YHS Taurtis [EP 54] Thoughts

YHS Taurtis [EP 54] Thoughts

I started watching YHS because I wanted to know what happened, and honestly my curiosity got the best of me but I did still know how dark it went.

Annnnnd then it turns out that, oh. There's more than just the warnings. I mean really, no matter how in-depth you get about how bad it gets, some things will still get someone off guard.

I just.. Guys original Taurtis.. It's awful. I didn't think this was how it would go. I mean I knew Grian would be pretending to be Taurtis because of Sam (how loud Sam gets when he yells when Grian says he isn't Taurtis is painful, kudos to any headphone users who didn't feel the pain)

but.. them meeting Original Taurtis and the poor guy not remembering anything besides the crash and doctors.. AND THEN SAM ACTING LIKE HE DOESN'T KNOW WHO THAT IS AND STILL ACTING LIKE GRIANS TAURTIS WHEN THAT PERSON IN FRONT OF HIM IS TAURTIS

i cant. its awful. I think I would've preferred Taurtis dead then alive but with basically no memory. Sam's just manipulative as fuck and I hate this so much. Everything else? its 'okay'. I can handle it, I even have a dark sense of humor so some of this is funny.

Sam making Grian pretend to be Taurtis? Uncomfortable, but nothing I can't handle.

THIS? I'm afraid that this is my too much point.

I feel for Grian in this, I can't. It must be so awful seeing someone who he knows so well is Taurtis but can't say anything because he knows Sam will do something about it, and it won't be anything good.

When you know that the reason Taurtis doesn't even remember anything in the first place was because of Sam, and normally I wouldn't play the blame game, but doing THAT is so much worse.

Sam. The character was a little bit bearable before. A little bit annoying and stuff, but fine. And then this happens and it breaks my heart.

I want to cry.

I hate the fact that Sam's been basically using Taurtis' state instead of actually letting him know the truth, and just manipulating him into believing what he says because there's nothing else that tells him 'hey, that isn't true', and Grian can't say anything unless they're alone [or with people who can actually TELL who is who like Chan]

And Sam gets so fucking loud there's no wonder it was traumatizing. Fuck. I usually like watching Antagonist POV but on this one, not so much. I think it'd be more bearable from Grian's POV haha, my heart would shatter if it was Taurtis' because I just can't. He's just so oblivious rn.

I'm getting emotional. Why did no one talk about this part? Is it just me who gets hurt at this part?

Ranboo Skin Redesign

Ut;s

It's probably not the best, lol.

YHS Yuki Skin Redesign

This is my first time making a skin... It's kinda bad.

I have also found out that regardless of whether I'm drawing, or if I'm trying to do a minecraft skin, I can literally never draw pants right lmao.

Also the boots are a bad shade of color compared to the otherwise light color palette aghh

hi!!! we just read the review you did on our coliseum masterpost and it made us smile so hard thank you SO much for taking the time to write all that :D truly made our day

but we were so happy to see your theories and you are correct in ways you don’t yet realize…. [dramatic supplementary music]

and you’re certainly right, a lot can happen in four chapters :)

(and the masterpost isn’t updated because we Uh. Forgot. will go do that now thank you for the reminder KMDKDJDKDM)

we hope you have a nice day :)!

aAAAa thank you lol <3 /p

i kinda just do the review things so more people can find fics that they might be interested in (honestly pretty hard to find fics you might be looking for if you either arent sure where to look, or if a fic doesnt do the right or enough tags if that makes sense)

cant wait to see where the story goes 

remember to take breaks btw ^^ the best story is the one that isnt rushed 

Twitchcon LGBTQIA+ Panel ( <3 )

Got around to watching Twitchcon finally. LOVE it.

I just. Scott explaining that sexualities are a spectrum and etc etc [go watch it yourself I'm not gonna repeat him]

I've just come with a realization.

Cause. So. I'm Pansexual but I kinda used to think of myself as more of Straight since I found myself more with an attraction to males than females, but Scott pointed out that it doesn't have to be a 50/50 and I just

woah. I mean the answer was probably right in front of my face and I kinda just didn't notice until someone pointed it out and I appreciate that.

Although I now know that I'm Pan even if I have more of an attraction towards males than females, I didn't really had that then and kinda just thought it was one way or another.

Because then I thought 'I mean I don't think I'd mind being in a relationship with a girl', but then it felt kinda wrong to label myself as Bisexual and so on if I like boys more, and I just kind of struggled with that for awhile.

I think that it might've been better if there were more representation over this kind of thing in a positive way and explaining it, because honestly I think I misunderstood the labels and took it way more seriously than I should've.

Like even when debating my gender, if I was nonbinary, but that was no gender and I was leaning more towards being male, but it's more like you don't have to fit an expectation for a specific label, because it's your own thing and there's kind of a spectrum. While there is technically I believe some sort of term for where I am on the gender side of things, I think that honestly, I fit more with the term nonbinary despite my pronouns being He/They when I think the common thought is that nonbinaries are They/Them.

Honestly it was because of that that I kinda just felt uncomfortable including it in my bios that I was nonbinary if I went by He/They, because then technically I wouldn't be nonbinary if I was going by he, because then I would be male since that's kinda how people think of pronouns, and I don't think pronouns have to reflect what gender you are though. You could be a female but go by they/them, he/him, she/they, etc etc. Atleast that's what I'd like to think?

I do struggle with that still though so I usually just settle on either referring to myself as nonbinary (they/them), or just he/they without the nonbinary label.

Honestly a lot of this has been about myself, but I do appreciate that there are a lot of creators nowadays who are in the community or are allys that are willing to help with the confusion, and able to explain in a way that just kinda makes you realize something.

It's done in such a positive and casual way that it's not like a big deal, and I think that's what a lot of us need in our lives.

I have also only just realized that sexualities and assumedly gender stuff is on like a spectrum, and you don't have to strictly fit the label to actually be it. Like you could label yourself as gay but you're bisexual or something. Technically you would still be gay, but a lot of people like to think that if you label yourself gay, then you are only gay and nothing else.

I like the freedom that you can be able to express yourself without having to worry about if it's accurate to you, and if other people see that as accurate. I do also like that so many people have spread information about this kind of thing around the internet so that if anyones having these questions or need to be more informed can easily find a website or something that talks about it and helps them get a better understanding of their own.

I love this community and I loved the panel. Sorry for pouring my heart out on this and getting a bit personal, and this also isn't actually fiction, but this is the blog where I kinda post my thoughts over things, and this is a better place for me to honestly put it, because in a way it kind of fits still. Or at least I hope it does.

In Need of a Hand - YHS Dark Fic

Hi. I.. So I started watching YHS [SamGladiator] because I was.. curious? I hadn't actually seen it and I wanted to know. and then there was this scene thats not that bad I promise but I made it worse because I write angsty fics and I have a fixation on dark stuff and it just sparked my inspiration, aGH IM SORRY. this is probably insensitive af and im gonna need to put it on anonymous probably because its AWful--

haha that one scene in episode 15 where taurtis for some reason has a doritos bag and sam tells him that his hand is tainted and he should cut it off and thats like a new rule

except this time he actually did it and i made a reference to something with an item but i dont actually know what happened to it because i can only spend so much time focusing before i get bored ;_;

haha in need of a hand? get it?

im sorry.