@hermitw Feel Like Youd Appreciate This

@hermitw feel like you’d appreciate this 🫡

don’t cry cause you got fired you’re so sexy and got $2 hardback books and amazing clothes at the thrift store so it’s okay bc your ex-boss and coworkers look boring and you look hot ✨

-me to myself

i love dead apple because ryuunosuke always just shows up to serve cunt and be gay, kyouka's there keeping them all alive and ultimately being the responsible one, and atsushi's in the corner having a mental breakdown

okay y’all i had another ✨thought✨

and yes i’m still working on the chronic pain atsushi fic, dw i haven’t abandoned yall

but i read somewhere the other night that allegedly bc tigers have such good distance and night vision, their close up vision can be not so great.

do ik if this is 100% true? no.

did i take it and run with it anyways? of course.

so my brain went bad eyesight = glasses and atsushi is a tiger, so now atsushi wears glasses. but then my brain furthered it by going “when do you wear glasses? to read!!” so now may i humbly present you with:

glasses atsushi who is also a passionate reader

bc i personally headcanon that one of the only things he had access to at the orphanage was books and he discovered he could use them as a form of escapism, thus sparking his love of reading.

and now, if you’ll indulge my even further.

akutagawa finds out about the love of books by quite literally stumbling into atsushi outside of a book store (consequently making him drop all of his books and accidentally ruin one) and assists him with taking the books back to his place.

and akutagawa also replaces the book that got ruined and when he gives it to atsushi (via stopping by his place) he is met with atsushi in glasses.

and akutagawa realizes 2 things: 1) his rival/partner looks very cute in glasses and 2) akutagawa is very gay for him.

i have a much for fleshed out plan for this and have additionally scenes i will add in, but i’ll leave that up to y’all’s imaginations 😉

thoughts? feelings?

WAIT YOU’RE SO RIGHT I WAS WONDERING HOW TO MAKE IT MAKE SENSE A BIT BETTER CAN I USE THIS LOGIC???

okay y’all i have a ✨thought✨

what if, whenever atsushi regenerates, he’s physically fine but for some reason, his body still feels the pain of the wound he received??

like immediately after it happens, he’s fine if not a bit more tired than usual.

and then he wakes up the morning after and the afflicted limb (it’s the leg. you KNOW i mean the leg i mean come on, it’s practically a bright red target atp) is just screaming in pain.

and eventually the pain starts to ease up and he’s able to function again but he’s still left with flair ups sometimes and just general chronic pain.

again: especially the leg i mean SERIOUSLY THAT POOR LIMB-

but yeah basically chronic pain atsushi. (totally not in the process of writing a one shot for this with a sprinkling of sskk)

anyway, thoughts? feelings? helpful commentary?

time to combine two of my fixations rq

look me dead in the eyes and tell me that Atsushi Nakajima wouldn’t serve The Vast.

i can see him loving the wide open space of the sky or the sea or space, absolutely nothing there but his god as he’s constantly floating or free falling, it’s exhilarating and makes his heart pound and it’s pure ecstasy to him. there is no past to haunt him, no need to keep fighting to be good, no need to constantly prove himself, no incessant worry that he’s not enough. he doesn’t have to do anything, or fight anyone, or meet some impossibly high expectation set for him. he can simply be and exist. it’s just him and his god. he’s not sure where he ends and his god begins, and he doesn’t think he cares anyway, he just knows he is utterly surrounded by his god and that in the middle of its infinite vastness, he is insignificant and meaningless. compared to his god, the meager time span of his life is incomparable. it means nothing. he means nothing, and he relishes in it. allows himself to just let go.