That One Scene From "The Day I Picked Up Dazai"

That one scene from "The Day I Picked Up Dazai"

This is so good! I love this idea! Fictional stuff is so underrated and I can't wait to see more if you ever feel like it! 💕🙏

❀☁ ʬʬ: what your fave fictional character would think about you!

hello ♡! i hope you've been well. i've conducted another tarot reading for you all today! it's been a while :) i included 6 piles to differentiate the energy a little more. today's tarot reading is a simple one, as always. this is to see what your favorite fictional character would think about you, if anything!

i've recently been really attached to my favorite fictional characters and comfort movies, like loki and whisper of the heart. i hope this can ease your fictional character-obsessed soul and grant you a moment of being delusional in peace ;) all photo creds go towards google/pinterest. please do not steal or reuse/repost my work! thank you :]

| pile one ♡

for whatever reason i sense this underdog story. this character has this peter parker-ish energy to them, also i’m hearing viktor from arcane for some reason!! ( i’ve never rlly seen that show though don’t boo me ) if there was ever a hypothetical universe where you guys met each other, they’d definitely see you as the light who helped take them out of the darkness. not in a knight of shining armor/you pulled them from the depths way, more in like a they were reminded of who they had to fight or live for and kept going because of that. they seem like a fighter and a survivor, someone who has been through hell and back ( the winchesters?$!?!!!! DEAN WINCHESTER?!’bnnbnn ?!!!?! ). majoorrrrr gwen stacy and peter parker vibes omg. you guys would be total sweethearts!! the kind of relationship everyone would be posting on their tl saying “me and who 🥸🥸🥸🥸🥸”. you and NO ONE stinky

you guys would LOOOVVVEEE playful banter and there would be sm friendly sarcasm. both of you are probably perfectionists and give off older sibling vibes. def trauma bonded but not in a toxic way, just like a nice lil connection that makes you both realize you’re not fighting this alone. there’s an understanding silence between you two. one of you could be having a bad day and the other know immediately and also know exactly what to do. i’m also hearing ellie from tlou. and joel lmao do you like this character bc you see yourself in them?? you guys mirror each other. you guys are gonna be there for each other through the THICK AND THIN. you’d definitely get friendzoned at first btw LMAO

| ✶ seiji's mixtape: “strawberries and cigarettes” by troye sivan, “consider me” by allen stone

| ✶ shizuku's notes: one and akin, mirrors, peaceful silence, chili hotdogs and pie/comfort foods

| pile two ♡

what's interesting with this pile is that i don't necessarily see much of their emotions towards you. just a vague throbbing in my chest that i can literally like. physically feel. something about you feels so lonely, so starved for a partner of any kind. and it's like you kind of idolize or worship this person. they probably mean so much to you, but if you ever met them i think you'd realize you don't really mean anything to them. i'm not getting much on their side, once again, but an indicator as to who they might be in case you're wondering if this is your pile is that they might be considering an "it" boy/girl/etc and they're a super popular and well-liked character. they don't have to be well-liked in their respective medias it's just like. giving. idk dave lizewski. no one liked him in kick ass but everyone likes him irl and stuff. i just don't think they'd ever be interested in being anything with you??

they'd probably appreciate the attention bc you seem to be very dedicated to them but they wouldn't fight for it like you would. you'd definitely have to sacrifice something to be with this person and i think that, at the end of the day, it wouldn't matter in the end either way. i do however see that this connection would've been a rebirth for you if you ever met them. either positively or negatively, it'd change you and help you reach a certain level of enlightenment. it just feels like this constant, confusing cycle of going through trying to sacrifice everything and everything for them over and over again until there's nothing good coming from it. be nice to yourself, pile 2.

| ✶ seiji's mixtape: “people are strangers" by the doors

| ✶ shizuku's notes: "did it all on no drugs/did all of this sober", alienated, young and naive, cassie from euphoria, broken plates

| pile three ♡

BYEEEEEE this was the most delusional one out of all the piles. and not delusional in a omg u just WISH ur fictional character would enjoy your company... like they actually would do all of this it was making ME delusional. getting more romantic vibes here, it could def be platonic but like. you both are so COWARDLY LMFAOOOO this is so funny i'm sorry. if you guys ever met it'd be like one of those annoying "they both felt too suffocated to tell the truth to each other.." romances that goes on for 10 seasons just to keep people hanging. for some reason i'm hearing QUEERBAITING so take that as you will. good omens and hannibal came up. def have some fruitcakes in this pile. you both think you can't have the other which is stopping you guys from going to each other!!!!!!! trust you'd have the tension and the pining you've always wanted w them ( if you do ) because they'd serve it EACH AND EVERY SINGLE TIME. i can just see you staring at them while they stare forward wondering, "when will they like me..." as the camera pans in from their moon-lit face to yours which is quote unquote "crestfallen". then you look ahead with a sigh and they look at you and wonder THE SAME THING with the SAME FACE.

enemies to frenemies to friends to enemies to lover?? friends to accidental making out to awkward friends to strangers to lovers???? bitch what the fuck get your problems sorted out for gosh darn sake. if i watched a show with you two together i'd rip my eyes out. people would definitely make edits of you guys on tiktok of the audio where it's like "you were a wonderful experience" and the other dude's like "you were... everything" and people wouldn't know where to put who because YOU NEVER CONFESSED OR COMMUNICATED SO WE DON'T KNOW HOW. some weird random ass sacrifice scene would happen at the end of the show and everyone would boycott everyone from the writers room for years to come lmfao or you'd get the happy ending idk depends on how much the writers like you. ed and stede ass mfs. you two would rule ao3 my god. probably would've been apart of the original elite tumblr horsemen lineup ( spn, sherlock, hannibal, doctor who etc ). hate you both

| ✶ seiji's mixtape: “brujas" by princess nokia, "slow down" by skip marley and h.e.r.

| ✶ shizuku's notes: the songs definitely represent both of ur personalities, black cat and golden retriever, high and low functioning depression duo, good omens, peter quill and gamora, good music taste, my fav pile btw ;)

| pile four ♡

i'm seeing the homeless ant meme in my head. at first that's how i thought they would see you, but i think that's honestly how they feel they're around you. you feel so divine yet so normal? something about you is really endearing and so easy to fall in love with and they wish that was them. they're definitely a more misunderstood character, or maybe they have super low self esteem. you are their lacy. or would be whatever i keep mixing the right grammar up in this pac forgive me bubs. but yeah something about you is so curious and twinkling and artistic even. you're so kind and grateful and you have a really nice smile. when you smile and look up at someone in awe it makes them so fucking jealous.

they'd probably hate you and some of them might show it, some of them might hide it and act like you don't bother them like that. but you do. i'm getting the feeling you have something they want. i'm thinking of that one stupid edit where harry styles sees obama kissing michelle obama and gets mad. you maybe would've had the attention of someone they always tried to impress or look for. it's like, the person they like used to be the face they'd look for in a crowd and after a while it'd be you with them. their fear is walking out and seeing you with everything they want. they'd never talk about it and don't intend to. they'd also sort of want to protect you, and they'd kind of think about you... like, a lot?? it's like they despise you but they wanna be you but they want you to want to be like them but they want you. gender envy or gender attraction ( is that a way to put it )!!!!??? yeesh. you'd probably be the reason for either their depression arc or their flop era LMAO so you're lucky they're not in this universe.

| ✶ seiji's mixtape: "lacy" by olivia rodrigo, "rhiannon" by fleetwood mac

| ✶ shizuku's notes: marienne and joe ( yikes ), lacy, problems, escape, never be good enough, confused, give me a BREAK!

| pile five ♡

"how can you be so sure?" "that's the thing with love. it's comfortable enough to just guess so."

okay. damn. if you ever met your fictional character, platonically or otherwise, you'd never want to let each other go, but i'm guessing you'd have to at some point. you guys would have the on-screen la la land romance. becoming jane is another good one i'm hearing. you guys would just know. maybe three weeks into it, maybe two years, maybe in half an hour. something would click and you guys would know that it could work. that something's there. that's why the quote i channeled seemed so direct, so sure. i'm guessing you were both smart enough to know nothing could from it in the end but you enjoyed each other while you could- or at least tried to. forbidden, star-crossed lovers? right person wrong time? SHEEEEESH i'd probably cry to a scene of you guys if this actually happened. the "NO! i will STAY!" scene from queen charlotte popped in my head. but one of you guys couldn't stay in the end soooooooo lolzies!!!! suckeerrssssss jk i'm so sad rn lmao i feel like how you guys would be in the end after the mist cleared. the soul tie that brought you guys together can be felt but there's this emptiness. it's so peaceful but sad. you both would've probably been better off after leaving each other. you'd be successful, one of you would've had a big family with many kids. a bakery might be significant? GIRL BYE WHY AM I THINKING OF PEETA MELLARK.

you both loved but you couldn't wait.. you both had to go!!!!!!! THIS HYPOTHETICAL FICTIONAL CONNECTION IS LITERALLY MY ROMAN EMPIRE DUDE....!!!! gonna be thinking about this in class tomorrow darn you guys. even if it's platonic it's like you guys could've been so happy by each other's side but you had to settle apart for your own dreams, for the better of something, just to balance a force in the universe. you were meant to be each other's just never together. fated but apart. THIS IS SO CHEESY BUT I'M LOWKEY GONNA CRY ABOUT THIS TONIGHT I CAN LITERALLY FEEL WHAT YOU GUYS WOULD'VE ENDED UP FEELING. i feel like a grandma sitting on my porch looking at the scenery wondering how they would've looked like if they were old. maybe they died but idk i'm getting the sense that you both would've been alive just. nowhereee near each other's vicinity or even in the same social class is what i'm hearing. this made me sad thumbs down

| ✶ seiji's mixtape: “witchcraft" by ben l'oncle soul, "waiting in vain" by bob marley

| ✶ shizuku's notes: "but, in the end, it's even easier to know you have to let go.", 1800s or old-timey settings, bridgerton, star-crossed, ill-fated, third-wheeling mishaps, accidents happen, forever apart even in death, minecraft cake

| pile six ♡

the way i KNEWWW this would be my partner in crime pile. you guys are so SILLY you'd either be shipped together or people would edit one of you out of every photo and replace it with like harry styles or shrek. people either hate or love the idea of you two. reigen arataka is coming through HOT. tax fraud enjoyers i see? you both probably enjoy the silly times and would be written as the comedic relief duo with either very obvious envious or homoerotic undertones. one of you guys are probably secretly manipulating the other or both of you are and it's gonna be revealed in one episode and backfire on the both of you greatly but it'll end up being a funny and well-documented moment on the internet so you reap what you sow i guess ( i have no idea what that quote means ). i'm hearing things i do not want to hear. neither of you understand boundaries or common sense but act like you do so you're literally perfect partners in crime. why do you both have an obsession with something obscure and probably severely unpopular for a good reason.

it's giving two secret furries who like when people pet their imaginary tail. you both disgust me actually. go get a job or something omg. at one point i think you'd end up trying to kill them??? or they'd try to kill you and you'd be like "hey that's,,, mean" and they'd feel bad and revive you. something is wrong with both of you and you guys either understand that and refuse to get help or don't understand that and refuse to see it. probably have seen each other nakey before on accident but passed it off as a casual bro thing because you both are losers who can't do confrontation. does one of you like yogurt? chobani flips maybe? whoever likes them would annoy the heck out of the other because they'd constantly be throwing yogurt cups everywhere and probs is a disgustingly messy eater. maybe plan your plans a bit better with each other before carrying them out bc they suck

| ✶ seiji's mixtape: "driving my love" by anri, "best friend" by laufey + (bonus!) "remember summer days" by anri

| ✶ shizuku's notes: mission: impossible but only because you guys suck at missions, pitbull, reaction memes, personal mixtapes, the losers ( lovers ) club, "what's new/good fartface" - "nothing much poopballs", japanese city pop

Listen. LISTEN. “A life in which you have someone to say goodbye to is a good life. If your farewell to that person is very painful, there is nothing more to say.” The fact that it’s Dazai of all people saying this strikes me. Dazai is someone characterized by the fact that he does not see the value in living life. He does not find anything in the world to be worth living for. He’s tried to commit suicide time and time again because, to him, life simply offers nothing substantial enough to justify the experience of living it.

And yet. By saying those words, he implicitly tells Oda that his life was a good one. Not just passable, not just alright, not just tolerable, but good. His life was a good one because Oda is the person that he has to say goodbye to, because saying goodbye to Oda like this is very painful to him. Even though, in this universe, Oda hates him, even though Oda considers him an enemy, even though Oda says he has no right to call him ‘Odasaku’ - Dazai still says his life was a good one, simply because Oda existed in it.

gamey game

i decided to open a game because alas i am too lazy to post a pick a card since forever sorries it just drains me too much to be dealing w so many people x pisces uranus

rules:

1. as usual please be respectful, OFF anon mode, polite, and i do not need to know your astrology signs 

2. be following me + reblogging my masterlist and this post too 

3. guess a fact about me based on my energy and NOT my blog (no nsfw, can be anything appropriate!) 

4. i will respond to your ask by answering 1 question of your liking per person (no nsfw, uncomfortable stuff will be deleted, no spirit guide questions) 

5. thank yew 

ps: any nice atinys / atinys who run similar blogs as me, slide into my dms we can be friends 

date. april 8th, 2023

time. 8:59pm

—❝𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐃.❞

𝐬𝐲𝐩𝐧𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐬. FUTURESPOUSEPAC . . . a message from them.

𝐚𝐢𝐝. if the images above are too hard to differentiate between your intuition, use ‘pile 1, 2, 3, or 4’ for the choice selection instead. this reading has four piles. pic not included.

𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐫. 18+ content—no minors. please remember, this post is just for shits and giggles. use the best of your discernment, pinch that grain of salt. and although i write under the impression that majority of this content’s viewers are women, i do read for feminine and masculine energies. if needed to, please flip the roles as reversed for an accurate message. hope this reading is useful, but not for plagiarism bitch. enjoy.❦

𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞

🃏 movement retrograde. sweetness retrograde. faith. rest.

𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞

✞—. “i want it whenever i can get it. idc who’s around, i don’t give two shits about who’s looking. you’re the only person i ever want to have and knowing that i can have it? whenever we want? broad day, pitch black at night, at a park, at a concert, in the car it doesn’t matter and it never will. im going to shove my dick so far into you it’s going to come out of your mouth, that’s how carnal i am for you. my soul burns for you, im running off of petroleum gas at this very moment. you’re a diamond in the fucking rough. i mean, the faces you make when you cum are just . . . im so pleased, so blessed to have you as mine. to call you my lover, my one and only—not many have the pleasure of doing so, but i do.”

✞—. “i’d run ass naked up and down the street just to proclaim my feelings for you. you’re divine, you’re special, you make my crotch tight and my cheeks warm. i’d fuck you for hours upon hours, just to hear your moans. the same moans that remind me of the melody to a favorite song, the one i’ll keep on repeat because i never want them to end. keep your eyes open during sex, i want you to watch me have my way with you. to see the things i do to your body, the same things that make your insides twitch. moving back and forth, up and down, all around and through nirvana just to end it all in rehab. you’ll never want me to go, and i never will. i’ll even stay inside for a few minutes after, because i don’t want to leave us either.”

✞—. “i love you, but above that i lust eternally for you. love is nothing for us, but only because it was always a given—i’ll never stop loving you. it’s just during sex, the way i want to give all of my strength and trust into it, that’s something vulnerable for me. something different and new. but i’m willing to share that, without complaint too, because you’re mine. one person made special just for me, it’s natural that i show my appreciation. i want you to feel the way i feel for you, but through my actions more than my words. understand our connection with each act of pleasure i bring upon you, so on and so forth.”

✞—. “i’m always available to make love, to fuck—to tangle the sheets and wring out the perspiration from our bodies. making you cum constantly—endlessly, without losing stamina and without the thought of it having to end. scream for me, cry for me, moan for me—most of all, cum for me. do all those things and more doll, and promise to never stop.”

end.❤️‍🔥

previous reading

𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐰𝐨

🃏 passion retrograde. creativity. abundance. confidence.

𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞

✞—. “give me that pussy. that sweet, tight, warm cunt. i want it all over me—my face, my thigh, hell even my stomach, i don’t mind my love. i’ll be gentle, whether that’s taking it nice and slow or hard and fast—whatever pace you need. don’t ever be afraid to tell me what you desire, or better yet, take control of me because it’s yours. my cock has your name printed on it in red ink, signed by yours truly.”

✞—. “the sight when you’re naked, the swell of your breasts down to the curve of your thighs, it makes my heart clench. even the tips of your feet get me going. never stop riding me, lock your legs around my waist and bounce on me all damn day. cum in my mouth, cum on my clothes, cum on my fucking face—i’ll eat it for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. you’re gorgeous, but even more so outside of the sex. i don’t care what people say, i don’t give a damn about what they think either. it’s you that i want and i want you right here, right fucking now.”

✞—. “strip for me, baby. pull off your shirt as i watch with my thick cock in hand. unclasp your bra, slide the straps from your shoulders, let it tumble to the floor. i’ll gasp at the gentle bounce of your breast, in awe at their beauty, before attacking them with my mouth. you’re my inspiration, the blueprint of the world’s desires. made for us—we all want a part of your essence to bring home for bragging rights. want to see your body shine under the spotlight, showcasing as aphrodite’s favorite, nothing but glitter and gold. on display as heaven’s angel. stand just like that so you’ll never fall.”

✞—. “show the others what they’ll never touch, the parts of you that they’ll only be able to dream of. the same parts that i’ve been trusted enough to feel, to love and appreciate. yes . . . like that baby, don’t stop. show me how much of a blessing it is to have the emulation of a goddess at arms length. how much of an honor it is, keeping the place that’d be gone and up for grabs if you decided to cut me loose. i won’t fuck this up, at least not again. i know what i have, and i’ll always need it in order to survive. you.”

end.❤️‍🔥

previous reading

𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞

🃏 happiness. intuition. magic retrograde. illumination retrograde.

[tw — somnophilia] this is a channeled scenario from your person, but if this theme isn’t comfortable for reading, my best advice is to choose another pile. kisses!

𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞

✞—. “i watch you sleep, you know. it’s hard not to, hearing the soft breaths escape your lips as the shadow of peace drapes upon your face. bathed in the comfort of being home, you’re content at last. sleeping, embracing the idea that nothing could interrupt the state of winding down. nothing at all—except me. fingers tracing along the hem of your underwear, dancing across the design pattern, before pulling the band of them and letting it pop against your skin. it’s kinda funny—more adorable if anything, the flutter of your lashes at the slight sting below your abdomen.”

✞—. “i do this all the time, or at least when it’s essential. when we’re both aware of how much you need it, i’ll tease away the sleepiness until it’s desolate and gone. you’d never guess it was real, the heat from an open mouth as it warms the center of your panties. that same mouth, dampening the fabric before placing sloppy kisses along the seams. you’ll whimper, tossing and rubbing as you’re mindlessly wondering what the hell kind of dream is this? why does it feel extra real, and why are your hands thrashing to grip at the pillows?”

✞—. “mmm, mmhm,” will fall from the lush of your lips, disrupting the quiet of the night with natural reaction. you’re spurring me on, you little minx. encouraging me to keep going, urging me to fuck with your innocence some more. to turn vulnerability into utter rapture. and i will baby, of course i will. you’ll be conscious at this point, blinking more than twice for obvious reasons, seconds before your face turns into disbelief and tempted half lids. feels good, doesn’t it? i know it does, you don’t even need to utter a word—that moan’ll suffice.”

✞—. “teasing becomes eating, eating until we’re impatient for the rest, until you’re frustrated from not being stuffed full with the other parts. oh yeah, baby—you’re definitely awake now. up and at ‘em, waiting for me to finish what’s began, waiting for me to send your precious body to sleep once more.”

end.❤️‍🔥

previous reading

𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐫

🃏 caution retrograde. trust. isolation retrograde. mystery.

𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞

✞—. “our kisses, the taste itself, intoxicate the sobriety of my mind. your mouth, placing the sweetest of sins against mine. i’m left to fend for myself, to stand on trembling legs, stumbling around the reality that is us—proceeding with caution. those lips, diluted in gloss or whatever else that has them shining brighter than a star. drenched in angel dust, sprinkled from the fingers of God himself, urging me to come and get blessed. and blessed i be, for i never want these moments to end.”

✞—. “i can’t stop thinking about those sounds, those kitten mewls that send my brain cells into overdrive. can’t forget the trail of poised hands rubbing and wrapping around my neck to pull me closer. you’re incredible. the sweetest thing since candied apples, just as you’re hell on earth. damn you, damn this feeling. damn the air thickening around us, damn the temperature rising in time with our heartbeats. i feel my chest concave when you go, the same way i feel it inflate when you walk into the room. engulf me with your presence, take me and never let me go—don’t let the others take me from you.”

✞—. “i want to be attached to your hips just as my hands are, how they know where home is when they grab at your waist and pull you in. pushing you against my abdomen to give your own hands some room, to let them run over the hem of my zipper before pulling away. i’d offer to finish the job for you, to fling my shirt and pants to the floor, but that’d ruin the fun wouldn’t it? the fun behind the tease, the persona of being daddy’s girl—spoiled and bratty, naughty not nice.”

✞—. “hard as hell to tame, but that’s the excitement itself. eyes going slender and sultry, bottom lip being bitten, hair tossed to glance over one shoulder—i feel ill, hot flashes and stomach turns, because you’re my kryptonite. tbh, you take all my breath away and funnily enough, i don’t want it back. it’s an eye for an eye, swapping out my oxygen for your full devotion. as long as i’m with you, i’ll never need to breathe again. to have and to hold forever.”

end.❤️‍🔥

previous reading