Like Im Serious About The Dates Thing.

like im serious about the dates thing.

now that i've started doing it, i can't exactly stop or else it'll be inconsistent and that'll but me even more. i made my bed and now i have to lie in it.

im so easily distracted

i was going through my spreadsheet for BTM, trying to figure out where to place this upcoming chapter in the timeline (note to anyone planning on doing this: don't. it's caused more stress than i realized was possible for picking dates out for things to happen outside of the main story)

then i decided to open up tumblr to check my notifs and then i ended up scrolling for like 10 minutes.

is this adhd? I dunno.

yeah ok maybe, but im not gonna self diagnose. just...wonder a little bit.

I've kept up this sort of side plot in Beneath Her Masks and its gotten to the point where nearly half of one of the chapters I'm working on is a text conversation going over it. I've been a little anxious about posting this chapter, even though its done, because I don't know if I should bother including so much extra shit like this. It's interesting (to me). And I like it. But does it add anything? Will it ever go anywhere? Or is it just my brain going "oh hey wouldn't it be cool if" for 2000 words.

The end chapter text conversation thing is getting a little out of hand and I dunno if anyone really gives a shit about it enough for me to leave it in. It doesn't really add anything. It's not relevant to the chapter.

Uuuuuuggghhhh writing is haaaaard. Especially when you can't really make any major changes after its posted, since that sort of defeats the purpose of uploading it to begin with.

Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Persona 5 Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Characters: Kurusu Akira, Persona 5 Protagonist, Sakamoto Ryuji, Takamaki Ann, Suzui Shiho, Sakura Sojiro, Kamoshida Suguru Additional Tags: Underage Smoking, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Alternate Universe - No Personas (Persona Series), Akira is a pickpocket and a bit of a delinquent already, More characters to be added, Phantom thievery without the phantom, Akira has ADHD, Akira is not from a good home, no beta we die like principal kobayakawa, I’m Bad At Summaries Summary:

“Just keep in line,” the man warned, giving Ryuji one last look, “I’m keeping my eye on both of you.” And then, Kamoshida turned, stalking off back across the courtyard before vanishing into the practical building.

Akira was quiet as he watched him go, then the innocent smile dropped almost as quickly as it appeared. “I think he needs to keep a better eye on me, to be honest.” Lifting his right hand a little, a bright red whistle on a string, hung off his finger. “Think it’ll take him long to notice he’s missing this?”

Akira didn’t really mean to get so mixed up with things. Life just had a way of working out like that.

im so easily distracted

i was going through my spreadsheet for BTM, trying to figure out where to place this upcoming chapter in the timeline (note to anyone planning on doing this: don't. it's caused more stress than i realized was possible for picking dates out for things to happen outside of the main story)

then i decided to open up tumblr to check my notifs and then i ended up scrolling for like 10 minutes.

is this adhd? I dunno.

yeah ok maybe, but im not gonna self diagnose. just...wonder a little bit.

depression tips™

shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.

moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over. 

put on clean, comfortable clothes. 

put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.

drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.

clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink. 

blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.

make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something. 

make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.

go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.

call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.

cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. take pictures of them. talk to them. tell them how u feel, about your favorite movie, a new game coming out.