Always With You (Bucky Barnes)

Always With You (Bucky Barnes)

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This is my entry for the @marvelxreaderfanfictionfest eaderfanfictionfest Bucky Barnes Valentine Exchange, thank you for having me!

My prompt was: Modern Bucky (I’m also okay with an AU!Bucky if they prefer like biker or mob or professor, etc.) + hurt/comfort with fluff

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Words: 1136

They came back again.

Bucky knew he had to live with them for the rest of his life, he was used to it, but still he didn’t like the feeling on his stomach when he woke up sweating and grabbing his own neck, almost choking himself almost into death because the fear of screaming and alarming his girl and the neighbors.

Yes, it was that bad.

He was used to it already but he didn’t want her to know how bad it was, he wanted her naive and ignorant at this, it wasn't her job to deal with them, just his. Bucky knew he wouldn't fall back asleep, so trying to not woke her up, he untangled himself off the bed sheet, putting them aside, jumping off the bed, warm feet touching the cold floor, he moved to his side of the closet, grabbing a pair of sweats and hoodie, he put them on fast and leaving the room..

Years of being an assassin made him be fast and quiet, without any sound he arrived at the front door, putting his snickers on he opened the door,stopping and thinking for a second before catching his bike’s keys and closing the door slowly, not making any sound at all.

The cool air hit him in the face, it felt good, he finally felt like he could breath, his mind still recreating the same image - him killing, the scared look of most of his victims...- sighing again, he moved towards his parked bike. It’s been forever since he used it, not having the need, using a new one at work, but thinking about it, he missed his old friend, he enjoyed riding it most of the time,so he decided, why not, he didn’t have anything to lose. Riding it, he put the key in the starter gear , the sound of his old baby made him smile, he really missed her, gassing her up, he began to leave the house behind.

The street was quiet and empty, he didn’t even know where he was heading, his mind blank as his mind began to forget about his nightmares, the air still hitting him straight in the face, cooling him down, relaxing him, he got lost on the feeling of the adrenaline of being fast, the speeding went up, as his grip tightened on the handle, he knew when he had to calm, the speed now was lower, making him just appreciate the city, the sky was clear, it was in fact a perfect night.

Bucky rode for minutes, hours, he didn’t mind the time, he needed this, needed his time, needed to come back to her without any single sign of him having a hard time, he wanted to be okay, for her. SLowing for a moment, he looked up, the sun starting to shine… He decided to go back home before she woke up he began to ride to their home, once he arrived he hop off from the bike, leaving her on it’s spot, and with a last look, he entered the house, leaving the shoes at the front door, he made his way towards the bathroom, looking himself at the mirror as he undressed himself, needing a shower.

The shower helped him to relax a bit more, his head now accepting his present, the nightmare slowly fading as the water fell, warming his body. He didn’t hear the door open till he heard her voice.

‘’Are you okay?’’ Her voice was sleepy and sweet, Bucky could feel the worry in her voice. He didn’t reply, instead the sound of a ‘mmh’’ let his mouth. ‘’Baby?’’ She moved closer to the shower, eyes open now, worry painted all over her face.

Bucky's chest warmed as he moved to her, grabbing a towel for himself before wrapping his arms around her waist, she moved closer, flushing herself into his arms. ‘’I am fine now, sorry for waking you up, Amor.’’

‘’James, don’t lie to me, I know you ain’t fine at all. Talk to me. please.’’ She could feel Bucky's chest move, as he sighed hard. ‘’Please.’’

‘’It’s just… I don’t know. My head is playing with me, I try to move on, but the nightmares keep coming and I really don’t know how to deal with them. I know I am not the same person and I know that what happened wasn’t my fault but still can’t help to feel ashamed and guilty, and my mind ain’t helping me.. I just, I don’t know.’’

‘’Oh baby... come here.’’ She moved him to her chest, making him cuddle into her, Bucky closed his eyes, relaxing as he could feel and listen to her heartbeat. ‘’ I know it’s been difficult for you since you came back and honestly I don’t know how to make this go away, if I could I would, but I can’t. I just want you to know that I’ll be always here for you baby, no matter what, if the nightmares are bad or if you feel bad about anything, just talk to me, you don’t have to keep it to yourself, I want to help how ever I can, I want to hold you when you need it or feel like it, please don't think you being touched because your past ain’t worth my time because that’s no true. I care for you and your feelings are important to me, too, I want to be your partner in every meaning of the word, so please, don’t ever feel the need to avoid talking to me, if you feel like not talking just tell me and I’ll hold you, or if you want to be alone, let me know and I’ll let you be, but talk to me, let me know how you feel.’’

Bucky’s eyes began to fill with tears, his own heart beating fast at the meaning of her words, he loved her so much, he felt like he didn’t deserve her love at all.

She sighed and kissed his hair, still wet from the shower,shaking her hair. ‘’Your hair still wet, you’re going to catch a cold, let’s dry it, come on.’’

Bucky pouted, not wanting to move. ‘’Don’t really want to...’’. But he still moved. Plugging in the dryer, she began to dry up his hair, hands messing with the shorts strands.

‘’ You know, I love you with your hair short, it shows more your face and I love watching your face.’’ She smiled, kissing his nape, and humming as she kept drying his hair. She could feel the blushing begin to form and a giggle left her mouth as Bucky let himself relax between her arms once again, ignoring his own shyness, he whispered an I love you, smiling happily as he heard those words back at him.

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Lessons; chapter two

Lesson 2: Blowjob

To say that things got weird was an understatement, Steve couldn’t see you the same way he used to,hell no, now everytime he had to be in the same room as you, an instant boner apparead, remembering your kisses, the way you moved and how wet you got because of him, because of his cock. He couldn’t help it before and sure as hell couldn't help it now after what the both of you did together, and he wanted more. He was too excited to know what was the second step, he was curious and nervous too, fuck, he didn’t know what to expect but he was ready for whatever you wanted to show him.

It really shocked him when you told him what the both of you were about to do, he knew about oral sex, hell, he watched two o three videos about it, and he thought it was disgusting at first, until he saw the men’s faces when the girls sucked them off and when they cummed he could practically see how much they enjoyed it, but what Steve liked the most, was how well their lady friend seemed to be enjoying doing the blowie, swallowing the men till they were worn out, making him want to experience it with someone who would enjoy do it.

He never really thought he would actually met somebody who wanted to do it, nor somebody who trusted enough for him do it, he really was an old man, not knowing how to act at your news about teaching him about oral sex He wanted you to be his first on teaching him on oral sex ,of course, and on sex in general, still he didn't know how to act at your boldness.

‘’Usually dudes love this, so I think you would love this too. You don’t need to do anything at all, just relax and enjoy the experience. ‘’You laugh at his face. ‘’Don’t look at me like that, you going to be just fine. not much to learn here.”

You smiled and proceed to kiss him, wanting him to just relax, his kisses made you feel just like the last time, horny and eager, you liked his kisses a lot more than you would admit to anyone.

He was sitting on his bed now, but you, you were on your knees, in between his hard legs,Steve was trying too hard to not come at the sight of you, on your knees for him. He really never thought about you going on your knees to do him, he gulped, and you noticed him.

‘’Steve, breathe, I’m not doing anything yet. You look like you’re going to die.’’

He could die right now, and he would be happy about it.

You looked at him, “Are you ready? We can just stop here or wait until you feel comfortable, Steve. I want you to enjoy this.”

He was ready, was he? He sure as hell wasn't but he needed it, he was dreaming for it. The moment you got on your knees the only thought that went on Steve’s brain was how his cock would feel on your mouth, so yeah, he was not ready at all to feel that because but he WANTED it and he felt safe around you, so he nodded as he moved his hips up and put his pants and boxers off.

Steve was HARD. Just with a kiss and his cock was ready for whatever you were about to give to him, he didn't know what to think about it, he didn’t expect you affecting him like that.

Wetting your lips again you tried to take your time, it was his first time after all, if you weren’t careful at all it would be over before you started and you wanted him to enjoy this as much you would be enjoying it.

‘’I’m going to touch you, okay?’’

Steve’s eye widen, how would your hands feel around him…? Like heaven. He moaned as your hands touched his cock firmily, he tensed as you began to move your hand slowly, too slowly for his like. ‘’Fuck. That feels good.’’

‘’Does it?’’

‘’It does, please don’t stop, please.’’ Okay, now he was ready for everything you wanted to do as long as it felt just as good as your hands did.

You smiled as you keept moving your hand arund him, he was huge and your hand couldn’t close around him, still you mainteneid the grip around him, moving your hand up and down. You could feel everything, the vein that went from the tip to the bottom of hi shag till the pulsatiions of his cock. You watched intensly when a drop of pre cum, left the tip, you wanted to taste him…

Steve was wrong again, he wasn’t ready AT ALL. The exact moment your toungue licked the tip, he could feel himself gone, but when you sucked the tip and went really down on him he really didn’t care if he would gone for real now. Your mouth was hot, wet and tight. You sucked and licked him so damn good, he couldn't believe he once thought that this was gross, gross his ass.

‘’Fuck me.’’ The words dies on his mouth. Steve watched in awe how your mouth kept sucking his dick, he groaned as his hips moved up wanting to introduce himself further into your mouth.

You smiled, making Steve curse, it was sexy and the fact that he liked it and wanted more made all this even hotter and you wanted him to be loud, because a man who praised an moaned loud was such a damn turn on for you. Sucking harder you added your hand at the bottom of his cock, you began to play with your tongue all over the top as you moved your hand all the way up and down, as you did so, a new drop of pre cum invaded your mouth, Steve taste was intoxicating, salty and very tasty, you lick the top again loving just loving the way he tasted. You were enjoying this too much, you could feel your pussy wetting at every suck you did to his cock, you pussy hurting with the need of being touched or fucked to be more specific.

‘’Ah, fuck. This is too good.’’ Steve felt like he was in heaven, literally. He couldn't move his eyes away from your mouth, he didn’t want to miss the way your mouth worked around him, sucking him, devouring him. He was 100% sure that he would never forget how good you looked, how you seemed to be enjoying sucking him off.

Too soon for his dismay, Steve knew he was going to come, his body was hot all over and his breath wasn’t that calm anymore. he couldn't fight it, just the way you looked could make a man cum in his pants.

‘’Im-- Im going to come… soon’’.

You hummed, letting him know that you were ready for him , that he could cum in your mouth without a problem, hell your mind was blinded and your tongue was anxious to taste him.

Steve couldn’t help it when your mouth went south and touched one of his little friends, his body tensed and as the first drop of cum left his tip as a loud groan left his mouth, his hands tangled harder in your hair making you stop from moving as he began to fuck your mouth with slow thrust as his cum kept filling your mouth, when he finally emptied himself, his hips stopped moving a his breath went still.

You swallowed looking up at him, his taste making you even more horny, not moving a muscle as you saw how his body began to relax, you were so damn hot for him, you wanted, needed him to fuck you NOW, but you knew he wasn't ready for it, not today, at least. Your mouth was still on him, sucking slowly now waiting to him for be the one who pull away when he wanted to. He did eventually,slowly, leaving his taste on your tongue.

Steve opened his eyes, blue shining, he looked like he was floating. A wide smile spreaded on his face as he focused his sight on you . ‘’I want to make you feel good too.”

‘’Sorry, you what?’’ You didn’t expect that at all.

‘’I want to go down on you, teach me how to please you,please? I really want to make you feel just as good as you made me feel, please?” He was practically begging you to let him go down on you

How could you say no to that?

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@endlessbucky you got a gift! I hope you like this and you’re left satisfied <3 This is my entry for the @marvelxreaderfanfictionfest Bucky Barnes Valentine Exchange! My prompt was: Best friends to lovers, Bucky and reader being cute and in love. This was my first secret santa experience and it was really fun! Thank you for having me :)

words: 2.8k

pairing: Bucky Barnes x female Reader

warnings: swearing, fluff, kissing, making out, a little embarrassment, modern AU, canon divergent, implied smut, friends to lovers, clichée

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You were viciously knocking on the sturdy wooden door of Bucky’s apartment, a bottle of red children’s sparkling wine in your unoccupied hand. Your coat is heavy on your shoulders, but the harsh cold and cutting wind forced you to put on the extra warm clothes. On your way here it even began to snow, some flakes still clinging to your hair. Your fingers feel numb and you mentally scold yourself for not wearing gloves.

Suddenly the door swings open and a grinning Bucky beams at you, “Finally you’re here doll. I thought I’d be starved by the time you’d arrive” Rolling your eyes, you step into the flat, “Stop being so dramatic, it’s two in the afternoon and I know for a fact you ate a burrito for lunch”. The man clutches his chest in mock pain and groans, “You wound me, Y/n”, he whimpers, the smirk never leaving his lips. “Wait, how did you know I had a burrito?” You throw him a playful glare, “You posted it on Snapchat”.

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Feelings PART 1

Summary: He wanted something new, something that just belongs to him and he decided it should be you. He wants you, he wants a life with you but there are some things which make this difficult. 

Pairings: BuckyxYou

Warnings: this is my first englisch wirrten story ever! it is not my mother tongue (I am German) so I apologize for my syntax and choice of words. But I hope you will still somehow enjoy it :) 

When she awakes, she was in the hospital. She could easy tell, by the scent of antiseptics, the sad white and sterile walls and not least of the noises the room makes. The monotonic beep of the mechanicals next to her and the Nurses calling for doctors and medicaments on the floor. But how the hell did she ended up here? She can’t remember much, but something hit her head really hard and after that, there was just pure darkness around her. Passing out sucks, especially when you don’t know why or where you pass out.

As she slowly opens her eyes, she swallowed a few times dry. She was thirsty, so thirsty, so the next question is, how long did she was here? It had be longer than a day, based on the dehydration in her moth but she hoped it was not longer than a week.

„You are awake“ this voice, so familiar. Deep - definitely male - a bit scratchy and crooked, as it would have lost the volume over the time. „H-ey, Steve“ her voice was even scratchier, as she would have smoked a whole package of cigarettes. „You sound horrible“ „I bet i even look worse“ „Don’t be too hard on yourself“ he joked a bit, as he stand up from his chair and came up to her bed. She put her head a little bit on the side, to have a better few on him. She will never get used to see him as an old man. For her, he will always be the good looking, young, blonde Soldier which woke up from the ice.

„Ho-w did i get here?“ „You can’t remember?“ „I remember mostly everything up to the moment, when something hit my head. After that? Darkness “ „Hit? No“ he shook his head and looked concerned at her. „No? What you mean?“ „Somebody shoot your head“ „Shoot?“ „Yes“ „Who?“ she pulled her eyebrows together and looked at him, waiting for an answer. Steve did not answer that, it was not important. She should not care for the sniper, because, somebody probably already took care of it. „You need to be more careful“ „I know“ „No you don’t. Bucky was really worried about you! The feeling of not being able to protect you, kills him“ „Well, we are partners. I can relate to that. Where is he?“ „Mission. Sam took him for several ones. Otherwise he would go wild, because he was so angry at himself. He was about to destroy the training room, because of that. So we needed to keep him busy“ „Understand. How is the mission going?“ „You should not worry about the mission. Get healthy again. You know…. he visited you every day, in between the missions“ „Wait…. wait a sec. In between the Missions? How long did i sleep?“ she looked at him questioningly, as he needed to look away in pain. She was away, for a long time and he didn’t know if she was quite ready yet to know how long exactly it was.  „Steve!“ based on his reaction it have had to be a very long time. „tell me! Now!“ „3 months“ he answers with a sad tone and pressed voice. „Th-three months? a quarter of a year?“ „Yes. You injury was very bad so the doctors said, it would be the best to put you in an artificial coma so your body can heal“ „Three….. months. W-What happens during that time?“ „Nothing you should be worried about. Sam und Bucky continue to full-fill their missions and they visit you. Sam less frequent than Bucky. The other avengers? Well, nothing changed since the last time you saw them. They need to find their own way after Natasha’s and Tony’s death. One step at the time“ „And you? What are you doing here?“ „Well…. Bucky ask me, if i could stay here with you. So, when you awake, you are not alone“ „Well… that’s kind of him“ she nodded tiredly and still seemed to be completely overwhelmed by the situation. He did not say anything more a thought, it would be the best, if he let her alone for a while. „Call me, if you need something okay? I will be out for a while, getting some fresh air“ „Okay“

When he stepped outside the hospital, took his phone out of this pocket and immediately called his childhood friend. he promised to call him, when she wakes up and he is not there. So he can calm himself down about her a bit. It was fascinating watching these two people, how they obviously and deeply care for each other but at the same time are too stupid to admit it to each other. They first meet each other at Natasha’s and Tony’s funeral. Everyone was wondering, who she was and she just explained, that she had the pleasure to work with Natasha several times in her early Shield days, so he wanted to pay the last respects to her. A few days later, Sam said, that he found something interesting in Tony’s old files about some HYDRA facilities which are still active. So they formed a task force to shut down the last few pieces of HYDRA once and for all. Bucky and her got along well, because she did not reduced him to his past only. She saw him as a Soldier and a partner during the missions and that’s what helped Bucky to get off his depression. At least a little bit. He was thankful for her and stared to care about her more and more deeply. Since Shuri manage to get HYDRA out of his head, he was able to feel more and more clear again. After all, it’s more than 70 years since his last date, kiss, dance or general interaction with a woman. And she makes it easy for him to be around her.

„Hey Bud“ „I am kind of busy right now, can I call you back“ „She is awake, see you later“ and the immediately hung up the phone and smiled. Well, he should make a bet with Sam how long it will take Bucky to get his ass over here. Maybe a few hours? Well, we will see.

Indeed it did not took him long to came to the hospital and as he arrived, Steve was sitting on a bench and holding a coffee in his hands. He theatrically looked at his watch. He was right, i did not took him long to arrive here - three hours to be correct. Well, seems like his current mission was nearby. „Hey buddy“ „You just hang up!“ „You said you were busy and i did not was to disturb you from whatever you were doing“ „I told you to call me when he wakes, so i can come! That would never had disturbed me“ he took a deep breath and looked up to the hospital sign. „How is she? Something bad?“ „Nothing permanent. But she is shocked that she was in a coma for so long. Guess she need some time to process it“ „well its nothing against being frozen for more over a decade“ „Well“ Steve shook his head in disagreement. Theoretically he was right about that but he could not just say that in front of her. For normal people - like her - this is a big deal „Do not say it like that. She is exhausted and overstrained, i guess. Just“ „Yeah i know…. but…. she remembers everything? Like… everything?“ „She said yes. Why?“ „Just…. curios“ he wanted to go inside, but Steve stopped him for another second. „You are not ‚just curios‘! What happened, pal?“ „Nothing“ „Please! I am old but not stupid! Come on, tell me!“ he wrestled with himself, if he go up there to see her or telling his friend about it. His first thought? That was the one, which was winning. „I tell you but not now. I need to see her first, then i will tell you“ „Something good or something bad, Bucky? Do we need to grab a beer or standing at the edge of a bridge?“ „Maybe both“ he smiled and then turned towards the hospital’s door and go through it with faster steps. He was nervous, to talk to her again in three months. It actually was not that long of a time period but it felt like forever.

He took the stairs, rushing them upwards. the elevator would have been too slow and to be honest, he was faster than the elevator. When he was in the right floor, his heart beat was really high. Not because of the short exercise but in inner restlessness about her. There was something the both haven’t had time to talk about. And when they wanted to do, she got shoot. This night, bevor they started the mission, there was something between them. Something light and exciting. The last time he felt that, was ages ago, when he was a young man in his own time, talking to a girl in school. But it was there, just for the blink of a moment but he remembered these few seconds for the past three months and every-time he closed his eyes, he felt that again. He was used to have nightmares during his sleep but since he got this little thing to dream about, he does not! That’s huge for him. He wanted that moment to last longer and longer and longer and he wanted to be clear about it. Was it just a moment? Was a fragment of reality or just imagination in the heat of the moment? He felt good and he wanted to feel good again. Since his mind become more and more clear, old feelings, manners, behaviorism started to turn back again. And suddenly, he was again an 19 year old boy.

He did not need to look at the signposts. he visited her often enough to even know the way, while he would have been blindfolded. He goes through the corridor, until he reached the end and then on his right side, there was the room where she was sleeping in. He formally knocked bevor he slowly opened the door. He took one last deep breath, bevor he wanted to enter the room, just to see her struggling to stand in a straight position and were about to fall down to the floor. He rushed in - it just took him a few steps - to grab her body tight and prevent her from falling down. „Jeez - what are you doing?!“ His metal arm, safe and strong around her waist and the other one seize her legs under the her popliteal fossa, to lift her up, just to carry her on hands, so she is safe again. „Wuh - sometimes i forget how fast you are“ she did not look concerned about her situation, even sounded like she would laugh at herself. „you slept for three month! Take it easy on you“ „Easy to say that, you can use your legs. by the way: hi“ „Hi there“ on the other side, he did not looked that amused about the situation. Sure, falling on the ground from that high would not made her fall into coma again, but still! He head is hurt and he is pretty sure, that falling on it, would not make it better! „Why so serious, i was not about to jump out of the window. I just wanted to have something to drink and do not wanted to bother the nurses“ „That their job, bother them“ „You are so sincere again. Nothing had changed over the past few months i have been passing out“ she smiled and looked him in the eyes. Like said, he was not amused. Actually he felt quite the opposite! Firstly she got shoot and now she is so careless about her health! Unbelievable! „Here. Lay down. I get you something to drink“ he gently put her down on the bed again, bevor he had over to the bathroom and filled an empty tooth mug with water and bring it to her. „Thanks! I was nearly dried out and my legs are not working as they should be“ „clearly“ „So…“ she take the mug with water gladly and took a few sips out of it. „News?“ „News? You want to talk about news?“ „I do not know…. what else should we talking about?“ „Maybe about your injured head? What about that?“ „The doctors said, it is fine“ she waved it off. „Fine? What does fine mean?“ „Well i guess, just fine? Like, i will probably not die in the next few hours but i probably have a little headache from time to time?“ „Please take that seriously“ „I do! I was kind of down because of it but after the docs said, i was lucky and nothing was damaged i started to, just wave it off. Like…. nothing serious happened. Why bothering?“ „Because i saw you bleeding from the head after someone tried to kill you“ „There is always somebody who will try to kill us - Hydra is basically everywhere“ „I don’t care if they try to kill me“ his voice was deeper as usual and lower, sad and hollow as it would have lose his power. His eyes went quite empty and it was, as you could see right through them. From Steve she knew that if it wasn’t for him, Bucky would have killed himself way earlier as soon as he got clear the first time. He felt so guilty for the thing he did, during his brainwashed times and the worst part of it, he remembered it all, ever face, everyone’s last words and the fear in their eyes. And these moments, will haunt him until his death. And even though it wasn’t his fault in the first place, he blames himself for it, because he survived the fall from the train. He is foreign in this age, his only friend decided to get back in time to life a life he deserved and left behind. „Hey Buck“ she reached out her hand towards his face to touch it gently, so he would look at her. „I would be pretty pissed off if you die! I tell you, i excavate the notebook from Hydra and reactivate you! I am telling you, i will do it!“ „You know what?  I believe you“ „You better!“ she smiled and hoped, that someday he will forget this self-hate feelings and start to have a life. At least, that what she hoped for him, since he can’t go back in time and start all over again, like Steve did.

And there was it again. The moment she touched him? tingle in his stomach he forget he could have, the last time ages ago. And then he remembered what he wanted to talk about her. Thinking about it, his heart goes wild and he certainly forget his words. He feels like an insecure school boy again, an jeez - he never had problems to talk to girls. That was Steve’s thing but normally he was good at these things. He is turning into Steve - what an unpleasant imagination, right now. „Do you remember everything?“ „except the exact moment of the shoot, yes“ „Sure?“ „Pretty, yes“ „So you remember the night before the mission?“ „I do“ she nodded calmly and noticed, that he was waiting for a reaction. „You kissed me“ she added and smiled warmly. „At least I tried. it’s been a while“ he tries to ease the situation a bit with humor, which went quite well. She smiled cheerfully and looked away for a few seconds. She was nervous too, he could easy tell by the changing red color of her face and her nervous giggling. Damn, she looked cute, while he tried to cover her red face. Back then he knew, that it was usually a good sign when the girl, was kind of nervous too. But back then he was used to get girls for just a short time period to have a bit fun and then left them behind. And also, the girls back then where just the same age as him not well trained agents as her. „You did good“ she nodded and closed her eyes for a second and tried to calm herself a bit. „very good actual. For not kissing a girl for over a half century, you did great, old man“ „Don’t tease me“ he rolled his eyes but smiled too. After that there was a long pause, until her face turned a bit more serious and took a deep breath. „Bucky…. I like you as a friend“ „Ouch - friend-zoning is something i new from my age too“ „No no no, it’s not that! Maybe i stared the wrong way. I know you as a friend, and we work together as partners in missions a-and i want to like you as the man you are. That kiss, that night? Was a start. But i guess…. taking it slow is the best way to do it. Like, the old school way“ „Old school? I can do that“ „But well for you it’s not old school, more like the normal way to do it“ „Right“ „And right now? I just need to get my life back together. I can’t even walk to get myself a glass of water. So right now, i need to deal with some other things“ „I can help you. I am done with missions for a while. I do not want to have to do something for a while“ „I would like it, when you helped me. After all you are strong and have a metal arm. That can come handy“ „Handy? In what way?“ „You will find our soon enough“ her smile was slightly devilish and ambiguous. „What you mean?“ „water“ „Hun“ „Can you get me some more water, please?“ she changed the topic obviously but he decided to go with that. „Sure“ he grabbed the empty mug and stood up from the bed. „When can you leave that place?“ „Today“ „Great“ „but they do not recommend it“ „Why?“ „because i can’t walk and i have an apartment with stairs, so the docs said, that it would be better if i stay here until i can walk normally again. They prescribe physiatrist a few hours the week, to faster the process of regaining my walk ability and overall musculoskeletal system“ she seems annoyed by this and he can relate to that. During his time in Wakanda, he needed to visited the medical center daily to let Shuri do something with his mind. After weeks - months - of work, he was able to live a normal life as a goat farmer. But in his case, it was different. He needed that time and to let his psychology heal from Hydra but her? Nah - she will be fine, with leaving the hospital today. „But you can leave?“ „Sure, i can“ „Good. Tell them you will“ „B-But!“ „Do not worry about it. I will take care of it“ „Bucky!“ „But on the other hand…. after a few days you will probably wish to go back to the hospital and the physiatrist here. I am maybe less patient than they are but you will be able to walk faster“ „Sooooo, you say, you are my physiatrist?“ „Let’s call it, instructor“ „Instruction? Sergeant Barnes, are you having something evil in mind?“ „Maybe“ „But i am just a weak little girl“ „You are by far many things, but a weak little girl is none of these“ „Sure about that?“ „I am. Never been so sure about something“ „Well…. then - you are free to kidnap me from the hospital now!“