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A plushie won once again 😔

I wanted a salamander plush for awhile, and I found this guy today.

Also, I'm going to make a tag for me to talk (mostly just for sharing cool stuff I found. I won't use it often, probably)

I feel like I need to get this off my chest… Also, to preface this: I am still a minor.

When I was 9-11 I used to make problematic drawings… And I did like- 1-3 more about 2 years ago too. I thought it was cool back then… I know it wasn’t.

I was communicating with adults that were aware of my age and that were encouraging this back then. 

It’s been eating at me for some time now, mainly because of the possibility that someone finds something that I made back then and makes a call out post or something like that…I am ashamed of this, and I just- don’t want people to think less of me for it (as in, I've changed since then, not as in "it wasn't bad"). I’m just really desperate to be liked. But if I don’t say it to people I’m interacting with, I’m just feeling like I’m lying, and I don’t really like to lie.

I saw a post that said “you aren’t a horrible person, you’re 15” (I am 16, the post just said 15, I think) recently, and I agree with it, but for everyone that isn’t me specifically.

Sorry, if this post doesn’t make sense.

Hey ,the most important thing is that you have changed, And for the good! Most people don't change and don't realize what mistakes they made. I as a random follower of yours, i understand and am very proud of you ^^🫶. the person you're now is more important than a person you were in the past.

Thank you for this message. My friends say that too, but it's just hard for me to think like that.

When I posted that post, I was expecting to get hate, but I didn't (at least so far)... Thank you.

Unrelated: probably gonna start tagging text responses as "#foxok talks" too

your art is really cool !! giving your sona a nice little treat and your lizards and slugcats thousand pets

Awwww, thank youu!! (sorry for a late answer, remembered about this ask only now)

i like your anthro designs because you still keep them relatively critter shaped... i like that over full anthro

I'm glad you like them!

This might be a bit of a vent, honestly (sorry if it is, feel free to scroll and/or ignore, I just need to write about it somewhere)

This post might kinda sound like an end, but it's not! I'm going to continue posting my art here!

I've been feeling a lot more fearful lately. Like- as I'm getting more followers, the possibility of hate and stuff increases. And I can't really get this out of my head lately.

When I was about like- maaaybe 10 or something (not older than 12 for sure), my art got posted to a vk group/community, that laughs at "cringe art". I was mentioned and they even called me "fox not ok" (I've gona by Fox ok back then).

It wasn't over anything problematic, I think, just vent art and some other drawings. And I was sensitive to criticism before that too... Posting my art on the internet has been a bit more scary since that.

Like- what if people misunderstand something? What if I'm coming off as too weird? Communicating with people is scary.

On a bit more positive note:

But even after that, internet remains my only safe (debatably, but safer than anyone in real life at least) space. I am really thankful to everyone I've been friends with over the years. Even if some ended up hurting me at some points in some ways. People on various sites I used always tended to accept me for who I was (sure, I saw some hate directed towards furries and lgbtq+ members, even some calling to kill them, but nowhere close to how much of it is on tv and real life)

Thank you, my friends, kind strangers on the internet, and people who interact with my art. It means a lot to me. Thank you for every positive comment, every reblog, every compliment in my ask box, every like. It makes my days better.

if that awful things happen here we will bite them to shred for you,no worry alright!

Just plz keep be happy and have fun boing arts,you got it!

Ehh, it wasn't that bad. And I wouldn't really want anyone attacking people that may start stuff like this. I'm just a small artist, not someone worth attacking people for.

But I do understand what you mean- And it means a lot to me, that someone would like my art this much. (still, opinions about art aren't worth it, I think)

(for context, I talked about my art being posted on a "lol, look at these cringe young and beginner artists" type of group in vk (russian social network. I don't think I said it was in vk in the original post, because I forgot), when I was younger, in my last post, so getting more followers is kinda scary, because it may come with some hate)

Thank you for this ask, I will try to keep being happy and make more drawings.

(sorry for a few text posts today)

YOUR ART IS VERY COOL VERY SHAPED 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY

thank youuu!!! I will :3

i doodled your goober :3

Aww. Thank you!!! This is really cute!! :D

Such a little goober.

This was the first thing I saw after waking up and I am really happy right now, thank youu💖

Hey, just thought I'd say, all your art looks amazing and ik getting more and more followers is hard and feels like there us lots of pressure, but just know that your art looks super cool and unique and you deserve lots of kindness. If for some weird reason I cant imagine, someone might make fun of your art, then they are probably really stupid and just being mean for attention. Your art is amazing, everything you draw, I can't imagine what's not to love. Your art is so silly and always makes me smile. Have an amazing day friend!!!!

Thank youuu!!

People who may make fun of my (or anyones) art don't have to be stupid. Sometimes it might be jealousy, sometimes it might be because they see something so frequently that it may become annoying... there are probably other reasons why someone may do this, but I just don't think that calling them stupid would be fair.

(+ how does one even measure intelligence of someone? IQ tests are popular, but they are flawed. What even counts as intelligence? A lot of people say other animals aren't intelligent, but why? We all are just animals at the end of the day, so why does that even matter. We aren't lesser, we aren't greater. Sorry for a bit of a tangent)

(not to dismiss your point, I understand what you mean)

Thank you for your kind words! I think your art is pretty cool too :3

I hope you are having an amazing day too!

noooooooooo, my guy(((((((( Give them backk(((🥺

(their name is Starman and they are a shapeshifter :3 (and also my sona)

Also, was the rat infestation cleared out? I wanted to join them...

WOAH!!!!! TH THE THING!!!!!!!!

thank you mutual for gracing me with this delicious art

i love this lil star guy yuo got… kidnaps it…

I'm fine with that as long as you'll give me treats

WOAH!!!!! TH THE THING!!!!!!!!

thank you mutual for gracing me with this delicious art

i love this lil star guy yuo got… kidnaps it…

mm rubber

I'm staying.

(your art is pretty tooo :3)

WOAH!!!!! TH THE THING!!!!!!!!

thank you mutual for gracing me with this delicious art

i love this lil star guy yuo got… kidnaps it…

Personal post againnn... (sometimes I just can't let things be if I don't talk about it somewhere publicly. You don't have to interact or anything, feel free to scroll past)

So, like- almost a year ago I was diagnosed with stpd, but honestly I still think this might have been a misdiagnosis of like- autism or something, because I do not have 5 or more symptoms on that list.

Like- the only symptoms that I do have would probably be social anxiety (not with my friends tho), looking "weird" and maybe talking weirdly???

looking weird (as in, dressing weirdly) might just be caused by me being trans and uncomfortable with clothes that are considered more feminine. I am really unsure about "talking weirdly".

I genuinely answered "no" to all the questions that could have led them to believe I have enough symptoms to diagnose me with this.

It just feels like they spat in my face. My mother suspected autism for awhile, they suspected that too for a bit, but then gave me this???

A lot of it is just describing stuff as "weird", which is really vague... And kinda feeds my insecurities. Like- wow, I'm diagnosed with "weird", whatever that supposed to mean...

And like- people tend to like me. All I have to do is just be friendly. I have close friends. Sure, maybe they are on the internet, but have you considered how bigoted a russian teenager can be?? I am not risking that. (I did tell one of the doctors that I was non-binary, so they did know that, but perhaps just didn't think that would be a factor in making friends? Idk)

Why won't I go to a doctor again to say something about this? It's just not worth the trouble. I don't want anything to do with them.

I feel more or less satisfied now. Hopefully this stops bother me for at least a few days.

Goodnight.

Meow meow meow meopw meow meow

kittyy...

@x-to-o can we adopt them 🥺 (asking bc I am currently living with you, since you kidnapped/adopted me)

Uhhh... My internet name comes from me liking Foxy from FNAF and This is Bob when I was 7. This is Bob was like- an internet cartoon. The name specifically comes from "Bobsoc" organization, but misspelled.

I have a collection of small trinkets (if it can be called that)... It mostly consists of beads I found cute, some cheap jewelry, because I like how chains feel and sound and some other stuff with either good texture or cute looks.

Can't really think of anything else or who to tag... Whoever wants to, can join.

(screw it what's a fun fact about yourself also @ people I'll go first I'm allergic to myself

@escapetheslaughter

@ugly-astral-taurus

@bees-official

@gremlininthedark

@bloodmoon-da-idiot

@multifandomcutie13 )

suffering

(I worked on it for 5-7 hours already (I draw slowly), I'm going to die before finishing it...)

Because it's nowhere close to being finished and I'm already kinda tired😔

I like how it looks so far and they are happy, but yeah...

What I'm replying to:

suffering

(I worked on it for 5-7 hours already (I draw slowly), I'm going to die before finishing it...)

Ok, so... would you guys be okay with me not filling the entire flag with lizards? By this I mean like- only doing half of each color? So like- all the lizard are at the bottom of each color section? Some lizards might get higher if I'm feeling like it.

Drew a total of 44 lizards today!

Yellow and white sections completed!

Gonna limit myself to 10 lizards per color section, because otherwise it will be too much...