Oh My Goodness Yes

oh my goodness yes

nothing just luke looking at u like this… yeah… yeah…

Current status update:

FUCK FUCK FUCK WHERE DO I BEGIN

it was so cool of me to stay kind despite everything I have witnessed in my life, it's all about breaking the cycle for real guys

Writing advice from my uni teachers:

If your dialog feels flat, rewrite the scene pretending the characters cannot at any cost say exactly what they mean. No one says “I’m mad” but they can say it in 100 other ways.

Wrote a chapter but you dislike it? Rewrite it again from memory. That way you’re only remembering the main parts and can fill in extra details. My teacher who was a playwright literally writes every single script twice because of this.

Don’t overuse metaphors, or they lose their potency. Limit yourself.

Before you write your novel, write a page of anything from your characters POV so you can get their voice right. Do this for every main character introduced.

they're unhealthily co dependant. they're enemies. they're lovers. they're best friends. they're each other's everything. they hate each other. they love each other. they want to kill each other. they wouldn't survive without each other. they're each other's fucking undoing. they've been doomed by the narrative right from the very start, they were destined to break apart, they never had any future together, they were always stolen moments. and yet they loved each other, even if it was just a cruel dream, or maybe a seductive nightmare- for a split second, they loved each other and that didn't change anything that didn't change their stories that didn't save them from being doomed but the love was there. it would always be there. it didn't change anything, but that doesn't mean it wasn't there. i didn't say their names but they popped in your head didn't they.

God, thinking about how Venka possibly WASN’T the leak, or maybe she was, but she still loved Rin and wanted to protect her from that crossbow bolt anyway despite divided loyalties. I think she might actually have been on Nezha’s side because I was incredibly suspicious of Xuzhou and I swore they were going to get their asses fucking handed to them on a silver Yin family platter. I’d been suspicious of her for sure! But the whole point is we won’t ever truly know because she died trying to protect Rin. Was she loyal? Was she disloyal but still loved Rin? What did loyalty mean to Sring Venka? Was she being loyal in her own way, in not wanting Rin to have victory because she knew she’d lose it? Was she trying to protect her all along like she did in her last moments?