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kittyy...

@x-to-o can we adopt them 🥺 (asking bc I am currently living with you, since you kidnapped/adopted me)

Personal post againnn... (sometimes I just can't let things be if I don't talk about it somewhere publicly. You don't have to interact or anything, feel free to scroll past)

So, like- almost a year ago I was diagnosed with stpd, but honestly I still think this might have been a misdiagnosis of like- autism or something, because I do not have 5 or more symptoms on that list.

Like- the only symptoms that I do have would probably be social anxiety (not with my friends tho), looking "weird" and maybe talking weirdly???

looking weird (as in, dressing weirdly) might just be caused by me being trans and uncomfortable with clothes that are considered more feminine. I am really unsure about "talking weirdly".

I genuinely answered "no" to all the questions that could have led them to believe I have enough symptoms to diagnose me with this.

It just feels like they spat in my face. My mother suspected autism for awhile, they suspected that too for a bit, but then gave me this???

A lot of it is just describing stuff as "weird", which is really vague... And kinda feeds my insecurities. Like- wow, I'm diagnosed with "weird", whatever that supposed to mean...

And like- people tend to like me. All I have to do is just be friendly. I have close friends. Sure, maybe they are on the internet, but have you considered how bigoted a russian teenager can be?? I am not risking that. (I did tell one of the doctors that I was non-binary, so they did know that, but perhaps just didn't think that would be a factor in making friends? Idk)

Why won't I go to a doctor again to say something about this? It's just not worth the trouble. I don't want anything to do with them.

I feel more or less satisfied now. Hopefully this stops bother me for at least a few days.

Goodnight.

This might be a bit of a vent, honestly (sorry if it is, feel free to scroll and/or ignore, I just need to write about it somewhere)

This post might kinda sound like an end, but it's not! I'm going to continue posting my art here!

I've been feeling a lot more fearful lately. Like- as I'm getting more followers, the possibility of hate and stuff increases. And I can't really get this out of my head lately.

When I was about like- maaaybe 10 or something (not older than 12 for sure), my art got posted to a vk group/community, that laughs at "cringe art". I was mentioned and they even called me "fox not ok" (I've gona by Fox ok back then).

It wasn't over anything problematic, I think, just vent art and some other drawings. And I was sensitive to criticism before that too... Posting my art on the internet has been a bit more scary since that.

Like- what if people misunderstand something? What if I'm coming off as too weird? Communicating with people is scary.

On a bit more positive note:

But even after that, internet remains my only safe (debatably, but safer than anyone in real life at least) space. I am really thankful to everyone I've been friends with over the years. Even if some ended up hurting me at some points in some ways. People on various sites I used always tended to accept me for who I was (sure, I saw some hate directed towards furries and lgbtq+ members, even some calling to kill them, but nowhere close to how much of it is on tv and real life)

Thank you, my friends, kind strangers on the internet, and people who interact with my art. It means a lot to me. Thank you for every positive comment, every reblog, every compliment in my ask box, every like. It makes my days better.

if that awful things happen here we will bite them to shred for you,no worry alright!

Just plz keep be happy and have fun boing arts,you got it!

Ehh, it wasn't that bad. And I wouldn't really want anyone attacking people that may start stuff like this. I'm just a small artist, not someone worth attacking people for.

But I do understand what you mean- And it means a lot to me, that someone would like my art this much. (still, opinions about art aren't worth it, I think)

(for context, I talked about my art being posted on a "lol, look at these cringe young and beginner artists" type of group in vk (russian social network. I don't think I said it was in vk in the original post, because I forgot), when I was younger, in my last post, so getting more followers is kinda scary, because it may come with some hate)

Thank you for this ask, I will try to keep being happy and make more drawings.

(sorry for a few text posts today)

suffering

(I worked on it for 5-7 hours already (I draw slowly), I'm going to die before finishing it...)

i like your anthro designs because you still keep them relatively critter shaped... i like that over full anthro

I'm glad you like them!