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Hii I Have An Angst Scenario Where Levis So Gets Trapped Under A Collapsed Building After A Titan Attack
Hii I have an angst scenario where levis so gets trapped under a collapsed building after a titan attack because she was saving civilians -with a happy ending please :3
Out of the Ashes
Pairing: Canon!Levi x F!Reader
Work count: 6.4K
Warnings: Canon typical violence
A/N: god you people know me so well at this point. I. LOVE. WRITING. HURT/COMFORT. PLEASE the angst is just the best. i love all your requests but hurt/comfort just holds a special place in my heart⌠FUN FACT! this is actually named after my favourite Michael Morpurgo book i read as a kid :,)
i hope this is what you hand in mind ^-^

You could never just have one fucking day to yourself, could you? There always had to be one thing after another, one disaster immediately following the next. It was how you found yourself zipping around Trost district, slicing through nape after nape.
Vibrations rattled the legs of your bones as you quickly kicked off the wall of a spire, sending yourself through the outstretched fingers of a 15m, before it's nape too was swiftly taken care of.
This was a shitshow. An absolute fucking shitshow. Once again humanity had been caught unawares by the Colossal and Armoured titans, somehow taking out your defences as if they were punching and kicking through paper. And not a Scout in sight. The Garrison were doing as much as they could, protecting civilian lives and evacuating them to the gates, but it wasnât enough. It was never enough.
You winced as you landed on a rooftop, your knee giving out slightly as it buckled beneath the impact and your weight. It was the reason youâd stayed behind rather than heading out on the most recent expedition. Managing to pop your knee out of place when taking a hit for another soldier on the last mission had hindered your mobility too much to ride a horse, much to your dismay, and Leviâs relief.
Youâd been dating for some time now. When you first met him, you still being a cadet and him fresh from the underground city, you thought he was the most annoying, foul tempered, vile humoured, prickly little bastard youâd ever had the displeasure of meeting, often finding yourselves provoking each other, belittling each other or just plain ignoring each other. That was until a particularly harsh expedition roughly eight months after your begrudging introductions. The same expedition where youâd lost your best friend. Sheâd been with you since you were cadets. You were partners in crime, two peas in a pod, she was your ride or die. And then she did die. She died protecting you, throwing you clear of a crawling titanâs jumping trajectory and quite literally sacrificing herself to save your pathetic little life.
You were barely holding yourself together, your sanity hanging on by a quickly fraying thread, when he made a comment about you being here and not her. It didnât have his usual biting tone, but the words were there nonetheless, and you snapped. You snapped and punched him square in the jaw, the faintest crack gracing your ears as you raised your fist to strike again, before two arms looped beneath your armpits and held you back. Of course you struggled against it, you wanted to fucking kill him. Not for what he said, but for being right about it. She had given her life to save you. You, of all people. And you screamed at him. Screamed every damn word about how stupid she was, how fucking ridiculous she was that sheâd had chosen you over herself. How pitiful and shameful it was that you were the one to live. How you knew every single damn insult that was about to fly from his mouth because youâd already thought of it beforehand. Youâd already realised before he even had time to say anything that yes, it was a great fucking shame that you were the one to return and she wasnât.
It was only when you fell quiet did you realise the entire courtyard was looking at you in sympathetic pity, and you hated those looks. You didnât want pity when you were just stating facts, and the raging fire in your shining eyes told Levi just that, before the flames were quenched completely. You relaxed in Hangeâs grip, now realising it was your mutual friend who had stopped you from going berserk, and there was no other way to describe you other than fractured. You looked tired, broken. Like an old toy nobody wanted to play with anymore, left on the shelf to gather dust and cobwebs.
When youâd later discussed this incident a little further into your relationship, Levi described you like he was watching sunlight bleach the cover of a book, or grey skies sapping the green from the trees. You drained of colour before his eyes, monochrome replacing the fiery oranges and striking reds heâd always seen you as, before you silently walked away. Nobody went after you, everyone having heard your outburst knew what youâd just experienced, and knew you probably wanted to be left alone. But by the fourth day of not hearing your random biting remarks about whatever tea he was drinking, heâd started to realise he actually missed you. He missed hearing your laughter in the mess hall, as much as he used to claim he hated it. He missed seeing your scowl whenever you made eye contact with him. And though that punch really fucking hurt, he missed when you were paired up during hand to hand combat practice, feeling you give every strike your all, watching your eyes light up whenever you manage to gain the upper hand. He missed you. Fuck, he really missed you.
So by the end of the fourth day, Levi took his metaphorical olive branch in the form of a tray of tea and two bowls of soup, to your door.
You shared a dorm with your best friend, or rather, you did. But it didnât exactly look like a dorm, more like the site of a titan massacre. Whatever anguished rage you couldnât take out on Levi had been taken out on your possessions, and on hers. Picture frames had been shattered, pillows had been torn apart, clothes ripped from their drawers or closets and flung in any and all directions. The wooden bedframe had splintered under the weight of one of your kicks, and small splatters of blood decorated the floorboards where youâd sliced your foot open on broken glass.
A sharp intake of breath was the only sound your soon-to-be lover made as the door slowly creaked open. Nobody had been in here, not even Hange, since youâd locked yourself away. Well, not locked, only high upâs doors could lock, but youâd shut yourself away nonetheless. And Levi then immediately understood what you were going through, because he went through something extremely similar not eight months previous. His eyes fell to you, curled up in a corner by your bed, not even sitting on the stripped, ruined mattress. Whether youâd noticed him come in or not, he couldnât tell, but he set the tray down on the nearest flat surface, having to gently move what looked like a really sweet pencil drawing of the two of you from beneath shards of glass, before kneeling in front of you. Heâd removed his own cravat to use it as a bandage for your foot, cleaning the wound with a spare cloth he kept in his jacket pocket.
When youâd finally lifted your head, youâd expected to see Hange, or maybe a member of your squad. The last person youâd expected to see was the man who you swore hated you, and who you could have sworn you hated too. But when his soft eyes met yours, so full of empathy and understanding, you realised that maybe, just maybe, he wasnât so bad afterall.
You ended up talking most of the night, answering his questions about who she was to you and how you knew each other. He, in turn, opened up about his own experience when he lost Isabel and Farlan, explaining who they were to him and how they died. You knew vaguely, of course, youâd lightened up on the insults and general nastiness when word reached you heâd just lost the two people who had come up with him from the dirt. But you didnât quite understand the connection between the three of them, not until now anyway.
You ended up understanding that the two of you were fairly similar in some ways, and you realised that night, youâd just seen a side to him nobody had ever seen before, at least nobody in the Scouts, to your knowledge. And you sure as hell never expected to see this side of him. Shit, you doubted he even had this side to him. But when he turned your head to look you in the eyes, gently gripping your shoulders and asking you to promise him you would never regret what happened, never regret her decision, you realised just how wrong you had been.
It was after that night you two actually managed to talk without wanting to rip each otherâs throats out. You congratulated him on becoming a captain, only to be met with his request for you to be on his squad. You shared his paperwork, his tea âas foul as you thought the drink wasâ, his thoughts and fears, and all of a sudden you were sharing his bed, sleeping in his arms after youâd both realised youâd fallen in love with each other.
It was with his help you managed to honour your best friendâs life. You fought for her, and for this new relationship that seemed to have blossomed from the seed of grief. She used to take th piss out of the two of you relentlessly, constantly chiming about how thin the line is between hatred and love. And you guessed she was right.
That must have been nine or ten years ago now, seven of those years having been spent by his side as his lover, and three of them as his wife. The thin, simplistic gold band around your ring finger glinting in the midday sun as a testament to your love for each other. You wonder where he was now, whether he too was fighting titans, or whether they were setting up camp. Their return date wasnât for another couple of days, you knew that, but then again, Erwin Smith was always a little unpredictable. You knew from experience, having known the man for a while now.
Smoke and fire rose from ruined homes, screams of the innocent rising like a choir singing for a malevolent god. You carved through flesh and muscle, felling as many beasts as you could whilst still keeping your injury fairly safe. If you didnât stop, it didnât have time to hurt, that was your mentality. Until high pitched cries for help stopped your rhythm, twisting in the air so you could at least deduce where the pleas were coming from.
And your heart dropped as soon as you realised.
There was a school. An entire class worth of children and teachers trapped by surrounding titans and flames. It was a hellscape, but one you had seen before, and wouldnât hesitate to walk through. Flipping your direction from the original path youâd set yourself on, you drew two more razor blades from your scabbard, metal singing a chorus as they too glinted in the sunlight, before you set to work.
Your first port of call was to clear the area of titans. The giants currently surrounding the building, reaching their large hands through flaming, shattered windows in search for their next morsel filled you with a certain kind of rage youâd never felt before. Youâd recently had that talk with Levi. The whole âchildrenâ talk. Whether you both wanted one, and whether it was a good idea to bring a child into this world of death and terror. Maybe that was why you sliced through titan flesh so viciously, watching with sick satisfaction as the beasts toppled and fell before they even knew what hit them.
You fired a green flare, a visual sign for backup as you kept up your attack, growing tired as more large hands replaced the ones you just severed. There were too many, and the screaming from within the building wasnât helping your sense of panic either. You were trying to stay calm. Trying everything you could to keep your breathing regular. If this was any old titan attack, youâd be fine. But there were civilian lives at stake. Childrenâs lives at stake. Letting them die wasnât an option.
Relief calmed your stuttering heart as the sound of gas accompanied by the sick squelch of blades through muscle came to your aid. A small squad of Garrison soldiers putting their cadet training to good use by actually killing some titans. You would have been impressed if the current situation wasnât so dire.
âKeep them at bay! Thereâs people in there, donât let a single titan near this building, understand?!â even if they didnât know who you were, they obeyed your orders without question. Something about your tone of voice screamed authority, and they knew you were everyoneâs best bet at survival here.
Without a second thought, and without even considering the faint cracking of strained support beams, you disengaged your gas, running through the small inferno. Smoke clogged your lungs immediately, and you crouched as low as you could whilst still being able to travel at a reasonable pace. You were listening. Over the roar of fire, you were listening for the panicked shouts and hollers for help. You just needed to find where they were, and youâd get them out. You had to.
You managed to look up seconds before a part of the ceiling collapsed in front of you, prompting you to dodge back. The movement had you coughing, and once you started, it was difficult to stop. Pulling a small cloth from your pocket, you planted it over your nose, hoping to filter out the smoke as you continued your painstaking search. Long hallways lit by the blaze taunted you as you ran into each classroom, searching what felt like in vain. Until angelic, blood-cooling screams graced your ears, and you sped up as much as you could without prompting yourself to pant.
Throwing open the door, you surveyed the class of terrified looking kids, all huddled close to the ground. Tear stained and puffy eyed, they looked to you in fear, and your gaze fell to the teachers keeping them as safe as possible. It didnât look too bad, if not for the fire that separated the two sides of the room, blocking off their exit and preventing you from accessing them. You were now frantic, searching in desperation for something, anything that could help them escape. Some desks and tables had already been consumed by the flames, but others were almost unharmed.
The structure creaked and cracked all around you, falling debris could be heard outside the classroom as you dragged one of the desks as close to the blaze as you could, gesturing for one of the adults to do the same. You had managed to create a sort of makeshift bridge, although they would have to leap across a small gap, fire licking the legs of the desks, as if taunting you, mocking you. Reaching up to pull you into the flames.
âYou have to jump! I will catch you, I promise!â you shouted, heart beating faster than you thought possible as a little girl clambered up onto the desk opposite you, her expression one of utter terror. You held your arms out, cringing slightly as the heat from below engulfed and singed your skin, but you didnât have a choice. You had already told yourself you were going to save these children, so thatâs what you were going to do. Mustering all the courage you had, you wiped your own expression, before producing a calm, reassuring smile. Determination sparkled in your now flickering irises, and you took a step closer to the edge of the desk, the toe of your boot now hanging over the inferno. âTrust me.â you implored, before you saw the girl nod, take a small step back, and leap into your arms.
Instinctively you curled her into your embrace, before placing her onto the ground behind you. The next kid, a smaller, brown haired boy, seemed a little braver, and didnât hesitate to jump over the flames, colliding into your steady body.
âI have to take two at a time! Iâll be back, I promise!â your voice must have carried to one of the teachers, her wide eyed expression, though nodding in confirmation, silently pleaded you to hurry. You had nine more children to help escape, that and the two adults. Hauling the two kids over your shoulders, you started to run. Smoke and ash coated and burned your lungs, but you didnât stop. Eyes streaming, you gasped for fresh air as soon as your eyes saw the blue sky beyond. A small crowd had gathered in front of the school, the titans nearby having been eradicated, civilians and soldiers alike stopped to watch in awe of a single woman running in and out of a burning school, collective screams ringing out each time a piece of the building collapsed. Some people yelled at each other to help you, but nobody seemed willing to risk their lives in the same way a Scout would.
It was the commotion that drew Levi to the scene. Word had reached the Scouting Expedition that titans had broken through the wall and were running amok in Trost District. His immediate thought turned to you, worry infecting his mind as he constantly wondered if you were okay, unable to think of anything else the entire gallop back to the walls. Heâd already seen enough shit today. Some cadet falling from the nape of a titan skeleton was bad enough, but arriving in front of a burning building just in time to see his wife sprint back inside of that very same burning building was enough to drive him insane. Hange ran up to his side, clearly having seen the exact same thing.
âWas thatâ?â
âYeah, it wasâŚâ Hangeâs eyes flicked from the doorway to Leviâs face, slack jawed with fear as he watched wide-eyed. Youâd just run head first into a burning building. You. When he finally managed to tear his gaze from the door, Levi realised what was happening. There were people in there. Evident by the Garrison soldiers providing water and blankets for ashen faced children. Soot coating their little bodies, clothes stained black. Dread pooled in his gut. You were injured. Thatâs why you stayed behind. You had badly fucked up your knee and needed to rest. His stomach roiled as more screams from the crowd pierced the air, another section of the school collapsing to the ground, rubble and embers piling up as only one section remained. Levi couldnât wait any longer.
There was no hesitation in his step as he ran forward, only increasing his speed with Hangeâs panicked shouts behind him. But the longer he didnât see you emerge, the more the icy hands of terror gripped his heart. He couldnât lose you. He couldnât lose you. He couldnâtâ
âLevi?!â snapping out of his hazed trance, Levi looked up to see you, covered head to toe in ash, two kids thrown over each shoulder. Neither of you stopped to say just how fucking relieved you were to see the other. It was all conveyed through your eyes anyway. You passed the kids over to him before cupping his neck and pressing your forehead to his.
âYouâre okayâŚâ he breathed, eyes flicking between yours.
âIâm fine. Get these ones out of here. There'll be two teachers next, followed by me and the last kid. Donât do anything stupid like come back in for me, okay? Iâll be back soon.â you reassured him, briefly capturing his lips in a light kiss before you both turned your backs on each other and ran the opposite directions.
The situation was becoming more and more dangerous by the second. Splinters and shavings of wood crested with sparkling embers continued to fall from the ceiling, smoke continued to swirl from shattered windows and broken walls. Levi didnât know how long you had been doing this, but he was impressed you hadnât collapsed. His own lungs strained from the excess inhalation of smoke, coughing slightly as he managed to carry the kids out to safety, gently setting them down with the rest of their class. Now was the waiting game.
Hange came to his side again, offering their canteen of water, but Levi was too focused on the doorway to notice. Everything had dulled slightly. The din around him had faded as he could focus on nothing but the door. You had to return. You had to come back.
The crowd erupted as two adults came running from the building, arms stretched out to greet those who had been waiting for them. But thatâs not who Levi was looking for. Thatâs not who he was waiting for.
âThere!â a miscellaneous shout to his left brought him back and spurred him once again into action. There you were, limping badly, a little girl clutched in your arms. His subconscious mind briefly admired how good you looked carrying a kid, before he ran back in to help you. Like earlier, you handed the little girl over to him, but as Levi went to put your arm around his shoulder so you could take some of the weight off your injured knee, you immediately protested.
âNo! Get her out first, Iâll be right behind you.â you shouted over the sound of fire and destruction around you.
âIâm not fucking leaving you here,â he spat through gritted teeth, hand still clasped around your arm, but your expression remained steely.
âIâm not giving you a choice. You die, she dies. Get the fuck out of here, Iâll be right behind you, I promise!â Levi lost his grip on your arm as you shoved him forward. He gave himself time to look back as you, brows creased with worry.
âYou better be.â he said, before leaving you behind. If there was ever a time Levi doubted his speed, it was now. He couldnât seem to move swiftly enough, run fast enough. Every step seemed like it was taking another hour. But you were, of course, unable to keep up with his speed. Your knee howled in pain, having to make the jump over the fire yourself since the last girl was too scared. Youâd managed to fall and land on it, badly. No permanent damage, but enough to keep you a good six or seven feet behind your husband, a man who you could usually keep up with.
But it was six or seven feet too far.
Levi cleared the doorway, shielding his face as a sudden burst of fire exploded to his right. A shrill scream of your name had him whirling, the deafening crack of solid wood hitting the ground an accompaniment to your pained yelp as you once again jumped back. It was Hange who had screamed your name, a fear like one Levi had never seen raged in her hazel irises as he set the girl down before turning back to you.
Or to where you should have been.
The doorway had caved in, creating a barrier of raging heat and smouldering logs. You were trapped. Trapped in a building that was seconds from collapsing. Levi could see it in your face. Could see the sudden, horrified realisation. The paralysing fear that you were now caught in a web of fire. The panic as your eyes searched for a way out, and the grim resolve as you realised, this was it. And it was that gentle, melancholic smile of acknowledgment that speared his chest.
Time came to a standstill. Everything faded into the background as fiery gold met desperate silver through the impassable doorway. Levi couldnât breathe, the familiar feeling of helplessness wrapping barbed wire around his windpipe. Feet stuck to the ground, heart stuck in his throat. He couldnât lose you. He couldnât lose you. He couldnâtâ
âI love you.â
Leviâs breath hitched in his throat as he swore he could hear your words. He lurched forward, arm outstretched, fingers flexing, trying in vain to reach you. A roar of your name ripped from his throat, anguish and grief shattering the moment of stricken peace.
Before the ceiling, and his world, came tearing down, snuffing out the flames, and your life, in a heartbeat.

There were no screams around him, or if there were, he couldnât hear them. White noise clogged his mind as he could do nothing but watch, stuck staring at the last place heâd seen you.
You were gone.
The woman heâd sworn to protect. The woman heâd given his heart to. The woman whoâs finger wore the symbol of his devotion. The future he was going to have with you. The memories he hadnât made yet, had just been snatched away in a split second. No time to say goodbye. No time to tell you yes, he wanted to have a child with you. Wanted to start a family with you. In this world of death and terror, he wanted to bring something joyful, something brimming with such innocent happiness that he could come home to. He wanted that, more than anything.
But you were gone. A reality he couldnât accept, not yet.
Where his legs found the strength to run, he wouldnât question, but he was carrying himself forward. His hands didnât even register the searing burn on his palms as they began tossing smouldering debris to the side. You werenât gone. You werenât. You couldnât be. No, you werenât. No. No. No, no, no no no nononoâ
Halted in his movements by a pair of arms looping beneath his elbows, Levi felt himself being pulled back and away from the rubble. The rubble you were trapped under. Nothing made sense. No sound was distinguishable. An cacophonous amalgamation of shouts swirled together like an oil spill. Thick, stagnant air constricted his lungs as the iron-like grip around his arms dragged him further away from you. And as quickly as everything had slowed, time sped up again.
âLEVI STOP!â it was Hangeâs voice, a voice he knew well. One he could easily distinguish in the sudden tsunami of sounds. Everything was suddenly too loud. Too fast. The smokey stench of death curled around him, taunting him, mocking him. But there was a kernel of hope. A small flicker that he clung onto and held tight. You were alive under there. You had to be.
âThe fuck are you doing? Weâre getting her out. Now.â His voice held the usual authoritative edge to it, but laced with desperation. Hange didnât lessen their grip, only held him tighter.
âLevi⌠thereâs no point. Sheâsââ
âSheâs not dead.â he snapped, whipping round to face the morose looking scientist. Their expression slowly dimming the small flame of hope. Anger flared in his gut, eyes narrowing in grief stricken rage. âSheâs not fucking dead, but she will be if we donât get her out. She was right behind me, she promisedâŚâ his voice was losing what little conviction he had, expression falling as the reality finally dawned on him. Heâd left you behind. Heâd abandoned you. He shouldnât have listened, he should have stayed and helped you. And now youâre gone.
Youâre gone.
âIâm so sorry LeviâŚâ apologies were worth nothing. Not when heâd survived and you hadnât. Youâd given your life to save him. And he canât help feeling every single word youâd screamed at him years ago. This was how youâd felt. Heâd forgotten the feeling. Forgotten what it felt like to lose someone so close to him. To lose someone he loved so dearly. He never thought this was possible. Losing you. Heâd never even entertained the thought because it was simply too terrifying to think about. But now he had lost you, and he realised there would have been nothing he could do to prepare himself.
Sinking to his knees, the bite of the stone didnât even reach his numbed mind. Unbeknownst to him, Garrison soldiers had been having trouble keeping people back from the devastation. Your act of selfless heroism had struck a chord with the civilian crowd, and though the likelihood of you being alive was small, they wanted to do what little they could to at least recover your body. With soldiers being tired after a dayâs battle, there was nothing they could do when the crowd broke through. Immediately people set to work, wrapping their hands with whatever material they could gather to protect their hands from the heat. Though the fires were now out, a few glowing embers still glowed.
Hange watched with tear glistening eyes, their expression awestruck as they surveyed the situation. Levi too had managed to turn his head. In this world of death and terror, the occasional kindness of humanity mesmerised him. This is what your selflessness had done. Youâd brought people together, people who were too scared to move, too scared to help. Through the blanket of agony, a small arrow of pride cut through the cloth. Pride over how high youâd soared from how far youâd fallen. He was so fucking proud of you. Soâ
âSHES HERE!â any more lacerations to his heart and Levi didnât think he would survive. Theyâd found you. From beneath the smouldering debris and rubble, theyâd found you. His hope reignited, Levi was on his feet, the crowd parting for him like some biblical figure.
Joke after joke had the universe played at his expense. Death after death, loss after loss, heartbreak after heartbreak. But the weak strained cough from your dusty, bloodied body felt like fate giving back. You were alive. You were alive.
Your lower half was still buried, a beam of solid wood preventing you from crawling to safety, but the slow, shallow rise and fall of your back was the proof Levi needed that you hadnât left him. You were still here. He didnât have to say goodbye. Not yet. Levi couldnât quite work out why his vision was suddenly blurry, until wet warmth trailed down his face. Sinking to his knees for a second time, a tentative hand cautiously brushed bloodsoaked hair from your face.
Cracking an eye open, you struggled to focus your gaze on the familiar yet hazy outline of your husband, head spinning from the crushing weight currently paralysing you from the waist down. You opened your mouth to speak, immediately tasting the metallic tang of blood on your tongue, but before you could say anything, Levi was already shushing you.
âItâs okay, youâre okay, weâre gonna get you out, okay? Just hold on for me, youâll be out soon, just hold on,â whilst his words and gentle caresses of your hair soothed you, a small smile pulled at your lips when you mentally questioned whether he was trying to reassure you, or himself.
Levi briefly looked up from your face to quickly gage how they were actually going to get you out. Currently, the entire weight of the collapse wasnât on your legs. But there was a steady creak of wood telling him that soon, the supporting plank will give way and completely crush you. He needed to get you out. Now.
âCaptain Levi Sir! Weâre more than willing to pull together and lift what we can! But we wonât get another chance Sir! That plank is minutes away from breaking and once it does, we wonât be able to lift the full weight.â Levi closed his eyes for a second as the soot stained civilian addressed him. He needed to separate his emotions. He needed to forget that it was your life at stake, because everytime his mind reminded him, panic flooded his system and he couldnât think straight.
âAlright, thank you. We have one chance at this, Iâm counting on you.â he replied, his voice steadier than it was a few moments ago. Reverting his gaze back to you, you seemed a little unaware of what was going on. Drifting in and out of consciousness, you tried your best to stay awake, but exhaustion was proving that task difficult. Leviâs brows pinched slightly, before once again stroking your hair to get your attention. âHey, âm going to need your help. Can you prop up your upper body for a second? Can you do that for me?â it wasnât really like you had much of a choice. The only way Levi could gain enough leverage to pull you out without ripping your arms off was if he could hook his elbows under your armpits and tug.
You nodded, slowly bringing your arms from their positions to push yourself up. Only, all and any strength had left you. Your arms wouldnât work, bones feeling like twigs, muscles feeling like foam. You tried in vain to muster any strength, closing your eyes in defeat as you relaxed your body, accepting your fate.
But Levi wasnât having any of it.
âDonât you fucking dare give up. Donât you dare.â he hissed, lifting your head with a finger beneath your chin. Though his words were harsh, his touch was gentle, eyes filled with steely determination. âI thought I lost you earlier, I thought you were dead. I thought you were gone. Weâve been given a second chance, I am not losing you now, understand?â the haphazard, makeshift support groaned in protest to the weight, spiderwebbing cracks only underlying the urgency in his tone. You were tired. You were hurt. But giving up was not an option. Not now.
You nodded as much as you could, a new determination igniting to life as you grit your teeth. You had never felt heavier, but as soon as youâd managed to elevate your upper body high enough, Levi slid beneath you. Bracing a foot against the wreckage, his hand cupped the back of your head, still unable to quite believe you were still alive. Though now wasnât the time for reprieve, neither of you could help quickly basking in each otherâs presence as you buried your face in his neck.
âLeviââ
âItâs okay. Youâre gonna be fine. This might really hurt sweetheart, but youâre going to have to trust me, okay? Youâll be safe soon, I promise, just a bit longer,â he soothed your slightly matted hair, reassurance spilling from his lips before he looped his arms beneath your shoulders. He felt your breath against his neck quicken slightly, anxious adrenaline feeding your heart.
âReady?!â the same man from before shouted, a whole line of both civilians and soldiers alike had their hands braced on the beam that was currently rendering you helpless. Multiple answers of âYes!â and âReady!â rang out amongst the crowd, before the countdown started.
âThree! Two! Oneââ
âI love you too,â Levi murmured, before his arms tensed around you.
âLIFT!â
Wood and brick tumbled from the wreckage as the entire mountain of rubble was lifted from your body. An agonised scream tore from your throat as blood stabbed a thousand needles into your legs, rushing to rehydrate the veins and nerve endings. A grunt of effort left your husbandâs gritted teeth as he dragged you from beneath the debris, using his leverage against the collapse to push against, finally pulling you free.
As if unable to bear the weight any longer, as soon as you were safe, the deafening crash behind you told you all you needed to know, the split of the support beam and the rumble of falling shrapnel making you jump in Leviâs embrace.
But, you were free. And your husband wasted no time in gently adjusting you so you were cradled in his arms, secure within the crease of his abdomen. He held you against his chest, your hand coming up to weakly grasp his bicep. You didnât realise you were shaking.
âItâs okay, youâre safe now. Youâre safe. Fucking hell you scared me shitless, fuck.â he muttered, breathing slightly erratic. You could tell by the tone of his voice he was crying. Not that you could blame him. Not when you were crying as well.
âI c-couldnât breathe, Levi, I th-thought I was going to die, I never thought Iâd g-get to see you again,â you stuttered through tears, prompting him to hold you tighter.
âI know sweetheart, I know. But youâre safe now. Iâm sorry I didnât come back for you, Iâm so fucking sorry,â you slowly, gently pushed against his chest so you could look up, wanting to show him it wasnât his fault. And peering into your now shining eyes, Levi saw everything you wanted to say. Your tentative hand came up to softly caress his cheekbone, and though he couldnât help feeling like he should be comforting you, he couldnât help leaning into your touch, hand coming up to encase your wrist, holding you against his cheek after being so terrified heâd never feel it again. You guided his head to yours, tiredly raising your head to touch your brow against his, and finally you could breathe again.
A small, calm smile pulled at Leviâs lips, allowing the peace to settle in both his mind and his body. âIf you ever pull a stunt like that again, I swear I will just kill you myself and get it over with,â there was nothing in his demeanor that even remotely suggested he would do such a thing. You chuckled weakly, contently resting your head back against his chest.
âYeah yeah, like you wouldnât have done the same thing.â you responded, and though exhaustion swaddled your bones, you had enough energy for a spark of mischievous defiance to enter your gaze.
âTch, I mean it. Donât fucking do that again,â he reiterated, though clearly amused by your old self slowly returning. In those brief minutes he thought you were dead, he realised heâd never get to see this again. But youâre here, and Levi silently made a promise to himself to always protect you, no matter what. There was a beat of contented silence, before you spoke up again.
âSooooo, about that kidâŚâ your smile morphed into a sly, toothy grin. Rumbles of laughter vibrated from his chest at your expression, his hand coming up to cup your face, thumb smoothing your ruffled brow.
âYou are in no state to bring that up now. Heal up first, then we can start trying for a brat,â and the look on your face was worth everything the two of you had just been through. Your jaw slackened slightly, eyes widening in realisation as his words processed in your mind. Fresh tears welled in your eyes as your smile broadened into something awestruck, searching his face for any sign of deceit and coming up naught.
âWait, really? You want one? A family?â you couldnât help confirming what heâd literally just told you, incredulous disbelief swirling in your irises as he just nodded, admiring your expression.
âYeah,â he brought you into his embrace again, reslishing in your face once again being buried in his neck. âYeah, I think I do.â
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I got people blaminâ me for shit they did to me
Lots of people shaminâ me for shit they didnât see
So point the finger, pull the trigger, throw them off your trail
Youâre digginâ me my grave, but keep the shovel nearby
Dig your own right next to mine
I got people sayinâ take an eye for an eye
I just turn the other cheek cause you ainât worth my time
âCause you see in black and white
But thereâs more than just wrong and right
Chapter 1 Â Â Chapter 2 Â Â
Chapter 3 Â Â Chapter 4
Chapter 5 Â Â Chapter 6
Summary: Lines start to blur between wrong and right as you and Draco try to make it through the first semester of sixth year alive. Can you both keep up the charade long enough to survive? Can laughter and smiles hide whatâs lurking underneath?
A/n: Yâall know whatâs up. Iâm so excited for this chapter honestly because there is so much character growth in our power duo as well as side characters and ugh I would die for Pansy. Also, I havenât quite decided what to do with Snape yet⌠I donât really hate him, not that I particularly like him either. Anyway, let me know what you think! I love seeing all of your comments you have absolutely no idea!! Stay strong and always keep fighting: this chapter deals with some dark stuff. I hope that you all see how to find a ray of sunshine in the midst of hell by reading this. ((I also cleaned up my taglist and got rid of the ones that tumblr wasnât letting me tag anymore, so if I accidentally deleted you, lmk and Iâll add you back!! And Tumblr still isnât allowing me to add a lot of you and Iâm sorry ://// Itâs not that I donât love you bc Iâm trying here))

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âCissy, you must not do this, you canât trust him ââ
âThe Dark Lord trusts him, doesnât he?â Narcissa snapped back at her sister.
âThe Dark Lord is ⌠I believe ⌠mistaken,â Bella panted, and her eyes gleamed momentarily under her hood as she looked around to check that they were indeed alone. âIn any case, we were told not to speak of the plan to anyone. This is a betrayal of the Dark Lordâs ââ
âLet go, Bella!â Narcissa snarled, and she drew a wand from beneath her cloak, holding it threateningly in her sisterâs face. Bella merely laughed.
âCissy, your own sister? You wouldnât ââ
âThere is nothing I wouldnât do anymore!â Narcissa breathed, a note of hysteria in her voice, and as she brought down the wand like a knife, there was another flash of light. Bella let go of her sisterâs arm as though burned.
âNarcissa!â
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pairing: spencer reid (criminal minds) x f!reader
summary:Â âHi! Do you take requests?? If you do, can I please request a Spencer x Reader (Including the BAU), where they are dating and the reader is a year or so younger than spencer, but just as smart and very loved by the team, and one day she has to save the team from an unsub and gets really hurt and after everyone is safe they are all really worried about her?? Idk if that made sense at all. Love you work!â 2898 words
a/n: do i know anything about bombs or surgery or post-op procedures? No. did i still have a lot of fun writing this? Yes . i hope you like it! this specific request has been sent to multiple fic writers which i didnât know until iâd already written and posted BUT the good thing is every writer is different so every request will be approached differently
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âNo.â
âHotch-â
âI said, no.â
âMy girlfriend is stuck in there with a psychopath, Hotch! I canât leave her in there!â
âI know, Reid. But I need you out here, alive, rather in there, dead.â
Spencer glares, âShe could be dead in there for all we know.â
Emily winces from behind Spencer. Hotch stands, hands on hips, trying to think logically despite the situation, âWe canât afford to think like that.â
âHe has a bomb! He-he-â
âReid.â Hotch says, tone authoritive to show heâs playing unit chief and not old friend Hotch, âI need your head in this. We need to profile him to figure out the best way to negotiate â we canât do that if you keep threatening to act irrationally.â
Spencer scoffs. Derek steps forward and pulls Spencer aside to talk him down from the metaphorical ledge heâs standing on. Heâs one second away from running right into that abandoned building that everyone had just evacuated, bar you, and straight into the arms of the man who now has you hostage with a bomb ready to be detonated whenever he pleases.
Hotch already tried calling and negotiating. The man scoffed, voice gruff, and rumbled, âEither I get what I want, or both me and the pretty agent are getting blown to bits.â
In hindsight, they shouldâve been more prepared.
Storming the abandoned warehouse, the team expected to find the remnants of a crime scene â they profiled the warehouse was the base of operations for the unsub, a place for him to store all his supplies, and because it had made the news that the FBI were on the case, they assumed he wouldâve started running the second he felt them closing in.
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Derek found the bomb-making equipment. He shouted in his comm for everyone to evacuate, and Spencer realised the second he stepped outside that you were not there. And you hadnât responded to any calls after stepping into the building.
All it took was one call from the too proud unsub for them to realise your life is in the balance and for Reid to stop thinking rationally.
Spencer shouldâve gone with you. He knows you can handle yourself, youâve saved his ass enough times, but if heâd just.. followed you instead of JJ. Maybe youâd both be in there, or, even better, out here. Alive. Safe. No hostage situation in sight.
Suddenly, several shots ring out.
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peonies in august

pairing: jaemin x female! reader
genre: slice of life, husband! jaemin, general surgeon! jaemin, fluff, smut, a teeny tiny amount of angst
words: 20.9k
contains: some medical terms and procedures, minor character death, oral (m&f), fingering, nipple play, edging, drunk sex, sex toys, overstimulation, jaemin and y/n talking way too much during sex
synopsis: august, jaemin's favorite month of the year is around the corner again - the month of his birthday and his first marriage anniversary. thirty one days in august and unknowing to you, jaemin makes it a mission to make every single day special in the midst of both of yours busy life.
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The concept of commitment, marriage, and the thought of starting a family terrified you for as long as you could remember. During the first year of college, you depended on caffeine and unremarkable one night stands. Second-year and a half, you thought you found the one when you dated Bae Jinyoung from your structural design class for a year till he decided to cheat on you. The third-year and you got back to the routine of hookups and casual flings, as regret washed over you every morning on a strangerâs bed.
Until one day, your friend Aeri dragged you out with her and you met eyes with the medicine student Na Jaemin across the table at the pub while passing a bottle of beer. That same man wrapped you around his fingers and you spent months trying to combat the constant dread of commitment before finally getting used to cuddling him to sleep at the apartment he shared with your mutual friend Jeno.
Now you were living the life of your dreams â a designer at an architecture firm, happily married, living in a high-rise luxury apartment where you got the view of the sunset through the bedroom windows with the love of your life and a cute white puppy and you couldnât ask for anything more.
AUGUST 2
You looked up from your iPad and watched Jaemin come up behind you through the mirror â he wrapped his arms around your shoulders and rested his head on top of yours. A smile that matched his took over your face as he stared at your reflection fondly.
âLetâs go to bed,â he kissed the top of your head, âyouâve been working for hours now.â
You placed the iPad on the table while Jaeminâs head still rested on top of yours. âYou look cute.â You snickered at his reflection and his smile faded into a frown. âWhatâs with the long face suddenly?â
âAm I not sexy?â Jaemin dramatically rolled his eyes. âMy birthday is in, like what, two weeks. Cute isn't for me babe.â
âGod, youâre so fucking old.â
âWeâre the same age!â
âLet me have my moment, please.â
âDo I get to make, what do they say on the internet â milf jokes?â
You smacked his hands away from your shoulder and he dramatically clutched his chest which earned a giggle out of you. That was how most of your nights before bed are spent â joking around, gossiping about anything and everything, lazily staring at the Netflix screen, or just mind-blowing sex before falling asleep in each otherâs arms.
âAre you done?â Jaemin pointed at the iPad.
âDone for the day, I guess.â
âYouâve been working too much.â
âI knâ
âGo to bed.â Jaemin pinched your cheeks. âIâll turn off the lights and everything.â
You shook your head quickly. âNope, itâs fine. I'll just wait for you.â
âYou sure?â
âPositive,â you informed, pushing yourself up on your toes and pressing your lips to the corner of his mouth.
âI need to go to the kitchen to keep the cups and turn off the hallway lights though.â Jaemin gave you an apologetic smile.
You pulled your arms out from around him. âShit, I forgot.â The fact that you both took turns to do these chores every night almost slipped out of your mind. âI thought you already did that.â
âDo you wanna go?â This time Jaemin wrapped his arms around your waist, before he leaned down to capture your lips with his in a kiss.
You kissed him back quickly, pulling away just enough to meet his eyes as you replied, âYeah. Let me just-â the next moment he leaned in and his lips reached your neck, collarbone, bristly against the tender skin before going back to your lips again. Jaemin lightly pushed you, making you land on the bed and you shivered helplessly beneath him as his hands made their way under your silk nightdress while his lips still moved against yours. You pushed him off you quickly when you felt his length hardening against your thigh.
âWh-â
âGo and turn off the hallway lights first before we do something.â You mumbled against his now swollen lips.
âDo what?â He smirked and placed a kiss on your forehead before getting up. Jaemin was definitely the same cheeky man you couldnât resist and stop thinking about seven years ago.
âIâm gonna get my iPad and go back to working again.â
âFine!â
Jaemin coasted through the typical bedtime routine of clicking the lights off in the hallway, checking on Yiseul to make sure she was sleeping peacefully on the couch, and then finally made his way back to join you in the bedroom. When he came back he immediately pulled his white shirt over his head and hovered above you, not hesitating to pull your dress up above your head as well.
You were panting, still coming down from that euphoric feeling of your orgasm. Jaeminâs hand reached out and pulled the comforter over the two of you and you turned your head to glance at your husband who just fucked you silly in the middle of the night.
âAre you sleepy?â Your husband whispered, snuggling closer to you and pressing a kiss on your forehead.
âYeah,â You mumbled, gently nudging him in the chest and eliciting a chuckle out of him in the process. Jaemin drawed you as close as possible to rest his head against your bare chest.
âWhatâs so fun about putting your head on my tits?â You drawled followed by a chuckle.
âShut up, this is comfy. You wonât get it.â
You two found yourselves lying in the dimly lit bedroom, his face resting against your chest. You were convinced your legs would feel like jelly in the morning and Jaemin just said sorry in between his giggles.
âWhatâs the time?â
âHmm, let me check.â You glanced over your shoulder to take a peek at the alarm clock on the bedside table, the bold red numbers showing 2:41 AM. âAlmost 3.â
âFuck,â Jaemin groaned and started, his voice muffled. âSihyun from the trauma center just went on maternity leave yesterday and Iâve got the task to cover her shift at the trauma center every Monday before my appointments.â
âSihyunâs pregnant again?â
âYeah again, she literally gave birth last September.â Jaemin scoffed, getting a reminder of the fact that it was almost 3 in the morning and he needed to be present at the hospital before 9 AM just to wander around the corridors of the trauma center â unless there was an emergency.
âYou need to go to sleep.â You caressed his back lightly.
There was a comfortable silence. Even though it was impossible to lounge around like how you two used to at the small studio apartment every day, cafe hopping to the other side of the town 5 years ago â Jaemin still looked forward to this exact moment every single night.
âDo you want kids?â Jaemin blurted out, breaking the silence again. Na Jaemin, you're a fucking idiot. He thought and mentally punched himself for asking that impulsively, especially when you were naked in his arms in the middle of the night.
You've ticked all the boxes and overcame the fears youâve had for years. Commitment? Check. Marriage? Check. There was only the concept of starting a family left at the bottom of the list and you never thought Jaemin would be the first one to subtly bring it up eleven months into your marriage.
You remained silent for few seconds, which concerned Jaemin enough to make him raise his head from your chest and look at you, âI was just jokâ
âThatâs actually a funny thing to ask right after putting your jizz inside me.â You cut him off. Your eyes followed the movements of his fingers on your arms which seemed to halt. âIâm kidding!â
âI really thought you were mad at me for a second, fuck.â
âTo answer your question, Iâve thought about it once I guess.â You cupped his cheeks, âWhat about you?â
âMe?â Jaemin sighed in relief before continuing. âYeah, maybe a girl.â He hugged you tighter underneath the comforter, bringing you closer as a stream of rain continued splattering on the window and then a bolt of lightning lit up the bedroom.
âThat sounds nice.â
You chuckled at the way Jaemin nuzzled into the crook of your neck. He looked ethereal, the sight of him in the post-sex glow, disheveled hair as he implied that he wanted to start a family with you. You hated to admit it but that foolish smile of his suddenly made you forget about all those fears. Jaemin was the love of your life and if there was any doubt in your mind, theyâd recede into surefire promises.
âI canât imagine demons that happen to look like you running around the house.â
âYouâre already thinking about it.â
âYeah, you should knock me up.â
âOh my god, waitââ Jaemin raised his head from your chest to look at you again. Your eyes widened when he started chuckling. âItâs gonna happen when itâs meant to happen. Youâre the one whoâs gonna give birth, not me.â
âI was just messing with you!â
âYouâve given me two mini heart attacks within the last five minutes.â
âSorryâŚâ You cooed and placed a gentle kiss on his cheek.
Jaemin was right but that didnât stop you from overcoming your fear and you were certain he probably just planted a seed at the back of your head. Sure, you were not in any rush but the thought didnât sound as terrifying anymore, not when youâd have to go through it with your husband.
âGo to sleep.â You took a peek at the alarm clock on the bedside table again.
âWe shouldâve just gone to sleep earlierâŚâ Jaemin said through a yawn. âItâs raining and I canât even sleep peacefully in the morning.â
âYou started it.â
âDonât point fingers at me now, youâre the one who wanted to ride my dick.â
âFuck you, like seriously.â
Jaemin giggled, raising his head to catch your lips with his own in reply as he kissed you with passion, which you returned with enthusiasm. The kiss deepened as he was eager to thank you for every single thing youâve done to make him feel special, appreciated, and loved. âI love you,â He whispered, suddenly overcome with the desperation to make sure you knew that in the middle of the night. âSo, so much.â
You softly placed a kiss on his forehead. âI love you too.â
The next morning Jaemin immediately regretted staying up till 3 AM, being a sappy fool in love. Shoving a toast down his throat and barely getting the time to kiss you goodbye, he was late but at least grateful for the quiet environment of the hospital hallways. The quiet and cold hallways gave him enough time every morning to enjoy his caffeine in peace before heading into the trauma center for the day or wherever he was needed.
He sipped on his iced americano, praying that it kept him alive till the evening, and pulled his white lab coat over the light blue shirt, taking a look at himself in the lockerâs tiny mirror beaming with pride. Jeno sat behind him, half asleep on the chair, mindlessly scrolling through his phone and sipping on his coffee.
âOur Doctor Na is late again,â a voice spoke behind Jaemin, which made him look over his shoulder. âGood morning, Jeno.â Donghyuck was standing at the door with his hands on his hips as Minjeong sipped on her coffee behind him. âThis is his second time this week!â
âFirst of all, Iâm exactly 5 minutes late.â Jaemin defended himself before returning to the mirror to fix the collar of his coat. âSecond of all, this is actually my first time this week.â
âLeave the poor man alone. Heâs not even that late.â Minjeong chuckled from behind Donghyuck and took a seat on the uncomfortable chairs the hospital had placed in these rooms.
âNo, Minjeong, I need to know what his excuse this time is.â Donghyuckâs taunting made the three of them chuckle. âSo, Dr. Na, what is it this time? What was it last timeâ
âTraffic.â Jeno interjected. âIt was crowded on the streets, I donât blame him.â
âWhy are you both ganging up on me? Donât you guys have a shift now?â Jaemin interjected to change the topic. He knew Donghyuck enough to know that he wouldnât let this go till he got behind it.
âIâll deal with my shift later.â Donghyuck shook his head. âNow, you tell me. Why are you late?â
âWhy do you wanna know?â Both Jeno and Minjeong ask in unison.
âJinx.â
âBecause Iâm nosy as fuck.â Donghyuck retorted curtly, making both Minjeong and Jeno exhale harshly through their noses hard as they masked their laughter. âQuick, I have got an appointment, Jaehyunâs gonna beat my ass.â
âHyuck, you know, youâre too aggressive for a pediatrician sometimes,â Minjeong commented which earned her a death glare from Donghyuck.
âNa Jaemin, pleaseâŚâ
Jaemin shoots a terrifying glare back at her before quickly returning to face Donghyuck, who has a sweet smile plastered on his face. âIâm going to my caâ
Donghyuck interrupted Jaemin yet again, âMinjeong, and Jeno, are you thinking what Iâm thinking.â He looked up and started examining Jaemin up and down. âThis man fought with his wife in the morning.â
Minjeong burst out in laughter followed by Jeno and Donghyuck. Jaemin stood in the center of the room with his fingers on his temples, as the three laughed uncontrollably. âGuys, stop.â
âWait, really?â
âNo! Why would I fight with Y/N?â
âWhat is it?â
âWait a damn minute,â Donghyuck squinted, coming closer to eye Jaeminâs neck. âFuck, sorry for bringing up yourââ He fake coughed, âfun activities at home.â
âWhat the fuck are you talking about?â
âDonât you see the hickey? At least cover it up with your collar properly.â Donghyuck started taunting him while Minjeong continued laughing. âMinjeong, you wonât believe me when I say this. Jeno couldnât sleep because of him and his girlfriend back then.â
"Who told you that?"
"Jeno did."
âLee Jenâ
âHis wife or an ex?â Minjeong curiously interrupted Jaemin and Donghyuck looked like he was having the time of his life airing Jaeminâs business out early in the morning. Jaemin glanced back at Jeno who refused to look at him in the eye.
âOf course itâs Y/N, his high school girlfriend of 2 years dumped him 6 months into college.â Donghyuck remarked as Jaemin stood in the corner glaring at him in silence.
âDude, you know way too much.â Minjeong furrowed her eyebrows. âHow in the world do you know all these?â
âJaemin told me himself.â
âForget it,â Jaemin muttered and glanced at Jeno who was looking at him apologetically. He fixed his collar hesitantly, hoping that all of them, especially Donghyuck, would eventually forget about this incident and go on about their days. âItâs 9:25 right now.â He added, giving them a small reminder.
âI need to go!â Minjeong stood up suddenly, and downed her coffee before throwing the disposable plastic cup in the trash. âAnd Jaemin, please cover it up.â She warned before closing the door behind her.
âGoodbye, Iâm leaving as well.â Jaemin gave Donghyuck a mischievous smile as he slammed the door shut, leaving Donghyuck alone in the room with Jeno to clean up the table.
"You're not coming?'' Donghyuck asked Jeno.
Jeno stifled a yawn, "I have a surgery at 10:30, let me take a nap till 10."
"Don't tell me you were having sex aswâsorry!"
"Fuck off Hyuck, let me just nap."
"Why does everyone seem to have such an active sex life?" Donghyuck muttered to himself. "I just pass out when I go home."
"Lee fucking Donghyuck, I swear, just leave."
The door swung open, almost slamming into Donghyuckâs face just when he was about to open it himself. âUm, hello. Is Dr. Lee here?â The new general surgeon questioned, the one who was so intimidating, the energy she radiated almost too elegant.
âIâm Dr. LeeâŚâ
âLee Jeno?â
âOh yeah. Heâs here.â Donghyuck moved aside and she walks into the room slowly, bowing her head politely as a gesture to thank him in the process.
Donghyuck shrugged and hurriedly threw away his cup, organized the table, and jogged down the hallway to catch up with Jaeminâs pace, gaining some confused looks from the interns and nurses who walked by. Donghyuck apologetically mumbled a few sorrys before catching up with Jaemin.
âYou walk way too fast for my likingâŚâ Donghyuck tried to catch his breath when Jaemin finally stopped in front of the elevators.
âGuess I have long legs.â Jaemin remarked with a sarcastic tone.
âAre you going to your chamber?â Donghyuck still huffed and puffed, trying to stabilize his breath.
âNope, dialysis unit.â
âOh.â Donghyuck hummed, the two of them slightly bowed when a small group of nurses passed by the two of them. âWere you actually being serious on Friday?â He added and Jaemin stopped in his tracks. He didnât even know what Donghyuck was talking about but he surely blamed the influence of alcohol for blabbering in front of Lee Donghyuck out of everyone because now Lee Jeno and Kim Minjeong were probably aware of everything as well. Jaemin loved Donghyuck, he really did, but sometimes he wished his best friend knew how to keep his mouth shut.
âOh.â Jaemin scratched the back of his neck. âAbout what?â
âAre you fucââ Donghyuck lowered his voice when the elevator door opened and a nurse walked out with a patient in a wheelchair. âYou forgot?â
âI think soâŚâ Jaemin mumbled and pressed the button to the 9th floor. âWhat did I say?â He looked at Donghyuck with a puzzled expression.
âYouâre impossible.â Donghyuck groaned, making Jaemin chuckle lightly. âYou were supposed to pay for my breakfast today. My beautiful wife had cereal for me today and I didnât have it for you.â
Jaemin arched his brow. âCereal?â
âYeah, cereal. Got a problem with that?â
âNope, absolutely not.â
âDonât tell me you already had your breakfastâŚâ Donghyuck glanced at him and his expression soured when he noticed Jaemin had started sneering. âIâm dragging you to the 12th floor anyways. Iâm hungry as shit.â
âI have-â
âYouâre paying.â Donghyuck pressed the button to the 12th floor with a scowl on his face.
âFine.â
Donghyuck took his sweet time eyeing all the sandwiches and wraps through the glass. Jaemin on the other hand never understood why his coworkers seemed to be obsessed with the cafe at the hospital of all places. Sure, they had great americano which was enough to satisfy his caffeine fix for the day but he was never fascinated by the avocado egg sandwich which Donghyuck liked so much.
âYouâre not having anything?â
âI already had breakfast,â Jaemin replied apologetically, and mentally he blamed the bottles of soju he downed after work on Friday. He wasnât the best when it came to his alcohol tolerance and it wasnât a surprise that he didnât even remember telling that to Donghyuck. âIs Jeno coming?â Jaemin added.
âRight.â Sarcasm rolled off his tongue as he proceeded to order his regular avocado egg sandwich and pointed his thumb behind him at Jaemin when the cashier asked whether he would be interested to pay with cash or card. âJeno has a laparotomy at 10:30, he said he was gonna take a nap till 10.â
Jaemin sighed and pulled his black leather wallet from his pocket to search for his credit card. His actions halted for a few seconds when his eyes fell on the picture of you from years ago, the one he always forgot to replace with a recent picture. It was a picture Jaemin took on your first anniversary â you had the biggest smile on your face, probably laughing at something stupid he had said. Curiosity got the best of Donghyuck and he peeked over his shoulder to see what Jaemin was eyeing so intently with a fond smile. Jaemin seemed to notice his friend snooping and he quickly pulled his card out, handing it over to the poor cashier.
âSo, youâve got a picture of Y/N in your wallet.â Donghyuck started as the two made their way to the back of the cafe, usually reserved for the hospital staff away from the patrons.
âYouâre so nosy.â Jaemin rolled his eyes and unscrewed the cap of the water bottle he purchased for himself earlier. âIâve had that picture for years now. Iâm surprised you just saw it today.â
âI donât go through peopleâs wallets.â
âYeah, right.â
âDonât you have surgeries today?â Donghyuck ate his sandwich and strolled across the floor to the dialysis unit area behind Jaemin, flashing a smile at an older nurse, âWait, why are you here?â
âI have a cute little patient here, the curative surgery from last month. They had to shift her here for an emergency dialysis last night, her potassium levels kept rising.â Jaemin opened the door, greeting the nurses on duty followed by Donghyuck who did the same.
âIs it Son Jinah?â
âHmm.â Jaemin hummed, âIâm kinda worried, her condition is slowly deteriorating every day.â
âThereâs nothing we can do.â Donghyuck slowly patted Jaemin at the back. âIâm leaving then, thanks for the breakfast. Iâll pay for your lunch later!â Jaemin nodded in response and Donghyuck walked back out of the door, his silhouette visible on the frosted doors before he disappeared into the hallways of the dialysis unit.
Jaemin sighed and approached his patient, with the brightest smile on his face. He sat down by the bed and extended his hand to pat his patient on the head, trying to gain some attention from the seven year old girl named Jinah.
âGood morning. How are you feeling?â Jaemin gave her a sweet smile. He loved the children at the hospital, his colleagues often joked about how he treated them like they were his own children. Truthfully, it broke his heart to see them like that, he felt helpless. He hated watching vulnerable families in distraught every single day, knowing he couldnât do anything.
Jinah was looking out of the window staring at the newly bloomed green leaves of the spring on trees right outside the window. Her ears perked up when she heard the voice of her favorite Doctor Na.
âDoctor Na! Good morning.â Jinah pouted. âI just finished having my breakfast, they gave me an apple today!â
âDid you finish eating everything?â Jaemin glanced at Jinahâs catheter on her neck and watched the blood flow through the two tubes which lead to the dialysis machine. Jinah just turned 7 years old a month ago, her birthday being celebrated at the hospital while she continues to suffer from leukaemia for 10 months now. Jaemin only met her recently when he was assigned to perform a tumor removal surgery on her.
âYes, I did!â She kept nodding, making sure Jaemin saw. He quickly glanced at her and gave her a small smile before going back to skimming through her blood test reports. âThey also gave me rice with seaweed soup and kimchi.â
âGood girl, Iâll come to visit you in the evening, okay?â Jaemin looked up from the files on his hand again and looked at her apologetically. âIâve got work today, sorry.â He pouted.
âPromise youâre gonna visit later?â
âPromise!â
AUGUST 9
jaemin: baby are you still at work
y/n: im leaving in 5. packing rn
y/n: why
jaemin: do we have leftovers
y/n: we finished it all in the morning đ
y/n: ill cook rice and smth later
jaemin: dont im stopping at the chinese
restaurant
jaemin: im getting spring rolls for
u aswell dont worry đĽş
y/n: oh i was just gonna tell u to
get spring rolls
jaemin: hah
y/n: love you
jaemin: love you too
Jaemin came home after you with a bag full of brown takeaway boxes and a bouquet of pink peonies again. Before you could interrogate him about the flower bouquet, he dropped everything on the kitchen countertop and ran into the master bedroom to change, only stopping to greet Yiseul on his way.
âWhatâs up with these flowers every other day?â You asked while dividing the spring roll portions and glanced at the beautiful pink peonies sitting on the other side of the counter. Jaemin almost didnât pay attention to what you were saying at first because one, he hadnât eaten the entire day, thanks to an emergency appendectomy right before lunch time and two, those wontons were too good. You were taking your sweet time picking through the box of wontons between you two on the countertop. âWhereâs all this romance coming from?â
âOkay, let me explain.â Jaemin chuckled and put his chopsticks down on the plate. âThereâs a new florist shop nearbyâ pretty and big. They got these descriptions and all beside all the flowers on display. And you like peonies anyway so I just buy them, itâs 2 minutes away from the hospital anyway.â
âBut I donâtâ
âYou donât like them?â Jaemin almost choked on spring rolls, you giggled and passed him a glass of water.
âYou didnât even let me finish,â you laughed, watching him stare at you in disbelief. âI do like peonies, I just donât remember telling you. You always got me roses in college so I just assumed I never mentioned.â
âYou told me once before we even started dating. I never got you peonies back then cause these flowers are fucking expensive. I only got you six stems on our first anniversary and that shit cost $60.â Jaemin raised his chopsticks and pointed at one of the takeaway boxes beside you. âPass the chow mein.â
You passed the box and took a couple of bites from the wonton in front of you. Jaemin mustâve eaten nothing today, you thought, because he was devouring the chow mein in front of you like a starved man. âWhy did you skip lunch today?â You suddenly voiced concern.
âHowâd you know?â
âYou justâI can tell.â
âI had an appendectomy today right before lunch break. A damn emergency surgery and Iâm literally the only one free at that time.â Jaemin shoved another wonton into his mouth. âThen the scheduled appointments started again, I didnât get time for lunch.â
âYou could have texted me, I wouldâve gotten the food on the way instead.â
âI had coffee if that makes you feel any better.â
âAre you fucking seâ you know what, do whatever makes you happy.â You chewed down a piece of spring roll as you mumbled. âI just donât want you to get sick two days before your birthday, you overwork yourself.â
âAh, my birthday.â Jaemin put his chopsticks down again and scratched the back of his neck. âFuck, Iâm old as shit. I even forgot about my own birthday.â
âFucking hell, Iâm so worried about you sometimes. For someone whoâs a physician, you really donât give a shit about your own health.â
Jaemin chuckled lightly. âIâm fine. I should be the one worried about you. How was work today? I forgot to ask, sorry.â
âJust meetings and some construction sightings.â You sighed and set chopsticks aside, taking a sip of water before continuing. âI think my client Mr. Park didnât like my layout. So, Iâm just gonna redesign after we clean these up.â
âWhenâs the next meeting with Park?â
âHmm, next week.â
âThen, youâre going to sleep early today. No questions asked.â
A sudden realization hit you like a truck. You were in fact married to Na Jaemin, one of the kindest beings you had ever met in your life. Despite majoring in two different subjects and classrooms five buildings away, Jaemin always made sure to walk you to your building every morning for your 8 AM lectures after both of your Starbucks runs. You were forever going to be grateful to your friends, Donghyuck and Aeri for forcing you out of the library one evening because you found both love and friendship in this man who is addicted to caffeine just like you, loved to cook and an avid shopaholic â it was still impossible to wrap your head around the fact that you were indeed married to your best friend.
You drew your lip between your teeth, almost sullen. âI justâ
âHmm?â
âJustâŚâ You sighed and took another bite of wonton.
Jaemin put his chopsticks down and waited patiently but it looked like time had frozen for him until he got an answer out of you, something outside of fragmented stuttering. âJust..?â
âJusâ please donât think Iâm crazy.â You sighed again. âI canât believe Iâm married to you now. Itâs justâ I once told Aeri âIâm gonna marry this dudeâ as a joke not even two months into dating because you walked me home in the rain.â
Jaemin laughed for the first time tonight, not a light chuckle but a sincere laugh. âYou shouldâve told me earlier that the bare minimum got you worked up like that. I wouldnât have been running to the other side of the town to get you pokĂŠ bowls every two weeks.â
âDonât speak to your wife like that.â You threw the closest napkin you found around you on the countertop at him. âItâs your turn to do the dishes today.â
âYes, I remember.â
âGood luck. I can help you with the mugs maybe.â
âThank you wifey,â Jaemin winked, earning an eye roll from you in return as he started piling up the takeaway boxes on top of each other to dispose of them. âGreen tea before bed today?â
âSure.â
AUGUST 13
You woke up slowly to the sun shining faintly through the window and the sound of birds chirping outside. Slowly opening your eyes and looking at the alarm clock on the bedside table, the bright bold red numbers showed that it was 6:52 AM. Rolling over, expecting to see the birthday boy still fast asleep, you were met with the empty and cold side of the bed instead.
Your head felt heavy when you crawled out of the bed, however, a headache was the last thing to worry about right nowâ instead, you blamed the melatonin pill you took last night and started wondering where your husband might be. At first, you assumed it was an emergency from the hospital but that assumption was quickly refuted when you saw Jaeminâs phone charging on the bedside table. Walking out of the bedroom, you found both Jaemin and Yiseul in the kitchen. He was clad only in his grey sweatpants, and had his head bowed over a small mixing bowl as he stirred the contents inside along with a pot of coffee brewing on the counter. Yiseul on the other hand was basking in the sunlight near the window. You smiled at the sight, and leaned against the doorframe to watch but then it hit you â it was Jaeminâs fucking birthday and you had been making a mental note since the start of this month to surprise him with breakfast on bed.
âWhat in the world are you doing?" You asked, making Jaemin jump. âI was gonna make breakfast for youâŚâ
Jaemin dropped the mixer and dramatically clutched his chest with his left hand. âNot even a happy birthday or good morning for me?â
You planned out an entire schedule for Jaeminâs birthday two weeks ago. Starting with waking up 40 minutes earlier than usual to replicate a heart shaped toast with eggs which you saw on Pinterest, pick up tiramisu on your way home from work because he isnât the biggest fan of cakes and then finally a candlelit dinner later in the evening at a fine dining restaurant. You were so close to accomplishing the first goal before you walked out of the bedroom and saw Jaemin in the kitchen.
âHappy birthday, my oldie.â
"Good morning to you too.â He snorted, taking a peek at the clock on the wall. âYou woke up early today, congratulations.â
Ignoring his snarky comment, you walked into the kitchen and placed a chaste kiss on his lips out of instinct. âGive me the bowl.â Jaemin shot you a look before you clarify, âItâs your birthday baby. I wanted to get you some breakfast in bed.â
âY/N, weâre too old for that. Birthdays are only fun when youâre young, free, and 20.â Jaemin frowns softly, resuming to stir the pancake mixture.
âWeâre in our late-twenties, not 60.â You hit him on the shoulders. âBesides, donât you remember my 23rd birthday? We were drunk as shit and ended up fucking in the clubâs bathroom.â
âDidnât you also throw up on my bed later when I dragged you back to my place?â Jaemin reminisced about that night from 6 years ago. You nodded and a chuckle escaped his lips, âI started freaking out because, what the fuck do you do when your drunk girlfriend of only a few months throws up on your bed.â
âBaby, you just proved my point. Birthdays are amazing now.â A smug grin appears on your face, happy that you have won a silly argument. âCan you please pass me the bowl?â
âYouâre supposed to let the birthday boy be happy and making breakfast for my wife makes me happy.â Jaemin gave you a cheeky smile. âNow leave the fucking kitchen.â
âDo whatever makes you happy, Iâm not leaving.â You stood behind him and wrapped your arms around his bare torso from the back. You watched him pour the batter onto the greased pan and once he was on the waiting step of the process, you pressed a kiss to his cheek with a mumbled compliment on how good it smelled.
Jaeminâs shirt on you nearly covered the shorts you were wearing, and he recognized it as the one he took off before bed. He turned his head and you giggled at the attack of kisses on one side of your face.
"Werenât you wearing something else last night?" Jaemin questions before turning around and flipping the pancake.
âYeah, I changed after I finished working. You were already snoring by then.â You smiled and rested your head on his shoulder. âYou didnât notice when you woke up?â
âYou were literally buried under the comforter, like a cocoon when I woke up.â Jaemin turned his head again to place a kiss on top of your head. âYou need to stop staying up late every nighâ
âJust flip the pancake!â
"Or what?" He challenged.
"Or weâre gonna end up starving." You kicked at his leg as he continued laughing and turned to the fridge for fruits. Jaemin moved to the sink to rinse and slice them. You on the other hand took over the stove to flip the pancake.
"Itâs done.â
âY/N, wait a minute, let me make scrambled eggs as well.â Jaemin already has the eggs in a bowl as he whisks them with a fork. âWe need to have some protein!â
âHere comes Doctor Na,â you laughed while arranging the plates on the table. âIâm not having eggs, I feel sick.â
âWhy, what happened?â Jaeminâs eyes are widened as he looks at you in concern. âAre you oâ
âDonât. My head kinda hurts, it's probably the melatonin.â
âYou never listen to me. Iâve been saying stop working late at night, itâs not worth iâ
âOkay, okay!â
âIâm serious, Y/N.â
âI will, donât worry.â You assured him and placed a kiss on his temple. âLife is so hard when you have a doctor at home.â
Your words elicited a chuckle out of Jaemin. You noticed the dark circles under his eyes, etching a permanent exhaustion into him you were so used to seeing. You wonder if he saw the same on your face too, especially recently since taxing clients have literally been dumped on you with a deadline.
Jaemin stood in the doorway to ICU near Jinahâs room, and he could already feel his lower lip tremble slightly at the thought of what picture would lay beyond the door, in the hospital bed. Jaemin was informed that Jinah had a stroke the night before right after entering the premises of the hospital and was immediately rushed to the ICU.
She looked so fragile, broken, and every bit of Jaemin started shattering into pieces. Jinah was currently unconscious; and he suddenly remembered telling her his birthday was today a week ago. A nurse brought Jinah to Jaeminâs consulting room one afternoon a week prior during his lunch break because she wouldnât shut up about her favorite Doctor Na.
âWhoâs that?â Jinah pointed at the small photo frame beside Jaeminâs computer in between the plants he always had on his desk. He curiously followed the direction of her sight and it was a picture of you and him from your honeymoon in Baliâ both of you in sunglasses, smiling brightly under the sun.
âThatâs my wife.â Jaemin grinned at her, who was sitting across from him in her wheelchair. âIsnât she pretty like our Jinah?â
Jinah giggled, âI want to meet her one day when Iâm not sick anymore!â
âShe would love to meet you, Jinah. I already told her about you a few days ago!â Deep down Jaemin knew it was impossible when her condition kept getting worse every single day and he was ultimately met with his fears this morning.
Upon noticing Jinahâs family, Jaemin decided not to enter the room. He watched her through the window, an oxygen mask on her face, hundreds of pipes attached to her tiny, fragile body. The heart monitor continued to beep beside the bed â Jaemin knew thereâs not much time left, thatâs what everyone and the oncologist Kang Seulgi predicted. The cancer had already spread everywhere, resulting in ischemic stroke. Soon enough it will spread to her CNS and she will be gone.
âI just heard they might put her on life support if she doesnât respond within the next 24 hours.â Jaemin flinched at the sudden familiar voice behind him which belonged to Jeno.
âWhen did you come?â
âJust now. I went to your room and you werenât there.â Jeno shoved his hands into the pockets of his coat. âYeseo at the reception said you might be here.â
âYeah, I was about to leave.â Jaemin rested his back against the cold walls and looked at Jeno. âIs anyone looking for me? I left my phone in my room.â
âYeah, kinda.â Jeno scratched the back of his neck. âCome with me.â
Glancing at Jinah one last time through the window, Jaemin followed Jeno out of the ICU unit. He was aware of the fact that he couldnât do anything â it was a part of his job to say goodbye to these people at the end of the day and there was no point in sulking at that moment. He soon forgot about everything when he entered his consulting chamber and was met with Donghyuck, Minjeong, and a few other staff, surprising him with a small brownie and a few balloons. Remembering it was his birthday, he started looking forward to spending the evening with you instead.
After a long day, from a minor surgery to a woman hitting on him during a check up till she saw the ring on his finger â Jaemin was finally free and on his way to the restaurant texted him when suddenly he received a text from you. He pulled his phone out of his pocket when the car stopped at the red light to respond to the series of texts you had sent just now.
y/n: im so fucking sorry
y/n: im stuck with the
managers at a meeting
jaemin: oh
jaemin: do i cancel the
reservation?
y/n: i'm so sorry
jaemin: no itâs fine
iâm tired as fuck
jaemin: come home quick, ill
make fried rice and we can
watch a movie đ
jaemin: i love you
y/n: i love you too iâm
so sorry
y/n: ive got your tiramisu btw
jaemin: just come home quickly
Itâs 8:30 PM and Jaemin exhaled deeply before he made a short phone call to cancel the reservation at the restaurant. He drove home when it was nearing 9 while listening to his favorite playlist, placed the peonies he got for you in a white vase, got changed, cooked a small portion of fried rice for himself with whatever he found inside the fridge and waited patiently for you while slowly petting Yiseul on his lap in the dimly lit living room. The Netflix show on the TV only worked as a background noise as Jaemin forced himself to stay awake.
âHappy birthday,â A voice slowly whispered and Jaemin felt a pair of lips on his forehead. âI got peonies for you this time!â
Jaeminâs eyes slowly opened, and he yawned as he rubbed his eyes. âOh, youâre home.â He stifled yet another yawn, âWhat time is it?â
â10:30 PM.â You said flatly. âBaby, Iâm so sorry. I fucked up, itâs your biâ
âIâm actually glad we didnât go out for dinner.â Jaemin interrupted and gave you a tired smile. âIâm way too tired today, I just wanna cuddle you to sleep.â
âStill, itâs your birthdayâŚâ
âWhich Iâm spending with you right now,â Jaemin placed his phone on the coffee table, next to two cups and a teapot. One of them is half full with green tea, while the other is clean and empty. âGet changed, I made chamomile tea again because it suddenly clicked that you had a headache.â
âJaemâ
âHow is your headache now?â
âI took paracetamol in the evening, Iâm good now.â You assured him.
âSure?â
âYes, Iâll be back in 10 mins!â
A random movie played on the TV, and the two of you were tangled up on your couch with Yiseul on the other couch, half-watching the show and complaining about how unrealistic this show was as you passed the box of tiramisu back and forth.
âDid you take lactaid?â You were always concerned about the poor man beside you, who happened to suffer from lactose intolerance yet decided to indulge in dairy every once in a while.
âI actually did,â Jaemin replied after shoving the last bit of tiramisu in his mouth, he paused to chew before speaking again. âI was having the chocolate ice cream we had at the back of the fridge earlier.â
âHow was work?â You got up, leaving Jaemin alone on the couch, and made your way towards the kitchen to throw away the empty dessert box in the trash.
âKindaâ very shitty.â Jaemin heaved a sigh, âJinah isnât doing well, sheâs at the ICU right now.â
âFuck, what happened?â You stopped in your tracks behind the counter. He loved that little girl, as if she was his daughter. His eyes sparkled with joy every time he mentioned her randomly during dinner or showed you a selfie of the two of them.
âShe had a stroke, I really donât know much honestly. Forget it.â He said, a small smile spread across his tired face as he threw his head back on the couch. âThe staff got me brownies today because I made a special announcement to not get cakes for me after Renjunâs birthday disaster.â
You gasped as soon as the words left Jaeminâs lips. âFuck, let me get your present.â
âYou didnât have to get me anything,â Jaemin shot you a confused look, letting a small smile quirk at his lip as you continued to beam up at him.
âOf course I did...itâs just something little, I promise.â
Jaemin sighed at your explanation, rolling his eyes at your undisturbed excitement, and shook his head with a small laugh when you raised your eyebrows at him. He knew thereâs no point in arguing with you.
âJust wait for 10 seconds, Iâll bring it out,â You smiled and planted a chaste kiss to his lips before scurrying away towards the bedroom. You rushed to your side of the closet, pulling the neatly wrapped box from behind the well-stocked row of clothes hanging inside the wide doors and putting the package behind your back as you shuffled back to the living room.
âClose your eyes.â You laughed, pouting at him when he gave you an annoyed look. âPlease?â
You smirked when Jaemin complied, crossing his arms and relaxing on the couch as you made your way over to him. âWhat is it?â
âJesus, youâre so impatient,â you plopped down on the couch next to him and placed the box in his lap. âOpen your eyes!â
You held down another goofy smile when Jaemin opened his eyes, picking up the box in his lap and jokingly examining it. You playfully pushed on his shoulder and encouraged him to just get on with it, drawing your knees up to your chest to rest your chin on your bent legs as he tore the wrapping paper away. He wasted no time in opening the box, a fond smile taking over his features as his eyes scanned the black button-up shirt in front of him.
âThank you, I love it!â Jaemin turned his head to look at you, leaning in to press a quick kiss on your cheeks.
âYou might want to wear it and see if it fits you, I bought it online.â You casually replied, trying to hold down your thrill that threatened to ruin the actual surprise.
Jaemin followed your suggestion and pulled the shirt from the box, eyes narrowing when he noticed another box tucked underneath the clothing. âWhatâs this now?â He chuckled, making you let out your own giggle as he dropped the shirt on the couch to grab the real present.
âJust open it. I know you will love it.â
Jaemin gave you an incredulous look before slipping the lid off, mouth curling into an unbelieving smile as he pulled the silver necklace with two small rings as the pendant from the small cushion it sat on. âYou didnât have to do this, baby,â He stuttered, running the cold metal along with his fingers.
âShh, you deserve it,â You quietly responded and felt your heart practically skip a beat when Jaemin turned his head to look at you. You watched as his fingers fiddle the clasp open and you understood his silent request when he held out the necklace to you.
âI love you,â Jaemin whispered, leaning in to capture your lips in a gentle kiss and pulling your hips further down against his. You sighed into the kiss when he suddenly picked you up and placed you on his lap and you flexed your fingers against his shoulders. He pulled away, the sweet moment almost ruined for you when his hands greedily squeezed at your thighs. âAny other surprises for me?â
âActually, there are two more presents,â You smirked, letting your hands slide from his shoulders to rest against his chest. âOne, for now, another one for tomorrow morning.â
âMorning?â
âIâm taking you out on a brunch date.â
âUnderstandable. Whatâs now then?â
âOh trust me, youâre gonna love it.â
âFuck,â Jaemin threw his head and replied back in a low voice, irises thinning as his pupils expanded with the implications of your suggestive words. âWhat could that be?â
âYouâre gonna love it,â You innocently replied, scurrying out of his lap while holding down a smile when Jaemin seemed taken aback by your language.
âI think I know where this is going.â You ignored him and kept a heated eye contact as you got down on your knees, cursing the hardness of the floor under your knees that you knew would make you sore tomorrow.
âFuck, okay.â
You decided to take the initiative of pulling his sweatpants down, considering it was his birthday after all, and tried to control your rapidly increasing heartbeat when you pulled the clothing down his legs. It makes your mouth practically water to see his half-hard cock in front of your face, wasting no time in wrapping one hand around his length to slowly pump along his shaft.
âWhy are you staring at the ceiling?â
Jaemin hissed. âYouâve got my dick in your hands!â
âThis isnât anything new.â You laughed as you continued to slowly pump along his shaft. âIâve been sucking your dick for the past 6 years!â
âI knowâŚâ His head snaps towards you with a glare. âHow the fuck do you just stare at me when Iâm going down on you? Be honest.â
âItâs hot.â
âA freak is what you are.â
âI wasnât the one buying shit like nipple clamps and vibrators.â You shot back at him, making him raise his head from the couch to look at you.
Jaemin waved his hand around in defense, âIt was experimental and you liked it!â
âYes I did, shut up.â
âNo, you shut uââ Jaeminâs breath hitched and his head lolled back as you took him in your mouth, swirling your tongue around the head of his cock. His hips thrusted forward involuntarily, pushing him further into your mouth, and you braced yourself on his thighs.
Jaemin hissed out a few curses, and his hands found themselves in your hair, his fingers gently running through them. Your eyes flicked back up to see his chest heaving and he used his hand to gather your hair away from your face, allowing him to see exactly what you were doing â even though he was being bashful about it earlier. You kept your eyes on him as you got to work, pulling away for a brief second just to drag his sweatpants a little further down his legs to give you better access.
Setting up a steady rhythm, you used a hand on the rest of his cock, slicking it with your saliva, before sliding down to play with his balls. You loved the feel of him which was very familiar to you by now. This wasnât the first time youâd lovingly traced every inch of him with your tongue. But it never got old, and you could never get enough of him.
Admittedly, you would love the feeling of him even more somewhere else and you clenched just thinking about it. But right now this was more than fine, and you lost yourself for a moment, forgetting that you two were in the living room rather than the bedroom where you preferred to perform these activities. All you focused on was Jaemin; his taste, his scent, concentrating on using your tongue and breathing through your nose, letting the swelling head of his cock hit the back of your throat. Jaeminâs breathing grew harsher, his body tensed like a coil ready to spring, and you knew he was close. The hands in your hair clenched tighter, and you sped up, bobbing up and down on his cock with deliberate movements, moaning around him.
âY/NâŚâ Jaeminâs voice was strained and you knew that was his warning that he was close to his release. When he did, it was powerful, his body jerking forward, his cock hitting the back of your throat again as he spurted his release in hot waves. You kept your mouth on him, swallowing every last drop as best you could, still watching his face.
Jaemin looked etherealâ his head thrown back in pleasure, his mouth open wide in a silent moan, all those muscles in his arms flexing and straining. He was still holding your hair tightly, but slowly his hands unclenched to smooth out your hair.
When he finally relaxed, you pulled away from him, delicately wiping your mouth and licking your lips. Jaemin opened his eyes and gently cupped your cheek, a sated grin on his face.
âWhat?â You locked eyes with him as you shifted onto his lap, smoothing your hands down his shoulders after you had secured it and holding in a breath when his hands settled on your mostly bare thighs - the lacking fabric of your shorts mixed with the position not leaving much to the imagination when you were practically dripping on his lap.
âHow did cum get on my t-shirt?â Jaemin pointed at the white stain near the hem of his black t-shirt.
You wiggled your brows, âI wiped my hand on it.â
Jaemin gave you that look which made you giggle for a second before leaning in to capture your lips in a kiss, tasting himself and pulling your hips further down against his. You moaned into the kiss and pulled away when his hands unashamedly trailed over to your ass. âYouâre so beautifulâŚâ
You teased him. âDonât be sappy now. I had your dick in my mouth not even two minutes ago.â
âWhy do you ruin everythingâŚâ Jaemin trailed off when you pulled your t-shirt over your head, throwing it somewhere behind you in the living room. You were glad you had chosen to forget your bra after changing earlier. Excitement and arousal coursing through your body as you settled on his lap, legs resting around him. You used your arms to push your tits together while staring at Jaemin with mock innocence in your gaze, feeling a sense of pride when his cock twitched against your clothed core at the sight and taking it as a sign to resume your activities.
âBedroom.â Jaemin shot back in a low voice, irises thinning as his pupils expanded.
âCanât you just put your dick inside me here?â You shifted on his lap against his lap, hoping that the slight friction will make you feel at ease.
âNope,â A sly grin crossed his face and you suddenly yelped when Jaemin stood up on his feet and picked you up bridal style to carry you to the bedroom. When your back hit against the cool mattress Jaemin immediately pulled his shirt over his head and hovered above you, and you knew the night just began. Not that you were complaining, it was his birthday after all.
AUGUST 14
The morning light filtered into the room, soft and warm. Enough to wake Jaemin up before the obnoxious alarm went off. The sunlight was almost blaring at him through the curtains, sunshine much brighter than it was through the thin white curtains of your shared bedroom â though the blinds are partially closed.
Trying to not wake you up beside him, Jaemin sneaked away from your arms for a quick trip to the bathroom followed by quietly opening the closet to grab the first pair of sweatpants he could find. You groaned and moved a little from the rustling, but werenât phased by how he had to move away from the tight grip you had around his waist even in your sleep. Jaemin smiled to himself when he heard you continuing to snore lightly.
He made his way under the warm covers after wearing his sweatpants and back to you as he crawled over your body to wrap himself around your left side carefully. Jaeminâs lips brushed against your forehead in a feather-like kiss, before he settled back in and laid there to admire you.
You looked so peaceful to him, taking even breaths of air, letting out quiet snores through your partially opened mouth, and completely bare of any clothes. You stirred briefly, unconsciously cuddling closer to Jaemin. His eyes fell on the diamond wedding ring glimmering on your ring finger against his chest. The movement made your hair tickle against his nose, the scent of the shampoo you used a little stronger than before.
Jaemin laid like that for some time, drowsing happily while the person he loved the most in the world slept beside him. Heâd have to wake you up eventually, if you didnât do so on your own, but for the moment, he was content to stay like that, it was the weekend after all. You stirred again, sooner than heâd think you would.
"Morning.â Jaemin started, as he apologetically watched you yawn into your palm. "Did I wake you up?"
"Not really, I did hear you close the bathroom door.â You snuggled up to him, lying your face against his chest before smooching him on the cheek. When you slid your thigh up to lie on top of his left, he gave you a comforting kiss on the very top of your head. You loved the weekends, when you both had the time to bask in each other's body heat as you laid in silence in each otherâs comfort without thinking about getting out of bed.
You lazily opened your eyes and it was too much for Jaemin to resist. He kissed you again, brief at first, and then kissed you again, and again, barely giving either of you a chance to breathe. It woke you up the rest of the way, and you responded with kisses of your own, though your shoulders shook with barely contained laughter.
You made a face at him, rolling your eyes in fond exasperation, and tried to pull away from him. His arm tightened around you, holding you firmly against him. âLast night wasnât enough for you?â You gasped and chuckled when Jaemin rolled on top of you.
Jaemin passionately kissed you and pulled away to say, âItâs never enough.â His hardening length was poking at your thighs. One of your hands stayed at the nape of his neck, tickling the tiny hairs, while the other hand ran down his side and back to his hip.
You bucked your hips up to grind against him. You took your hand from his hip and placed it on the bulge through the sweatpants. Jaemin melted in your touch. He couldnât get close enough and wanted more of you. You removed your hand and placed it around his neck, pulling his lips in for another kiss. He rolled his bulge against your bare pussy, relishing in the friction.
You felt his hot breath on your neck. He sucked on the skin, leaving marks for him to admire later. You removed his grip from your tits and guided his hand to your pussy where you needed him the most and your breath caught in your throat when you felt his fingers on you.
Jaeminâs finger found your clit and rubbed soft circles before sliding his finger down to your slick entrance. He wasted no time curling his finger to find your sweet spot. He loved to watch you cum undone beneath him. Jaemin added another finger to your wet pussy. He pumped them in and out at a rapid speed, âOh my god, Jaemââ and you breathed out when he pulled out.
âWhat the fuck? I was gonna cum!â
âDamn that sucks.â
âItâs not gonna suck anymore when I make myself cum and just fall asleep while youâre gonna get blue balls.â
âShhh, have some patience.â Jaemin wasnât ready to give you what you wanted and you absolutely hated his habit of teasing you during sex. You felt the wetness on his fingers when he touched your legs. He placed both of his hands on your thighs and slowly, moved them up your body till they found their place on your hardened nipples, he took one of the buds in his mouth and his tongue started moving in circles around them. Jaemin softly pinched your nipple with his fingers and while his mouth was busy on the other. He kept his eyes glued to yours as he brought his other hand down to your pussy. He didnât waste any more time before inserting the two fingers back into your hole while his mouth still worked on your nipples simultaneously. Your mouth widened, but a gasp was stuck in your throat.
âAre you close, baby?â Jaemin pulled away from your nipple with a pop sound and his lips moved against the skin of your neck. You didnât have the ability to respond and you opted to nod instead.
Jaemin slowed his movements, and you groaned in frustration underneath him. He wasnât wrong. Your walls pulsed around his fingers and you needed a release. âDonât kill me.â
âNa JaeminâŚthis is the second fucking time.â You breathed out. âIâll scream if I donât get to cum within the next 2 minutes.â
âDonât scream at 6 in the morning!â
âYouâre so fucking annoying, let me just cum then!â You tested Jaemin for a moment, but when he started to pull his fingers out, you knew he wasnât playing. âWait, Jaemin. Donât do that.â You kissed him just below the ear and you were satisfied because Jaemin gave in immediately when you gave him that look. His fingers moved inside of you again, quickly. His thumb was back on your clit. âCum for me, baby.â He growled and that was enough for you.
Your back arched as you finally came around his fingers and your whole body shook. Jaemin took the moment to kiss you while feeling you cum undone. He took in the moans and kissed you through your orgasm. When your body finally relaxed, Jaemin lifted himself up to kiss you passionately again.
âDonât wipe your hands on the bedsheet like last time.â
âI didnât do that intentionally!â
âI donât care, I still had to do that laundry!â
âWhatever.â Jaemin dramatically rolled his eyes and shifted onto his knees. âCan IâŚ?â
âCan you what?â You looked at him with a confused expression. He discarded his sweatpants somewhere in the room and hovered above you, slowly stroking his cock as he kept his eyes fixated on you. Your eyes darted to his cock. âAre you asking if you can put your dick inside me or what?â You asked and Jaemin nodded while you tried and failed to hold in a laughter. âWeâve had sex so many times and youâre embarrassed to ask if you can stick your dick in me?â
âYeah,â Jaemin shook his head. âItâs called being polite!â
You laughed and kissed his jawline as your fingers wrapped around cock. His precum was slick against your fingertips and you slowly picked up your speed. You listened to how disorganized his breathing had gotten. He jerked his hips up into your fist. His cock felt hard and hot against the palm of your hand. You gave his cock one last squeeze before Jaeminâs hand grabbed a hold of your wrist. It was such a fast movement that it startled you for a moment. He brought his legs up and pushed your hand off of his cock. âShit, stop, stop.â His voice was weak. âIâm gonna cum.â
Jaemin rolled over on top of you. âPut your legs around my waist.â He said and pulled you closer. He took his stiff cock in his hand before thrusting it into your wet pussy. He pushed it in with a deep groan. Jaeminâs thrusts were slow and deep at first as kept trailing kisses down your neck till you whispered and told him to go faster. His balls hit your ass with every thrust and the two of you knew he wasnât going to last long, he just wanted to cum inside of you and you wanted it too.
âOh, fuck, Jaem.â You moaned as your fingers circled against your clit. You clenched around his cock and Jaemin came undone. He held back his moans in his throat as he spilled his seed inside of you. The groans that did escape his lips were music to your ears and sped up the process of your next orgasm. He pulled out of you just as you came, causing his cum to spill out of you as well. You let out a quiet giggle when you seemed to have calmed down.
Jaemin suddenly felt a little self-conscious. âWhy are you laughing?â
You turned over, tangling your legs with his. It was sweaty, but he pulled you closer anyway. You kissed him on the lips. âNothing. I just love you.â
He wrinkled his brows, âAnd you think thatâs funny?â He couldnât help but let out a breathy laugh as well.
âNo,â You smiled. âIt makes me really happy.â
Jaemin smiled back, not that you saw the smile for long as your tired eyes drifted shut and you scooted down in the bed to lay your head on his chest. He kissed the top of your head, his mind feeling bombarded by the sense of unconditional love.
He sighed, squeezing your forearm, âWe should get up.â
âItâs the weekend, baby.â You disagreed. âIâm not leaving the bed before midday.â
âYeah.â Jaemin gave in, âbut let me set an alarm for 10. Itâs my turn to walk Yiseul today.â He moved above you to grab his phone from the nightstand. When he finally got under the covers again, you listened to his heartbeat until it faded somewhere while you drifted off to sleep.
AUGUST 17
A fatigued Jaemin entered the condo and the aroma immediately reached his nose. The sight of you cooking in the kitchen while Yiseul played with a soft toy on the floor was enough to make him forget about the dreadful day he had at the hospital earlier. You were in the kitchen, your back facing him and Jaemin was sure you were not aware of his presence yet due to the AirPods in your ears.
"Oh, you're home early today! Get changed quickly, I'd prefer if you shower first," you spoke, chopping a cluster of vegetables.
Jaemin stopped in his tracks, he wanted to surprise you with a back hug and he also got a bouquet of peonies on his way home. Jaemin usually stayed back at the hospital till 7 PM every day, monitoring the in-hospital patients and having meetings about their well-being with their beloved families. Today, nonetheless he was let go at 5 PM right after a successful surgery, thanks to the new resident, Park Jisung. âHowâd you know I came, I was being quâoh my baby there you are.â
You could hear your pet dog, Yiseul, barking â she loved Jaemin, and wouldn't let him into the apartment without him petting her. His voice resembled a kindergarten teacherâs voice as he crouched down and greeted the animal.
âAll this love after insulting her last night?â You quipped while washing up the chopping board.
âDonât accuse me of shit I havenât done.â Jaemin sat on the floor to pet Yiseul, âRight? Iâd never insult you.â He cooed in front of the animal as if she could understand what he was saying.
âWhatever floats your boat!â
Jaemin stood up on his feet and walked behind you to grab a vase from one of the cupboards. He removed the fresh-cut pink peonies from the crinkly brown paper and started arranging the florals in the vase before placing them on top of the marble counter.
"What are these for again?" Your mind started wandering to different directions and you solely blamed the workload for that.
"Try to guess?" Jaemin smirked and took a few steps closer.
"Just say it, I'm wondering whether it's a special day today or not.â
Jaemin smiled, and it made his eyes crinkle at the edges. "Youâre beautiful."
"Shut up,"
"What? Itâs true." He hugged you from behind, wrapping his arms around your waist and squeezing you a little. You let out a squeal and laughed. âY/N," Jaemin mumbled, "You still didn't guess what these are for," he whispered and kissed your neck.
"I can't. I've had a busy day at work, meetings were crazy today.â You confided. Jaemin was stubborn, you knew that the second you saw him across the table for the first time. He wasn't letting you go any time soon if you hadn't mentioned work. âJust say it.â
"No reason, I just felt like it." He murmured and nuzzled into your neck. âI see them in front of the shop while leaving the hospital and I just get them.â
âThank you.â You faced him and pinched his cheeks, âHow was work?â
"The same old shit," Jaemin let you go and started munching on the carrots you just kept in the bowl after slicing them. âJinah suddenly asked about you today, called you pretty and all.â
âWho?â You remember Jaemin rambling about someone called Jinah a few nights ago but you were way too drowsy to register what he was saying and instead opted to hum along with him till you fell asleep in his arms. âSorry, I probably forgot.â
âA kid at the hospital, she has cancer. I did her tumor removal surgery and now weâre likeâŚfriends. She likes me a lot for some reason.â You could almost hear the excitement in his voice. âI go visit her every evening, and she suddenly asked about you today.â Jaemin pulled his phone out of his pocket, âLook, this is her.â
Jaeminâs phone screen displayed a selfie of him with a cute little girl, both of their smiles were so bright you almost didnât notice the tubes and bandages attached to her small body. âSheâs cute, isnât she?â
âHmm, she is.â You nodded. âTell her I called her pretty as well!â
Jaemin shook his head in reply, âAnyways, anything interesting at your work today?â
âNope, just designers being a pain in the ass. Jisu spilled coffee over her sample work, that's the most that has happened today.â Just as you finished talking your breath hitched, Jaemin was trailing wet kisses down your neck. âJaem, not now.â
He chuckled and rested his head on your shoulder from the back, âit smells good, what are you cooking?â
âYouâve been here for at least 5 minutes now! You donât know yet?â
âI was talking to you, how would I knowâŚâ He smiled sheepishly and kissed you on the cheek.
You smacked his shoulders, "Remember the tubs of kimchi mom sent? We still have those.â Scooping a little of the soup out of the pan, you blow on the spoon and hold it out to Jaemin to try. "What do you think?"
"Mm, that's good," He said. Your face breaks into a smile, stirring the pot again.
"I called your mom for the recipe this afternoon, you know how my one always gets salty. And for dessertâ
"You, I hope." Jaeminâs eyes were twinkling with merriment, but there was a heat there that you knew all too well.
"Ew, I hope you didnât forget that Iâm on my period.â You scrunched your nose in disgust and Jaemin laughed again.
âI actually didn't. I got you your chocolate covered strawberries and new tampons.â
âYou did?â
âYeah, itâs on the taâ
âI love you!â
"Give me a kiss then." Jaemin said, leaning closer, "You know, you haven't given me one yet."
"I can play hard to get."
His hand on your waist suddenly tightened and he picked you up, placing you onto the counter. "You were playing so hard to get."
"Cause you only wanted me for my pussy." You snorted as your legs wrapped around his waist.
âNâthatâs half true." Jaemin stuttered, a faint blush appearing on his cheeks. You cupped his face in your hands as you kissed him deeply. âI did only want to get my dick wet first, Iâll give you that.â He mumbled against your lips.
âI knew it!â
âIâweâve got rings on our fingers now!â Jaemin started waving his hand around in defence, desperately shoving the white gold ring on his ring finger onto your face. âYouâre stuck with me forever.â
âIâm aware.â You were trying so hard to not burst into laughter especially when Jaemin was whining in defence like that in front of you.
"Donât make me feel bad now." He suddenly started pouting. You broke into a smile and kissed him again, feeling warm, strong, and like home. âYeah, I just wanted to get laid at first but I really, really liked youâŚâ
You gave him another kiss on the lips. âI love you.â
"I love you too wifey.â
âNow let me go before the rice sticks to the bottom of the rice cooker. And you,â you pointed at him with your index finger, âTake a shower. I'm not letting you anywhere near the food before that."
âYes maâam!â Jaemin walked away from the kitchen while nodding, processing all the commands you were giving him. He crouched down to pet Yiseul again, âY/N, do you want me to run a bath for you after Iâm done showering?â Jaemin asked from the living room.
You smiled and nodded along in response. A bath sounded great after the long day you had at work.
âThe lavender bath bomb, right?â
âYeah! That one, thank you!â
AUGUST 19
It was a Thursday and you were having the worst day a person could possibly have â you wouldnât even wish it upon your worst enemy. The heels were uncomfortable on your feet and without a doubt you were sure it would leave bruises on your ankles. To make things worse than it could possibly be, you woke up with a nasty headache which turned into the need to empty your stomach at 5 in the morning.
Jaemin hugged you close and assured you it was due to overworking yourself and staying up past midnight the last two weeks. He sat on the edge of the bed while massaging your feet and explained how stress can cause nausea, suggesting you to call in sick today.
âI wish I could. Thereâs a workshop today.â You grumbled against the pillow and he continued to massage your feet sympathetically. âThis stupid project,â You rolled over to look at your husband. âJaemin, Iâll literally take a week off after this shit is over just to sleep 24/7.â
âYou deserve it more than anyone right now.â
The glass of your desk caught the reflection of your tired face cleanly. You silently played with the spoon sitting inside the cup of a strawberry probiotic yogurt you got from a convenience store 2 minutes away instead of having the chicken rice bowls they were serving downstairs during the lunch break.
The door to your cabin cracked open as Gyeoul peeked her head in with her mouth full, âYouâre not coming for lunch?â She entered with her bowl of rice when you shook your head and sat on the chair across the table. The aroma of the food she was devouring almost made you feel nauseous again.
âYouâre on a diet?â Gyeoul questioned, eyeing the yogurt cup.
âNope, I just donât feel like eating.â
âAre you okay?â
âNot really, Iâve got a massive headache.â
âKim talks too much right?â You frowned at the mention of your boss, remembering how talkative of a person he was. The workshop was going smoothly till he decided to start , along with yours and you were convinced that contributed to your already throbbing head.
âYeah,â You nodded and watched a grin forming on Gyeoulâs lips who seemed to agree with you as well. âIâve actually had this headache since the morning but Kim blabbering just gave it a boost.â
âIs our Y/N perhaps pregnant?â Gyeoul wiggled her eyebrows in an attempt to crack a very unfunny joke. You forcefully laughed along with her while shaking your head and hands in an attempt to deny the accusations. âIâm joking! Youâve been working a lot nowadays. Itâs the stress, it happens.â
Spooning at your yogurt, you ignored her and continued, âCan I ask you something?â Mentally you slapped yourself for thinking about breaching such an intimate question suddenly.
Gyeoul paused for a second, her mouth agape. âWait, are you actually pregnant?â
âNo, what the fuâI apologize for my language. Let me know if this feels too personal though.â
âOkay?â
âYeah. Donât worry, Iâm justââ Running your hands through your hair, you sit up straight and toss out the rest of your yogurt cup in the bin at your feet. âI feel like actual shit since Friday morning, you know, nausea and headache.â
Gyeoul shot you a flat look. âSo, you are pregnant? Those are some early pregnancy symptoms.â
Undaunted, you continued, âNope, Iâm not. Iâve been on the pill for years.â
âDid you take a test or miss your period?â Gyeoul inquired, âYou know, pills arenât effective all the time, right? Your husband is a doctor, you should know that.â
You were slightly taken aback by her snarky remark directed towards you and Jaemin as well you supposed. Your expression probably read offended now but you forced a smile and continued, âYes, Iâm aware. I donât need my husband to know that.â
âDoes your husband know?â You were starting to feel like Gyeoul was mocking you now.
âHe knows about my headache, yes.â
âI'm not a gynaecologist but you should take a test,â Gyeoul suggested.
You shifted in your seat and replied, trying not to sound bitter, âYeah I will.â
âThe workshop resumes in 10 minutes.â Gyeoul shoved a spoonful of rice in her mouth and with that she stood up on her feet and exited your room, leaving you with thoughts you didnât want to have and a pile of unfinished designs which have been killing you slowly for weeks.
y/n: are you free
jaemin: surgery in 20 mins baby
jaemin: ill call u later
y/n: okay love you
jaemin: love you too
y/n: no emoji today? :(
You sent him the text and went on with your day, forgetting about the whole conversation with Gyeoul as the workshop and designs occupied your entire afternoon and evening. However, you checked your phone after 5 hours and the messaging app on your phone showed that Jaemin still hadnât read the last text you sent. It wasnât unusual for him to not read texts for hours, there have been days when you texted him in the morning and he would reply in the evening. You let it slide and resumed working on your landscape design for a client again.
7 PM and you havenât heard from your husband in hours. You sighed, knowing that Jaemin could sometimes be a slow responder if he had surgery. Yet, a tiny kernel of worry was in the back of your mind. Upon entering the apartment, you called out his name, just in case he had come home early, the chances being quite unlikely given his incredible work ethic. Instead, you were met with Yiseul who came running towards you. You put your files and the small plastic bag containing a few cans of beer from the convenience store on the marble counter after petting Yiseul for a while, and sent him another text.
y/n: iâm home now where are you
After a moment, when your heart did the telltale lurch of worry, you resolved to keep yourself busy and do some light tidying around the apartment, take a cold shower and even a power nap on the couch to occupy those intrusive thoughts you couldnât stop. When you finally decided to call Donghyuck, you reached for your phone and dialed his number, lifting it to your ear, listening to the constant dialling sounds until you were left with Donghyuckâs voicemail â the same as Jaemin.
Placing the phone down on one of the couches, you paced around the apartment, chest beginning to heave a bit deeper as your mind raced with horrible imaginings and the dreaded question of 'what if?'
At 11 PM, after another agonising wait of an hour and 40 minutes, consisting of mindlessly scrolling through your phone, there was a sound of the door unlocking and you very nearly rocketed off to the moon. Yiseul on the other hand, excited to see her favorite human at the end of the day, jumped off the couch and ran towards the door as well.
The door opened and in walked Jaemin, still in his white coat. 'Where were you?â You asked rather harshly, which you realized after the words slipped out of your mouth. âHave you checked your phone?â
Jaemin didnât speak as he continued to take off his socks, almost pretending like you werenât about to go ballistic in front of him. You took the deepest breath possible, and asked quite softly this time, "Where have you been? I called Donghyuck and got no response aââ
âHello, my baby,â Jaemin mumbled, crouching down to hug the white, fluffy dog. The person who was always vibrating with joy was now speaking stoically in front of you. You took in his expression when he stood up, watching his tired face, the eyebags, and impulsively let him bury his head in your shoulder before inquiring any further. âCan I get a hug from you?â
âWhat happened?â He immediately engulfed you in a tight, tighter than he has ever hugged you. Your voice was muffled against his shoulder and you felt his shoulders shaking gently as you ran your hands down his back. The temptation to start screaming at him from earlier replaced with concern, "Are you okay?"
âJinah passed away.â Jaemin looked at you for the first time tonight, the dark circles under his eyes more evident than usual. âI should go get changed.â
You were at loss for words after he spoke. Everything was as clear as the day to you now â Jaemin was practically attached to Jinah, he would bring her up every time heâd get the chance with a fond smile, showed you selfies he took with her every other day and loved sharing anecdotes about her. Your voice trembled despite you trying to keep it together, heart sinking deeper and deeper into your stomach by the second as you looked at his sorrowful face. âHowâwhat happened?â
Jaemin continued to pet Yiseul, who was wagging her tail, happy to be in between two of her favorite humans after hours. âInternal bleeding, we had to perform a laparotomy in the morning and she justââ Jaeminâs voice cracked at the end, his own eyes watering. âI was in charge and she justâ
âSheâs in a better place now.â
âWhy am I even crying?â Jaemin let out a weak laughter while wiping his tears. He hadnât wanted to fall apart, but it was a long time coming. He watched her take her last breath â the same cheerful child was lifeless in front of him. Jaemin couldnât look at Jinahâs family in distraught when the new resident Park Jisung informed them outside the operating theatre. A tear rolled down Jaeminâs cheek and he started, âI know itâs my job-â
âSurgeons have feelings just like everyone else. Itâs okay to cry.â You wiped his tears with your hand and tried not to start crying as well, knowing that it would make his situation worse. Jaemin rested his head on your shoulder and let it all out, slightly staining your shirt with his tears in the process.
âI love you.â He mumbled against your shoulder. âSorry, this isnât like me. You know I donât cry.â
âYou cried on our wedding day though.â
âStop bringing that upâŚâ He chuckled through his tears and cupped your cheeks. âI donât know what I would do without you.â
You let out throaty laughter and kissed him on the cheek which made Jaemin chuckle through his tears as well. âGo take a shower.â
Jaemin seemed to calm down after a warm shower, a bowl of instant ramen that you cooked for him and playing around with Yiseul in the living room. He comfortably laid on his back while you were resting your back against the bedpost. âI thought about something while showering.â He paused and looked at you. âIâm coming home to my family, everyone at the hospital is but Jinahâs family? Theyâre going to be grieving for days, maybe even years. She was their only daughter.â
âThatâs just how fate works.â You replied slowly, running fingers through his locks. âThereâs nothing we can do about that.â
âI know, it sucks.â Jaemin nodded and his lips quivered into a smile when he rolled over to look at you. âI took a day off tomorrow, more like, Jaehyun forced me into taking one.â
âYou need to spend the entire day just sleeping like a baby.â Jaemin laughed when the words left your lips, making you gaze at him with a confused look. âWhat?â
âNope, Iâll clean the house, cook for us, go to the park with Yiseul.â He paused to give you a sheepish smile, âI canât make breakfast though, sorry. Iâm not leaving the bed before 10.â You chuckled after he finished listing everything he wanted to do tomorrow. Leaning over, you wrapped your hands around Jaemin's chest tightly and you never wanted to let go. The scent of his cologne flooding your senses, the warmth of his touch, the calming sound of his breathing. He was everything that youâve ever wanted.
âFuck, I forgot to ask.â Jaemin suddenly exclaimed and you raised your head from his chest in concern to look at him only to be met with a similarly concerned expression on his face. âHow is your headache now? Iâm so sorry, so much happened todayââ
âItâs fine.â You assured him. âGyeoul was trying to say Iâm pregnant. I told her thatâs not possible and she started being very passive-aggressive.â
âGyeoul being Gyeoul.â Jaemin continued to soothingly caress the small of your back slowly. âSheâs never gonna change, forget it.â
âI wouldâve said something back if my head wasnât hurting like a bitch.â
Jaemin sincerely laughed for the first time tonight, his laugh vibrating against your ears. âThe headache is from all the staring at your iPad screen for hours every night.â
âI know. I need a break.â You shifted away from his arms and propped yourself up on one elbow. You carefully studied his face, drinking in his features that you loved so much. Suddenly, you giggled at a rather unexpected thought. Jaemin laughed as well along with you and lightly kissed the tip of your nose before asking, âWhat is it?â
âI just had a thought,â you started. âIâm surprised Iâm not actually pregnant.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âWeâve fucking raw for months, Iâm surprised Iâm not 6 months pregnant yet.â
âI meanâŚâ Jaemin trailed off, as he let out a chuckle. âThatâs how the contraceptive pills work. They stop your ovulatiâ
âJaemin, my baby, my honey bun, just go to sleep.â
âDonât call me honey bun ever again.â Jaemin pulled the covers over his head and rolled over, facing his back to you. âGood night to you my honey bun!â
âNow why are you calling me that?â You snaked your arms around his waist from the back and rested your head on top of his. Jaemin faked an over-exaggerated snore in reply and the two of you burst into laughter.
âSeriously, itâs just cringy as fuck.â
AUGUST 22
You finally ease your car into the parking space after having the same old argument with Jaemin about who was the better driver and who got to drive to the grocery store. A few pouts and kisses on his cheek was enough for him to give up and let you drive. It was a warm, sunny Saturday mid afternoon and Jaemin didnât want to get out of the house at all. He suggested that you should just order groceries online instead of getting out of the comfort of your air conditioned living room where Jaemin was peacefully laying on the couch, watching TV but he quickly shut his mouth when you shot him the look.
Jaemin opened the passenger side door and got out. It was hot, much hotter than it was earlier in the week.
âFuck, it feels like hell out here.â He pulled his hoodie over his head and tossed the clothing to the seat at the back. Now only wearing a plain white shirt and black pants he jogged to your side of the car in an attempt to open the door for you like the gentleman he was only to be met with you already getting out of the car yourself.
âWhy did you even wear a hoodie in the middle of August?â You started walking towards the store as he followed behind you. âI was dying when I went to take Yiseul for a walk in the morning. I told you itâs hot outside.â
âYou did?â Jaemin stopped walking and tilted his head in confusion. âI didnât think it was gonna be that hot!â
âYeah, when you were sleeping like the dead.â You made a snarky comment to remind him that he refused to get up from bed even after you attacked him with kisses when you had breakfast for two ready on the table.
âBaby, Iâm sorry, I was tired!â You could almost hear him pout and it made you smile like a fool. âI would've never done that if I wasnât tired, you know that.â
âI know, I was kidding.â You nudged at his shoulder as you two giggle like teenagers outside the store.
You two always went grocery shopping together every Saturday, that is how it has been for years ever since you moved in with him during his med school. On Saturdays you two cleaned out the kitchen and cooked a feast together before sitting down comfortably in the living room and making a list based on what you both needed and wanted.
âWhere do we start?â You asked, gazing around at the enormous and slightly crowded store. âThe vegetaâ
âIâm getting coffee first, I havenât had my caffeine yet,â Jaemin interrupted you when he spotted the tiny coffee shop to the side in the store which you two always walked past during these grocery store runs.
âDo you want anything?â Jaemin strolled toward the counter with a smile.
âAre you sure this is,â You lowered your voice and whispered the latter. âI donât know, grocery store coffee, is it gonna be good?â
âDonât care. I just need caffeine in my system right now.â Jaemin shrugged and proceeded to order an iced americano. âDo you want anything?â He asked again.
âUm, not really.â You glanced at the screen which displayed different options of caffeine drinks along with the price at the bottom one last time. Even though youâve had your coffee already in the morning and offered Jaemin to drink as well, he refused to wake up. Eventually he left the bed while grumbling when you started complaining about not being able to clean the bedroom â only for him to go sleep on the couch again.
âOne large iced americano, please.â
Your eyes widened at the mention of his order. You have been telling him to cut down on his caffeine consumption for months which he complied now and opted to order a regular sized drink instead, at least you thought so. âJaem, I told yoâ
âLarge because youâre gonna start saying âgive me one sipâ after a while.â Jaemin mocked your voice and raised his brows. You gave him a gentle nudge because fuck, he knew you too well.
When Jaemin got his coffee from behind the counter he offered it to you, insisting that you should try it first before he did. He held the cup in front of you as you took a sip and nodded in satisfaction, letting him know that it was not bad for a $1 cup of coffee from the grocery store.
âTold you itâs good.â He shrugged his shoulders and took a sip of the coffee himself as you two made your way towards the store.
You noticed a small group of girls, probably high schoolers, you assumed, behind you two â giggling and being not so discreet about eyeing Jaemin. âThere are these teenagers staring at you.â Jaemin turned his head to look at the direction of your sight and you quickly smacked him in the shoulder, âDonât look!â
âLet them be.â He slipped his hand into yours and started swinging them. âNow, where do we start?â Jaemin asked, looking uncertainly at the sprawling store before you while sipping on his coffee.
âWhat are we even cooking today?â
âLetâs justâŚsee.â
âLetâs just go get sauces first.â
Jaemin nodded, taking up a position a half step behind you. You lead the way to the condiments first, thinking them among the most needed, but least likely to go bad, sorts of food to buy. Jaeminâs love for cooking came out as he selected sauces and marinades, telling you which recipes heâd use each for. His face paled when you reached for a bottle though.
âHoney mustard? I mean, wellâŚâ He tried to object gently. âWhy?â
You slid the offending bottle into the cart with the others. âI had a salad with honey mustard dressing on Thursday. It was so good!â
Jaemin scrunched his nose in disgust. âYour taste is horrible.â He trailed off as he proceeded to put ramen packets in the cart.
âYeah,â You grinned. âIâm married to you.â
âLook, Iâm an exception!â His eyes twinkled as he kept up his dismayed expression and tone.
âI believe you enjoy my cooking a lot.â
âThat I do.â
The shopping continued and things were going well until it was time to gather together produce. You helped pick out apples, peaches and bananas for snacking and breakfast. Turning to the vegetables section, you saw Jaemin carefully keeping two bags of potatoes and zucchinis in the cart. It was nice to see Jaemin being so relaxed and playful. It was the same Jaemin you fell in love with, the Jaemin you knew too well and trusted with your life.
âY/N?â Jaemin clicked his fingers in front of your face making you snap out of your thoughts. âDid you hear what I said?â
âSorry, I was just thinking about Yiseulâs food. What did you ask?â
âI got the chicken blend for her.â He pointed at the yellow and red packets sitting at the corner of the cart. âI was saying that Iâm thinking about making fried rice and probably some chicken dish for dinner, what do you say?â
Your eyes lit up like he just popped a diamond ring in front of you. âOh my god, yes.â
After paying for the three bags worth of groceries which you hoped will last for the week and having a tiny argument again in front of the car about who got to drive this time, you both were back in the car on your way home with Jaemin behind the wheel this time. Pulling out of the grocery store and driving for a while you noticed he had missed the turn which led to the apartment on the other side of the town.
âWeâre going the wrong way.â
Jaemin didn't answer, just hummed as he kept his eyes on the road. He glanced at you with a smirk when he realized youâve been staring at him in confusion. "Patience baby, I have a surprise for you.â
âWe are literally on the highway now.â
âJust wait. Few more minutes and weâre there.â
"Youâre so stubborn." You mumbled, opening a bag of chips you purchased at the store earlier as you watched Jaemin drive, admiring the way his profile glowed due to the sun during the golden hours. You held the chip in front of his mouth and fed him as he continued to driveâŚwherever he was taking you. âAre you kidnapping me?â
âI wouldnât have waited for years to kidnap you if that was my intention.â
âGodâŚyouâre truly something else.â
It had been a while since Jaemin started to drive and you still had no idea where your husband was taking you, you asked him again a few minutes ago where he was going but all Jaemin gave you was a playful smile and a short "a surprise.â
The time read 6:20 PM and you noticed the familiar route as you breathed in the distance and the familiar sea starting to peek through the spaces between the fences and tree trunks. "You canât be seriousâŚ" You started, disbelief in your voice at the sight of the waves crashing by the shore and the orange-yellow hues of the sky. "Youâre fucking crazy, you drove for almost 2 hours to come here?"
"Nah, I brought you to a forest, for naturâ" You smacked his forearm with a gasping chuckle and Jaemin yelped in surprise but quickly retorted by smacking the side of your arms. He took a left turn down a track, the one he discovered a few years ago during college, when he bought his first car with his own money. You clearly remembered Jaemin bringing you here on your second date with him, after classes, promising to get ice creams with you later. That was the day you discovered his hatred for strawberry flavoured goods.
It had definitely been a while.
The secluded parking lot that only the locals knew of gradually came into view and it brought back all the memories â driving straight to this place after classes, watching the sunsets together, all the times Jaemin had forced you into posing for his camera and lastly the all the uncomfortable car sex youâve had in this parking lot. Jaemin stopped the engine and opened the door, allowing a gust of sea breeze to sweep through.
"Okay, get out," Jaemin commanded, tugging at your hands which you willingly abided to.
"What are youâ" Your voice was cut off from your lungs when you saw nothing but darkness, Jaeminâs hands were covering your eyes as he leisurely began to lead you down the dunes and onto the flat stretch, steadily approaching the water that met up the shore. âWhat are you doing?â
"Shut up.â Jaemin laughed. âI'm not kidnapping you.â
âIâm aware of that.â
You two stopped walking and you could hear the waves crashing, people chattering away in the distance, feel the sand underneath your shoes and smell the salty sea air. It was exhilarating, your whole body relaxing at the sound of the sea and the cool breeze.
"Okay, now look." Jaemin said, removing his hands from your eyes.
You do as he said, and what you saw knocked the air out of your lungs, the sky was orange yellow hued as the sun set in the horizon. The sound of the waves crashing into the shore made you feel at ease after the hectic week you had at work.
âOh myâitâs beautiful,â You looked away from the sea for just a second to smile at your husband. âIt has been so long since we last came here.â
Jaemin smiled back at you softly, utterly in love. The way your skin glowed under the sun and your hair softly blew due the breeze, he was sure he was falling in love all over again. You hadnât been to the beach in years, ever since your 4th anniversary. It seemed like you two had always been just⌠too busy.
It felt nice to be coming here again after years.
You glanced at Jaemin for a second and thought he looked the best during sunsets. The rays kissed his glowy skin, he looked at peace. Your heart swole looking at him, so you turned your head to face the sea instead.
"Wait, stand still." Jaemin hooted and gazed at you as you gave him a confused look. He fished his phone out of his pocket and opened the camera app. âDonât move.â
"Baby, no, I don't have any makeup on..." You protested and started walking towards him to block the lens with your hands. âDonât take any pictures of me, please.â
He pouted like an annoying grumpy child. âJust one? The view is great, look!â
"Fine, just donât put them on your Instagram." You gave up and posed for his camera.
Jaemin grinned and took this as an opportunity to do the most, he squatted down on the sand and positioned his phone to get a good capture of you standing with a background of the sun setting, the sky almost dark. He smiled to himself in satisfaction, scrolling through the pictures he just took and proudly showed them to you.
"AirDrop that one to me later!" You pinched his cheeks and noticed his smile growing bigger.
"Come here.â
âWhat noâ
âSelfie.â
Jaemin stood beside you and you smelt like the familiar shampoo, your skin glowed as the sun which was almost on the verge of getting lost into the horizon. He positioned the camera and smiled along with you. He clicked the first picture and positioned the phone again for the second one when you suddenly kissed him on the cheeks just when he tapped on the shutter.
âLet me see the picture!â You smiled widely and impatiently waited for Jaemin to unlock his phone and open his camera roll. And there it was, a blurry picture of you kissing him on the cheek captured onto his phone screen. âSend that to me as well, Iâm gonna make it my home screen.â
âItâs blurry.â
âAnd?â
Jaemin inspected the picture for a while before concluding that it was indeed cute and you couldnât stop grinning. He watched you and he wished he could make you smile like this everyday till his last breath.
AUGUST 25
It had officially been a year since you and Jaemin exchanged "I doâs" to each other in front of all your friends and relatives. You cringed at the thought of your wedding vows, the one which apparently made Jaemin shed some tears in front of everyone. It was shocking to think that youâve somehow managed to complete a year with the love of your life and you couldnât help but look forward to more. However, what excited you more was whatever Jaemin had planned for you tonight.
âWhat has the poor grass ever done to you?â Jaeminâs voice pulled you out of your train of thoughts outside the restaurant at the resort. Jaemin surprised you with a staycation at a lakeside resort and who were you to say no to espacing work even for just 24 hours.
âHuh? What?â You glanced at Jaemin behind you and he was too busy arranging his credit card in his wallet after paying for the over-expensive food you two just devoured. The black pants paired with the black dress shirt you got for him on his birthday made you weak at your knees. Probably it was just the wine flowing through your system but you couldnât stop staring at him under the dim lights of the corridor outside the outdoor restaurant.
âYou were just,â Jaemin paused to laugh. âJust staring at the grass like this.â He widened his eyes dramatically to mock you and you smacked his forearm.
You replied with a throaty chuckle, âI was justâŚthinking.â
âAbout?â
âI feel bad about leaving Yiseul with your mom. I told you we should just leave her at my momâs place instead. I donât want your mom to take the hassâ
âDonât worry about mom. Sheâs probably sitting on the couch with her on the lap and watching dramas right now.â Jaemin pinched your cheeks and leaned in to press a kiss. âLetâs go to the bar!â
âNow?!â
âDuh, itâs not everyday that we get to drink freely like a wild teenager. Letâs go!â Jaeminâs hand found themselves intertwined with yours as he dragged you down the corridor which lead to the dimly lit bar.
You were sure Jaemin was going to be tipsy by the end of the night and your hunch became the reality when he leaned up against the door to your hotel room. "Hey," You could tell he was drunk from the way his cheeks were flushed. "Do you have the key card thingy?"
"Yeah," You answered, as you started rummaging through your purse. "Here," you started to hand it over to him, then pulled it back. "Wait. Let me do it instead."
"You always do it too fast."
"No, I don't." You shoved the key card in the slot and whipped it out. You both watched as the little red light came on.
"Baby. See?" Jaemin was trying not to laugh as he used the wall for support. How many cocktails did he drink? You lost count after his third glass, but you suspected it might have been more by the way he wanted to giggle at everything â including you struggling with the door. Not that you werenât tipsy as well but thankfully your alcohol tolerance had always been stronger than his.
"It's fine." You did it again and once again, the red light blinked. "Fucâ"
Jaemin laughed at your words, as if you just said the funniest thing ever, and took the keycard from you. He gave you a grin. "Here. Let me show you how it's done, baby." Jaeminâs eyes stayed on your the whole time as he very slowly slid the card into the slot, waited a beat, then slowly pulled it out. He smirked at you just a bit as the green light went on.
"Okay, fine. Get in here," You grabbed him by the collar and pulled him into the room.
As soon as the door shut, you were kissing. Sloppy, enthusiastic, drunken kisses that left you both breathless. There was something exciting about being in a hotel room, you couldnât figure out whether it were the memories from college â the memories from the cheapest room you two could find a few years ago in contrast to one of the most expensive suites at the hotel you were in right now.
"You should do it.â Jaemin blurted out suddenly.
"Do what?" You halted unbuttoning his shirt.
"No, I mean," Jaemin paused. "Well, submit the design of yours."
âFuck, I forgot to tell you.â You pulled away and sat on the edge of the bed, excited to tell him about your work. âI submitted my design last Tuesday! We will get the results on the 31st.â
Jaeminâs eyes widened. "Really?"
"Yeah," You waited a second longer to gauge his reaction. "How do you feel about that?"
"You're going to be such a hot, sexy senior architect and designer.â
"Donât say senior like that, I didnât get the promotion yet."
"You'll get it. Iâve seen you work hard every single day and night." He kissed you and you melted under his touch. âHave you considered designing our luxurious house with two floors and a backyard with a swimming pool in 5 years?â
âYeah, with a jacuzzi and a movie theatre as well.â You rolled over on the bed, your legs still dangling off the bed and you two high-five, both dissolved into laughter. âYou've got my lipstick on your lips.â
Jaemin laughed and wiped his mouth with the back of his palm. âCome here. Iâm so proud of you.â
You leaned into him, arms wrapping around his middle, and gave him a big grin from under his arm. âI love you,â you said, easily and happily. âHappy anniversary to us, I guess.â
Jaemin on the other hand couldnât keep the smile off his face, the alcohol in his bloodstream contributing to his sudden giggly attitude. âI love you too. Sorry we couldnât be at some fucking fancy resort at, I donât know, maybe Greece.â Jaemin had slightly started slurring now. âNext year, when weâre not the busiest people on Earth, weâre definitely going on a Europe trip.â
âWe will think about next year later, let me enjoy this first.â You squeaked when his hands found your waist. Before you could reply, Jaemin had already started kissing along your neck. You moaned and you're arching back against him.
âDid you bring it? I told you last ni-
âInside the luggage.â You breathed against his lips after he pulled away. Jaemin placed one last kiss on your forehead and got up to retrieve the thing you have been looking forward to since the night before. You giggled while Jaemin nearly tripped in front of the bed.
You gulped when he placed the pink bullet vibrator with a string attached to it at the end on the nightstand and crawled over to you. His wedding ring was visible as he ran his finger up your thigh, underneath your thigh length black dress. You shivered under his touch, goosebumps forming on your skin. Maybe it was because you were tipsy but you wanted him so bad at that moment â it was driving you crazy. âYou look so-
âHandsome?â Jaemin interrupted, winking one eye. âBeautiful? The hottest man in town? The best husband ever?â
âI was gonna say sexyâŚâ
âWell come here and give your sexy a kiss then.â Jaemin didnât need to ask twice. Your red lipstick smeared under the press of his mouth, tongues dancing together in a familiar way. When you break the kiss, you finally find your voice.
âMy pretty wife,â He said, grinning widely.
âYeah, thank you.â You replied dramatically, eyes rolling.
âIâm not done teasing yet by the way.â You could only make an unintelligible noise as he flipped you over on to your back and kissed you again. His fingers made the quick work of unzipping your dress and unhooking your bra, and he had you bare and writhing under him within minutes.
âWould you like your present now?â Jaemin breathed, his lips inches from the soft skin of your neck. You only nodded your head and Jaemin retrieved the pink vibrator from the nightstand and flicked the switch, bringing it to life immediately.
âHappy anniversary,â He grinned and pressed the tip of the rumbling vibrator against your clit. You squealed and wriggled away from him as he snickered. âWhat?â Jaemin continued laughing and you broke into laughter as well. âCome back here.â
âIt fucking tickles!â
âDo you trust me?â
You nodded quickly. âYeah.â
âThen relax,â Jaemin caressed your thigh. âWeâve done this before.â
âThat was more than a year ago actually.â You reminded him and he playfully smacked you in the thigh.
âJust trust me.â
You inhaled a heavy breath and collapsed back on to the pillows, biting your lip as Jaemin bent his head to kiss the inside of your thighs. His fingertips stroked the soft skin around your centre, and you felt yourself begin to melt into a puddle of need. It never took him long to have you gasping; he knew just how to touch you by now and exactly what you liked. When his tongue found your core, you called his name and arched your back, toes curling into the sheets.
After a few minutes, Jaemin stilled his tongue and asked you to close your eyes. You obeyed, sinking into the darkness behind your eyelids, only to shutter them open again, shrieking, when he inserted the cold vibrator fully into your wet pussy in one swift movement.
âShhh,â Jaemin said softly. âTrust me.â
âThis shit is cold.â You giggled nervously.
âIâll warm you up,â Jaemin smirked and flicked the switch at the highest speed. The buzz filled the room and you cried out at the sensation inside you. He bent his head to trail the inside of your thighs with kisses, reaching just below your core where the vibrator was rumbling furiously. You felt something uncurling deep in the pit of your stomach, climbing higher and higher. Your palms found themselves over your mouth, not wanting to disturb the other guests at the resort. You whimpered his name over and over again, your voice almost unrecognisable. Jaemin held you firmly in place when you started squirming, his fingers digging into your hips so hard that you were sure you'd have bruises in the morning.
âT-Too muchâfuck!â You were unable to form coherent sentences and Jaemin was having the best time of his life.
You really wanted to punch the smirk off his pretty face but right now all you could think about was how it felt beyond incredible. You were whimpering, sobbing and then finally, your release reached its peak, harder than you think it had ever had in your life. Jaemin on the other hand started circling around your swollen clit and you arched your back only to fall back on your elbows, hips jerking up as you chased your high. âMy baby is closeâŚâ
âJaâOh fuck.â You mewled as your first orgasm of the night took over you. Jaemin continued to circle around your clit till it all became too much and you pulled the vibrator by the string out of you yourself and tried to swat his hands away, while you twisted into the pillows, sobbing into them. âI-I canâtâŚI canât.â
âWas that too much?â He kissed you on the shoulder and caressed your back. âWeâre not even done yet, baby.â God, the cockiness in his voice, you really wanted to punch him at that moment â but he made you so, so good, you didnât have any complaints.
âJust donât fucking overstimulate me againâŚâ You replied with a weak chuckle, trying to catch your breath. âI wouldâve probably squirted if that vibrator stayed in there for more than 5 seconds.â
âI shouldâve stopped you from taking it ouââ You smacked his thigh with a gasping chuckle. âDamn, sorry.â
âThereâs no way Iâm doing that in a hotel room.â
âWhy not? Pretty sure the staff have seen worse.â
âNo seriously, justââ You got up and kissed his mouth shut passionately. Jaemin didnât give you much time to stay still because he got down on his knees on the carpeted floor and pulled you to the edge of the bed by your thighs. âI know youâre not doing what I think youâre about to do.â
âYes, thatâs exactly what Iâm doing.â
âGet a towel from the luggage, Iâm begging.â
âWe donât need it.â Jaemin replied from in between your thighs. You really couldnât tell if he was being oblivious on purpose to fuck with you or he really just didnât know. âIt only happened once.â
âDo you know my body more than mâwhy are we having this conversation with you in between my legs?â
âIf youâre so worried about the hotel staff, Iâve got a solution for you. Call the staff and say that we accidentally spilled our beer and then there you go, new bed sheets.â Jaemin chortled. âNow, please let me just do this.â
âYouâve got to be kidding meâahâ You felt his warm tongue glide through your sensitive folds, and you threw your head back at the sensation. Your toes curled as his tongue continued circling around your sensitive nub causing you to buck your hips forward, fingers making their way into his hair. When you felt him push his two fingers inside and your walls clutched them, hips lifting as your back pressed deeper into the mattress, helping him get a better angle at that one spot.
âYouâre so eager, I just started and youâre already close to cumming?â All you could do was moan as he added another third finger, scissoring them and stretching your walls, the movement having you gushing on his hand. âYouâre my pretty baby,â he was speaking softly, desire clear in his low voice.
âJaemin, please,â was all you could muster, your mind clouded from the pleasure. He obliged and pushed them in and out of you faster and faster. You felt pressure building up in your lower abdomen, tightening and threatening to burst with each of his thrusts. Your hands were gripping desperately at the sheets, as your walls were clenching frantically.
Jaeminâs other hand reached for your clit, rubbing it and after a moment you felt the tight coil in your core snap. He pulled out his fingers, as the pressure released in the form of clear liquid bursting from your pussy and splashing onto his lap and some on the sheets. Your body was shaking, your mind numb from the overwhelming pleasure.
âYouâve really made a mess,â Jaemin laughed, landing a hard slap on your ass. You let out a cry at the unexpected pain, but it soon mixed with pleasure as he began placing soft kisses on the reddened skin. You were always taken aback by this side of Jaemin when he channelled it once in a while. It was almost like an alter ego of his, a contrast to his jolly personality in front of the world, only for you to see.
âWeâre still not done yet.â A second slap landed on your other ass-cheek, soon followed by an array of kisses. Your cries turned louder, as a couple more spanks decorated your skin, leaving behind the outline of his large palms. You felt your walls clench again, his words serving to arouse you further. âCan you cum again?â
You panted and snickered, raising yourself onto your elbows. âToo sensitive, maybe wait for a few minutes.â
Right after the words left your mouth, Jaemin rolled you onto your back. In an instant, his lips were crashing with yours, the intensity of the kiss taking you by surprise and your mouth opening to his tongue without any protest. You felt him trace lines with his fingertips along your stomach and chest, settling to your tits, pinching your nipples, and twisting them, your whimpers and cries swallowed by his mouth.
âCan you just fuck me now?â You whined as he pulled away.
âWerenât you just saying youâre too sensitive?â Jaemin smirked.
âShut upâŚâ
âAlright.â Jaemin smirked and started unbuttoning his shirt and threw it on the floor beside the bed. You took in his sculpted chest, the way in which his muscles moved under his skin made your mouth water. He moved between your legs, spreading your thighs and placing them on his shoulders. He grabbed your ass, lifting your hips off the mattress as he aligned his cock with the entrance to your core. âReady?â
You nodded, trying to push your hips forward in an attempt to feel more of him. His fingers dug into your hips at your movement which were definitely leaving marks for you to see in the morning.
âP-please, I need you,â you pleaded, clenching around nothing. He was so close yet so far and you needed to feel him inside you. Your pussy ached and you didnât know how much more you could take. Jaemin leaned down to move your disheveled hair out of your and kissed you one last time on the forehead. He started pushing his cock inside you slowly and your toes curled. You closed your eyes, the way your insides were spread overwhelming you.
âThatâs my baby,â Jaemin grunted as he pushed himself entirely inside you, as you squirmed at the sudden movement, walls clenching around his cock. âYouâre taking me so wellâŚâ He praised as he started thrusting inside you, each movement eliciting moans and whimpers from you. You bit on your hand, trying to keep your moans down, not wanting to disturb the guests in the next room. Your skin felt like it was on fire, the way his tip pressed your sensitive spot driving you crazy, tears welling up at the corner of your eyes.
âIâm going to c-cum again.â You managed to barely form the words between your moans. He quickened the pace, his hips crashing onto yours as you felt your orgasm wash over you, making your whole body shake as your mind went blank. You were unable to let out even a whimper, the pleasure from the climax overpowering for a few moments, even your need to breathe.
Jaemin continued to fuck you through your orgasm, spurred on by the lewd expressions on your face till he emptied himself inside of you, painting for your walls white. Your legs wouldnât stop shaking from the intensity as he suddenly placed them on the bed on either side of his hips.
Before you realized what he was doing, you felt his warm tongue on your clit again, two fingers buried deep inside, pushing his cum in, curling and trying to draw another orgasm from your now overly-sensitive pussy. âI-IâŚcant anymore,â you cried as your hands sunk in his hair. âT-too much, Jaeâplease.â
Jaemin didnât stop even as you tugged at his hairâ an half-hearted attempt to get him to stop, as you werenât even sure you even wanted him to. He bit your nub gently, sucking on it and licking, his fingers continuing to move at the same pace as the volume of your cries rose, your body shaking. Your hips started moving on their own, meeting the thrust of his fingers as you climaxed for the fourth time.
You probably blacked out for a few seconds because the next thing you heard was Jaemin falling flat on the bed next to you, his breathing rapid, sweat dripping from his body. He started caressing your side lovingly and placed a kiss on your shoulder. âSorry.â
Turning on your side to face him, you intertwined your hands with his, humming, âI just had the best sex of my life, shut up.â
Jaemin laughed, planting a kiss on the top of your head as his hand was stroking your hair. A few minutes passed in blissful silence before he spoke again. âLetâs go take a bath, it would be easier to clean up now than in the morning. I need to take off the sheets and call the staff as well.â
He came back to the bed after a while, picked you up gently and helped you steady yourself, handing you the glass of water. âThank you,â you muttered lightly, your legs were wobbly which he noticed and picked you up bridal style, carrying you to the bathtub that was already filled with warm water.
âI love you, baby. Are you sure youâre alright and I didnât go too far?â He asked again, crouched down beside the bathtub, adamant to make sure you were indeed okay.
âJaemin, two slaps on my ass isnât gonna kill me.â You chuckled as your body relaxed in the warm bath. He kissed your hands and stood up straight again. âTheyâre gonna come to take the sheets soon, let me go and clean up the room a little.â
You giggled to yourself and he frowned. âWhat are you laughing at?â
âJust imagining myself as the staff.â You continued laughing, punching his arm lightly. âTheyâre not dumb.â
âAs I said, theyâve seen worse.â Jaemin shrugged. âDidnât you see how many couples there were during dinner?â
âYouâre so silly sometimes,â
âI love you.â He crouched down again and whispered into your hair, before kissing you in the temple. âHappy one year to us.â
You splashed water at him, âI love you too, my cutie.â
AUGUST 31
The evening air was cool as the strong breeze nipped at Jaeminâs skin from the open window inside his car. It was one of those days when you had to leave early in the morning, carpooling with Jisu and Yeji and Jaemin had to pick you up later in the evening. He was leaning on the leather car seat behind the wheel, too distracted with his phone to notice you slowly making your way to the car. You coughed loudly once you were close enough and his head shot up at you, a small smile already forming in his lip when he saw your face.
"Hey." Jaemin greeted you as you opened the door to the passenger seat. âHow did it go?â
You don't answer and Jaemin already knew your project didnât go well. He hummed as he watched you sit down and take a deep breath. You fastened the seatbelt and Jaemin glanced at you one last time before he started the car. "I got food for you." Jaemin motioned at the chicken nuggets and fries along with a bouquet of peonies neatly placed at the back seat.
âFlowers again?â
âLast one for the year, theyâre going out of season soon.â
"I didnât get the promotion." You broke the silence, taking a bite of the nugget as you watched Jaemin drive, admiring the way his profile glowed whenever he drove past street lights and well lit convenience stores, "They said my design was way too minimalistic.â
"Were you happy with your design?" Jaemin asked, not taking his eyes off the road. The sky rumbled above followed by a lightning strike. âAmazing, itâs gonna rain.â He muttered under his breath.
"Yeah, I was.â You chuckled lightly. âI really liked the design for the living room. Too bad I canât submit it anywhere else now.â
âThatâs what matters the most.â Jaemin replied, glancing at you for a second with a smile as his free hand intertwined with yours. âItâs truly their loss, I thought the design was perfect.â
You didnât reply, instead you chuckled and leaned over to peck Jaemin gently on his cheek when he stopped at the red lights. âThank you. I donât care about the promotion, it's not like my salary was gonna increase.â
âWho got the promotion?â
âYeji did, but her design was like, very luxurious.â You leaned back against the leather and looked up at the sky through the window when it rumbled again. âI donât think anyone with a budget of less than $10-20 million can get her design.â
Jaemin proudly grins. âAny idea of how much your one mightâve been?â
âBudget?â
Jaemin hummed in reply.
âProbably a million or two? It had multiple window walls andâ
âThatâs it. Itâs gonna be ours in a few years.â Jaemin replied so casually, you had to raise your head from the comfort of the seat to look at him in disbelief.
âWhat?â
Jaemin glanced at you from the corner of his eye, âWhat?â
You scrunched your brows together. âSo, youâre saying that weâre gonna live in a million dollar penthouse in a few years?â
âThatâs exactly what I said, yes.â
âNice.â
Jaeminâs fingers tapped against the steering wheel in time to the song he had softly playing out of the radio and he turned his head and gave you an odd look. âNice? Youâve got nothing else to say?â
You truly got over your fear of commitment, thanks to the man beside you. Nothing seemed scary in life anymore when you knew he was going to be by your side through thick and thin, no matter what. Unknowingly you started, âI fucking love you so much, it drives me crazy sometimes. Have I mentioned that before?â
Jaeminâs eyes widened and he was grateful his car was stuck in the traffic at that moment or else he wouldâve pressed the brake pedal in the middle of the road. âThat was so randomâŚâ
âSorry, ignore me, my mind is going haywire right now.â You pulled your hands away from his and hid your face in the palm of your hands. âI need some fucking sleep.â
âItâs September tomorrow.â
You groaned. âDonât remind me.â
Jaemin stopped the car in front of your apartment and unbuckled his seat belt. âI love you too, by the way.â
I Will Rise
Hufflepuff!Reader X Draco
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like Iâm made of glass
Like Iâm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Chapter 1 Â Â Chapter 2 Â Â
Chapter 3 Â Â Chapter 4
Chapter 5 Â Â Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Summary: With the next winter holiday things get to their lowest point. But rock bottom is always the place to start building up.Â
A/N: So this was supposed to be super angsty with no end in sight but ya know, I changed my mind. This is angsty donât get me wrong, but this is also where choices are made and people are changed for the better or worse. Sidenote: I just ended a four year relationship yesterday and ya know. Iâm great. Anyway. Love yall!! Let me know that you think as always!!

Draco and I stood at the Manor gates. Dark clouds rolled in, suffocating us. They threatened with snow, ice, and fury.
âItâs the Dark Magic,â Draco noted, his voice seemingly indifferent, taking my hand.
I nodded, sighing. Something was to be said about missing sunny days and warmth. Even in the dead of winter, this chill sat differently on our shoulders. Winter promised spring⌠this artic promised nothing but death.
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Monster
Hufflepuff!Reader X Draco
Again is this what you came for?
You paid for?
To watch somebody burn and crumble and stumble
Then fumble all my words and let you twist them and listen
To all the ugly things you tell me I am
Chapter 1 Â Â Chapter 2 Â Â
Chapter 3 Â Â Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Summary: Things go from bad to worse. Not all stories have happy endings, and it would be stupid to only read the ones that did. You and Draco learn that the only way to fight prevailing evil is unconditional loveâŚ. but can you two manage?Â
A/n: Iâd like to formally apologize right now for how much this is going to hurt all of you because⌠oh boy. This gets really angsty and depressing and Iâd like to remind you that Draco actually had to go through all of this alone. Sure, JKR does a lot of fucked up shit, but what she did to Draco Malfoy, I will never forgive her for. She lost my respect even before she said what she did on Twitter. But as I said before: watch me save Draco Malfoy. (P.S. If you havenât listened to Special by Gabbie Hanna or watched the music video, I highly recommend it and then crying over it because Draco Malfoy man)

Draco paced his room, scattering his possession in his fury. His room shredded once more. What had he done? What had he said? What had just happened?
âYou have some nerve showing up here,â He heard his mother hiss from downstairs.
For a moment, he thought it might be you, and false hope fluttered in his chest. Wiping away his tears, he slipped your locket into his pocket and stood. Snapping his fingers, his room started to put itself back together as it pained him to remember the first time you had done that spell for him.
Now you were gone.
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