Honestly, How Did People Not Think Food Triggers Or Clear Liquid Triggers Were A Thing? My SO Cant Deal

Honestly, how did people not think food triggers or clear liquid triggers were a thing? My SO can’t deal with mint most of the time, and cleaning agents tend to send them into a panic attack (like OP because of hospitals and surgeries). Me? Seeing milk and water mixed, even just a drop of milk in water makes me want to hurl and gives me a headache just thinking about this to write this out.

Do you have any triggers?

Jello, Popsicles, Soup Broth. 

Me, trying to do the thing:

Brain: This isn’t working. I can’t concentrate.

Me: Okay, let’s take a break.

Me, trying to take a break:

Brain: But what about the other things we have to do? We don’t deserve this break. We have so much to do. So much to do so much to do so much to do why didn’t we do the things earlier why can we never do the things SO MUCH TO DO-

Me: ...okay, so let’s go back to the thing we need to do.

Brain: iF WE DO THAT I WILL PANIC. DO NOT MAKE ME PUT US IN PANIC MODE.

Me: ...

Brain: ...

Netflix: Are you still watching?

Question of the Day:

Have I just forced myself to mask extensively and that’s why I’m uncomfortable because it’s masking, or is this just how neurotypical folks learn how to do things and thus is uncomfortable for nt folks in society, but no one talks about it because it’s what “everyone” feels?

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Hi, I'm the scary narcissist that you keep warning people about.

I'm not empathetic, I'm not naturally caring, and I have extreme trauma that has irrevocably affected how I process emotions. I'm selfish, I have to consciously choose to tend others' needs, and I often don't recognize when I've hurt someone's feelings.

I meet the criteria for narcissistic personality disorder. I agonize about making sure I don't hurt people because of how HARD it is for me to perform empathy, which I do not naturally feel.

I choose kindness and compassion, not because they come naturally to me, or because "it's just the right thing to do," but because we have to take care of each other in order to have a functional society.

Every day I make the choice to be as kind and compassionate as I know how, knowing the entire time that there are people who truly, deeply, sincerely believe that this makes me a monster.

I'm not going to torture you for fun. I'm not going to kick your dog. I don't get off on psychologically abusing people. And if you actually care about what it's like to live with a personality disorder, and how HARD it is, extend some of that famous "empathy" of yours and stop treating people with narcissistic personality disorder like monsters waiting to snap.