Personal Post Againnn... (sometimes I Just Can't Let Things Be If I Don't Talk About It Somewhere Publicly.

Personal post againnn... (sometimes I just can't let things be if I don't talk about it somewhere publicly. You don't have to interact or anything, feel free to scroll past)

So, like- almost a year ago I was diagnosed with stpd, but honestly I still think this might have been a misdiagnosis of like- autism or something, because I do not have 5 or more symptoms on that list.

Like- the only symptoms that I do have would probably be social anxiety (not with my friends tho), looking "weird" and maybe talking weirdly???

looking weird (as in, dressing weirdly) might just be caused by me being trans and uncomfortable with clothes that are considered more feminine. I am really unsure about "talking weirdly".

I genuinely answered "no" to all the questions that could have led them to believe I have enough symptoms to diagnose me with this.

It just feels like they spat in my face. My mother suspected autism for awhile, they suspected that too for a bit, but then gave me this???

A lot of it is just describing stuff as "weird", which is really vague... And kinda feeds my insecurities. Like- wow, I'm diagnosed with "weird", whatever that supposed to mean...

And like- people tend to like me. All I have to do is just be friendly. I have close friends. Sure, maybe they are on the internet, but have you considered how bigoted a russian teenager can be?? I am not risking that. (I did tell one of the doctors that I was non-binary, so they did know that, but perhaps just didn't think that would be a factor in making friends? Idk)

Why won't I go to a doctor again to say something about this? It's just not worth the trouble. I don't want anything to do with them.

I feel more or less satisfied now. Hopefully this stops bother me for at least a few days.

Goodnight.

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