head, but he barely has time to react before Ari throws the ball at him. Hard. It hits Steve squarely on the chest before he catches it, his jaw twitching as he does.
âCâmon, Rogers. You got a sub for your friend or are we gonna have to call it like last time?â Ari grins.
The brunet called Barnes limps to his feet, âNah, I can play.â
Ari frowns. But the coach blows the whistle and the game resumes. This time, you pay closer attention. You note how Curtis is playing dirty, shadowing Barnes till heâs nearly on top of him, even trampling on his feet a few times.
And itâs meant to just be a practice game, but Ari and Steve look like theyâre playing in the basketball world championships â or whatever it was called, itâs not like you would know. Both look stone-faced and determined, stealing the ball from each other multiple times, blocking each other, not letting each other shoot. They seem to be within a game of their own, one which was mental almost as much as it was physical.
âIs that all you got, Steve?â Ari taunts as he steals the ball from the blonde.
âShut the fuck up,â Steve mutters, stealing the ball straight back.
Back and forth it goes, neither of them letting the other shoot. Taunting and jeering each other every chance they get.
âWhatâs the deal with them?â You find yourself asking Wanda, your eyes glued to the court, âWhy do they hate each other so much? Has Curtis ever told you?â
Wanda shrugs, âAll I know is that the last time our team played against Steveâs, he lost it and got a yellow card, making his whole team lose. Curtis told me that. Basketball is a competitive game, Y/N. I thought you knew that.â
This seemed more than just a silly sports rivalry, thoughâŠ
âI fucking saw that, you bald fuck!â Steve rages at Curtis, halting the game once more. âIf you trip another one of my guys one more fucking timeââ
âYouâll what? Blow your top off and get another yellow card?â Ari smoothly steps in front of Steve, squaring up to the blond with a smirk on his face, âNot a single person in here would be surprised, pretty boy.â
In a flash, Steve has hold of the front of Ariâs jersey, âKeep fucking talkingââ
Ari doesnât back down, and your heart begins to thud like crazy as you watch them. Theyâre quite close to where you and Wanda are sat, but you have to lean forward to hear what exactly theyâre saying.
âNot so fucking smug now, are you?â The brunet sneers lowly. âThought you could dangle her in front of my fucking face? But you canât keep a girl, pretty boy. And you canât keep your cool either.â
Theyâre like two Adonises, one as ripped as the other. One every bit as tall and built as the other. One every bit as handsome as the other. And both with an equal look of hatred on their faces, a kind of deep-seated hatred that made you uncomfortable, that chilled you down to your bones as you sit frozen in place, watching it all unfold.
âShut the fuck up,â Steve murmurs threateningly, a blue vein in his forehead looking like itâs about to pop.
Ari smiles coolly, âOr what? Gonna let your team down again, Rogers? Maybe a yellowâs not enough for you, maybe youâre aiming for a red card this time, huh?â
âA red cardâs worth splitting your fucking skullââ
âROGERS, LEVINSON, BREAK IT UP!â
You jump when both the teamsâ coaches blow their whistles, making their way over to the two captains. Curtis drags Ari away, and a guy with âWilsonâ on his jersey, as well as Barnes both pull Steve in the other direction too. A five-minute recess is called, and you canât believe what youâve just seen.
In his teamâs respective corner, you watch as Ari snatches up a bottle of water and takes a long swig before pouring the rest of it over his head, as if to cool himself down. Swivelling your eyes, you see Steve in his teamâs corner of the court, his hands curled into fists by his side as Barnes and Wilson speak lowly to him. But his blue eyes seem far, far away. And his jaw remains tensed, a dark, almost unreadable look on his face.
The game resumes, but this time it feels different. The dynamic between the two men is completely juxtaposed from what it was the night of the party. Then, Steve seemed in control, laughing as Ari lost his cool. Now, itâs the complete opposite. Ari seems to have recovered from the scuffle, resuming his taunts and insults as he dribbles the ball up and down the court like a pro. But Steve is somewhat out of it, still playing well but almost as if heâs out-of-sync with himself, as if his mind is elsewhere.
And Ari seems to have picked up on it.
âWhatâs the matter, Rogers? About to lose it again?â Ari snickers after heâs dodged Steve and scored another three-pointer.
Steve says nothing.
St. Andrews (Ariâs team) is up by three points. Thereâs no scoreboard as it was just a practice and not an official match, but thereâs a freshman in the front row â Jake Jensen â whoâs acting like a play-by-play commentator.
âWill Steve Rogers lose his marbles and cost his team another match?â Jake speaks into his headset in a suspenseful tone, âWill this all-star athlete crack under the pressure? Will he succumb to the oppositionâs tireless taunts? Will the golden boy lose his cool once more? Will heââ
Steve swiftly tosses the ball aside, and the ref barely has time to blow the whistle to call for a time out before the blond grabs Jake Jensen by the collar and hoists him up in the air as if the freshman weighs nothing more than a feather.
âYou say one more fucking word, Iâll shove this headset up your fucking ass, got that?â Steve shoves Jensen back in his seat before throwing the poor freshmanâs headset at his face, knocking his glasses off. Jake swallows and nods, his mouth clamped shut and a frightened look on his face.
You bite your lip and watch as Steve returns to the game. Heâs still got that far-away look in his face, as if he isnât quite one hundred percent there. He also looks agitated, rattled, unnerved. You feel wary of him, and yet at the same time you also feel a pang of pity, a part of you wanting to go up there and give him a hug despite the fact that you donât know him like that.
The game starts up again, and quite frankly, you really just want this damned practice to end already. The atmosphere is so intense, so thick, you could practically cut through it with a knife. Steve scores a point, then Ari does, then Steve, then Ari â itâs almost like theyâre playing a one-on-one match and everyone else on the court is a paid actor.
âYouâre losing your edge, pretty boy,â Ari starts his taunting once more, âDo it. Lose it. Let everyone down, Rogers. Show everyone what aâ
âGODDAMIT, JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP!â
Steve explodes. What happens next happens very quickly. Steve, in a fleeting fit of rage, throws the ball straight at Ariâs face. Hard. Except Ari dodges it just in time. You hardly register what happens after that, and â
THWACK.
The ball hits you right in the face.
Commotion around you. Yelling. Whistles blowing. People talking. Whispers of your name. You think you even hear a snicker from right next to you. And yet you hardly take in any of it, trying your best to catch your breath. Your ears are ringing, your face burning with immediate pain.
Oh god, oh god, oh my god!
âWhat the fuck is wrong with you!?â Ari roars at Steve.
You try and find your voice, try to voice that youâre okay, try to grab for Wandaâs hand but itâs like youâre stunned into place. And truth be told, youâre not okay. The whole right side of your face where the basketball hit you hardest throbs in pain. You can even feel the tears brimming in your eyes. Oh, but you canât cry here, you just canât! But it hurts! Oh, it hurts so bad!
The next thing you know, youâre being scooped up into someoneâs muscular arms.
âAre you okay?â Itâs Ari. You blink several times to clear your fuzzy vision. Were you imagining him? No, his arms feel very solid and familiar around you as he lifts you up, carrying you out of the crowd and to the side of the court.
âIt hurts!â You canât help but whimper, feeling like a baby. A disoriented, helpless baby.
âOh my gosh, is she okay?!â You hear Sharon run up to you two. Shit. Ari wouldnât be caught dead holding you in his arms in front of his girlfriend, would he? Despite your disoriented state, despite all the pain, you brace yourself for him to drop you.
âGo get some ice,â Ari orders her. âThereâs an ice box in the locker room. Go.â
Youâre too preoccupied with your throbbing face to really notice Sharonâs reaction, but she dutifully does what he tells her.
âItâs okay, youâll be okay,â He murmurs, brushing your hair out of your face.
âIâm sorry,â Now you hear Steveâs voice, a scuffle which was him probably pushing past people. You try to straighten up in Ariâs arms so you can look at the blond, but dizziness overtakes you. You can still hear him though, despite the ringing in your ear, âIâm sorry, I didnât mean toââ
âYou stay the fuck away from her,â Ari growls.
âShut the fuck up, I wasnât talking to you.â
âYeah? Well, Iâm talking to you, asshole. Youâve already done enough.â
Ari walks away with you in his arms. Youâre finally able to look over his shoulder as he carries you, and catch one last glimpse of Steve just standing there. Heâs staring at his hand, flexing it in front of him as if he canât believe what heâs just done. But it wasnât his fault, was it?! You canât think straight, and your face throbs with pain if you try to touch it.
âI canât fucking believe him,â Ari fumes, as he walks the two of you into a bathroom off the side of the court. You welcome the privacy, being away from the multiple pairs of eyes that had been ogling you when the basketball had hit your face. He gently sits you down on the sink before grabbing a first aid kit thatâs conveniently in one of the drawers. âI told you he was trouble, didnât I? Now heâs physically attacked you in front of everyone. Heâs a fucking psychopathââ
âAri, it hurts,â you interrupt, your voice all wobbly.
The brunetâs features soften. Heâs got an ointment in one hand, but he uses his other one to brush your cheek, coming up to stand between your dangling legs.
âThisâll numb the pain.â He says, his voice soft like a cloud. And youâve never felt this type of softness from him before. Especially not in the past few weeks whilst heâs been giving you the cold shoulder. He spreads the numbing ointment over and around your eye, and you sigh, feeling a little relief.
âThatâs a good girl,â Ari murmurs, his hand coming to rest on your leg and giving it a squeeze, âHe got you straight in the eye, that dumb fucking prick. Itâs definitely gonna bruise, but youâre doing so good, baby. Youâre being such a brave little girl.â
Oh god, the way he was speaking was giving you butterflies! Why was he doing it? Did he still care about you?!
âWhy are you being so nice?â You blurt out, the pain on your face making you deliriously bold.
Ari snorts, squeezing your thigh, âBaby, I can be nice. You know that.â
Well, heâd been awful these past few weeks. Heâd been awful to you the night of the party, too. And yet⊠You can feel yourself slipping, getting lost in his blue eyes that seem to be sparkling with earnesty, andâ No! No, you werenât going to let yourself go there. Not this time!
âY-You werenât being so nice to Steve tonight.â You accuse, trying to shake off the romantic tension that seems to be creeping up on both of you, trapping you in that bubble of desire that you always seem to find yourself in alone with him.
Ari scoffs. âDonât defend that asshole, not after he gave you a black eye.â
âHe didnât mean to!â
âDidnât I tell you to stay away from him? That he was bad news?â Ariâs hand doesnât leave your bare thigh, and youâre acutely aware of his thumb stroking your skin softly. âNow heâs gone and hurt you just like I knew he would.â
âYou were goading him the whole time, Ari!â
âThat doesnât give him the excuse to physically assault you.â
âThatâs not what it was!â You try to frown, but it makes your eye throb with pain, and you wince instead.
âWell, either way, youâre never gonna see him again after tonight.â Ari declares.
Your jaw drops open, âExcuse me?â
He meets your gaze squarely, the hint of an amused smile touching his lips, âYou heard me. Heâs too volatile, and if you had listened to me, youâd know that.â
âHe only blew up like that because you wouldnât stop insulting him!â
Itâs his turn to frown, âHe blew up like that because thatâs who he is.â
You regard Ari suspiciously, âHow do you know him so well?â
Ari sighs, suddenly devoting all his attention to screwing the cap back on to the ointment bottle. He takes his time, carefully placing the bottle back in the first aid kit before he refocuses on you. You expect him to answer your question, but instead he cups your face (the side that hadnât been hit by a basketball).
âSweetheart, the bottom line is that he hurt you.â Ariâs voice drops a few octaves, his face suddenly so close to yours, so close that you can see his long lashes flutter as he blinks, âI didnât like that.â
You bite your lip, goosebumps running up and down your arms. You feel a sudden sense of dejavu â being in a bathroom with Ari alone like you were all those weeks ago at that party. The bathroom where heâd left you. âWh-Why didnât you like it?â
âYou know why.â He moves even closer, his lips looking so plump and pinkâŠ
âNo. Tell me.â
âBecause I care about you. And Iâm sorry for leaving you alone that night.â
Tenderly, he kisses you. And you donât even fight it, easily melting into it despite everything. Despite how much youâd coached yourself not to fall for him again. His lips just feel so good, so natural, so him. And heâs holding you so gently, almost like youâre made out of glass. Itâs like itâs a different Ari thatâs kissing you now, so different from the man youâd gotten to know, from the man whoâd hurt you and lied to you countless times.
The two of you pull apart, before instinctively pulling back in for another kiss. And you donât know if itâs you or him that initiates the second one, but itâs like thereâs an invisible string between the two of you, keeping you connected no matter how hard you try to run away.
âAri,â you whisper against his lips, âAri, what does this mean?â
He says nothing, continuing to peck at your lips. His hand slips up your skirt, but you quickly grab it to halt him. No, you needed answers this time before you took it any further.
âY-You said you care about me.â
âYeah, I did. I do.â
âAre you going to break up with Sharon?â
Silence.
And just like that, the bubble pops. You crash back down to reality. Your black eye throbs, your heart throbs, and now your headâs throbbing too. Sighing sadly, you push Ari away.
âHey, look, Iâll figure something out.â
You shake your head, âI donât have time for you to figure something out, Ari. Itâs either me or her. Because honestly, Sharon doesnât deserve this and neither do I. And Iâm not going to start sneaking around with you again if thatâs what youâre thinking.â
Ari doesnât say anything, but his eyes look torn. He opens his mouth as if to say something before clamping it shut again and sighing. Running a hand through his mane, he leans forward as if to kiss you again, but you turn your head, not wanting to give in to the temptation a second time.
His silence is all the answer you need. With a heavy heart, you sigh.
âWe need to pull the plug on this â whatever this is.â You say firmly, âand maybe itâs time for me to see other people so I can properly move on from you.â
Immediately, Ariâs eyes narrow, âWhat, like Steve? I already told you heâs dangerous.â
âHe likes me and heâs not afraid to be seen with me in public!â
âHeâs not afraid to physically assault you in public, thatâs for sure.â
Round and round the two of you went, in this never-ending circle of fighting then making up then fighting again. It needed to end. You had to end it.
âSteve asked me out earlier today, and I think Iâm going to go.â You scoot off the sink, feeling a bit shaky on your feet but overall alright enough to walk away.
âNo, youâre fucking not.â Ari blocks your path, looking frustrated beyond belief. âLook, the only reason he even asked you out is because he wants to get back at me.â
Your jaw drops open for the second time in the span of five minutes. Angrily, you push past him, âYouâre a fucking dick, Ari.â
âIâm not saying it to hurt you, Iââ
âNo, just shut up!â You interrupt, âAnother guy asks me out and you canât help but make it about yourself, can you? Because God forbid a guy likes me for me, right? Fuck you.â
He opens his mouth to as if to say something, but the door to the bathroom pushes open at that exact second.
âThere you guys are!â Sharon huffs, looking red and out of breath, with a bag of ice in her hands. âIt took me ages to find the ice box, are you okay?!â
âYeah. Iâm fine.â You answer, but she insists on icing your eye for you. It makes you feel even worse, standing there and allowing her to gently press the ice against your injury. The physical relief is instantaneous, but you feel icky on the inside. Yet again, youâd kissed her boyfriend behind her back. And it was even worse since you and her were kind of friends now.
Ari slips out of the bathroom without another word, and you watch over Sharonâs shoulder as he leaves. As he disappears down the corridor until heâs just a shadow, and only then you allow yourself to let out a long sigh. There. It was done. You and Ari were over now.
Forever.
***
âSorry again for the black eye,â Steve says, his hand pressing against the small of your back as he leads you up the cobblestone pathway to his front door. âI promise I donât usually have to resort to violence to get a girl to go out with me.â
Itâs been a week since the fateful basketball practice game. Steve had texted you that very night, apologising over and over again for throwing the ball at your face. You were forgiving, naturally. It wasnât his fault, and itâs not like he was aiming for you anyways. After that, the conversation had quickly flowed over to other things, and you found Steve easy to talk to over text. It wasnât as intimidating, and he led most of the conversation, telling you how heâd love to take you out that weekend. The two of you had texted all week â and it was a welcome distraction from Ari, anyways.
Now, you giggle, feeling all glowy and special because the day of your date is finally here. Youâre outside, the sun is shining and Steveâs confidently taken your hand in his. In comparison, you canât even remember the last time youâd held hands with Ari â or if youâd ever held hands with Ari for that matter.
âThatâs alright, Stevie. Just as long as you promise not to do it again, I donât think Iâd fare well as a battered and abused wife.â You answer before your eyes widen once youâve realised what youâve said. Had you just referred to yourself as his⊠wife? On your very first date? God⊠What the fuck was wrong with you?
But Steve only smirks, pulling you up the stairs leading to the front door of his house before yanking you into him, taking you by surprise. Your face collides with his hard chest as he kisses the top of your head. Your cheeks immediately go hot â he was so forward sometimes! No. All the time. He was incredibly forward all the time. And you donât think you mind it in the least.
âTrust me, sweetheart. If you were my wife, I wouldnât have allowed you to run around in that slutty little outfit at practice in front of so many feral basketball players.â He says, grabbing his keys from his pocket and going to unlock the door.
You bite your lip, âAre you calling yourself feral?â
His gaze is intense as he looks back at you, but then he chuckles, âBaby girl, with you prancing around in that tiny excuse of a skirt, who wouldnât be feral?â
Your eyes widen and you stare down at the floor again, cheeks forever hot at his way with words. Steve smirks, pulling you inside. You find yourself in a massive foyer. Youâd never seen anything like it, because the front door to your familyâs house back home simply led into a living room. But this place was all marble floors and crystal chandeliers and grand staircases â like a fairytale palace.
Everything leading up to this moment had felt surreal like a fairytale. Steve had picked you up promptly at 4pm, just like he said he would. And heâd checked every box on the imaginary first date checklist in your mind that you didnât even know you had. His hair was all windswept and gorgeous, starting to grow longer down his neck. His face was clean-shaven, blue eyes sparkling as heâd kissed you on the cheek when youâd opened your dorm room door to greet him.
With your hand grasped tightly in his, heâd tugged you to his car. Held the door open for you, helped you inside and heâd even secured your seatbelt for you.
âIâm so excited!â youâd blurted out when heâd got into the driverâs seat. And Steve had smiled, leaned over the console and kissed your forehead, murmuring in agreement. And it had made you swoon, your eyes widening at how forward he was, how comfortable he was with you when this was only the first date.
And then heâd grabbed your chin and looked at you with those intense eyes, âBaby girl, you know what would make this date even better?â
Entranced, youâd asked him: âWhat?â
His features had hardened for a second, and his grip on your chin tightened all of a sudden too, âYou donât mention Levinson tonight. Or ever again. Not when youâre with me. You got that?â
Your jaw wouldâve dropped open had he not been holding your chin so hard. But youâd shaken your head hastily, not wanting to do anything to upset him or ruin your first date, âO-Of course, not, Steve, I wouldnât, Iââ
âIâm serious,â Steve had said softly, and yet he sounded almost threatening, âI hear his name come out of your mouth even once, and Iâll be very angry. Got that?â
âY-Yes, Steve.â
âAnd if I find out youâre dating me just to make him jealous, I wonât be happy. Understood?â
You had swallowed harshly. Was that what you were doing? Oh, you didnât even know! But you decided to focus entirely on Steve after that.
âI understand.â
And then heâd changed, letting go of your chin and shooting you a winning smile. His demeanour relaxed once more as heâd started up the car, and all the tension in the air dissipated. He began complimenting your dress, your hair, telling you how beautiful you looked and how much fun the two of you would have tonight. His warm hand patted your bare leg, and then it stayed there for the duration of the car ride, making you relax, making it seem as if that moment had never happened.
And thatâs how youâd ended up at Steveâs house. And sure, it was a bit strange that you were at Steveâs house for your first date with him. But heâd said something about checking on a few things at home before he took you out. It was a casual date anyways, so you didnât mind. Plus, he looked so handsome and earnest in his pressed white shirt and navy jacket, how could you ever say no?
âThis place is huge,â you canât help but marvel.
Steve shrugs, âI guess. Itâs pretty empty nowadays â my parents are both surgeons and they travel overseas a lot to perform big surgeries. And I live on campus at the frat house, so itâs just my little sister here now. I like to check in on her every now and then.â
Oh, he was so sweet! Nothing like Ari, who was looking worse and worse by comparison. Ari, who never took you out on dates. Who only ever wanted you for sex. Whose love language seemed to only consist of lying to you, and the only times he was ever sweet was when he was manipulating youâŠ
And yet⊠despite everything, your mind flits back to the way heâd carried you off when Steveâs ball had hit your face. How tenderly he had stroked you and tended to you. How sweetly heâd kissed you, making the butterflies in your tummy grow alive with excitement and nerves.
Stop, stop, stop thinking about Ari!
âSo, where are we going for our date?â You ask brightly, letting Steve grab your hand again as he pulls you through a large, carpeted corridor.
âOh, youâll see,â Steve says vaguely, âBut I thought we could hang here for a while. Do you want anything to drink?â
He leads you into a modern yet grandiose looking front room, with luxurious leather couches and a fireplace and an ornate coffee table that looks more expensive than your whole house back home. Thereâs also an open plan kitchen, also modern and minimalistic, and Steve drags you over, pulling out a chair and pushing you down by the shoulders to sit at the marble island.
âWater is fine.â You answer politely, not wanting to ruin your appetite before the date itself had even begun. Again, you start to wonder what he has planned for you two⊠A cute cafĂ©? A posh restaurant? An aesthetically pleasing diner, even? Your heart somersaults excitedly at all of the potential prospects. The closest youâd ever gotten to a date before this was Ari ordering Nobu to your dorm room and the two of you eating on your bed while you forced him to watch Gossip Girl with you on your laptopâŠ
âWhatâre you smiling about, gorgeous?â Steve interrupts your thoughts.
âHuh? Nothing.â
He shakes his head and gives you another one of his charming, lop-sided smiles, âYou sure you want just water? Weâve got some good bottles of wine down in the cellar. Or I could mix you a drink, although Iâll warn you now, Iâve been told Iâm a bit too generous when it comes to measuring out the alcohol.â
Your eyes widen â was it a thing to drink before a first date? You didnât know, since youâd never been on a date in your whole entire life. Would you look dumb if you just stuck to water? Could he tell how much you were currently overthinking things? Itâs not like you were against drinking â itâs just that you had done so much of it on the night of the party that you were looking to steer clear. Plus, you wanted to be completely sober for your first date, andâ
Steve chuckles, âOkay then, water it is.â He tosses you a bottle of still water and you catch it gratefully. Unscrewing the cap and taking a swig, you watch him as he moves around the kitchen island, settling down on the seat next to you before grabbing your chair and pulling it over till youâre very close to him.
âIâm really happy you said yes to this date, baby girl,â he says in that intense way that he speaks, all up close and his blue eyes sparkling like a crystalline lake where the sunâs hitting it just right. It reminds you of Ariâs eyes, actually â and it was crazy how both Steve and Ari had the exact same shade of blue eyes.
âOh, uh, Iâm happy too,â you say shyly, gulping as he pulls you even closer, his hand coming to rest on your bare thigh. He strokes your skin, leaving goosebumps in his wake before he fingers the lacy hem of your sundress.
âAnd I love this little dress youâre wearing,â His voice lowers, and your lips part as you watch his Adamâs Apple bob as he swallows, his face so close to yours. âI love that you wore it for me today, sweetheart. You did wear it for me, didnât you? Just me?â His grip on your leg hardens slightly, but youâre too busy focusing on his long lashes to even notice.
âY-Yes, I thought it would look cute for our date,â you breathe, acutely aware of his fingers playing with the soft material of your dress, lifting it up slowly.
Steve smirks, âYou do look cute, in your pretty pink dress that you wore just for me.â He grabs the back of your neck and pulls you forward, his eyes hooded and lips hovering over yours. Just an inch away, and your heartrate quickens, and you move closerâ
âSteve! I thought I heard you come in!â
You and Steve spring apart when a girl appears in the doorway of the kitchen. But her wide smile is immediately replaced by a look of embarrassment and even fear the moment she sees that youâre there too.
âO-Oh, Iâm sorry, I didnât realise you had companyâŠâ she stutters, backing out of the room.
âKira, wait, donât go,â Steve jumps up and grabs the girlâs arm before she can escape, âCome meet my date. Babe, this is my little sister, Kira.â
For some reason, when Steve had mentioned his little sister living here earlier, youâd automatically just assumed there was a pre-teen running around somewhere in the house with a live-in nanny chasing after her. But Kira looks about the same age as you, and she also looks somewhat petrified. Standing there next to her brother, wringing her hands together and barely being able to make eye contact with you.
âHey, Kira, itâs nice to meet you.â You say pleasantly, and she returns your smile awkwardly for a nanosecond immediately looking back down at her feet, as if she felt embarrassed in her own skin. Sheâs pretty, with pale skin and blonde hair just like her brother. But Steve was big, assured and confident, whilst Kira looks extremely shy, with a slight build â much smaller than him. Her hair is scraped back in a tight plait down her back, and her glasses were slightly crooked on her face.
âHey,â she whispers softly, and she looks at you for a second or two, but seems to grow alarmed when you meet her gaze. Quickly, she looks to the floor again, her fingers fidgeting nervously.
âSheâs the girl Iâve been telling you about,â Steve says to his sister.
Your heart swells, and you beam up at him, âYouâve been talking about me?â
He gives you a wink, âOf course. Youâre practically a household name, sweetheart.â
Kira clears her throat, backing away slowly, âI-I should go, uh, it was nice meeting youââ
âStay, Kira, please!â Steve says, âWeâre leaving in a second anyways, then youâll have the whole place to yourself.â
The poor girl looked extremely awkward, and a part of you feels sorry for her as she stands there quietly, with Steve beaming next to her.
âI like your sweatshirt.â You say after a few seconds of silence.
âTh-Thank you,â Kira answers, glancing down at her front before shooting you another quick, tight-lipped smile. âI â uh â I thrifted it a while back.â
âI love thrifting! Iâm new to the city though, so I donât know any of the good places.â
âKira could show you around!â Steve suggests. You nod politely. Kira smiles too, but you can tell she still looks mortified. You try not to make it obvious, but youâve noticed how her hands are shaking as she keeps them clasped in front of her. A part of you can relate â you still get shy and awkward around people you donât know, too.
Kira starts backing out of the room again, âI â uh â Iâm so sorry, I have a report, Iââ
âNo, please! Youâre good!â you say, âIt was really nice to meet you!â
âYou too,â she answers, before leaving the room and closing the door gently behind her.
A few beats pass before you speak.
âShe seems really nice,â you say, taking another sip of water.
Steve nods, looking distracted as he watches after his sister through the glass pane of the door. His smile from earlier is still plastered on his face, but it no longer seems to reach his eyes. The atmosphere, the air itself, suddenly feels heavier, different in a way, and you canât quite pinpoint what it is.
When Steve finally looks at you, heâs got a dark look suddenly shrouding his face. But he smiles nonetheless, grabs your hand and pulls you up to your feet, âYeah, sheâs great. I know she didnât talk much but thatâs only because she tends to get really anxious around people she doesnât know. But I promise you, sheâs a good kid.â
âI totally understand.â
âNo really, if you get to know her, sheâs a lot of fun. She doesnât really go out muchâŠâ His voice trails off, but you feel him squeeze your hand tighter as he leads you out of the kitchen and into a spacious corridor.
âI get that,â you answer honestly, wondering if you should say anymore or whether it would be overstepping. But Steve still looks distracted, and you want to show him that youâre present and attentive and interested in what heâs telling you â which you are. âHonestly, I get it. Does she have a good group of friends at her college? I know that friends can beââ
âShe went to your college.â Steve interrupts you.
Your eyebrows shoot up in surprise, âShe goes to St. Andrewsâ? No way, thatâs so cool! I donât think Iâve seen her around but thatâs probably âcause the campus is so big, but wow, Iââ
âNo, she used to go there,â he says, stopping in front of what you assume is his bedroom door, and turning to look at you with a peculiar expression. Steve, always so forward with his emotions, but right now his blue eyes gaze at you with a look thatâs almost unreadable, and his words come out blunt. âShe doesnât go there anymore. She dropped out.â
Oh.
You can feel his hand clutching yours very tightly, his grip almost crushing. And yet, despite the physical contact, he seems far away. Like heâs lost in his own world, like thereâs something brewing inside his head but you canât seem to read him and figure out what exactly it is. His full lips are pressed into a thin line, and his other hand grips the doorknob tightly for a handful of long seconds before twisting it and pulling you into his room.
âSteve, IâŠâ
He shuts the door before turning to face you once more, and heâs still got that stormy, distant look on his face, a look youâve never seen before now. Itâs almost eery, how quickly his demeanour had changed. Just a minute ago, he was being charming as hellâŠ
But then his face suddenly relaxes, lips twitching into that lop-sided smile of his. The familiarity of it relaxes you too, makes you not fully notice how it still doesnât reach his eyes as he tugs you into him.
âWhy did she drop out?â You breathe.
Steveâs face is so close to yours, his blue eyes blazing and his jaw tensing and untensing almost rhythmically. He sucks in a breath, his charming smile freezing on his face as he looks somewhere beyond your shoulder.
âShe just didnât have the best time there,â his eyes darken, the grip he has on your hand not relenting in the slightest, âThere were some people â one person â who justâŠâ He trails off once more, before his gaze suddenly snaps back to you, and he clears his throat, âIt was just one of those things where she decided it was best for her to drop out. That was last year, and sheâs taking some courses online now.â
âIâm sorry, Steve. That mustâve been so tough for her,â you exhale, unaware that youâd been holding your breath in.
He nods, and you watch him closely. His eyes twitch before he smiles once more, pulling you towards his bed, âYeah, it was.â
He backs up till heâs sitting on the edge of his bed, pulling you on top of him till youâre straddling his lap. Automatically, your arms wind around his neck, and you donât think youâve seen a more intense-looking pair of eyes than his in that moment. Neither of you say anything, but his fingers dance up and down your bare legs. Slip up your hips and give them a squeeze, and you bite your lip.
He kisses up your neck, the first few being feather-light before they grow more frenzied. His hand cups your ass through the material of your dress, giving it a squeeze that has you breathing hard.
Wait, what was happening? Just a second ago he was opening up to you about his sister, and now�
âSteve, whatâre you â ah â wh-what about our dateâ?â
Heâs got a glint in his eye when he looks up from kissing your skin, âI didnât forget about our date, sweetheart. I just thought weâd take a little detour first.â
Oh. Okay. Itâs easy to grow distracted when his kisses on your skin are making the butterflies spiral and flutter in your tummy. You want to melt into his arms, let him kiss you all the rest of the day and all night too. Let him take you on this amazing first date that heâd painstakingly planned for you, and in doing so erase the thought and touch of Ari from your mind completely, till your body forgets about the man youâve been nonstop thinking about for the past month. Maybe this was it, maybe it was time for something new. Someone new. All Ari ever wanted from you was sex, but Steve? Steve was different.
âI wasnât â ah, Steve â I have to say, I wasnât planning on kissing you until the end of the date, definitely not before it,â you giggle, pushing at his chest to try and get a word in as he tugs the strap of your dress aside and trails his lips down your shoulder blade.
You feel him smirk against your skin, âDonât worry, baby girl. Iâll be a gentleman and save our first kiss for the end of the date, but that doesnât mean we canât do other things right now.â
You feel your core thrum with excitement at his words, and you look up to beam at him except heâs too busy pushing your dress down to meet your gaze. The sun shines through the open window, making his hair glisten golden, and you wonder if the sunlight makes his eyes glimmer like that too. But heâs not looking at you.
âSteve,â you push at his shoulder, âSteve, wonât we be late for our date?â
His fingers find the zipper at the back of your dress, and with ease he unfastens it before looking at you, and his eyes are so dark, âWhoâs planning this date, sweetheart? Me or you?â
You giggle nervously, âYou, of course. Butââ
âWhoâs in charge?â
âY-You, butââ
âNo, no buts. Weâll go when I say weâre ready to,â he runs his hand down your bare back through the gap created by the open zipper of your dress, his calloused fingers running over your sensitive skin and making your heart skip a beat. His tone is distracted, and yet thereâs a finality and authority to it that makes you listen to him.
Before you can think of a response, he grabs you by the waist and pushes you down on the bed before climbing on top of you. You gulp, a huge part of you so turned on by how in control he is, and yet itâs such a contrast from the easy-going Steveâs youâve gotten to know today. But at the same time, you get a strange sense of dejavu, as if youâve been in this situation before with him⊠But that wasnât possible at all, was it?
âStevie, please, my hair and makeupâs gonna get ruined!â You laugh, trying to bat him away as he kisses down your chest, pulling your dress down with him, âI worked really hard on it, you know!â
You wait for him to quip back, say something funny or charming to reassure you and make you feel all warm inside. Like how heâs been doing today ever since he picked you up from your dorm room. But he doesnât reply at all, too focused on tugging your dress off. Itâs crazy, almost as if his personality had completely switched since heâd dragged you from the kitchen into his room. He seems distracted, frenzied, unresponsive almost as he licks and nips at your chest.
And a large part of you wants to give in. You know your panties are soaked through, and it would be so easy to just relinquish control completely, till you did that thing where you went all dumb and submissive. But then⊠what about the date? Youâd been looking forward to finally going out with a guy, really going out instead of just hanging out in a bedroomâŠ
Was that all you were worth?
âSteve! Stevie, câmon. I donât wanna wrinkle my dress before our dateââ
âThen just take it off,â he yanks at the fabric hard, and you hear a rip.
âMy dress!â You cry, but he pins your arms above your head with just one of his hands before you can survey the damage. His face is hovering over yours, so close that his nose brushes against yours, and yet despite the closeness, his eyes look so far away. So dark and far away, even the sunlight from the window doesnât seem to reach into them.
âSteve, please slow downââ
âCâmon, baby girl. The innocent act is cute but everyone knows youâre not exactly a prudeâŠâ
âHuh?â
His kiss swallows you whole, and his lips are so soft, so warm. They mould perfectly against yours, and you momentarily forget everything, your arms winding around his neck as you kiss him back. For a few seconds, itâs magical. Itâs different from kissing Ari â but not at all in a bad way. When Ari kissed you, it felt like the whole world stopped moving, like everything came to a halt except him and you. But with Steve, it felt like the world was spinning doubly fast, making you feel light and heady and excited, like you were in the midst of a whirlpool, like Steve was consuming you whole.
But only for those precious few seconds, before he bites down on your lower lip, and you feel a jolt of pain. He ruts against you, his movements rough and animalistic. You make a sound of protest, but itâs drowned out by another loud rip, and you feel your dress coming further undone.
âHey, stop!â you manage to pull away, the metallic taste of blood invading your tastebuds. You wipe your mouth, heart beating faster than a drum. You look down at your dress â the front of which has been ripped down to your waist, and a horrified feeling spreads through your chest. âM-My dressâŠâ
âItâs not a big deal,â he tries pressing his lips against yours again but you dodge him.
âIt is! H-How am I gonna go on our date if my dress is all ripped?â
Steve blinks, âWeâll figure something out, sweetheart.â
âNo, wait! Please⊠I was looking forward toââ
He cuts you off with another rough kiss, his hands spreading the tear of your dress to expose your bra. He palms your breasts through the lacy material, and you donât know whether to give in to the pleasure or address the sinking feeling in your chest. Youâd gotten all dressed up for him, for this date! And now?
âS-Steve, can we please just stop for a second â ah!â
He pulls the cups of your bra down, his mouth latching on to your nipple. And oh, it feels so good! And yetâŠ
You push him off you, âPlease, Steve. Slow it down!â
Steve blinks, his eyes looking so deeply stormy, so dark and far away despite the fact that heâs making direct eye contact with you, âThatâs strange.â
âWhatâs strange?â
He grips your chin roughly with his thumb and forefinger, âPlaying hard to get isnât really your strong suit, so I donât get why youâre doing it now. You didnât do it the night we met.â
Heâs back on you once more in a flash, when his words havenât even properly sunk in. His lips brush past your collarbone, kissing back down to your bare breasts. He circles your nipple with his tongue, grabbing your hands and squeezing them before bringing them up to his abs. Your breath hitches, the feel of his mouth on you⊠and his body, so hard and masculine and big, itâs got your mind clouding over. You almost forget what heâs just saidâŠ
You force out another giggle, although you donât much feel like laughing anymore. âWhat do you mean? Look â ah! â please just stop for a second ââ
âThatâs not what you were saying the night of the party,â Steve mutters against your neck, pushing your hand past his waistband, his grip too strong for you to pull away from. âYou clearly didnât have a problem spreading your legs for me then.â
Your blood runs cold. What did he mean by that?
He gets rougher, biting and sucking on your nipples, manhandling your body till heâs got your legs spread and heâs slotted himself between them. Lewdly, he thrusts his clothed dick against your panty-covered pussy, and you suppress the need to moan. Your entire bodyâs screaming for you to just lay still and let him do what heâs going, because it feels so fucking good. And yet, once more, your palms press hard against his chest to push him off.
âSteve, stop, I donât thinkââ
âShut up.â He bites down on your nipple harshly and you gasp, continuing to push at him. How had his whole demeanour changed in such a short amount of time? Where was the sweetness and the charm heâd shown you less than half an hour ago?
âWh-What, Steve, Iââ
âYou heard me. Donât act like a nun all of a sudden, not when you let Levinson fuck you in the middle of a party in front of the whole fucking world.â
Your heart drops all the way down to the pit of your stomach. Your blood freezes up, making you go deathly still. You feel like thereâs poison in your veins all of a sudden, turning all your insides into black tar. Your hands stop pushing him, dropping to your sides like youâve forgotten how to use them.
Steve stops too, blinking suddenly as if heâs just woken up, as if heâs just been doused by a bucket of ice water.
âFuck. Sorry. I didnât mean to say thatââ
âGet off me.â Your voice sounds oddly thick, and you feel the sudden urge to cry.
Steve doesnât budge, still on his knees on top of you. He frowns, running a hand through his hair. âLook, I said Iâm sorry.â
âGet off me. Get off me. GET OFF ME!â
He does, regarding you carefully as he stands up beside the bed. Watching as you scramble to your feet, feeling disoriented, confused, hurt, used, upset â oh, and so much else! So he knew about what youâd done with Ari the night of the party⊠But for him to use it against you? After being so charming and perfect all day? You donât know what to think anymore as your mind feels like itâs moving a hundred miles per second.
Steve sighs, reaching for your hand, âBaby, I didnât meanââ
âIâm going home.â You say quietly, fixing your bra back into place before reaching behind you to zip your dress back up. Praying to God that you donât struggle with the zipper just this once. And by some miracle, you get it zipped up in one go. Not that it does anything to rectify the fact that the front of your dress is torn down the top. Another wave of tears threatens to spill from within you.
Steveâs eyes narrow, âHome? Why?â
You stare at him incredulously before quietly making a beeline towards the doorway, holding the front of your dress together almost pitifully. You need to get out of here, get out before he sees you burst into tears.
Steve grabs your arm before you can get to the door.
âLook, letâs just go on our date. We can talk it out, I just said I didnât mean to say that.â
You shake your head, âI just want to go home.â
His eyes flash dangerously, and you find your heart beating faster than normal as you shrink back, trying to tug out of his grip but to no avail.
âI fucking apologised.â He says sharply, âIâm taking you out now, so stop trying to leave.â
âYou never wanted to go on a date with me.â You say shakily, tears welling in your eyes. And thatâs when you realise it, like itâs just dawned on you that all of this⊠him asking you out, picking you up in his car, acting all sweet, introducing you to his sister⊠All of it was just so he could get you into his bed.
All men were the same. Ari, Steve, all of themâŠ
âDonât put words in my mouth. I do want to take you out, so letâs just go.â
Steve tugs hard on your arm, making you cry out in protest. His eye twitches, and he reaches down towards your face as if to tuck your hair behind your ear. But you canât help but flinch, and then another realisation slowly dawns on you. Youâre afraid of him.
You tug with all your might, freeing your arm from his and shaking your head profusely.
âI-I-I need to go home. Just, please. I need toââ
âGODDAMIT, I SAID I WANTED TO TAKE YOU ON THE GODDAMNED DATE.â
Thereâs a loud crack. You duck in fright, hands covering your face. When you peak through the gaps of your fingers, you see Steve breathing hard. His fist, driven straight through the wall, has created a massive hole and several cracks in the plaster.
Silence. Except for the sound of your heartbeat. You donât even think you breathe; youâre so paralysed with fear. You watch Steve as he slowly removes his hand from the wall, as he examines his fist with an unreadable expression on his face. He flexes his fingers, and his whole hand looks red â as does his face. His jaw is tensed, almost to the point where itâs vibrating.
And then he looks at you.
âLook, Iâm sorry. Sometimes IâŠâ his voice trails off, and he shakes his head as if trying to clear his own thoughts. âLetâs just go on the date, okay? Just let me explainââ
âP-Please, just let me go home,â you beg, and it comes out as a broken, scared whisper. You canât take your eyes off his fist, or the gaping hole in the wall. Youâd seen men punch through walls in movies, but never in real life. Your heart still hadnât calmed down, and now youâre even more sure you have to leave.
âGoddamit, why canât you just listen to me?â He takes a step towards you and you flinch, cowering back once more as if heâs going to hit you next. Instead, he freezes, taking in your expression. He swallows, blinking several times. âLook, letâs just calm down. This doesnât have to ruin the date, you can borrow something from Kira and Iâll buy you a new dress, alright?â
âI c-canât, IâŠâ you donât even know what to say to him. What could you say? That you felt unsafe? Afraid? Not to mention, betrayed and used too? How could he possibly expect you to forget all that and go out with him?
You take a deep breath, tightly holding the top of your torn dress together with one hand. You dart towards the door, hoping to slip out without him catching you. But heâs too quick, and once again takes hold of your elbow just as you exit his room and come out into the hallway. This time, you canât help the tears as they spill down your face.
Steveâs blue eyes flash once more, âWhere the fuck do you think youâre going? Didnât you hear what I just said? Borrow something fromââ
âLet me go, Steve,â you tug once, before growing more panicked and tugging again, harder. âLet me go, let me go, let me goââ
âIâm sorry you feel scared, I didnât mean for that. Sometimes I get like that â just stop fucking struggling for one second, okay?â
âSteve, let her go.â
Both of you look up to see Kira standing in her doorway across the hall. Steveâs grip loosens momentarily, and you take his distraction as your opening. You break free, hastily making your way down the stairs. You donât dare look back, focusing on the steps beneath you because the last thing you want to do right now is fall.
âLet her go, Steve. Just⊠Just sit down.â You can hear Kira say.
âNo, she canât just leave. I need toââ
âPlease, Steve. Youâre freaking out again. Iâm gonna have to call mom and dad if you donât sit down right now.â
And thatâs all you hear, both Steve and Kiraâs voices fading as you descend further down the stairs. Through the kitchen, your shoes pitter-pattering over the marble floors of the lobby. The ornate front door is heavy as you pull it open, escaping to the fresh air outside. You donât dare look back, too scared to see if Steve has followed you or not.
Youâre halfway down the porch steps when you hear the door open behind you. Youâre about to break into a run lest Steve grab you again, whenâ
âH-Here.â
Itâs Kira. You turn around and she throws you something soft. A pink hoodie. Despite your frazzled, haphazard, frightened state, you canât help but feel gratitude. You quickly put it on, and it smells sweet â like candy perfume. It solves the problem of your ripped dress, and yet it does nothing to calm your frenzied heart, or stop the tears that drip past your cheeks. You back away from the town-house quickly.
âThank you, Kira. I need to go, I need toââ
She nods as if she understands, âW-Will you be okay?â
You bite your lip to stop from bursting into full on tears. All you can think right now is that you need to get away. Far, far away. Somewhere quiet where you can think, where you can straighten your thoughts out, somewhere where youâre alone. Away from Steve, away from Ari, away from boys like them, away from everyone.
You leave, hoping sheâll understand. After all, sheâd helped you â and it wasnât her fault that her brother had been so⊠soâŠ
Oh, you donât even know whatâs just happened! Your speed walk turns into a slow jog before you all but break into a run, only slowing down once youâre off his street. How had he just said all those things to you? How had he known about Ari fucking you at the party? And what did Steve mean by you spreading your legs for him the night youâd met him?
He thinks youâre a slut, you realise. All he ever wanted from you was sex, and you were stupid, stupid, stupid to think this first date was going to be something special. Or anything at all apart from sex.
You feel like crying, screaming, sobbing, pulling your hair out. But you canât do that here, not while youâre on some random street so close to Steveâs house. Instead, you take a few deep breaths to gather yourself. Wait until you get home, wait until youâre alone in your room, you coach yourself, desperately holding on to the single thread thatâs keeping you together right now. When inside you feel all torn â heâd torn up your heart just like heâd torn up your dress.
You call an Uber, luckily only having to wait a minute or two before it arrives. The ride home is silent, you just stare out the window and try your hardest to keep your tears at bay. Oh, why couldnât you be like those other girls? The ones who could easily find a boyfriend who loved them for them? Boyfriends who liked to hang out, go on dates, cook together? Why did no boy ever want that with you? Were you only ever worth their time when you spread your legs for them?
You feel numb by the time you reach your dorm building. It feels like youâre wading through cement as you forlornly walk inside, not even noticing the familiar car parked outside. You fish your keys out of your purse only to find your door already unlocked. You swing it open, ready to just burst into tears and sob into your pillow andâ
âI broke up with her.â
Ari is sitting on the edge of your bed â youâd forgotten he still had a key to your dorm â with a bouquet of pink roses his hand. Pale pink, delicate, tied together with a pink satin ribbon. But you didnât care, not anymore.
He stands up as you walk in, slowly shutting the door behind you. You hardly register him, your mind still racing with thoughts of: Steve used you; he didnât really want you. No man could ever really want you. They all just want one thing. They all justâ
âI broke up with Sharon,â Ari repeats. âItâs over between me and her. I told her I wanted to be with someone else.â
You still donât say anything. He may as well be speaking in gibberish.
âGo away,â you say, but it barely comes out as a whisper.
Ari grabs you by the shoulders, his blue eyes sparkling. And he looks so devastatingly handsome, his hair brushed back, wearing a crisp white button-up as if heâs gotten ready just to tell you all this. âYou were right, I shouldâve done it a long time ago. But who cares, we can be together now.â
âGo away.â
âI told you Iâd make you my girlfriend, didnât I?â He says cockily, thrusting the pink roses into your hands. And yet the bouquet feels like nothing, like youâre holding on to air. Ari doesnât seem to notice your lack of enthusiasm as he continues, âAnd now we can do all that shit you always told me you wanted to do. Iâll take you out somewhere nice, in fact we can go right now, we canââ
âGo away.â You say it much louder this time.
He hears you, his brows etching upwards in a frown as he regards you almost suspiciously. As he looks at you, really looks at you, slowly drinking in your shrunken demeanour, your dishevelled hair, the numb look on your face, the dried tears on your cheeks, how your eyes donât quite meet his.
He squeezes your shoulders before his hands freeze, and you look up to see him staring at the hoodie youâre wearing. You see a flicker in his eyes, but itâs so fleeting itâs almost like you imagined it. He inhales deeply.
âWhere did you get this?â He asks, before he grows distracted when his gaze flits over to your dress. Your poor, torn dress. His frown deepens, slowly turning into a snarl, âWho the fuck did this to you?â
You shrug out of his hold, feeling like youâre a million miles away, âJust go away.â
Ariâs lips press into a thin line, his jaw tensed up as he surveys you carefully. His hold on your shoulders never loosens.
âHe did this to you, didnât he?â
âGo away.â You feel like a broken record.
âIâll fucking kill him,â Ariâs features harden like stone, his fists curling at his sides as he surveys you. âI knew this would⊠Fuck, I canât fucking believeââ
âDIDNâT YOU HEAR ME!? I SAID GO AWAY!â
You erupt like a fucking volcano, tears flowing freely down your cheeks as if you canât hold them in anymore. But you feel more rage than sadness: rage at him, at Steve, at yourself. You throw the bouquet of pink roses at his chest. Hard. They bounce off him at fall to the ground in a dejected heap. The look of seething anger on Ariâs face is replaced with one of shock, and then concern. But was it even real? Was it ever real when it came to you?
âJust get out of here, Ari!â
âHeâs a piece of shit, and Iâll fucking kill him, alright? I promise heâll never hurt you again.â Ari says it slowly, trying to step closer to you but you immediately push him back. One shove turns into two before you lose it, your tiny fists landing on his chest over and over again.
âI DONâT CARE, OKAY!? I DONâT CARE WHAT YOU DO JUST GET OUT OF MY FUCKING ROOM!â
You scream it at the top of your lungs. Youâre pretty sure everyone in the building heard you, but you donât care. You donât care about anything anymore. All you want to do is be left alone.
âHey, hey, stop. Calm down.â Ari grabs your fists in his hands but all you feel is trapped. Like you did back in Steveâs bedroom. Like Ariâs about to administer his sweet manipulations once more so that you end up in bed with him. It was all you were good for after all, wasnât it? You jerk away from him, shaking your head fiercely.
âGET OUT, GET OUT, GET OUT!â
âWhat the fuck did he do to you?â Ari looks like heâs at a loss, and yet at the same time he looks livid, âHey look, youâre okay now. He canât hurt you anymore, youâre okay. Just calm downââ
âGet out!â
You scream it over and over again, till your throat feels hoarse and yet you still donât stop. You just want him out, want him gone. You push at him again, and then again, and heâs so strong and solid that he doesnât even budge, and this makes you even more upset. Heâs looking at you like youâre crazy, but thereâs also a softness in his eyes but you donât know if itâs real or if you even want it to be real anymore.
âBaby, youâre okay. Just calm down, youâre safe now, I wonât let him hurt you again.â
He sounds so soft, so kind, so unlike himself. Heâs acting, you think to yourself. Acting just like how Steve was acting. He doesnât really care about you. Neither of them do. Youâre the idiot. Youâre the fool. Youâre the slut.
âGET AWAY FROM ME OR IâLL FUCKING SCREAM!â
Ari is the most stubborn man youâve ever met, and he never takes orders from you, that much you know. And yet, by some miracle, he backs off. Maybe he sees how broken you look, how thereâs nothing he could really do in this moment that wouldnât just make you angrier, and push him away even more. You also believe thereâs a large part of him that wants to genuinely kill Steve â for whatever reason â probably pride â and yet, you donât care.
And so he does leave, but not before promising once more that he was going to murder Steve Rogers. He says some other things too, but youâre too distraught to even take them in. He tries to touch you again, but you bat him off, screaming even louder. Finally, he just leaves, an unreadable look on his face and his hands still curled into fists, undoubtedly going to find Steve.
And thatâs when you collapse to the floor, the tears uncontrollably rolling down your cheeks as you cry and cry and cry. You grab the pink roses, and in a fit of uncontrollable rage, you rip them apart. Rip flower from stem, petal from petal, throwing them on the floor with such vitriolic rage and sadness all rolled into one.
Ripped flowers. Ripped dress. Ripped heart.

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I want you guys to know that I literally don't even know if I like this. I do but I also don't... Basically I'm super insecure about it. Nevertheless, please do tell me what you think!!!! ANY SHOCKS?? ANY SURPRISES?!?! OMFGGGG.
I prepared a few questions, although you guys don't have to answer them!! These are just for fun hehehe.
So... whose team are you now on? Team Ari or Team Steve? Hehe.
Why did Steve's mood suddenly change during their date???
IS WANDA A GOOD FRIEND?!?!?!
Any ideas NOW on why Steve and Ari hate each other?? What could it have to do with... I wonder...
ANYWAYS thank you guys so so much for reading! I love you all so so much, please reblog and give me feedback as I live for that and sajdjag IDEK ENJOY ENJOY ENJOY
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