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Always Mine.
Always Mine.
After a one night stand leads to a pregnancy, Tommy longs for a relationship with the child thatâs out of his grasp.
This was requested by a lovely anon, I hope iâve done you proud.This is a GIF IMAGINE. (All gifs belong to their rightful owners).
Word count: 3900Â Â Â Warnings: Swearing, mentions of drinking/sex/loss.Â
11th February 1914, The Garrison.
It had been Arthur that night who had insisted on going to the Garrison, determined to drag Tommy out of the heartbroken slump he had been in for six weeks straight. It had been six weeks since heâd lost his Greta, six weeks since he last held her hands in his and felt even a tiny bit whole.
There was whisky, and music, smoke, and ash. Arthur with his hand wrapped round the barmaid and a cigar in the another. John, who had barely even drank before, had found his place in a poker game in the back den. Every one had found their place but Tommy, whose eyes kept wandering over to the blonde in the corner- her face the same deflated expression as his.
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Reckless



âa/n: reader is indeed a badass in this. A dumb one- but a badass nonetheless.
âpairing:Daryl Dixon x fem!reader
âwarning: death, murder, weird guys, set after Negan shows up, Alexandria, fear of losing a loved one (Daryl and reader, separately),, reader endangers herself, pigs (men),cursing, slightly proofread, idk it's kinda graphic ngl, reader is kinda crazy but who isn't in twd universe?
|| Disclaimer: I do not own Daryl Dixon, or any character from The Walking Dead. I only own y/n and any characters I create with my own brain. ||
ââ 8.16.24
Note: Kate is reader's friend

âYou ain't goin' out there.â Daryl said nonchalantly, bringing the lighter up to light the cigarette hanging between his cracked lips.
Taken aback, you could only stare at him. Watching as he leaned against the porch railing, looking at you with a calm look in his eye.
It's almost like he believed you wouldn't walk outside the gate of Alexandria. Like you would listen to him. You weren't about to argue about what you can and can't do, especially when a man is on the other side.
Huffing, you stomped past him, back into the house.
After Daryl finished the cigarette, he stood to his full height, turning to open the door. He grunted when the door wouldn't open.
âSeriously?â
You heard him on the other side, but didn't care. Kate was out there. Who was Daryl to tell you to stay in the safe zone, to not look for someone who would be out in the woods looking for you the second they heard you were missing? You knew it was dangerous, but that was the chance you were willing to take for a friend.
âOpen the door.â Hiding the last bit of supplies, you twisted the lock, letting him open the door. Ignoring the glare he was sending you, you made your way to the bedroom, exiting with a blanket and pillow. âAre ya kiddin'? What, 'm I in the doghouse?â
âNo,â you scoffed, throwing the blanket on the couch, and began to make it comfortable. âI'm not sleeping in the same bed as someone who thinks I can't take care of myself.â
âI didn't say that.â
âYou implied it.â With that, you finally looked him in the eye, daring him to say another word.
Huffing, he made his way to the bedroom, slamming the door.
You stood in the darkness for a moment, thinking everything through, whilst also listening as he walked around the room, before the mattress springs creaked, letting you know he flopped on the bed. You give it 20-30 minutes before he gets up and tries to apologize, like he always did. You'd turn him down, of course, and he'd finally leave you alone for the night. Then you'd make your run for it.
Sticks and leaves crunched under your feet, the quiet of the night having the hair on your arms stand straight up. Light illuminated ahead of you, the flashlight held tightly in your grip, knife in the other hand. The backpack you were quick to pack only had a few things, but they were important. A pistol you stored with you at all times sat on your belt (only for emergencies), small first aid kitâin the hindsight you do find Kateâ but she's hurt, a can of whatever was out on the kitchen counter that you didn't get the time to actually look at-it was probably a can of peaches or something-, water, and the thin blanket you kept sprawled across the back of the couch.
Hearing voices from the distance, you quickly cut your light, catching the smell of a fire, along with the sound of the crackle of wood and drunken laughter. You took your chance with your surroundings, putting your trust in what was blindly in front of you.
You managed to sneak closer, now being able to see the group from between the trees. They sat around the fire, cackling about God knows what, blood and grime coating their skin in a thick layer. They passed a bottle around the circle, taking a big swig to numb their reality. Looking around them, they set up an alarm type thing with empty cans connected to wire and string, something your group has done many times, especially when you were without a stable housing system.
Stained tents were close together, nearly side by side with how small the alarm system was. âShe's a beauty.â One man snarled, standing to wobble toward one tent, unzipping it, bending over, and reaching into it.
He struggled for a minute, nearly losing his footing, before he straightened up, dragging the body over to the other guys. They whooped and hollered, passing the bottle around again.
The guy who pulled Kate out of the tent started playing with her matted hair, a nasty grin on his face. Your nails dug into your hand. There were 4 of them, all of which had an advantage for having Kate. Even if you were to attack them, they would probably kill her without a second thought.
She snarled, pulling at the rope that bound her hands behind her back. âAin't she?â He bent down, closer to her ear. She pulled a disgusted face.
One guy cackled, loving her reactions for a sickly reason.
The handle of the knife nearly left a permanent indention on your palm, the skin beginning to sting.
Maybe if you brought something like a bow you could catch them off guard. But you didn't, alright?
You have a knife and a pistol.
âI think it's time to turn in, fellas.â Another guy stood, stretching his long, skinny limbs. The other guys mumbled an agreement, beginning to retreat.
Kate was dragged toward the fire by the original guy, âcan't let you out of my sight, can I, pretty girl?â
Kate uttered a 'fuck you'.
The guy stood back from snuffing the fire pit with dirt, moving to lean over her. His hand caressed her cheek, dirt smearing. â You have a mouth on ya, doncha?"
The knife slid across his throat in one quick motion, a garbled sound was put to an end as the knife punctured his skull quickly after. You laid his body down gently, glancing at the tents as you moved to Kate.
She silently watched you with wide eyes. To her, you just appeared out of the darkness, leaping over the wire and taking her and the guy by surprise. If anything, she didn't recognize you at first. You looked scary, crazed, even. Your eyes held a fiery she'd only seen a handful of times since the apocalypse started.
Finally untying her hands, where rope was tied in a tight knot, leaving her wrist red and raw, you heard rustling came from one of the tents, followed by, âI gotta take a leak.â Kate quickly scanned the dead body, taking the knife off his person.
You quietly blended in to the woods, running as fast as your limbs would let you. You could hear cursing from the tents. Far enough away, you slowed down, coming out of the woods. Kate heaved, rubbing at her wrist.
âWhat are you doing out here?â
âRosita came back from the supply run, and she said you were taken.â The two of them had gone out early that morning, in search of something-anything to satisfy Negan.
âThat was dangerous. Those were Negan's men.â
âThey're disgusting.â
She couldn't disagree. You didn't see what they did before, or hear what they said. She was thankful for that. If she were to tell you, you'd turn around and go slaughter every one of them.
Coming to an abandoned, dead car, you settled in the driver's seat, helping her wrap her wrist and any small cuts she had on her body.
You offered her the can of peaches, opening it up with your knife for her. She took it, her stomach growling as soon as you uttered the word 'food'. She chugged the water. You watched.
You had known her before the apocalypse. She had it made, never having to starve or wait all day to eat, always having the comfortable bank account to just be able to buy whatever she was feeling at the moment. You had watched first hand as her life flipped upside down. Reckon she thought the same about you. Deep down, you knew she would've gone looking for you if the roles were reversed.
âThey took everything we found, which wasn't much but still. I was going to drink that alcohol.â She broke the silence, slightly pouting her busted lip out. Your lip twitched, not quite finding the amusement in your body. âSurprised Daryl didn't come with you.â
âHe didn't want me coming.â She nodded, understanding where he was coming from. âThey were going to look for you in the morning, but a lot could happen between now and then. I couldn't risk it.â
âYou're reckless.â
âYou could've died,â you countered. Maybe you were reckless and stubborn, you didn't care at that moment.
The door suddenly swung open, a gun cocking as soon as the cold metal touched your temple. Kate yelped as she got dragged out, falling out on the broken asphalt. âYou think you could do that shit and get away with it?â Alcohol wafted in your nostrils, hot breath fanning across your ear and neck. âGet out.â A harsh hand gripped your arm, pulling you out. He grabbed your knife, pocketing it before you had the time to use it. You could only see two out of the three surviving men from before. The other one was probably still at their camp, keeping an eye out.
The grip on your arm tightened.
Daryl stumbled out of the woods, hearing commotion on the old, worn down road. He saw the car, the men, your silhouette.
He saw the man in front of you, getting in your face. The darkness of the night didn't do anything to show your facial expression. But Daryl knew you, knew how you were holding your ground.
He loaded his bow, watching as a punch landed to your left cheek.
You fell to the floor, quickly shuffling closer to the car. You grabbed the jagged metal of the old can of peaches you had mindlessly discarded, swinging around and dragging it across his face, nicking your palm in the process, but you didn't care.
Daryl jogged closer, arrow ready to shoot, now aimed at the man holding Kate.
Before he could release the arrow, you grabbed the gun that was recently pointed at your head, swirling around to shoot the other guy right in the face, despite his scared protest, before aiming it at the man holding his face at your feet, cursing you, belittling you.
Daryl stood, stunned.
In the span of a minute and a half, you had killed two men without flinching.
â
The door to your bedroom creaked, Daryl stumbled out of it. He stood behind the couch, shirtless, his pants hanging low on his hips. His face was set in a scowl, his distaste about having to apologize evident on his face. âYa know you're a badass. Ain't no secret. Didn't mean it like that, ya know that.â You grunted, giving him a taste of his own medicine. You were turned away from him, laid out across the couch as you glared at the wall through the darkness. The backpack laid under the couch, everything ready.
âSay somethin'.â
You turned on your back, looking up at him. You knew he was leaned across the back of the furniture, searching for your face in the darkness, you did the same. âFine.â Your words held no truth to them, only evident annoyance.
He sighed, straightening his back. âIt's dang-â
âIt's dangerous, yeah, I know. Which is exactly why we need to look for her. There's no telling what has already happened to her, especially with Negan's men out there.â
âA group is goin' in the mornin'. First thing.â
You stayed silent. At least they were trying, and being smart about it. But you weren't using your brain, only your heart. She means too much to you to lose her. She's all you have left of the normal life, before all this.
âYou gonna come to bed?â
Maybe you were being unreasonable.
âNo.â
Daryl shuffled back to the bedroom, letting the door shut harshly behind him.
Three minutes later, you were quietly opening the back door and wiggling out. You blended into the night, walking around Alexandria without anyone noticing. You ran by the people on watch, making your escape. You ventured into the woods, Daryl's words in your head. You were a badass. Maybe not a smart one when it comes down to being rational, but a badass nonetheless.
Daryl shuffled out of bed, his throat feeling dry. His feet patted against the cold floor, hand coming up to rub at his eyes.
He stopped when he caught sight of the couch. You were probably asleep. Anger wore you out easily, he had noted very early on.
âLook, I know you're pissed at me, but I'm just tryin' to keep ya safe. I can't lose ya.â
The vulnerability was evident in his voice. Usually, you would comfort him, knowing he doesn't show his emotional state to just anyone.
It was true, he couldn't lose you. He fears he might actually go insane without you.
Ever since you two moved into the house of Alexandria, a fire burned in Daryl.
A fire that told him he could lose you at any moment, but also told him that he had to make it where he couldn't lose you. To try everything to keep you safe.
Negan was out there, in the shadows, waiting. He was waiting for one little slip up. He wasn't one to be merciful. Yet another threat on your head.
Daryl leaned forward, bringing his hand to find your body warmth, something to soothe him before he spirals. âHoney?â
He was met with cold silence.
â
âWell shit.â
You swirled around, gun aimed to kill. Daryl dropped his arm that held the bow, raising his other in surrender. A grin tugged at his lips, pure pride at seeing you take care of yourself like that.

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Joel Miller x f!reader
Rating: Explicit (COMPLETED)
Summary: Part of a band of travelers, your party is slowly picked off one by one, until there are only two of you left. Finding an abandoned cabin in the woods, you decide to make camp there until you figure out your next move. As the seasons change, the nights get longer and longerâŚ
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Epilogue




In The Bleak Midwinter
Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6 Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11,  Part 12 & Part 13
Pairing: Tommy Shelby x Reader
Warning: Mentions of death
Gif Credit: @peakymurphyâ & @peakyblinders1919â Thank you for letting me use your beautiful gifs!
Tag: If you want to be tagged let me know.
My Intent:Â Alright, Iâm attempting to purge this from my soul. So this is sort of a hybrid. Itâs first person, because I love how that makes it feel, but you are also a character, with a name and backstory. So hopefully you donât hate it.
Also, it should be noted I love Grace and Tommy. So Grace will be held in high regard in this story. This story takes place in season 3, I think. And this is my first Peaky Blinders story, so go easy on me. Iâm full newb.
My other stories are not forgotten, but this idea gave me no peace.
As the car takes the long drive up to the manor, you can hardly believe your eyes.Â
Itâs far bigger than anything youâve seen in a long time, but you expect nothing less for Mr. Thomas Shelby.
The manor is a rich red color that reminds you of the clay that sticks to your boots after a heavy rain has washed away the top soil.Â
The windows stare back you like blinking eyes - tall and plentiful, like gatekeepers for the secrets inside.Â
With a grand stone archway entrance that announces youâve arrived. Â
Itâs more than you ever hoped to offer Finn, compared to that tiny shoebox room you were squeezed in before in Small Heath.Â
Itâs quiet out here in the country too. No drunken men hollering in the streets, fornicating and fighting before your sonâs eyes at every turn.Â
The idea of working for Thomas Shelby is an intimidating one, as it should be, but itâs a chance for Finn. A chance for something more, so you had to take it.
Finn gawks in wonder as the car pulls up the drive.Â
His jaw slack, eyes wide, and you have to tell him more than once to return to his seat while the car is still moving, as he fidgets about the vehicle in amazement at whatâs before him.Â
You catch the smile that edges at Pollyâs face as she watches your son. And you get the sense you or Finn remind her of someone, someone she lost or maybe a former version of herself, and thatâs why sheâs extended this offer so graciously to you.
âWhoâs this? Tommy said no more visitors.â A young woman asks as Polly leads you and Finn in through the entrance, ceiling so tall you have to crane your neck back to see the top.
With dark curly hair swaying around her shoulders, deep features, and fire in her eyes, surely, sheâs a Shelby.Â
And judging by the way she looks only a few years older than you, you guess sheâs Thomasâs sister, Ada.Â
Youâve heard of her too, youâve heard of them all, but who hasnât in these parts.
âI brought her here to help with Charlie, Ada. Tommy is going to need a hand.â Polly says with ease, as if sheâs got it all already figured out.Â
A beautiful woman for her age. With dark curly locks and skin pale like the full moon. Thereâs something bewitching about Pollyâs eyes and the curl of her mouth that makes you think she knows everything, capable of anything, and probably both.
But the weary look Ada sends her way makes you feel less confident about the whole arrangement. Like maybe things arenât as settled as Polly made them seem.
Turning your way, Ada looks you over.Â
âAnd the boy?â She inquires with a tilt of her head, glancing at your son who stands nervously at your side, trying to look taller than his tender years.
âHer son.â Polly answers before you can.
That answer seems to soften Ada a bit. Her eyes easing off their edge as a small almost indiscernible smile curls at the corner of her mouth.
âA widow, good.â She says, mostly to herself.Â
And the way she eyes you, as you stand silently hoping to be approved, you can see the idea of your loss eases something inside her.
âVery well, Tommyâs in the parlor.â You hear her say, as you turn back to Finn with the feel of his tug on the length of your coat.
Your eyes meet your boyâs baby blues as he gazes up at you as if heâs torn between sheer excitement and intimation being surrounded by all this.
âWhatâs a widow, mum?â His young voice asks you as he stays close around your legs.
Finnâs never seen a place like this and certainly never stepped foot inside one.Â
You want things for your boy, good things, better than you have, but youâve only ever been able to scrape by.Â
But this is your chance to change all that, your chance to give him what you never could before.
âYour mum apparently.â You say with a small laugh, smiling down at him with reassurance as you pinch playfully at the apple of his cheek.
âThis way,â You hear Polly say as you glance back up with the sound of her heels clicking on the wooden floors.Â
Taking Finnâs hand as your lead through the house. Deep mahogany walls greet you at every turn, ornately carved and shining.Â
Beautiful things fill every space your eyes can reach. Things youâve only seen in the pictures and could never imagine lying before you in full color.
Finnâs hand reaches out in curiosity before you quickly slap it away.
âTouch nothing.â You scold him gently as fear speeds up your heart. This place like one giant bomb, set anything off and this opportunity could blow up around you.
Entering the parlor, you take in the sight of the walls filled with books as you follow Polly near his desk.Â
Mr. Shelbyâs seated behind it, only glancing up as you approach.Â
He eyes you, your eyes catching as you feel Finn dart behind your coat. You donât look away, donât blink, youâre not even sure you breathe, it feels like a test and youâll be damned if you fail it.
Polly starts in, pulling his attention as you suck in a breath you didnât know you were holding.Â
Heâs not as tall as you expected, Mr. Shelby. The myth larger than the man, but he has an energy about him. Bigger than life. Like a vortex, pulling all the energy from the room and pointing it squarely upon him.Â
Itâs in that moment you realize the mess youâve gotten yourself into. Cominâ into the home of a man whoâs just lost his wife, offerinâ to help with his now motherless child, the situation couldnât be more bleak.
You try and smooth down Finnâs hair, drawing him out from behind you as Polly tries to seal the deal. Their words filling your ears as you turn back.
âFuckin hell Pol, he has one. Just cause sheâs- doesnât mean-â Mr. Shelby stumbles over his own words and you can see heâs growing agitated.
âI know, Tommy, I know, but you need help. Children require a lot of time. You have the business to think about and she needs a job. It solves both your problems.â Polly says diplomatically, and you get the sense she probably knows how to talk to him better than anyone.
âShe looks weak, Pol. Skin and bone the best you can find.â He insults, his eyes surveying you briefly like an item heâs considering for purchase, but never meets your eyes.
Itâs true, you could use a few pounds, but youâve barely eaten. What little you have mostly goes to Finn.Â
You take just enough to get by, keep going. You donât have the luxuries of more, but circumstance hasnât dampened your spirit.Â
If anything, itâs made you more strong willed, you have no doubts what youâre fighting for.
âThat may be, but Iâm strong and good with children.â You speak up suddenly before Polly gets a chance and all eyes turn on you instantly.Â
Polly looks surprised, but Mr. Shelby, his gaze is to vacant to warrant anything worth counting.
âWeâll see about that.â He answers before rising from his chair and calling for the help.
âMary!â An old woman appears in the doorway behind you before Mr. Shelby summons her to retrieve his son.Â
When she returns with the boy, Mr. Shelby is quick to take him. Holding him close as he walks over to you, his gaze cautious as he stands before you.
The boy is precious to say the least. With big round cheeks, sky blue eyes, and straight rust colored hair.Â
He looks like his father, but the color reminds you of Finnâs when he was just a baby.
âHi Charlie, Iâm miss Fiona.â You tell him softly, smiling over at him as your fingertips dance along his hair, the apples of his cheeks, settling on his plump little hand as he wraps it around your finger.
You catch the little boyâs eyes on Finn with curiosity.
âThis my son, Finn. Heâs just a little older than you.â You tell him, explaining matters most would think are too advanced for a child of his age, but you always felt children understood far more than we gave them credit for.
Charlie glances back up at you and you greet him with a smile as you reach for him, praying heâll trust you enough to let you hold him.
You let out a quiet sigh of relief when Charlie reaches for you in return and lets you pick him up.Â
Placing him on your hip, you give him a gentle hug.
âHello sweet boy.â You whisper into his hair as your hand runs down along it.
Charlie reaches for Finn and a smile breaks out wide on your face as Finn takes his hand, the boys enamored with each other.
Your face shoots back up to Mr. Shelby as he clears his throat.Â
His eyes are hollow deep pits filled with raw madness thatâs barely contained. He looks like he hasnât slept in weeks.Â
Perhaps he hasnât. You wouldnât know, you donât know this man, but you need this job, so you stare back into his eyes as if the sight of them didnât break your heart.
âAlright then,â He says simply on a low gritty breath, giving his approval as he sparks a cigarette.
âBut donâ touch anything in the house. Not a fuckinâ thing.â He practically spits out at you, his words shivering down your spine as you take it, because he isnât the first man to send a blow your way.
âMary prepare a room for Miss Fiona and her boy.â Mr. Shelby orders. And just like that, youâve changed your sonâs world.
 Mr. Shelby is cold and distant, and you expect nothing less of a man whoâs lost his heart. So you keep your distance and attend to the little one.Â
Charlie is easy to care for, easy to love. Heâs sweet and joyful, and the boys have taken to each other easily.Â
The only hardship is the way he breaks your heart every time he calls for his mum. You wish you knew her. Knew how to bring her to life for him.
The house is bigger than any youâve ever stayed in, but still Mr. Shelby and his moods manage to find you even inside these many rooms.Â
You know you shouldnât be surprised. Not after the way you heard his family talking about his current state earlier in the morning.Â
But still, the way he comes at you, almost as if on attack, as if he needs to bite at something to lick his own wounds, and youâre the nearest one in sight, takes even you by surprise.
Youâre preparing a picnic for the children since the sun has decided to come out from its hiding place, when Mr. Shelby thinks itâs time to a have a word.
âI asked around about yeahâŚâ He starts as he appears suddenly, standing across from you in the white tiled kitchen.Â
Youâre unsure if his interlude is supposed to stir a response, but you pay it no mind, barely glancing over his way as you await him to continue.
âThought I hired a good catholic widow.â He says, his words low and full of innuendo as he pulls at a cigarette on his lips.
Your hands settle from the basket youâre tending to and offer him the undivided attention he seems insistent on having.
âI am a good catholic.â You tell him, looking him square in the eye, unflinching, because youâve heard worse, from worse and you decided long ago others werenât going to define you.
âAye, a good fucking catholic girl who got herself pregnant outside of marriage.â He says, with that unflinching stare you can sense has a way of riling people up.
And itâs good, heâs good at pushing all the right buttons, because the indignant way he speaks to you easily serves its purpose and instantly youâre defensive of his claim.
âHe loved me.â You defiantly tell him and anyone else who will listen.Â
How dare he take the moral high ground. He may have friends, and those with loose lips who are quick to pass judgement upon you, but youâre no fool to Mr. Shelbyâs doings either.Â
You know about the Peak Blinders, everyone in these parts does. How dare he think he has a leg to stand on talking to you about morality.
âThat why he ran off to the war stead of makinâ an honest woman of you?â He carries on, undiminished by the fire on your tongue.Â
And you know you should shut up, leave it be. This man has given you a job, given you and your child room and board, food in your bellies, living in a place far more grand than any you ever could have imagined. But even now, all these years later, you canât rest when others presume to know how your son came to be a bastard, as they are so quick to call him to your face and behind your back.
âHe didnât know about the baby and when I sent word, he gave me his. Even from the pits of hell over there he promised weâd marry once he came home, but he never made it back. Swallowed up like the rest of âem to slaughter.â Tears biting at your eyes as you push them down and tighten your jaw.
âSo you Mr. Shelby, you and all the others, you know nothing of it. Not a thing.â You unleash upon him.Â
You know the sins you committed. Know the price you and your son will pay for the rest of your lives, but you werenât some foolish girl who got taken for a ride. And youâre tired of the world pretending as if you were.
Mr. Shelbyâs goes silent with your confession, his face expressionless, but his eyes hold upon you, steady with you.Â
You get the sense youâve taken him by surprise. Maybe he wasnât expecting such a fervent response, maybe he didnât think you had fire in your belly, or maybe what Polly had told you was true, he knows a little something about the prices of war.Â
Whatever the reason, Mr. Shelby doesnât speak again and as your burners cool, you begin to feel the need to backtrack before you ruin a good thing for your son.
âI apologize Mr. Shelby. I shouldnât have spoken to you like that.â You say formally, cordially, albeit forced, before you scoop up the biscuits and jam, placing them into the open basket resting on the butcher block before you.
âNow if youâll excuse me, Iâm taking the children for a picnic while the weather still permits.â You say softly before making a hasty escape.
Youâre nearly free, basket in hand, eyes staying steady down around your hands as you try to slip past him, but his arm drops down, blocking your passage, and youâre forced to look up at him, awaiting his word.
In your short time there youâve learned Mr. Shelby has a way of taking up space, filling even the largest of rooms when he stands in them.Â
You find Mr. Shelbyâs gaze waiting for you, and you brace yourself for the repercussion of your quick temper, but they never come.
âI didnâtâŚâ He starts, his words stalling as he pulls at the cigarette on his lips.
You can feel heâs struggling, fighting with an apology of some sort. So you set him free.
âNo need. Youâre entitled to your opinions, Mr. Shelby. I appreciate everything youâve done for me and my son. Given me a job in all.â You say, the blue of his eyes holding you captive.Â
The depth of them like a pit that could swallow you up if you stand too close to its edge.
âCharlie likes you.â He notes on a long breath, his words easing the tension thick between you.
âAnd I adore him.â You say simply.
Your answer pleases him and seems to diffuse the moment as he offers you a quick nod and lets you pass.