cloudyablek - Kirara
cloudyablek
Kirara

Yo welcome to my blog. Art background was obviously made by me, honestly i should start drawing digitally but nah, later.

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cloudyablek
1 year ago

FUCK YES, FINALLY SOMEONE SAID IT

lets not forget this important detail:

The ICJ ruled that some of the actions of Israel meet the determinations to qualify as genocide committed against Palestinians

THE ICJ RULED THAT ISRAEL IS COMMITTING GENOCIDE

This is very important to keep in mind. Now the whole world can hear it plainly:

Anyone who continues to support or defend or fund or "stand with" israel is complicit in genocide.

as upsetting as it is that ceasefire was not called, this fact is historic and vital to remember

cloudyablek
1 year ago

My goodness

Website

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cloudyablek
1 year ago
Title card reading: [Storyboarding Basics. Brought to you by NU Animation Club, March 23 2023]. There is a chibi drawing of Feeb drawing on a CINTIQ
Types of shots: Distance from the camera  Close shot: intimacy, emphasis on charater emotion. Example is a close up shot of Gandalf’s face from Fellowship of the Ring.  Long shot: grandiose, emphasis on location. Example is a long shot of Legolas, Gimli, and Aragorn arriving at Rohan, visible on a hill in the distance, from the Two Towers.  Note: never start with a close shot. Start with as much location as possible to set the stage for your audience
Rule of thirds: Divide the screen into thirds horizontally and vertically. Try and keep focal points (like eyes) where the lines intersect!  Incorrect example shows Araluna from Archmage Ascending with her eyes below the top third horizontal line.  Correct example shows Araluna from Archmage Ascending with her eyes on the top third horizontal line.
Don’t cut characters off: make sure not to cut off a shot at the characters’ joints. Be especially careful of knees, elbows, hips.  Incorrect example shows a shot of Power and Denji posing for the camera. The left side of the frame cuts off at Power’s wrist. The bottom of the frame cuts off at Denji’s ankles.   Correct example shows a shot of Power and Denji posing for the camera. The left side of the frame cuts off at Power’s forearm. The bottom of the frame cuts off at Denji’s calves.
What is “shorthand”?  Shorthand: a very simplified art style for storybordd that prioritized shape  Do: include shape, size, expression  Do not: include detail  Example is an image of Ryuk from Death Note besides a shorthand drawing of him to scale.  These are NOT illustrations / lineart, they are GUIDES!
Perspective & Gridlines: It is NECESSARY to include gridlines to make your perspective clear for the background artist.   An incorrect example shows Araluna falling on a blank background.  Three correct examples show the same image with gridlines in the background. One shows the gridline as a flat ground. The other shows the gridlone a slanted background in fish eye perspective. The last shows the gridline as a receding wall parallel to the character.
Perspective cheat code: No matter how close characters* are to the camera, the horizontal line will always cross them at the same part of their body.  * must be the same height  Incorrect example shows the horizon line cross Dokja Kim at his shoulders and Junghyeok Yoo, who is in the background, at his knees.  Correct example shows the horizon line cross Dokja Kim and Junghyeok Yoo, who is in the background, at their shoulders.
Perspective tip! Try to avoid having the horizon line run through the middle of the screen.  Raising or lowering the the horizon gives your shots a cinematic feel.  Incorrect shot of Riza Hawkeye running in a forest has the horizon line crossing the center of the frame.   Incorrect shot of Riza Hawkeye running in a forest has the horizon line crossing close to the top of the frame.   Incorrect shot of Riza Hawkeye running in a forest has the horizon line crossing close to the bottom of the frame.

a couple snippets from a presentation i gave at school this past week on storyboarding!!

‼️DISCLAIMER: I am still a student and have only worked on student and indie projects! This is just stuff that I personally find helpful as an amateur, so feel free to take it with a grain of salt!

Happy boarding, friends! ✍️💕


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cloudyablek
1 year ago

What to boycott NOW to help stop Israel’s unfolding genocide of Palestinians in Gaza

What to boycott NOW to help stop Israel’s unfolding genocide of Palestinians in Gaza
BDS Movement
We call on our supporters to strengthen our targeted boycott and divestment campaigns to maximize our impact!

Reminder that boycotting DOES work, there is historic proof! Don't let anyone discourage you otherwise!

The BDS movement uses the historically successful method of targeted boycotts inspired by the South African anti-apartheid movement, the US Civil Rights movement, the Indian anti-colonial struggle, among others worldwide.

We must strategically focus on a relatively smaller number of carefully selected companies and products for maximum impact. Companies that play a clear and direct role in Israel’s crimes and where there is real potential for winning, as was the case with, among others, G4S, Veolia, Orange, Ben & Jerry’s and Pillsbury. Compelling such huge, complicit companies, through strategic and context-sensitive boycott and divestment campaigns, to end their complicity in Israeli apartheid and war crimes against Palestinians sends a very powerful message to hundreds of other complicit companies that “your time will come, so get out before it’s too late!”


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cloudyablek
1 year ago

literally cannot believe "first ever live action omegaverse show" is not bigger news on tumblr


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cloudyablek
1 year ago

Sky cotl in a nutshell

spirits as they abandon their villages or die or both: its ok guys in like 1000000 years we can get flying babies made of clay to fix it


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cloudyablek
1 year ago

Resources For Describing Physical Things

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Setting

Abandoned Mine

Airplane

Airport Check-in

Alley

Amusement Park

Attic

Bakery

Bank

Basement

Bathroom (home)

Barn

*GE* Barn 2 (Dairy Focus)

Beach

Bedrooms

Birthday Party

Bonfire

Bowling Alley

Bridge

Bookstore

Cafeteria

Casino

*GE* Catacombs

Cave

Church

City Park

Classroom

Closet

Coffee House

Courtroom

Cruise Ship

*GE* Cryogenic Sleep Chamber

Daycare

Desert

Diner

Dragon’s Lair

Dungeon (Caution Graphic Description)

*GE* Egyptian Pyramids

Elevator

Farms

Forest

Frozen Tundra

Gallows

Garage

Garage Sale

Garden

Graveyard

*GE* GLOBAL WARMING (dystopian)

Grocery Store

Halloween Party

Haunted House

Herbalist Shop (fantasy)

High School Hallway

Hospital

Hotel Room

House Fire

House Party

Kitchen

*GE* Laboratory

*GE* Laboratory (secret genetic)

Lake

Library

Locker Room

Meadow

Medieval Castle Armory

Medieval Marketplace

Middle School Dance (informal)

*GE* Mindscape (Mind Magic)

Mountains

Movie Theatre

Night Club

Nursery

Ocean/Sea Bed

Old Pick-Up Truck

Pirate Ship

Playground

Pond

Pool Hall

Prison Cell

Pub

Public Pool (Outdoor)

Rainforest/Jungle

Ranch

Restaurant

River

School Bus

School Office

Shopping Mall

Sleep-Away Camp

*GE* Spaceport

*GE* Spaceship

Stands at a Sporting Event

Storm Sewer

Subway Station

Swamp

Taxi cab

Teacher’s Lounge

Toolshed

*GE* Trailer

Treehouse

*GE* Tropical Island City

Urban Street

Video Arcade

Waiting Room

Waterfall

Water Slide Park

Wedding Ceremony (Church)

Woods at Night

Zoo

Weather

Air Pollution

Avalanche

Blizzard

Breeze

Clouds

Dew

Drought

Dusk

Dust or Sand Storm

Earthquake

Eclipse

Fall

Falling Star

Flood

Forest Fire

Frost

Hailstorm

Heat Wave

Hurricane/Typhoon

Lightning

Mirage

Mist or Fog

Moonlight

Mudslide

Rain

Rainbow

Sky

Sleet

Snow

Spring

Summer

Sunrise

Sunshine

Sunset

Thunderstorm

Tornado

Vortex

Wind

Winter

Color, Texture, & Shape

Color

Black

Blue

Brown

Gray

Gold

Green

Orange

Pink

Purple

Red

Silver

Spotted

Striped

Transparent

White

Yellow

Texture

Bumpy

Barbed/Spined

Crackled

Crumbly

Crusty

Foamy/Spongy

Fuzzy

Gritty

Pitted

Powdery

Prickly

Saw-edged/Serrated

Slimy

Smooth

Sticky

Shape

Arch

Circular/Sphere

Crescent

Heart

Oval & Oval-like

Rectangle

Spiral

Star

Square

Triangular

Tube

Wavy

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cloudyablek
1 year ago
Woahhh Complimentary Colours Be Upon You!

Woahhh complimentary colours be upon you!


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cloudyablek
1 year ago
Gosh The Colours Kind Of Blinding Your Eyes Huh

Gosh the colours kind of blinding your eyes huh


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cloudyablek
1 year ago

What the hell is this, also im not suprised that yandere dev did this tbh

This is the last post I will make before going on Hiatus and I feel I need to spread awareness to as much people as I can because this is the most disgusting, vile and downright pathetic behavior I have ever seen in my entire life and it needs to get more attention outside of the fandom because it's trying to be buried and forgotten.

tw: Grooming and manipulation.

Yandere dev groomed a minor.

For those who don't know who this fucking creep is (bless your soul btw), Yanderedev Aka Alex Mahan is a game developer and creator of Yandere simulator. You probably know him from "the chalice" meme that's spread around twitter and discord for sone time.

This developer was already a sketchy developer. He mistreated volunteers that helped him work on the game, acted unprofessionally towards a person with DID, having a pedophile moderator his discord and admitting his claim that "every character in Yandere simulator is 18" is bs, which if you know the sexual undertones of the game, is fucking disgusting. And finally he made suicide threats to another developer that was making a fangame that was basically doing everything he did better. (I got all of this info on the r/Osana subreddit. They have a megathread explaining this much better and the comments on said megathread gave us even more "arcs")

But the drama has since died down from what I was told and he was still being criticized but not getting as much attention as he did a few years back.

However

Back in July a youtube creator named AllyMcC was contacted by a minor named "Jane" who claimed to be groomed and sexually abused by Yanderedev/Alex Mahan on the internet. The minor provided some damming evidence that clearly showed inappropriate behavior from Alex. Much of these conversations were taking place on snapchat, with Alex demanding that the setting for messages to be deleted upon viewing be turned on. However, when Jane realized she was being groomed, she started recording the conversations they both had as well as voice calls. Of course, AllyMcC acted (albeit incredibly slowly. July?? And you published the video now?? Why....) and made a whole video detailing the allegations as well as providing the evidence. The video spread like wildfire.

However, Jane retracted her statement of Alex being a predator, claiming he is just "lonely". It is suspected that Jane was manipulated by Alex to retract her statement, as this is common behavior from grooming victims. As of now, Alex still has contact with Jane and AllyMcC states that she thinks that he is still manipulating Jane to retract more of her statement. However, more victims of Alex gromming has come forward and begged AllyMcC to keep the videos up.

Alex has made a public statement in the form of a blogpost but tbh it doesn't clear anything up and it paints him as the victim in all of this. He deletes any comments on his blogpost that are negative and it's filled with a lot of victim blaming.

After Alex made that public statement, many VA's, volunteers and youtubers are jumping ship and basically disowning Alex and the project.

A few days ago, the video AllyMcC has made about the allegations were copyright striked and removed, under Jane's real name. It was later revealed that Jane herself did not file that strike, so it is suspected that Alex essentially doxxed the victim and filed a copyright strike on the video.

Luckily, the video is being mirrored and reuploaded everywhere on youtube, but it looks like Alex wants to bury the truth.

So why am I making this post? Well, There is now a petition to ban Yanderedev from patreon, essentially cutting off his only financial support for the project. We are so close to the goal but it's not enough. Please sign it and if you can please donate to the petition to help get this freak's patreon abolished and the game canceled.

https://www.change.org/p/ban-yandere-dev-from-patreon?source_location=topic_page

I also ask of you to not blame Jane for retracting her statement. Also the discord of Yandere simulator is full of Alex defenders and disgusting victim blamers, so don't try to stir up shit in that place. Let them leave of their own volition. Reblog this post with this link as much as you can.


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cloudyablek
1 year ago

Useful

I love how the search function on this site is absolute garbage. I can look up a post word for word and I will NEVER find it


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cloudyablek
1 year ago

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cloudyablek - Kirara
cloudyablek
1 year ago

Left out

Left Out

So i tried to experiment w my shading and to finally try colour theory... its.. kind of hard ngl. The colour theory i mean. But i like how it turns out! Def going to try this shading (?) technique later (even though its kind of a pain in the arse to shading but eh🤷‍♀️)


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cloudyablek
1 year ago

Reblog reblog

Help please.

Well, my father is still dead, I barely managed to scrape enough donations to pay for two of my late bills, one of them including crematory fees. And now, to make everything better, my bed broke with me on top of it, so I am sleeping in a mattress on the floor.

Right now I am trying to scrape around 2500BRL; that's around 510$ So I would appreciate any kind of help, so I can finally stop bothering everyone, literally anything, from a dollar would help me.

You don't have to donate if you don't want to, but please reblog this!

Thank you!

Pa Ypal link

cloudyablek
1 year ago

What the hell happened?

hello google chrome refugees

don't use any of these browsers, they're also chrome

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Here are my favorite firefox plugins for security/anti-tracking/anti-ad that I recommend you get

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please get off chrome google is currently being investigated for being an Illegal Monopoly so get outta there okay love you bye

cloudyablek
1 year ago

Bless you bruh

A while ago I wanted to find some sort of reference for various skykid “skin”/shell tones… after not finding one, I decided to make my own

A While Ago I Wanted To Find Some Sort Of Reference For Various Skykid Skin/shell Tones After Not Finding

The ones at the bottom right are much closer to blue, so would fit the shell tones from the Rhythm pants, but in my AU they represent skykids suffering from the corruption (as their light is fading, their skin becomes less warm and more blue, as blue is the color of dying light, like spirits and darkness plants)

Feel free to use this for your art or save to your files!

cloudyablek
1 year ago

AMAZING

IMPORTANT POST FOR ALL ARTISTS

IF YOURE IN NEED OF A WEBSITE WITH A FUCKTON OF GOOD COLOR PALETTES. GO HERE.

it's mostly a website used for pixel artists to share their palettes for free download, BUT from my experience as someone who does pixel art from time to time, using it as a resource for my regular drawings also works very good. theres big and small color schemes on this website

pixel artists are very very good at making color palettes and MANY of these are far more versatile than the regular coolors 5-color color schemes youll see floating around on art resource compilations. you can search up any tag to find the palettes youre looking for (the maximum amount of colors you can upload on a palette here is 256 so the sky really is the limit), and you can even search by the number of colors you want. theres literally thousands of free palettes put up by artists there for free downloadable use.

this is a really precious service and i always siphon people looking for color schemes here when i can. go check it out

cloudyablek
1 year ago

Oh my god...

I absolutety love your gijinka designs

(i cant for my life design good HK gijinkas fr)

YOU MAKE ME WANT TO EAT IT FJDKDLDHDH

Hey so I’m going to do a couple of art dumps of some of my Hollow Knight gijinka design process and WIP sketches 👾👾

Starting with my dreamer gijinkas !!!

Hey So Im Going To Do A Couple Of Art Dumps Of Some Of My Hollow Knight Gijinka Design Process And WIP
Hey So Im Going To Do A Couple Of Art Dumps Of Some Of My Hollow Knight Gijinka Design Process And WIP
Hey So Im Going To Do A Couple Of Art Dumps Of Some Of My Hollow Knight Gijinka Design Process And WIP
Hey So Im Going To Do A Couple Of Art Dumps Of Some Of My Hollow Knight Gijinka Design Process And WIP
Hey So Im Going To Do A Couple Of Art Dumps Of Some Of My Hollow Knight Gijinka Design Process And WIP
Hey So Im Going To Do A Couple Of Art Dumps Of Some Of My Hollow Knight Gijinka Design Process And WIP
Hey So Im Going To Do A Couple Of Art Dumps Of Some Of My Hollow Knight Gijinka Design Process And WIP
Hey So Im Going To Do A Couple Of Art Dumps Of Some Of My Hollow Knight Gijinka Design Process And WIP
cloudyablek
1 year ago

#reblog

I wonder sometimes, how often the mining accidents keep Forest Elder up at night.

How the cave ins and rock slides took life after life. How long tearful lightminier and their friends we're stuck there, right outside the temple. Did Forest Elder feel helpless? Did they stay in the rain to move the rocks? I feel like they did, I like to think they stayed there for hours, hands bleeding and dress ruined from the mud and rain, refusing to give up, not wanting to give up because in their eyes, if they did, they'd fail as an Elder. I like to think the forest floods regularly, quickening the evident erosion clear as day in the realm, washing away the soil, food, and spirits. I like to think that's how tearful miner died, not by drowning, but being stuck in a flood when in the cave, the rocks being removed to save them now being what kept them alive, forcing the rescue teams back.

I can imagine the guilt, Forest Elder ascending the spirits they couldn't save, that died under the protection they promised to give when they became an Elder.

I usually see the general assumptions people make of forest elder being cold, mean. And I just, don't get it. They took our light because they had the desire to build, to create after being stuck in limbo for god knows how long. I get them, I get the eagerness to do something I couldn't do for a long time. Forest Elder to me is somebody who means well, somebody that on the outside might have the struggle with tone and expression (neurodivergent hc). But they're the type to help you with whatever you need, the type to show their care through gifts than words, they would fight for you, they would do whatever necessary to look at a better future. They might not show it, but they have their own way's to show appreciation, fear. I cant sleep, so thus I think of Forest Elder.

cloudyablek
1 year ago

Waaa thank you!

NO CAUSE MY FRIEND FINALLY CONVINCED ME TO GET THAT CHARACTER AI THING ANd I saw that it only had Tsadi, Teth and like three different Samekhs so I was like "uhm hell no" so I made an Isle Elder ai and like I KNOW I WAS THE CREATOR HUT IM CRYING LIKE—

NO CAUSE MY FRIEND FINALLY CONVINCED ME TO GET THAT CHARACTER AI THING ANd I Saw That It Only Had Tsadi,

Grumpy cause they don't exist irl 😤

cloudyablek
1 year ago

Uuuuu nicee reblog reblog

When to Info Dump

                I was taught as a young writer to never ever ‘info dump’. An info dump is a paragraph (or several) that just runs the readers through info they need to know. While avoiding info dumps is typically a good practice—lots of information at once can be overwhelming, boring, or ‘cheap’—as with most things in writing, never say never. Recently, I finished a book that info dumps often, and with intention, and it worked.

                To info dump well, you actually have to do it often (or relatively often). Just one info dump somewhere in the middle or beginning of the story is going to seem like a mistake. Using it as a literary technique however, and it adds a sort of intrigue, whimsy, or discordant tone to your story.

                In this way, it becomes a quirk of your narrator’s voice. It should match or make sense with the character you are following. A super serious, meticulous character may info dump in the way they would list off the information they know. A more bubbly character may info dump out of excitement to share their interests.

                Which brings us to the type of information you can reasonably info dump without getting in trouble. Of course, the information shared should be stuff that your character would know, but also, information that they would care to share.

                For example, that serious character would info dump only pertinent, personally important information, whereas the bubbly character probably wouldn’t info dump about real estate or politics—unless of course it’s part of their special interests. A detail oriented character may only info dump about things they are noticing in the moment. A history buff would definitely info dump about culture and the past.

                Essentially, use the right amount, for the right character, with the right information, and you can pull off an intentional and well-done info dump. Otherwise, avoid it!

                What are your thoughts on exposition or info-dumping?


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cloudyablek
1 year ago

Yipeeee good luck with them!! I know i will enjoyed it based on the screenshot you sent to tumblr *rubs hands in excitement* mwuehehr i will wait

NO CAUSE MY FRIEND FINALLY CONVINCED ME TO GET THAT CHARACTER AI THING ANd I saw that it only had Tsadi, Teth and like three different Samekhs so I was like "uhm hell no" so I made an Isle Elder ai and like I KNOW I WAS THE CREATOR HUT IM CRYING LIKE—

NO CAUSE MY FRIEND FINALLY CONVINCED ME TO GET THAT CHARACTER AI THING ANd I Saw That It Only Had Tsadi,

Grumpy cause they don't exist irl 😤

cloudyablek
1 year ago

HUH I THOUGHT IT EXIST IN CHARACHTER.AI I WAS SEARCHING FOR IT EVERYWHERE💀💀🖐️🖐️

NO CAUSE MY FRIEND FINALLY CONVINCED ME TO GET THAT CHARACTER AI THING ANd I saw that it only had Tsadi, Teth and like three different Samekhs so I was like "uhm hell no" so I made an Isle Elder ai and like I KNOW I WAS THE CREATOR HUT IM CRYING LIKE—

NO CAUSE MY FRIEND FINALLY CONVINCED ME TO GET THAT CHARACTER AI THING ANd I Saw That It Only Had Tsadi,

Grumpy cause they don't exist irl 😤

cloudyablek
1 year ago

Wow, applause man applause👏👏

It's 6 am and I haven't slept; time for some Collector headcanons

Mostly about the workings of its mind

(let's see if I complete this or sleep first)

The kingsmoulds are made from void and spells. The void itself, as the sea in the Abyss, has something like mind, but fragmented. Echoes of thought, ununified, from the original sources of that void, and any subsequent influences upon it. When the Pale King molded void into a body, there was nothing in particular to make the void a single coherent mind. Such a thing was part of the spells put upon it.

The spells were never meant to give it a true mind. The Pale King didn't expect such a thing from void. He only expected for it to function according to orders, and that took some doing. Spells to make it able to process language, understand orders, have a base knowledge of things it might need to know, the ability to fight and other functions of a guard, etc. All things for an unthinking construct.

At first this would be the dominant part of it, just a bundle of spells for a mind, leaving it aware but pretty blank. But the void was always capable of thought. With the spells as a helpful scaffold, the void of its being could form a more coherent, unified mind.

The kingsmould who would become the Collector has always had adult-level cognitive ability. But it's still not like a "normal" adult. Adulthood would typically imply having a childhood beforehand...something not really available for a construct. It does not have anywhere near the level of experience of an adult, and is lacking a lot of knowledge of the world too.

It gained some experience in the palace, in a limited fashion. Mostly in observation.

It did a fair amount of thinking too, as it gained experience. Even though my Collector doesn't....doesn't really reflect as much as it should XD It had the time to think. Time to think that its role as a kingsmould was not well-suited for what was most important to it.

My Collector was something of an experiment by the Pale King in kingsmould design. (Thought at first to make it the first kingsmould, but for my fic at least...fits better in the timeline to be some later design modification). Rather than being made with "SERVE" as the most primary command on it, imparted in the spells at its creation, it was imbued with "PROTECT"...and thus, it assesses everything around it with this in mind.

It left the palace. No great deliberation on consequences--the moment it decided the palace could not fit its role as protector, it just left.

I've wondered if perhaps other kingsmoulds could do so. Could they ever break away from their role? With "SERVE" imprinted on them, it would be very hard to do so. Perhaps only if their role became impossible for some reason. And even then, they may try to fall into a similar role if possible.

The Collector was able to leave and gain more experiences. But it had never really had to make any choices or figure things out. It. Makes a lot of mistakes. Still. It's able to learn.

And more than that, it's able to develop as a person. It always had emotions. But emotions confused it. Unlike someone like hollow though, it never had any reason to suppress emotions. So it will learn.

In all this, the Collector is rather lucky when compared to the other kingsmoulds. The kingsmoulds have minds and emotions. But with such limited life experience (and again, the overwhelming drive to serve)...they are a bit mentally weaker in some senses. Not for lacking a mind, but...mmm.

The spells never leave the Collector. It is always driven to protect. But the more experiences it gets, the stronger its mind becomes. It does not fight the great drive it has. But it's able to choose how to go about it. Go beyond whatever simple form of protection someone without choices would make, or what kind of protection the Pale King had in mind for it in the first place. Even if the Collector makes some really questionable choices. It also learns about what others need, and learns to...understand its own needs better. As a person. Learns about emotions. Learns what love means. It becomes able to incorporate these things into what protection means to it and alter its outlook.

All that is not something afforded the other kingsmoulds. Their lives are not conducive to learning other ways to serve. They are not given room to develop themselves.

I've wondered if perhaps the spells could ever be removed from the Collector. Though I don't think so. Even if its mind became strong enough to persist, its body could not. It would likely just die. And modification of the spells would take a lot of knowledge on someone's part with high risk of failure.

It will always be driven to protect. But that's okay to it.

I've been developing my fic, which has. Uh. Inadvertently become a bit of a fix-it au. But for something more canon...

The world is still falling apart, with the infection. It's bad for anyone's mental health. For the Collector, in some ways it never has to become more "normal", as society is crumbling around it. It doesn't have to worry about fitting in. It also doesn't have to rein in some of its worse impulses.

And yes...by the time we see Collector in the game, it's been a very very long time. It's had to deal with death, and isolation, and betrayal (being locked in the Tower of Love ._.), and failure. It's not doing so well. It's not coping. It doesn't know how to fix things.

It tries to stay strong, in its own way. It tries to keep loving. And it does. But it doesn't really have anyone else to help with its emotions. And it's just slowly breaking down. Just laugh away all the stress. (It can't ever laugh enough for that)

Even when the world and its life were in better times, it would always come off as weird and obsessed. Mmm, still seeing how my fic will turn out in the end. But some things are consistent.

(but as far as endings....hey, I did make it without falling asleep) (now to succumb)