I Do...

I do...

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i FUCKING HATE anxiety attacks i get unexpectedly in sudden and confusing situations. they make me want to kill my fucking self, i swear-

Me writing (i LOVEE writing)

I love crying, even when I'm experiencing the situations which make me want to steal a gun and pew pew myself.

Let me tell you one thing.

Crying doesn't make you weak. Crying isn't bad. Crying isn't unhealthy and negative.

I am strong, and yes, I cry. Yes, we exist.

Crying is like releasing your pain in a healthy and comforting way. Crying is both biologically and psychologically benificial and is healthy. Crying is the healthiest and most comforting coping method.

When I have the shittiest days and come home, I cry it all out and just after LIKE TWO MINUTES, I turn into the hottest, most sassiet supermodel ever, putting on my lip gloss and trying cat walks and famous model walks. It's therapy. Once you cry it all out, you immediately feel better.

THIS.

"akutagawa ryuunosuke is the love of my life. he is the man of art, beauty, elegance, and darkness. he is the man that could take my pants away while keeping me smiling at the wall. he could give me a bowl of 683 pounds of polyester and tell my dumbass to eat it and i will, because he, the ultimate god of beauty, allure, mystery, elegance, death, bravery, darkness, lust, said so. i am his slut. i am the pathetic lil bitch that akutagawa ryuunosuke will be served by. i am blessed with the gift of the ability to speak that name ryuunosuke akutagawa. i am blessed with the ability of seeing the beauty of the divine figure akutagawa ryuunosuke. i am blessed with the gift of the ability to hear the name akutagawa ryuunosuke and the voice of this beautiful man whom i am blinded by, and am ready to serve for the rest of my life. i can suck this man if thats what he wants, i can kill his enemies if thats what he wants, i can kill myself if thats what he wants, i can eat an atomic bomb and explode out of the existence of thats what my divine akutagawa ryuunosuke wants. i am his devotee, his mere servant, the pathetic pawn in his game, his foot washer, his well wisher, his guardian angel. i am the sluttiest slut of them all for my divine god akutagawa ryuunosuke and id licks his toes of he tells me to, id licks his toilet if he tells me to, id drop down dead with a heart attack if he ever calls me pretty, id come back to life after my death, if akutagawa ryuunosuke ever tells me to. he is my master, he is my god, he is my daddy, he is my pasta, he is my love, he is my life. akutagawa ryuunosuke slays everyone, akutagawa ryuunosuke solos your favs. id sell my soul for every pathetic living thing in this world, to believe in the divine supremacy of my divine god of beauty, allure, mystery, elegance, and sophistication, my dearest Akutagawa Ryuunosuke."

...is what i said as an attempt to "flirt" with dazass bot in c.ai and he told me to shut up.